in this exact day, one year ago, my best friend Sofia died for the complications of a transplant to “save her life and prevent her cancer to come back again”. I know, the cruel irony. I miss her like I lost a limb. I miss her so much it’s suffocating. I miss her so much I feel empty inside, and I know that void is her place inside me, like a hole in a puzzle that cannot be filled by any other piece but that one. And the cherry on top of this cruel bitch that life is was: I never
really told her exactly what she meant to me.
So I want to tell younow to cherish the people you have in your life. Tell them what you feel. In the moment you feel you want to tell them you love them, in the moment those words are on the tip of your tongue, but you are to stubborn or embarassed to say it. Fuck. That. Shit. Tell them. Fight that stubbornness, because it’s stupid, it’s all in you mind and also because they deserve to know. Will you feel embarassed? Yes. But believe me that’s nothing compared to the burden of missed words. If somebody makes you feel happy when you are with them, they deserve to know.
Tell them you love them, tell them how they make you feel. Tell them not just once, twice, three times, twenty, fifty times. Who cares. Don’t hold back. Every moment will never come back again, every moment is precious. Life is the present.
Headcanon: Alex and Lena actually manage to break the friendship ice.
Alex visits L-Corp every month. She was getting tired of asking Lena the same questions every month since Lillian vanished after the Daxamite invasion. She was even more tired of nodding to the same answers over and over. No she hadn’t heard from her mother. No she did not know where she was. Same thing every month. But J’onn wanted her to be diligent, Lillian was bound to reach out to her daughter again eventually and when she did he wanted to know about it.
She didn’t hate it though. They had actually started to become closer. As close as one could get to their little sister’s best friend. Alex shook her head thinking of James and Winn. So maybe that wasn’t true, Alex had become close with her sister’s friends. But somehow her and Lena’s friendship had remained…. professional. The most familiar thing between them that had happened was when Alex had brought Lena a coffee at their last meeting.
Alex had made it all the way to the top floor of L-Corp before someone bothered to tell her Lena wasn’t in her office. Jess looking very confused when she told Alex that she had cancelled all Lena’s appointments for the day. She had left a message on her voicemail… Alex just nodded, that explained the phone call she had ignored earlier. Jess seemed to take pity on her though, telling her if she still wanted to see Lena, she was in the lab in the basement.
The basement. Of course. Alex stepped inside the elevator a second time and hit the button closest to the bottom. If she hadn’t picked up that second coffee again today she probably would have just headed back to the DEO and rescheduled. But here she was standing under the bright lights of the most decked out lab she had laid her eyes on.
“Agent Danvers. I thought Jess cancelled our interview for today.”
“She did. But not before I had bought you coffee.” Alex held it out as she walked further into the lab staring at everything like a child at Christmas.
“Is that the oscillator from the venture?”
“After the last one exploded, at no fault of my labs.” Lena reminded, “we decided to rebuild.”
“The venture was going to change space exploration.” Alex nodded, she remembered the days she and Kara had ranted about how disappointing the launch failure had been. “You’re missing some math here.”
“Please.” Alex took the offered marker as she wrote on the glass board in front of her nodding as she capped it again.
Lena raised an eyebrow as she watched Alex write the formula she had been about to work through when she had been interrupted, “Remind me Agent Danvers, what is it you do for the FBI again?”
Alex just laughed as she walked around the lab drooling over equipment.
“I’ve been begging J’onn for new equipment. But you know, government funds.” Alex sighed as she ran a finger over stainless steel.
“Well, you’re welcome to come play in my lab anytime you want.”
Just like that Lena was handing over her tablet as she told Alex about the breakthrough she had that morning that prompted her to cancel a day’s worth of meetings. The two of them laughing when they said something in unison. Kara had showed up later food in hand when Alex had called her saying she was working on something with Lena and didn’t want to leave yet. Beaming as she watched the ice finally break between the two women.
2. Are you outgoing or shy? Mix of both. Depends on the person or people I’m around 4. Are you easy to get along with? Yes very much so 6. What kind of people are you attracted to? kind hearted people 8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind? My best friend Katie 10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? @vengefulpinata 12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now? Ignorance, all I wanted, circus, dirty love, boots 14. Do you believe in luck and miracles? Nope 16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? HELL YEAH 18. Do you still talk to your first crush? NOPE 20. Do you like your neighbors? Idk them 22. Where would you like to travel? Australia 24. Favorite part of your daily routine? Eating 26. What do you do when you wake up? I go pee 28. Who are you most comfortable around? katie or collin 30. Do you ever want to get married? yes 32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with? Chris Pratt and Liam Hemsworth 34. Do you play sports? What sports? used to play baseball, football, run track 36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them? yup 38. Describe your dream girl/guy? @vengefulpinata 40. What do you want to do after high school? I’m in college 42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean? means I’m pissed the fuck off 44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean? outer space 46. What are you paranoid about? ruining things 48. Have you ever been drunk? yes 50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?
Black 52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself? wish I could lose weight easier 54. Favourite store? hot topic 56. Favourite colour? black 58. Last thing you ate? pizza 60. Ever won a competition? For what? nope 62. Been arrested? For what? nope 64. Tell us the story of your first kiss? with a girl, she bit my tongue 66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends? I love all my friends 68. Twitter or Tumblr? tumblr 70. Names of your bestfriends? Katie, Collin, Rachel, Patrick, Mike 72. What colour are your towels? Black and gray 72. How many pillows do you sleep with? Three 74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have? Two 76. What colour is your underwear? I’m commando 78. Favourite ice cream flavour? mint chip 80. What colour pants? blavk 82. Favourite movie? The Immortals 84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street? Mean Girls 86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo? Dorey 88. Last person you talked to today? My mom 90. Name a person you love? my grandma 92. In a fight with someone? nah 94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have? 5 96. Favourite actress? Jennifer Anniston 98. Do you tan a lot? I need to start tanning 100. How are you feeling? I’m sleepy 102. Do you regret anything from your past? a lot 104. Do you miss anyone from your past? no 106. Ever broken someone’s heart? no I’m the one that got broke 108. What should you be doing? studying 110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt? yes 112. Who was the last person you cried in front of? me 114. Have you ever been out of your province/state? yes 116. Are you listening to music right now? nope 118. Do you like Chinese food? love it 120. Are you afraid of the dark? I love he dark 122. Is cheating ever okay? no 124. Do you believe in love at first sight? no 126. Are you currently bored? yes 128. Would you change your name? noppe 130. Do you like subway? yes 132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? @vengefulpinata 134. Can you count to one million? yeah but I don’t want to 136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed? closed, tf 138. Curly or Straight hair? don’t care 140. Summer or Winter? summer 142. Favourite month? July cause my birth 144. Dark, milk or white chocolate? DARK 146. Was today a good day? Wasn’t bad 148. What’s your favourite quote? love is a poison. A sweet poison, yes, but it kills you all the same 150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line
No books here.
If you’re having a LA SS and it’s in a weekend day I’m completely available, I would give anything to talk to you again I have so much to talk to you about, I’ve been struggling sm with my mental health it’s insane. You’re my best friend and I just want to be held by you and when we met in loft I barely hugged you cuz I was covered in red body paint I didn’t wanna ruin your outfit ;(
I work. Mon-Friday job and I just started SO HIT YA GURL UP IF ITS A WEEKEND SS ILL LITERALLY BE SO THANKFULL ID SOB FOR SO LONG AND ILL HOP ON THE NEXT PLANE OUT and take my mom @varelarachel with me because she was suppose to see and meet you at Seattle 1989 but she was to sick from chemo and Andrea said “ don’t worry, it will happen for her”
im SO excited that j*ke is coming over soon like why r we so in luv with each other so fast…..i said maybe i thought we could rule the world 2gether last night and he said ya he thought so too. and that regardless of whatever happens he wants me 2 be his best friend and he doesnt want anybody 2 hurt me ever again aw😰❤ but at the same how could we just b friends cuz all he ever wants to do for hours n hours is hold and kiss me he wont let me go!
What’s your greatest fear?
Losing my mom. She had a hemorrhagic stroke 4 years ago out of nowhere and she had to learn to walk, talk, and eat again. She spent about a month in the neurological ICU and no one could tell us if she would make it through. Luckily, she did, and with minimal issues. I wouldn’t wish that kind of heartbreak on anyone. My mom is my best friend and I can’t imagine losing her.
Describe your ideal world.
I hit the lottery. I buy a gigantic house. I fill the house with dogs. Evan Peters knocks on my door bc he wants to compliment my dogs. We kiss. We have the sex. We get married. He buys me more dogs.
Basically a world filled with dogs and Evan Peters
OHMYGOD MY BABY SHE WAS HOLDING ME SO TIGHTLY I’M CURRENTLY CRYING MY EYES OUT THIS IS UNREAL SHE SAID THAT I WAS BEAUTOFUL AND SHE CALLED ME BUDDY AND SHE HUGGED ME SO TIGHTLY I WANTED TO TELL YOU SO MANY THINGS TAY BUT I DONT KNOW I FORGOT EVERYTHING YOU’RE MY BEST FRIEND AND I LOVE YOU AND I WANTED TO HUG YOU ALL OVER AGAIN AND YOU ARE THE SISTER I’VE NEVER HAD AND I LOVE YOU SO MUCH THAT WORDS CANT DESCRIBE I WILL SEEYOU ON TOUR BABE
Genre: Angst/fluff/(future)smut || dance captain!hoseok, bad boy!au, uni!au
Pairing: Reader x Hoseok
Summary: Jung Hoseok was once the sweetheart of the school, the dance captain whom every girl, including you, can’t help but fall head over heels for. But like the force of the ever-glowing sun, everything that rises must also set. A year of inactivity later and he’s now the school’s resident bad boy. You’re a firm believer of allowing the past be the past, and yet you can’t help but wonder where the risen sun has gone into hiding—because perhaps its shadows have out-shined its own radiance.
The first time you read The Thief:
A penniless thief is let out of prison in order to be forced on a road trip and he really just wants to go home.
The second time you read The Thief:
In the most ingenious move of political intrigue of the millennium, a penniless thief is let out of prison in order to be forced on a road trip and he really just wants to go home.
So studying anatomy is nothing like any other topic, especially when you study it at uni level, where they expect you to know every single small component of the body! So this guide is going to be concerning the musculoskeletal system and the nerves (PNS) and arteries in the body.
I have mentioned some of these tips before but I will put them in here aswell and so this can work as sort of masterpost. This is like a more “overall” type of masterpost. So if you want to have topic specific posts for example for nerves and arteries then let me know.
1. Find a study partner. First and foremost anatomy is so much easier when you are two dealing with it. Me and my study partner used to do anatomy spots together and by doing it two people together you can discuss what it could possibly be. You get to hear their train of thoughts which sometimes can be better than yours. Also you will have someone to quiz you and correct you when you say something wrong.
2. Accept that it takes time. First step to learning anatomy is dedicating a lot of time. It is not easy, you are cramming so much information into your mind and for it to stay there you will have to go over the same topic again and again and again. And I know it is really frustrating and you are going to spent maybe 10 hours trying to figure out the muscles of the leg and then next week when you review it again it will feel like a whole new topic, but this is all a part of the proces, just keep revising again and again and again.
3. The Atlas is your best friend. Invest in a good atlas, they are a little expensive but they work wonders because first of all they give you an image of what you study. And usually the text book images are not enough. In an atlas you will have “isolated” images but you will also have images where relations are shown. HOWEVER if you dont want to buy an actual atlas then maybe buy Complete anatomy which is a computer program that I also reffered to in my “5 sites every med student should know about” post. Here you can play around with the structures, view it from different angles and add on to it with other nearby structures or remove structures.
4. Say it out loud. Pretty self explanatory.
5. Create an overview. Rather than focusing on the details try to focus on creating an overview. Anatomy is already so difficult so dont complicate things for yourself. And if you know the basics then learning the details will be so much easier.
6. Use a whiteboard. Speaking of creating an overview, try using a white board for this. It is such a good way for creating an overview. I think because deleting and writing is so easy it kinda makes it less stressful than writing in a note book where ofcourse you worry about the aesthetic. Also try to do this with your study partner. You can plan on studying a topic together so lets say for example the muscles of the leg, you both at home study it, try to memorize it, look at it in an atlas and then you two meet. Now when you meet you get infront of a white board and start talking and writing about what you guys think is important and when you guys cant go any further then grab your notes and then add more on to the board.
7. MAKE IT VISUAL!. This is the most important step! Use bones, pay attention in your dissection classes, if you have the upportunity to touch, feel and look at structures then DO IT! This is the best way to learn. Spot as often as you can.
8. Make up rules. you can find a lot of them online, or just make some up yourself, me and my study partner did, for example the muscles
M. erector spinae: I (m. iliocostalis) Like (m. longissimus) Standing (m. spinalis). If you turn it into a “game” then remembering it will be much easier.
And most importantly dont stress your mind that much. Allow yourself to take breaks, because over feeding your mind with knowledge in a short period of time can also be very damaging since you will waste time and not remember most of what you studied.
Summary: Bucky claims you can’t flirt for shit, you prove him wrong
Word Count: 2164
Warnings: pure fluff
Author’s Note: this is one of the first fluff i’ve written, i hope you enjoy (re)reading it :)
Sometimes you never really understood James Buchanan Barnes.
What is going on inside that pretty little head of his? What keeps
him up all night sometimes. He’s assured you that it’s not the nightmares
anymore. Those are the things he left in the past, along with all the terrible
memories. But let’s not get drifted off to the apprehensive shit here. You have
much important things to concentrate on.
Bucky Barnes is much happier now. He jokes around, flirts with girls
at clubs or parties or any other place. He loves the cinema, especially the TV
shows - so much that he binge watches them whenever Bucky and you are hanging out
at your apartment.
He’s catching up on the new technology, too. You and Steve bought
him a new phone for his birthday this year and boy, he cannot stop clicking
pictures on it. And you know snooping is wrong, but most of the pictures on his
camera roll are of Steve, the New York City skyline and you. You were surprised at
first, but this man practically spends every free second of his time with you,
so that was enough of an answer. Plus, you’d be lying to yourself and the rest
the world if you’d say that your phone gallery isn’t stacked with pictures of
You are blissfully, painfully unaware of the repercussions when Jenna drunkenly beckons you over to her corner in Jake’s kitchen.
“Jeremy, I have something to tell you,” she slurs, giggling. The party’s loud and crowded around them, so you lean in to hear her clearly. “So don’t freak out.” Before you can even respond, she blurts, “Michael’s in love with you.”
“What?” You blink, processing that statement. “Michael Mell? My best friend Michael?”
“Duh,” she says.
Nothing about that information makes sense. “I think you’ve got this all wrong,” you start, but Jenna cuts you off by shoving her phone in your face. You can see the most recent string of texts from Michael, and they’re all about you. They’re about how he’s charmed by your smile, how he’s worried that you don’t sleep enough, how he’s thinking about finally asking you out after all.
“Seriously,” Jenna says, shaking her head at the look on your face. “How could you not know? He’s so obvious.”
You can’t help but ask, “Who else knows?”
“Everybody,” Jenna says, and your heart sinks. “You didn’t think it was weird that every time you came to sit with us, somebody’d move so you could sit next to him?”
You didn’t, but now that she’s pointed it out, you recognize the pattern. Now that you’re thinking about it, there’s been increasingly frequent occurrences of Michael sitting beside you while everybody else in your friend group shares sly smiles or significant looks. There’s always been Michael, smiling warmly, welcoming your complaints about homework, his hands inches from yours.
“You guys will be cute together,” Jenna says, and she’s too drunk too care when you leave to have a panic attack in the bathroom.
Jenna doesn’t remember your conversation the next day. You wish you didn’t.
This is how it goes: you don’t know how to keep the things you love.
And you love Michael, you do, but not the way he apparently loves you. He wants to ask you out, to take you out on dates, to kiss you, to do so many things that you have never considered doing with him.
You consider it now. You consider it for days. You love spending time with Michael already. You think you could hold hands with him. Maybe you could kiss him, too. Could you do more than that?
Sitting beside Michael in the cafeteria, laughing at his jokes, watching the twinkle in his eyes grow brighter at your laughter, you know all your considerations are for moot. You know you can’t say yes, if he asks.
But you don’t want to say no.
You don’t want to hurt him like that. You don’t love Michael the way he loves you, but you still love him too much to break his heart. You love him too much to lose him.
“Hey, game night at my place this Friday?” Michael asks, nudging your arm.
You deliberately keep yourself from leaning into his touch. You’ve been keeping your distance for a while. “Nah, man. Dad’s taking me to see some colleges this weekend, remember?”
“Right.” The sight of Michael’s shoulders slumping turns your insides a little colder. You’ve been living with ice in your veins ever since that one party, that one conversation. “Dude, I feel like we haven’t been hanging out a lot these days.”
“We’ll hang out when we’re less busy,” you promise, and you think your lies and truths all taste the same nowadays.
You don’t know how to keep the people you love. You don’t know if you’re making the worst choice. You don’t know anything. You wish you still didn’t know.
If you spend less time with Michael, he won’t have an opportunity to ask you out. It’s a flimsy plan but you think it works anyway. You miss him, but this is the only way to keep him. At least this way, you can’t reject Michael. Can’t break his heart.
Every day, you hope he falls out of love with you.
You avoid spending too much time alone with him, avoid too much physical contact with him, avoid looking him in the eye more and more.
Michael slowly stops asking to spend more time privately with you. You spend less time with him and your friends, because you’re scared that he’ll ask you in front of everybody, because you’re weary from the guilt eating you up inside-out, because you’re still scared of losing him once and for all.
You don’t know how to stop Michael’s eyes from shuttering with disappointment or how to love him or how to admit that you just might be making the wrong choice. You don’t know if it’d be better off to tell him that you know, if saying no would be better than saying nothing.
You don’t know if he’s already fallen out of love with you. If you’ve already broken his heart.
This is how it ends: you try so hard to keep Michael, and that’s how you lose him.
kim seokjin x reader genre/warnings—
angst, smut and fluff !! Seokjin finally grows some
balls ;) words—
you’ve been lusting after your
brother’s best friend for a while now, ever since you met him at a house party,
flirting it up a storm as you failed to realise who the other was. That was
months ago now and things are still awkward, but you can’t ignore the sexual
tension that’s simmers between the two of you…and it keeps getting worse…
genre: fucking fluff, angst, hints of smutty actions, badboy!jungkook, bestfriend!jungkook
word count: 12.6k
Jeon Jungkook was a tall guy, handsome with all those ethereal artwork tattooed on his arms..and your best friend. He was by your side whereas you faced a painful heartbreak, caressing your hurt soul for as long as you needed him. But how much can a friendship withstand if one of the two develops feelings?