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tbh whenever i wanna cosplay as a character i always think im either not white enough or not japanese enough so whenever i see a half Japanese character i get so psyched
basically tadashi and hiro tbh

but thats kinda exhausting i mean i cant ever just not be mixed and i mean jesus christ i just wanna dress up as a group of pixels on a screen who technically have no race because theyre literally pixels on a screen or an abstract thing in a book created by word descriptions like they dont even exist

jesus this rant just went off track by a lot

i used to think that maybe if i just died id be not mixed but i mean that sucked i dont want to go back to that like i just kinda told myself i’m stuck like this forever and just shut up about it eventually

and it didnt help that a ton of weeaboos just kept going oH MY GOD YOURE JAPANESE AHHH and then stop talking to me when they find out im mixed or they just ignore it completely or they start pretending theyre half japanese too (trust me pretending) or just go oh man i wish i was japanese
that isnt helping
go to your room, burn all your anime pillows with half naked 11 year olds on them (ew?), delete all that hentai, actually burn your computer jesus christ, and just go outside or something

and whats worse is that they expect me to be this uber kawaii anime girl who is completely useless and i mean eww
i mean im not “kawaii”(i mean jesus christ im so tired of people who just say kawaii like say cute for god sakes it means the same thing nobody cares about how ~*amazingly cultured you are in the japanese culture omg so kakoiii*~ and by the way “thats so kawaii desu” means “THATS SO ITS SO CUTE” JESUS CHRIST
“desu” means like “it is” like (im gonna make this easy for weeaboos to understand so i’ll type it in romaji because im pretty sure the only japanese weeaboos can even partially recognize it 愛) if i point at a cat and say “neko desu” that means
you know what thats hardly even a sentence it would be “kore wa neko desu” which means “this is a cat” BUT LIKE YOU DONT HAVE TO POINT THAT OUT
WEEABOOS ONLY SAY BASIC STUFF LIKE THAT BECAUSE THEY ONLY KNOW NEKO AND KAWAII AND DESU
ugh

im just on a huge rant sorry guys

AND ALSO just because i dont know every single thing about japan doesnt make me any less japanese like do you know how shitty that is like being biracial is hard enough i dont need people making me feel not qualified
like do YOU know everything about america “no” youre probably saying
well youre probably not DEDICATED enough to tHIS CHUNK OF LAND that your PEOPLE came from so youre prOBABLY not AMERICAN

plus i dont live in japan and my mom didnt lecture me on everything about japan’s history i just know what my family have told me which is just what honestly any normal “japanese family” would
did your parents tell you everything about american history when you were three? no?! REALLY?! THEN YOURE PROBABLY NOT AMERICAN

and i swear not all japanese people have to dress like some jpop star only like 1/1000 people dress in harajuku and if i want to wear track pants and a hoodie tHEN I WILL WEAR THAT it doesnt make me any less japanese then i already am
and i dont have to wear colored huge poppy contacts either just to make “my tiny asian eyes look uber kawaiii”

alright hold on
if you know an east asian person who does this that doesnt make them a bad person just because i dont do trends over there that americans know about doesnt mean they cant its their choice and honestly good for them for wearing what they want

and there’s the other kind of racists that think im chinese even when i tell them no or that i dont look asian enough (DONT TELL ME I DONT LOOK ASIAN ENOUGH I SWEAR TO GOD LIKE THATS SO RUDE i mean tbh the only thing i got from my dad is my boxer nose) or that i have to be smart

actually i swear i have straight a’s and i dont get in trouble and im polite and i work hard for that and people say its because im asian like no im like this because i actually care about my education :/ or that of course i play piano or of course i play violin or of course i play flute

AND ALSO I DONT KNOW MARTIAL ARTS I TOOK TANG SU DO WHEN I WAS LITTLE BUT ALL I REMEMBER IS ROUND HOUSE KICK GIVE IT A REST

And ive had people (groups of people) just STOP and watch me like “wtf” and im not even wearing anything to stand out like a t shirt and jeans whooaa so poppy
i mean thats really rude and they do it all at once and they just glare at me like wHAT AM I DOING TO OFFEND YOU IM JUST WALKING

AND
I
DO
NOT
EAT
DOLPHIN
HOTDOGS
OR
PENGUIN
BURGERS

AND I DONT HAVE A STATUE OF BUDDHA IN MY ROOM OR BONSAI (i have a bamboo bonsai actually bUT ITS NOT THE SAME I JUST BOUGHT IT BECAUSE THE BAMBOO LOOKED SAD)

wow this was a huge rant sorry guys