jimin has always been the least confident person and he’s the most concerned about his image. u notice how in interviews they’ll be asked something like …. maybe “what’s something u want to do?” and jimin will say something along the lines of “i’m a person who strives to be cool”?
and he’s ALWAYS felt this way. he felt this way pre debut long before he signed a deal, post debut when he lived in the dorm, and he says he felt it the most during debut.
the original choreography for “no more dream″ involved everyone lifting their shirts but somewhere along the line it was decided that only jimin would be doing it and that’s probably the key moment where jimin started becoming really really focused on his looks. he wanted his abs to be perfect because he didn’t want to give anyone a reason to make fun of him when he lifted his shirts so he worked his ass off for months!
and at first he had a lot of confidence and it was great. but then he started feeling the pressure that came with it. he noticed how much people loved his abs and how little people seemed to love him so he made his abs his goal, his identifier.
idk for as long as i can remember jimin has had severe self-esteem issues and the members are always trying to reassure him (especially taehyung). taehyung honestly takes every opportunity he can to tell jimin to stop dieting. he told him when they did their group blog for the new year that his health was more important than a jawline. he tells him in interviews constantly. and ofc there’s always the stuff he does away from the public eye.
and part of taehyung always telling him that in public could be that he thinks that if more people know, less people will put all this pressure on jimin. if they know that he’s killing himself to be a certain way, they wouldn’t focus on that one thing anymore.
and then there’s jin who says after himself, jimin is the most handsome and that jimin has changed the least since pre debut because he’s ALWAYS been the most handsome. small comments like that, constant reassurance but it doesn’t always help
but honestly…his confidence is in a much better state than it was in the past. notice how now he doesn’t hide his face under a hoodie or behind his hands when he takes a selfie? or how he used to take selfies in full make up because he didn’t feel adequate enough to do it without but now he be takin barefaced selfies, selfies where he has a pimple on his face like ‘yeah i got a pimple still hot as fuck tho’
it’s like he’s learning to fake it and in faking it, he’s gaining more and more confidence as time passes and it’s a great thing to see. jimin always makes taehyung really proud lately because seeing jimin go from absolutely hating himself to acting like he’s god’s gift is really beautiful tbh.
because of his confidence issues jimin has always gotten immense support from fans and people are always kind enough to make projects in his name (and i hear there’s a new one) which i don’t doubt has helped him a lot
so here’s to hoping one day we have a totally confident jimin ^.^