things don't seem as they appear

Love Is Not Over

Why are you getting farther away? So far that I can’t reach you?

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Member : Min Yoongi/ Suga, appearences from other members as well.

A/N : This will probably be only a two chapter long fic, maybe more, the only thing I can reallypromise is a happy ending xD. Enjoy

Warnings : Hmm … just general angst.

Originally posted by ew-jiminnie


You saw the light in Yoongi’s eyes fade to darkness and his smile break into, what seemed to be, an eternal frown, if not a pained one. His dream of one day becoming a father was shattered, by you. Listening to Jin’s words after having tried a thousand times, only to find out that it was all in vain broke any leftover hope in your married life. Sure, you loved each other but this was still a harsh mountain to overcome.

You felt sorry, sorry to be taking that away from him. And, more than anything, worthless for not being able to give him what he raved about for so long, created fantasies, and now broken dreams.

When you squeezed the hand that had been idly and loosely resting over yours the whole time, Yoongi got up and left. You wordlessly let him go, having no right in trying to keep on holding onto him. It’s not like this was the most beautiful moment of your lives.

“ You need to give him time ” Jin sighed, “ You need to give yourself time as well ”. But, you knew that time will not heal this, nothing will, so you just nodded. Normally, you thought you would scream or uncontrollably sob, cry, or protest to the unfairness of your fate but you just didn’t feel any anger. Maybe this is what they called shock, because everything inside you went numb. Somehow, it felt like you always knew, deep down, that something was wrong after having gotten the negative feedback every time. Perhaps that’s why you didn’t react like it was ’ expected ’.

“ It’s hard to accept something like this and … Y/N ? Are you listening ?” You looked up from your empty hands turning your attention to the sad expression he was giving you. Jin started speaking again when sure you were following him but your mind was slowly drifting away from his words to thinking about anything else to distract you. So, you started thinking about Jin’s life, which only made it worse.

You remembered clearly when he gave up being an idol in order to become a doctor. How his life was so messy and chaotic. He almost gave up numerous times but was pushed forwards by his now-wife into carrying on. Now, looking at him in his long white doctor gown, his life seems so steady and stable. Pictures of him and his one son decorating the desk and office he worked in, happy pictures, happy examples Yoongi would give you in one of your late night chats while you lazily laid in bed sleepless. Jin was happy.

What have you ever given Yoongi ? You won’t even be able to give him that simple happiness.

“ Jin ” You smiled “ Will it be cold of me to say that I don’t feel anything about it ?”

He paused, peering at you with the same expression just a lot more worried, he knew that it wasn’t true. He knew that once the shock was gone and your mind grasps the realization, it will hurt.

“ Just don’t make me worried about you ” He frowned standing up and walking to your seat “ Please, and talk with Yoongi. It was just the surprise, you know how he is ”

Jin wrapped you in one of his comforting long hugs when you stood up as well. You were about to lose your mask and breakdown right then if he hadn’t let you go when he did. You were thankful that he did and that you didn’t show that weak side to someone who would be able to tell Yoongi, and then you left too.

You didn’t really expect Yoongi to be waiting for you once you walked out and, indeed, he wasn’t.

He needs time alone You repeated Jin’s words in your brain throughout the whole day, and the next few days. He only came home to change clothes and shower which was normal for him to do while working on something. But, this time, you knew that he wasn’t, you were just avoiding each other like a game, like the plague. You would check up on him, once every few hours, by sending a text to the only person who was with him 24/7, who was Namjoon but after realizing you were both burdening him and worrying him, you stopped. And started drowning in your own sea of depression and grief over something you would never have.

~~

“ Yoongi ” Your eyes widened when you opened the door of your bedroom to him trying to do the same. His name left your mouth weakly, realizing you haven’t said it in what felt like forever. You both froze just staring at each other until he cleared his throat snapping you out of it.

“ Sorry, I’ll get out of your way ” You nervously stepped away, forgetting why you went out in the first place. With a tight grip on your arm, he stopped you in attempt to turn you back to him. You struggled against his grab, your reddened eyes filling up with tears again.

“ Yoongi … Let me go ” You tried to jerk your arm away but he was as still as a stone. Yoongi was still finding the words he went over so many time in his head, suddenly disappearing when you stood broken in front of him. He fucked up, he knew he did, he reacted wrongly when you were the most hurt there. Then he made it even worse by not apologizing after all those days passed, his guilt  driving him into avoiding you. He knew that all too well and he cursed himself for being such a coward. He could tell from the redness in your eyes and the puffiness around them that you’ve been crying for probably the whole time and he would be lying if he said he wasn’t too.

“ I’m sorry, Y/N, I really am ” He breathed out almost inaudibly. “ You can hit me if you want, curse at me, and even kick me out if you want because I deserve it. Just, please, look at me ” Turning you to face him, his own eyes glistering with unshed tears not even trying to hide them anymore.

“ I’m the one who should be sorry, not you ” After looking at him for a split second, shame crept up into your system again making you lower your gaze from his. “ I’m useless” Your voice cracked with the tears starting to stream hotly down your cheeks then meeting on the outline of your jaw before you collapsed to the floor, your crying only getting louder no matter how hard you tried to suppress it.

“ Don’t ever say that !” Yoongi yelled out in all the force he had left after the long day spent in pointless writing and dreadful pity. “ You’re not ” He sunk down to his knees behind you, pulling you to him.

“ I didn’t marry you for kids, I didn’t fall for you because of that ” He caressed down your arms until locking his fingers with yours yours “ I married you because I love you ”

“ But, you wanted it so much and I can’t-” He wrapped his arms around you, your hands still connected.

“ It’s true that I did but I want you more than that. And we’ll find a way around this ” Yoongi kissed the side of your neck and you could feel the dampness of his tears sink into your skin “ We always do”.

You didn’t know for how long you cried on the floor curled up against him or when you fell asleep in his embrace. However, you woke up the next morning in your bed and he wasn’t there. It felt like a dream, Like it was all just a dream.

As always, thank you for reading and feedback is always appreciated.

(Totally inspired by a sentence in this lovely thing by @michaeljnes)
Consider a fahc Gavin who is still super into cameras, still seems to see and process life in frames and shots and perfect timing like RL Gavin appears to. A Gavin who gets so fed up with the shitty images run by the Los Santos media after every incident, shaky, unfocused monstrosities taken by the terrified public, that he starts submitting his own. 

Gorgeous award-worthy photos -  Michael and his mini gun backlit by an explosion, Ryan riding the roof of an armoured truck, Jack surrounded by free falling cash and laughing as she pulls her chute. 

It doesn’t take long before the public works out where the anonymous source must be coming from (how did they get so close without getting- oh shit), and the crew gives him a hard time but really anything to stop the endless whining about overexposure and motion blur is a godsend.. 

ok so it might seem like just a little thing that i mistook the German team doctor for the physio on that one post but I feel like I ought to apologise for it because of her gender I automatically assumed she would be the physio and that was a stupid and ableist thing to do… next time I’ll do a better research

I'm actually....

Glad *some* people like my criticisms for Tangled Before Ever After. 😭 I know what I saw. It’s one of those things where you really like parts of it while other parts really nail the main character’s emotions believably, but what’s happening around her seems off, especially how disconnected from her the main support systems appear to be when you know that actually wouldn’t be the case (not to that extent). And it’s really hard to overlook when those small, impressionable details are what push the bigger plot into gear in the first place. Like, in a forced way that sacrifices some Tangled canon common sense. But the hair coming back already seemed forced from jump, so…😅 😶

Originally posted by lifetimetv

See this? It is the WCL Pokedex, which we created to stay current try to catalogue all the Pokemon caught inside the Central Library. Librarians like to catalogue things! And also it would be cool to see if there are any rare ones that appear here. So if you’re here and you catch something please add it to the pokedex using the pencil attached to a length of old string (it’s not a real pokedex; it is actually cardboard)

(So far it seems that Meowth pops up once a day maybe, but who knows)

+ edna welthorpe