2. The Lovely Reckless by Kami Garcia Hot guys + serious swoons = Perfect summertime read, TBH. 🚗❤️
3. Daughter of the Pirate King by Tricia Levenseller Summer is definitely the right time to set sail with a bunch of pirates — adventure awaits! 🌊⚓️
4. The Square Root of Summer by Harriet Reuter Hapgood With the word “summer” in the title, this one’s kind of a no-brainer. ☀️😎
5. Internet Famous by Danika Stone Pack this one in your beach bag and daydream about internet fame in between dips in the ocean. 💻💕
6. The Love Interest by Cale Dietrich In case you’re the kind of person who likes to read fast-paced thrillers (with plenty of romance!) while at the beach. 🔥👨❤️👨
7. Bad Romance by Heather Demetrios The anti-romance to keep you on your toes as those bad romances try to sneak their way into your summer plans. 💔🌼
8. Romeo, Juliet & Jim by Larry Schwarz & Iva-Marie Palmer Secret relationships? High Fashion? Yeah, count us in. 👗👀
9. The Truth About Happily Ever After by Karole Cozzo This book takes place in the summer, features an amusement park princess, and is all about heartbreak and new love. (ie: best. summer. read. ever.) 👸🏻🎢
aries: can actually be super fearful. mask emotions by being rash and reckless because they fear, more than anything, messing something they care about up. they feel that their emotions get in the way of making good decisions.
taurus: not lazy; picky where they spend their energy. taurus’ can be very passionate, being ruled by venus, and when it’s something they care about taurus will go to the ends of the earth to achieve what they want.
gemini: feels extremely deeply. always trying to dissect why they feel the way they do instead of embracing it. mask pain with wittiness and sarcasm. never honest with themselves though they can be so brutally blunt with others.
cancer: probably has anger issues or anxiety. because cancer’s feel so deeply, they look for an outlet to release these emotions. anger is the one i’ve seen the most - cancer’s are volatile and find a way to hurt the person they take their anger out on - they go for the kill shot.
leo: way more insecure than they front. many leo’s are physically confident, as we all know, but, like gemini’s, leo’s couldn’t be more emotionally insecure. they love the idea of love, but they’re terrified of emotional intimacy.
virgo: their controlling organization comes from a lack of control over their heart. virgo’s - much like gemini - can have flitting attraction. their interest is temporary, as they enjoy a mystery, but only for so long. it’s a very fine line to keep the affections of a virgo, as they’re extremely picky with who they settle.
libra: can be completely cold-hearted. scorpio’s and cancer’s get angry, but usually out of emotion, and it’s evident that no matter what they say they still care. libra’s however, have a switch that completely detaches them from all feelings when they’re pissed. will make you question if they ever even cared.
scorpio: common perception of scorpio’s is that they’re kinky and sexual bastards, when really they are one of the few signs who views sex as an act of love rather than of physical feelings. scorpio’s only have sex with people they love - it’s more their heart than body.
sagittarius: that wanderlust spirit is rooted deeply in fear. sagittarius fear attachment to one place or person for too long; it’s why they tend to travel. either physically or emotionally, locking down a sagittarius is very difficult, but not because they just want to see the world, but because they are very distrustful in nature.
capricorn: like gemini, capricorn are very emotional. however, capricorn tend to ignore feelings instead of trying to understand them. known as driven, they tend to focus all their energy on a single thing, and think that emotion is a distraction from their goals.
aquarius: super loyal. even though aquarius are very opportunistic and tend to take the route they think is the best for themselves, they also have a very compassionate side to those they sympathize with. aquarius’ hearts are difficult to capture, but once you do they’re also difficult to lose.
pisces: much more manipulative than perceived. pisces may feel deeply - as a water sign - but they use this to their advantage. pisces have a wicked accurate gut feeling due to how deeply in tune their are with their own emotions. if a pisces thinks that you can benefit them, they will use you.
lol imagine maddie trying to have alicia exorcised??
OH MY GOSHHHHH LIKE??
not sure what’s going on with her at first? madison’s always overlooked alicia enough that it takes weeks (months?) for her to even realize something’s up? maybe travis tells her, new step-daddy notices before mom? alicia’s been acting a little weird lately, have you noticed? also i think we’ve got a moth problem, i keep finding them whenever i go down to the basement.
madison tries to take her out for new clothes, wants to have a heart-to-heart. alicia blows her off, spends a bunch of mom’s money, slams her bedroom door when she gets back home?
maddie wakes up and alicia’s standing at the side of her bed, staring down? heart stopping, restarting twice as fast? “jesus, alicia. are you alright??” except alicia just blinks. maddie talks to travis in the morning, she hasn’t done any sleep walking since she was a kid. maybe it’s just stress? travis suggests. sats, college applications? i’ll keep an eye on her, see about calling the doctor.
so many tests?? blood tests and sleep tests and mris? “she seems perfectly healthy, there’s nothing to suggest anything’s wrong with her.” but doctor, last week i caught her up at 3am eating raw hamburger on the kitchen floor.
dropping grades at school. stops getting out of bed. travis and madison go to church every sunday like a good pair of southern baptists. madison reads the scripture and says a prayer for her daughter before bed.
(alicia gets more motherly attention than she’s had in the past 17 years???)
talking to their pastor? not even catholic, but she’s watching alicia bleed from the eyes, nose, and ears the first time she thinks about it?? maybe it’s more than just illness, maybe it’s sickness.
maybe she’s possessed.
three different dioceses before she manages to convince a priest to come out and visit? alicia sits quiet, doesn’t meet his eye, and “i’m sorry, ma’am. i can bless the home if you’d like, but there’s nothing here to indicate any form of demonic possession.”
sitting vigil outside of alicia’s door with a candle? hours and hours of extensive online search about possessions? consultations with a voodoo priestess, an orisha priest? back alley ‘exorcists’ who promise they’ve studied under the vatican, they just got excommunicated for doing the right thing unsanctioned??
travis’ arms open when maddie starts to cry? nick screaming and raging until the exorcist’s assistant tries to hold him back? alicia’s wrist rubbed raw from where they’ve tied her down, her voice wrecked from the screaming, holy water dripping down into her eyes?
(the best part is when it doesn’t work? when madison’s paid half their life savings to some swindle from albuquerque and alicia frees herself from her bonds? sets fire to the tiny ropes and lets the house burn down around them??)
The truth is, I’m hopelessly in love with you. I said it many times to you, and I’ll say it many times about you. I’m crazy, I’m obsessive, I’m needy, I’m protective, I don’t care. I fell in love with you, and now I don’t know how to fall out of love. Now I don’t know where to put the memories, how to shake the thought of you and the truth is I fucking miss you. God damn, I want to hate you, I want to feel my blood boil at the thought of you, but I have nothing to hate you for. All you ever did was shower me with love, how could I hate you for making me happy? How could I hate somebody so innocently perfect? I miss you, I miss us, I miss the way you used to look at me and I miss the way you talk. I miss your stupid walk and your gross facial hair, I miss the tiny little things that I used to tease you for because now I don’t get to laugh at them. I took everything for granted, I took our entire relationship for granted because I made up in my head that it was forever, that for once a boy wasn’t lying to me. And I was so damn stupid to think that, to fall in love as if there was no tomorrow because of course you were going to leave and of course you were lying. What do I have that is so special? Nothing, I got nothing. And now you’re gone, gone for good and I’m left here not knowing what the fuck to do. Not knowing where to place all this love and not knowing how to smile on my own. You carried me through so much and dropped me like I was nothing, like everything we went through was all just a dream, and I guess now I’m living a fucking nightmare
one of the reasons mental illness sucks so fucking much is because people around you can literally tell you again and again that they love you, that they think you’re cool and funny, that they support you in every way, that you’re talented or intelligent, and no matter how many times they say it you’ll always cringe and shake your head and say “no, no i’m not, really” but the SECOND someone says one bad thing about you, even just once. You believe it completely.
When I love, I love: wholly, thoroughly, completely, drowning in everything. Every glance can be a conversation, eyes just playing and saying what needs to be said. Silence is loud, and the air becomes heavy. I want you. I want all of you.
“Your dad would totally fire me if he walked in on this, you know.”
“And lose the greatest literal babysitter he’s ever hired? I don’t think so.”
Marinette strains her neck to look at Adrien petulantly; he looks over at her and cracks a grin.
“You’re slipping, Mari!”
As his serious facade melts, Marinette is suddenly acutely aware of how warm he is against her. She’s not sure she likes the feeling as her blood runs cold and her heart clenches. I can’t do this, she reminds herself sourly, and tries to go back to relishing in her friend’s company.
So I have decided to post all the facts and hints about Connor Murphy’s past that are shown in the musical. It’s hard to make out considering people in the fandom usually focus on the lies Evan tells to figure out Connor’s personality.
To get this conclusion (which I will post in a second) I literally skipped all scenes concerning Evan’s lies and went directly to the Murphy family and what they say. None of these facts/hints involve what Evan said about Connor.
First of all, I’ll say now that I have put my own interpretation on each of these facts.
And so, I will put all FACTS in BOLD. Anything out of bold is my own interpretation and how I see it to be. It’s up to you to agree with me or disagree.
First, I will post my conclusions on each family member, and then afterwards, I will post the reasons for each one.
Zoe was an emotional and verbal abuse
victim.There is no evidence of physical abuse, although there were
threats that could have potentially led to that. She has all the
right to not grieve over Connor, in all honesty, she could have sent
him to the police for what he did, but as an abuse victim, that is
very hard to do. Connor was probably the cause of most of her
insecurities and she hated him for that. The unhealthy habit of
taking out his anger on the nearest person to him probably made him
lash out at his sister whenever he had a panic attack. Judging by how
he really did care enough to keep the creepy letter about his sister,
written by Evan, in his pocket for 3 days before he committed
suicide, it’s safe to say that he really regretted being mean to his
sister and actually cared about her.
Connor’s mom, Cynthia
Connor’s mom was a woman obsessed with
reputation. She’s known as the rich man’s wife, and wants more than
anything to be a regular family. But because her son had mental
illnesses, her perfect image was ruined. She acted as though she was
there for him but when it came down to it, she did nothing. She
pushed for therapy but after a while, her husband took him out of it
because “it wasn’t worth the money,” and she basically went,
“welp, I tried.” I will quote what I say later: Connor’s mom
might not actually be sad that her son is gone, but rather, she’s
ashamed that her family actually doesn’t care. It seems like Connor’s
mom is filled with regret for not being there for her son, and she’s
forcing her family to act like they regretted it too, because that’s
what a real family should have been like. But this is only a personal
Connor’s dad, Larry
Connor’s dad might be one of the main
sources of his depression. It is very obvious to me that Connor’s dad
believed him to be a disappointment.He didn’t grieve for his dead
son and only played along to make his wife happy. He’s annoyed by the
whole situation. It even seemed like he hated the fact that there was
fake remnants of his son in Evan. Almost like he wished Connor wasn’t
friends with Evan so he could just forget all about him and not need
to deal with it. At some point he was a kind father. When they went
to the orchard together for picnics, it seems like they were a happy
family. Connor’s dad had played with their toy plane together and had
some great memories. The whole family practically forgot about this,
though. Connor’s dad didn’t cry at his own dead son’s funeral. I
think that sums it up.
Connor was a complicated person. He had
many different mental illnesses. I could research which ones he
probably had, but there’s probably already a post somewhere on it
already. One thing for sure, is that he was unstable. He might not
have been like that his whole life, but at the time of knowing him,
the time he was briefly alive in the show, he was incredibly
unstable. Everything and anything could set him off, and he probably
hated that about himself as well. Pushing away everyone near him that
could possibly help and hating himself for doing so, spiraling
himself into a closed minded world of self-hate and regret, which is
something that many people can relate to, including me. He did a lot
of horrible things to his sister and to his family. I don’t blame his
family for not actually grieving him, he was a really bad person. The
problem is, he could have been a good person as well. He had all the
potential to get better. He talked to Evan, probably wishing to say
sorry about pushing him earlier in the hall. He was trying, he wanted
to try. He wanted to get better. He just gave up too soon.
This post is very long! I’m sorry. If you’d like to read more, I’m putting the reasons I’ve come to these conclusions under the cut.
Remember, ALL FACTS ARE IN BOLD. Anything else is my personal interpretation.