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good evening ( or morning or afternoon depending on where you are ) my precious chickadees! i have some things i need to discuss with you. my life has become insanely busy, and today i was stressing about it a lot. something that relieves my stress is this blog, and talking to all of you makes me happy, and obviously shawn makes me happy too. but, like i said, my life is so crazy lately, and it’s hard for me to find time to write. don’t you worry tho, this isn’t where you think it’s going. i will never stop writing, but lately i feel like my imagines aren’t as good as they could be. i want everything i post to be perfect for you guys and i feel like i’ve just been disappointing you all.

i apologize for that. that being said, i wanted to let you know that i will be changing things up a little. i want to make my imagines better, so i’m going to change the way i write a little and i’m just going to change the way i do things in general. that also means i will make a new masterlist with all my future imagines that i have planned to post. but, unfortunately, the process of changing this blog into the blog i want it to be, that means that i’m going to need time to do that. so, i won’t be posting imagines as often as i usually do. i have some in my drafts that i might post, but i want you all to understand that i’m very busy, and writing is something i love to do but it’s hard sometimes. please be patient with me. i’m so excited though for you guys to see what i have planned for the future. so, this week, i will most likely not be posting any full imagines. i may find time to do those cute little blurb things where you guys can send in a short prompt or something and i’ll write a quick little fluffy blurb or whatever.

okayyy. anyway. i love you all and i can’t thank you enough for the amount of love you’ve shown me. thank you for liking me and for complimenting my writing. i seriously feel so inadequate right now, and i’m so sorry for not posting as much as i could be, and i’m sorry my writing is sloppy lately. anyway. again, thank you and i love you

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.
Move on, leave, run away, escape this place… but don’t forget about me, about us, about this town. Always remember where you come from so you can appreciate how far you’ve come.
—  c.j.n.