If I’m right, AND I DON’T REALLY WANT TO BE RIGHT, their final
moment together doesn’t even get to be a private one, but one only fringing on
the true affection between them. But the FLOATY BUBBLES SAY IT ALL, OK.
YOU CAN MEASURE FEELINGS IN FLOATY BUBBLES ALONE, AND LOOK
HOW MANY THERE ARE.
The third panel is the most striking of them all, because
I’m so sure that it’s their final touch. It’s an unusual angle with an unusual
focus, and I think it’s emphasising that the end of this last gesture between
them is their final goodbye. As he drops her hair for the last time, they will
never see each other again. I just don’t know which one of them it is that’s
about to die.
Hopefully not both but
YOU KNOW HOW CLAMP IS. YOU JUST NEVER KNOW.
And then Kuropapa’s off to face his fate.
AND BLESS KUROGANE’S LITTLE HEART, HE WANTS TO GO TOO.
BECAUSE HE FEELS ALL THE SAME FINALITY THAT HIS PARENTS DO BUT FROM WITHIN HIS EXTRA
SPHERE OF POWERLESSNESS THAT SCARES AND FRUSTRATES HIM BEYOND WHAT HE KNOWS WHAT TO DO WITH.
SO HE WANTS TO HELP. HE WANTS TO DO ALL HE CAN TO TRY AND
STOP ANYTHING BAD FROM HAPPENING.
BUT THERE IS NO WAY HE WILL BE ENOUGH.
No-one would ever be enough.
It kills me how even in this, Kuropapa does it in the nicest way possible.
He recognises the feelings Kurogane is having and affirms them. He acknowledges that Kurogane IS, in fact, strong, instead of taking the other possible route and insisting that he’s not strong enough. Because here, too, he knows that this might just be the last moment he gets, and he uses it as a moment of love and encouragement
AND THAT LITTLE HEAD TOUCH. GET OUT OF HERE.
There is no way this is anything but the last thing Kuropapa
ever gets to say to him. There is NO WAY.
LOOK AT THE ART OK. THE NINJAS ARE ALL FADING AS THEY TURN AWAY AND
WALK INTO THE DISTANCE.
THIS IS IT. THEY’RE ALL GONNA DIE.
It’s so clear just how much these final words chained
themselves around Kurogane’s heart and never left him. Even during his darkest days in the future, his obsession with strength always stemmed from this, and it’s so easy to guess
that his bitterness and focus on revenge could have stemmed from an inverted
version of this final statement that Kuropapa gives him.
Kurogane, at his worst, sought strength to
make up for the family he didn’t couldn’t save in this moment.
Kurogane, as he grows to a
better and healthier version of himself, realises that he has more family to
protect, and also that he himself might
also be worth protecting.
But even just here, in this one moment, Kurogane’s father’s
words work on so many levels. Kuropapa does what he does to protect Kurogane,
his wife, and the entire clan – even when the odds are very heavily implying that he won’t be enough. Kuromama
too does what she does to protect them all. Her health is failing her, steadily
slipping away, and yet she insisted on the final blessing to save her husband,
because her strength too is all focussed around saving the ones she loves – her
husband AND her entire clan, and everyone else in the country that relies on
And that’s what will hit Kurogane so hard later. Not only
because losing his family in a horrible and violent manner is one of the worst
things that could ever happen, but also because in his eyes he failed in the same basic tenant that holds his family together. He
wants to go with his father to help protect Suwa, but he can’t. He’s meant to
stay behind and help protect his mother, but he doesn’t manage that either. His
strength, while recognised fondly by his father, is not enough – was never
going to be enough. And that’s exactly what sends him into such horrifying
spiral of murder and revenge and a desperate clawing need to reclaim some
sense that he could have made a difference.
AND JESUS CHRIST WHAT IS SYAORAN GOING TO DO WITH THIS
INFORMATION. HE’S ALREADY READY TO THROW HIMSELF UNDER A BUS TO RESCUE EVEN A
SLIVER OF SAKURA’S SOUL. WE DON’T NEED TO ENCOURAGE THESE TENDENCIES WITHIN HIM
ANY FURTHER THAN THEY ALREADY EXIST.
But actually, now that I think about it, that might be all
the difference. Kurogane’sarc in the
manga overall (so far) is slowly healing and allowing himself to recover. I have a lot of confidence that he’ll
pull it off, because he’s come a long way already, and he’ll be all the
stronger to protect his new family.
I just hope that it’s the new Kurogane that has the biggest
influence on Syaoran and not the old one. Because Syaoran needs to allow
himself to heal as well, and I’m convinced that he doesn’t even know it yet.
I take my animals to primary school classes (or other groups of children aged 7-14) occasionally, for educational purposes. Last week I took Bowie and Dorito to teach a class about tenrecs. It was a lot of fun and one of the kids gave us this cute drawing of a common tenrec in its native environment.
I keep seeing a post going around about how it’s weird that people fear spiders and not crabs so I wanna make it explicitly clear that I’m v scared of crabs and will cry if they come near me so checkmate I guess
Old Drawing of Tot/Ken/Twix and Teeny Tiny Underswap Sans
Ayyyyeeee the other posts got the likes I requested (thank you single person you liked my other two posts) so I rummaged through some of my super old art to bring up this masterpiece! (that’s not at all a masterpiece but hush I can dream)
Sure now the proportions and form bother me along with the shading to some degree but for something I made a year ago with a mousepad it’s alright! Sure anyway seeing this is sure to enjoy it!