they have grown on me ;]

50 Thoughts While Watching BTS ‘Not Today’ MV
  1. Oh my gosh look at the mountains they are beyootiful and majestic and I wish I could ride horses on them!
  2. Run Runnn Runnnnn insert Korean lyrics here
  3. I feel like at some point every Kpop boy group performs in a warehouse type setting.
  4. Uh Oh I see some covered up heads and druid type clothes they better not hit me with that “CARELESS CARELESS SHOOT ANONYMOUS ANONYMOUS!”
  5. Namjoon looks fioonnnnnneeeee
  6. Yes my prayers have been answered, Bad Boy BTS is back!
  7. Min Yoongi’s hair is so dark that it almost looks like a midnight blue shade and I am digging it for real
  8. I like this shoulder shake choreography they keep doing
  9. Why is sand falling from the ceiling? Looks like poor architecture to me
  11. His jacket is so nice too am I shallow?
  12. Peep that dance solo tho
  13. Jiminnnn with that pink hair just glowing like the sun
  14. Taehyung the whole world knows your beautiful that was established during your first ultra sound
  15. Oooh look Hoseok is in this video! *sips tea sarcastically and bitterly*
  16. Not going to lie this is like a half step up from the NCT fashion that we have all come to tolerate
  17. Jin is like not even in this MV, I know it’s a lot of dancing but they can at least give him a close up or something
  18. They’re giving me BigBang vibes and not because I’m comparing them in anyway but because they totally look like they’re just having fun and are confident in themselves and their music.
  19. Bandannas usually signify gang relations. if Joonie and Tae are in a gang I want in too! I ain’t scared of nothing boiiiii *flashes gang signs that look suspiciously like the alphabet in sign language*
  20. I love you Hobi but you’re wearing 17 different outfits at the same time.
  21. When you realize that this is the closest that Tae will ever to get to to being featured on the next cypher.
  22. Oooh more runninnnngggg how tiring…for them
  24. Shoutout to the editors for tinting everyone so dark and tanned like it’s amazing and refreshing.
  25. It honestly looks like a clothing commercial
  26. You can pause this video at almost any scene during this slow motion run and it looks awesome!
  27. A big clear platform! This is the kind of props i needed in my life!
  28. ughhh and the backdrop against the mountains! *sobs more*
  29. I personally love every moment that Tae is in the middle of a dance because his tongue comes out and he starts winking ughhhh the whole experience is always so r00d.
  30. Be honest we all want to give Suga a squeeze right now. He’s so fluffy!
  31. Man I wish I could see Jin…
  33. Legit, how do you get to be covered background dancer number #4?
  34. Jimin’s facial expression while dancing are so cockyyyy
  35. Dang they shooting out here bruh!
  36. Man downnnn!
  37. Save Jin!
  38. Why can’t I die beautifully and dramatically?
  39. Why are they not killing Jungkook?
  41. Kookie has something in his eye and I have no clue what it is gahhhhh
  42. Can we all just applaud the choreographer?
  43. This lowkey looks like a workout program all this jumping around
  44. Oohh and now it’s nighttimeee #BTSAFTERDARK
  45. My new sexual preference is shoulders…preferably theirs
  46. Are these Exo druids multiplying??
  47. Awhh they linked arms and shot us how cute
  48. fiyaaaaaaaaaa
  49. So what didn’t happen today?
  50. Cause look like bros died for like the 23rd time since debut

“I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have said that. You know how much our kids mean to me, and it hurts me knowing how much he’s grown to hate me.” 

“This is…killing me, Jacob. He knows, he knows he’s not your biological son. I can see it in his eyes and it’s hurting him so much. We have to tell him, we just…we have to before he gets even angrier” 

“Do you really think that would help? He’s so angry right now, it would only push him away” 

“He wants to know the truth and he wants to hear it from you. I…I’m so scared, Jacob. What if…we lose him. I would die.” 

Alright, in the midst of this stupid drama, we all need some positivity to split through the negative. So, to lighten the mood, I’m gonna make an ATTEMPT to start a “movement” of sorts? Maybe other people will catch on, or maybe I’m the only one that will do this. Either way, I can at least do my part in putting some peace back into the community.

Sam has kind of been a symbol of positivity for me, and probably is for many others, to. I have not only a regular Sam, but now a GIANT Sam, that I can cuddle with when I’m feeling down. (I know, what a loser.) Oftentimes when I’m in math, my most stressful class, I doodle Sams on my notebook to give me something happy through something I suck at! (I know, what a bigger loser.)

Flower crowns have also grown to build a representation of peace, purity, and happiness in a sort of geeky sense on the internet, so here’s the deal:

Use the tag #SamsWithFlowerCrowns and post a little doodle of Sam in a flower crown! Simple at that! And do whatever you want to spice things up: add Jack or some other YouTubers, put him in some funky scenery– heck, use a completely different kind of Septiceye if you want to!

There might be a lot of hate right now, but I know that we can combat it with teamwork, passion, and love!

TL;DR: 1. Draw Sam in a flower crown, 2. Post it and use #SamsWithFlowerCrowns, 3. Yum yum!

“Have a safe journey, Laura. It’s a madhouse out there.”

I’ve been apprehensive about posting this, as the artwork’s execution style was inspired by an unknown artist (whose style I’ve lately grown to love).

So if you do know an artist whose style resembles the mess I’ve come up with, please note me.

anonymous asked:


First of all, you want to capslock me to death or something? I see you have nothing constructive to say, so you have to yell to be noticed, but seriously, your attempt to whore for my attention sucks.

Secondly, you are a multishipper and you enjoyed the shit. Ok, I don’t question your taste, I’m happy for you. But a spoiler alert, a lot of people didn’t like it. Kind of hate it. I know, shock of your life, huh? People don’t like the same things as you and criticize it. What a gross concept!

Thirdly, yes, of course I’m going to STFU because I five year old bravery hiding behind anon is telling me to do something :))))) Yes, that was sarcasm. So, go and hug your stuffed elephant and rethink your life choices, Pumpkin… Wait… “rethink” requires working brain cells, oops!

Fourthly, it’s beautiful how you can’t even think about something original but you repeat the same, old anti Parrish shit that was destroyed by us more than once. But yeah, keep embarrassing yourself if you want to. Everybody needs a hobby :)

Lastly, tee heee heeee. Nope. I’m a loser, I don’t have a life and I enjoy posting shit on my own blog. And I enjoy pissing off five year olds like you :) I just hope you enjoy my blog as much as I enjoy getting shit from homo sapiens like you.

Kisses Pumpkin, have a nice, beautiful day ;*

lucas friar appreciation week -
          day seven (late) damn let’s face it i’ll be late to my own funeral ffs, go off about why you love this stupid cowboy. ♡

i initially thought i was going to go into this big long rant about how and why i love lucas friar, and i sat down to write it and didn’t have too many words?? also, why not add the show’s run date to make it hurt more. 

lucas’ character was probably the second to grown on me throughout the series behind riley, because i just loved the little things about his character. he was always working on himself, always working towards a better version of himself. he hid his past to protect the people he was caring deeply for and even when they found out, he’s still learning, still growing. the way he’s always trying to make the best of any situation, always trying to put smiles on people’s faces, and just being his big goofy self that he is.  

this child would do anything for his friends, he would move mountains to protect them and make them happy, lbr. and he’s just a wholesome character to me. he was definitely that character that gets/got a lot of unnecessary hate, but i love him nonetheless. 

his character is always putting a smile on my face and i’m glad peyton meyer has gotten the chance to bring this character to life. even though i’ll forever be bitter about what we could have learned about this ye ole cowboy from austin, texas, i’m thankful for what we did get from his character. 

Bjorn’s eyes widened as he saw you, standing on the dock in Kattegat. You had grown up much as he did, but now instead of the scrawny little girl he had known you were a beautiful young woman. He had missed you and now that he had seen you he couldn’t stay away. He began to swiftly approach you and he shouted your name, watching you turn around in shock.

“Bjorn? Is that really you?” You asked with awe. He was so broad and tall now. He had gone from the boy with big ears to the man that would have women lusting after him.

“It is me Y/N.” He replied with a wide grin, pulling you into a firm and comforting hug. You smiled to yourself as you buried your head in his firm chest and it was as if you were a little girl again, hugging Bjorn to keep warm while down by the sea.

“I don’t know if I ever expected to see you back. I thought you were gone forever. But here you are, so grown up and looking like a true warrior.” You pulled away from his chest still wrapped in his arms and looked up at him. “I am glad to see you again.”

“I am not the only one who has grown up Y/N. It is as if you are a goddess - Freya herself. Your beauty has only reignited the fire in my heart that has been burning since we were young.”

“What are you saying Bjorn?”

“I wanted to tell you when we were younger, but I left before I had the courage. I have loved you for so long. Maybe since you shared your secret hiding spot with me or maybe it was when you began to braid Gyda’s hair, but all I know is that even so far apart, I still loved you. I was with no other woman. But now I am here and I do not think I can stand not having you anymore.”

“I think I love you too Bjorn. I have waited for you for many years and now here you are. We can be together.” You said with a beaming smile, you hand reaching up to stroke his cheek while the other rested on his chest. Bjorn’s smile reflected yours as he looked at you lovingly. He leant in slowly and pressed his lips to yours and you returned the sentiment, hand now in his hair. After a few moments he pulled away looking so happy.

“Will you be mine Y/N? Will you stay with me and be my wife? It doesn’t have to be right away but I have dreamed of you lying next to me at night and I will wait as long as you need.”

“Yes I will marry you Bjorn. I will stay by your side for as long as you love me.”

“Then we will never be apart.” He said, reconnecting your lips with a smile.

gif credit to @lagrthas

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Well lets start

Namjoon be walking like a boss and already saying “Get your asses to be slayed”

YoonGi and the damn tongue technology appeared wild and in red Like boi Why? Wanna send me to HongKong?

Than Damn Kim Tae Hyung and the bandana forehead Boy do not pull that on me You tryna get your ass to number one but hold up will ya Dont be such a savage and slay

Jung Hoseok why those leather pants Where is the aegyo sunshine? Helloooo!

Park Jimin get that stare and moves outta my way You are being too much I do not deserve your disrespect Stay in your damn lane

SeokJin who told you to serve good looks in that crazy running mess 

Jeon Fucking JungKook be looking gorgeous with the damn pink highlight and that devilish smirk on his lip Why you have to wreck me You outdid yourself and you look so grown I cannot deal with your shit DO not direct those doe eyes at me You give me heartattack you know that? 

Im outta here

Originally posted by wwe

ਚੰਗਾ ਹੁੰਦਾ ਜੇ ਰੱਬ ਮੈਨੂੰ,
ਜੰਗਲੀ ਫੁੱਲ ਬਣਾਂਦਾ ।
ਦੂਰ ਦੁਰੇਡੇ ਪਾਪਾਂ ਕੋਲੋਂ
ਕਿਸੇ ਜੂਹ ਦੇ ਖੂੰਜੇ,
ਚੁਪ ਚੁਪੀਤਾ ਉਗਦਾ, ਫੁਲਦਾ,
ਹਸਦਾ ਤੇ ਮਰ ਜਾਂਦਾ ।

changa hunda je Rabb mainu,
jungli phul bana'da,
dur duredey pap'aa kolo
kissey ju'h de khunjey,
chup chupeta ugg'da, phulda
hasda te marr janda.

it was better if God has made me wild flower.
far away from sins(world)
in corner of some unknown place
silently, would have grown flourished
laughed and died.

-Prof Mohan Singh, excerpt of Jungle Da Phul

Into the Woods

So I just watched Into the Woods for the first time.  It was pretty good.  Not my favourite musical **coughcough Les Mis, Hamilton, Hairspray, Mamma Mia coughcough** but it was good.  The characters and actors were all excellent and I was happy to see little Gavroche from Les Mis all grown up and playing Jack.  

But let me tell you the reason I watched it.  My brother is going to be in a production of Into the Woods for his school (they are only doing the first act) and let me tell you which wonderful role he got:

Originally posted by despairingfever

No word of a lie my brother is going to be playing the role of Cinderella’s Prince in all his extremely flamboyant and very over-dramatic glory.  Aka the role played by none other than our favourite nerd Chris Pine.  

So I am ecstatic and just wanted to let y’all know. 

(he is also playing The Wolf that was played by Johnny Depp but the roles don’t cross over so he gets both). 

That is all. 

Two years of witchcraft!

Oh my goodness lovelies!! I just realized today that I have passed two years of practice! I can’t believe I’ve made it this far, and how much I have grown! 

I started my journey February 13th of 2015, and started really dedicated myself to learning more and practicing what I’m studying. When I started, I was so enthusiastic and desperate to learn, so happy to feel the warmth of connecting with something spiritual in my life. I still have that feeling, and I still hold it close. It makes me feel more real with this world, more intone with reality and what really matters in my life. 

Winter is always the hardest season for me, in a lot of ways, and I always get less in tune with my practice. This is really when I should optimise my time and focus in on using it to benefit myself, but I just don’t have the energy or time to sit down and focus. There is a time where I question if I really even belong in this community. But February is always brighter- the birds are coming back, there is less snow, I see the sun in the sky and feel its warmth. And I feel that spark in me again- that glow feels warmer and ready, like it’s coming out with the flowers. And I am going back to my happy place. 

I’m still on the lookout for a new Grimoire, but I’m feeling pretty lucky- hopefully I’ll find it this weekend! And from there, I will start anew. Not completely fresh, but just another chapter. Year two will bring more understanding, more connection and, hopefully, more happiness along with it. 

I hope you have a marvellous Saturday!

- Faye xx

Read Me.

I’m quickly approaching the conclusion that I’m never going to have a happy life simply because of who I am: Black, gay, poor, and bipolar with severe anxiety. These facets of my life just intersect into an identity that’s just a machine for misery. Racism and homophobia feed and trigger my mental illness; not being able to afford basic care or even work the hours I’d need to work to support myself in this economy ensures I cannot survive on even a simple level.

In the past 2 years I’ve thought about ending my life multiple times and as of right now it just feels like the most practical decision. I cannot even enjoy one simple holiday the same way others are able to. 

I have no friends to visit; all live too far away, I have no one to talk to who hasn’t heard it all before and grown tired of it, and I wake up in an increasingly hostile environment that I cannot escape from unless God throws me a miracle and this book takes off; and even that seems more and more like a greater impossibility.

I have done all the things people do to stop from getting to this level. I go to Church. I play video games. I try to read. I try to spend time with family. I do things I used to enjoy. I go to the gym. And while they help in the short-term, tomorrow never changes. 

I will never have the things so many other humans get to enjoy and experience. That is the conclusion I’m approaching. And so I’ve reached a crossroads where I no longer see a point to my own continued existence. I am fighting to keep a promise I made, but each day that I awaken beset by the same problems [and new ones I’ve created trying to solve the current ones] the simple fact is I cannot continue to live under these circumstances.

I need something better than therapy, something greater than hope and stronger than promises. Something real that I can feel that makes life worth living long enough until I can escape from this hell. Otherwise I’m just not going to live much longer. I’m just not. 

And so I’m going to refocus this blog, away from Social Issues and whatnot into one geared toward self-care and promoting the things I’m doing. You may unfollow without hurting my feelings. But I need to do at least this, if nothing else. There’ll still be stupid overwatch memes and the odd post or two, but I know that I need more help than I can get in my current situation. 

All I ask, is that you guys be supportive of my novel when it comes out. I’ll post a few snippets and tidbits here for those interested once things move further along.

Thanks for the ride. 

Side effects

Im so worried yall. Im taking zoloft (seraline 25 mg once a day started a month ago) with welbutrin (buproprion 150 mg once a day which i have been for over a year) and im worried about the side-effects.
I can say im honestly less agressive. I am nicer and doing much better. I am happier i think im not sure. But…. my hair is falling out faster than usual it isnt noticable yet but i fear it will be. My tits have grown, which in my case is the last thing i need. I fear weight gain… havent noticed anything severe but fear my tummys holding on too an unusual pouch. Also i feel dream like and cant sleep for long periods of time (but it makes me tired 😂) ahhhm fucking loosing it but im not anxious and happy.. also im breaking out. Not sure what to do. After listing the side effects i may get off this shit now lmao
Anyone else?

anonymous asked:

I appreciate your post. I am too struggling to come to terms with being trans, and I recently was told that being trans and pan is a mental illness and I have not gotten over it... I kind of believe them now and I feel horrible. Do you have any tips?

I’m pan, as well! So we’re in the same boat for both of those things! 

Honestly, I’m extremely guilty of falling into rabbit holes online that lead me to horrible forums and blogs telling people like us that we are mentally ill and deranged for not identifying with the gender we were assigned at birth and/or for not liking (or in our case, liking solely) what society has deemed the “opposite” sex. It’s very dangerous and I don’t know why I do it sometimes. I am lucky enough that I very rarely receive direct backlash for my identity, having grown in up in a region that is predominantly left-leaning.

As for tips, though, I think it’s important to educate yourself and reaffirm yourself that it is scientifically shown that our identities are not fake. That they, in fact, very real. Do we not deserve the same dignity and respect that cisgender and heterosexual people are privileged to receive simply by virtue of their identities? Truly, we do not go through this pain because of our identities themselves but because of the negative backlash of cisgender and heterosexual people inflict on us. Being trans and not being straight aren’t conditions with suffering inherently written in! We are beautiful, wonderful people who just identify differently and love/are attracted differently than what is considered the norm. These identities are not mental illnesses! (Although mental illness is nothing to be ashamed of in the first place, however, these things are not one and the same!)

Please please tell yourself every day that there is nothing to be ashamed of. Be proud of who you are even in the face of adversity. Of course, be safe when doing so as we have already established the world is indeed a dangerous place. But nevertheless! Be true to yourself; that is really all you can do. Continue to fight against injustices when you can. There will be days (maybe every day) when you question yourself. That’s okay. That’s normal. 

I’m sorry for the wall of text but I feel so impassioned right now and I have so many pent up feelings about just this very thing that I wanted to get out. I know I had no real, practical tips but it’s a long, difficult process. I want you and every other LGBTQ+ person to know that they are strong and powerful and very much loved. We are incredible people.

Hi, I know I’m not super active on this blog and I don’t exactly have a huge following either but I’d like to say that I can no longer support JB as his homophobic behaviour/his tendency to make homophobic comments continues. To some people they may seem like small incidents, but for others like myself who identify with the lgbt+ community, it’s hurtful and it cannot be continued to be dismissed as a mistranslation. 

It’s sad, because for a long time I’ve really appreciated JB’s leadership, his work composing songs, and his relationships with his members and for a time they made me really happy. But I’m never going to see him in the same light again the more this happens, and the more he doesn’t acknowledge that such behaviour is damaging to his lgbt+ fans. I had hoped that he could have grown from the last time he received backlash (since the comments he made on Celebrity Bromance) about the matter but it’s clearly not happening. I would love to be optimistic and hope he changes for the better but I’m not waiting up for it. 

So far I’ve seen this receive little attention within the fandom and I hope it won’t get swept under the rug. I think the fandom really has to look past all the shipping and literal bias for Jaebum and see that… it really wasn’t okay for him to say that, to have to clarify that he’s straight and that he doesn’t want fans to misunderstand his sexuality, as if being anything other than straight is inherently negative. It’s such a backwards mindset to have seeing as how GOT7 profit from giving fans gay fanservice… anyway.

I’d like to end this post by saying that I hope the rest of the fandom will become more aware of this issue and criticise him for it. I’m in support of any lgbt+ fans who stan JB, are hurt by his actions but still want to support him and help him grow. Personally I can’t do it, I find it emotionally taxing, and I respect you for having the strength to do that. But for other fans either ignoring this or are thinking it’s not a big deal: yes, it is. Be a responsible fan, educate yourselves on this matter and consider the feelings of your fellow GOT7 fans who are hurt before you think about defending Jaebum. Loving someone does not equate to being blind to their flaws and you can still support him and the rest of the fandom by criticising him.

Some clarifications because last night was a whirlwind and I’ve had more time to process the episode as a whole.  I reference this post specifically because there’s things that I want to clear up from yesterday that I was very in the moment about.  I think what gets us at times when trying to read deeper into anything from an anime is the fact that it’s a translation.  You never get the same feelings as you do when it’s in Japanese.  This is if you don’t know Japanese but if you do then I wish I got those same nuances in grammar that you do.

This scene is so important to episode 9.  Yuuri’s down in the dumps right now even if he was able to just squeeze into the Grand Prix Final.  But Yuuri is where he is because of his ability and he gave two amazing performances at the Cup of China that gave him the second place finish he would need to beat out Mickey.  Yuuri wants Viktor to step down as his coach after all of this.  To this moment he’s still doesn’t really think that he deserves Viktor.  But Yuri comes in out of nowhere and kicks him.  He breaks his train of thought.  This is the shock that Yuuri needed to find the confidence to ask Viktor “to stay as his coach until he retires”.  I don’t think that he intended to do that at all, but he came at just the right time and with his grandpa’s new katsudon pirozhki.

If we can all just please forget the fact that I actually thought Viktor flew back to Russia with a dog that almost died 24 hours ago after swallowing steamed buns then I’d love it.  Okay, but you know he would fly back to Russia if necessary.

I want to comment on Viktor’s face again.  Yes, this is a man who is very physically and emotionally tired.  The moment that he found out that Makkachin would be okay he started to worry about Yuuri.  You know he did.  This is character growth at its’ finest.  This is a man who hadn’t thought about anyone but himself, his skating career, and his dog.  There’s nothing wrong with that.  We see those bits of Yuuri bleed over into Viktor as their relationship deepens.  Viktor is worrying about someone who isn’t himself.  You could see the frustration in his expressions from episode 8 when he finds out that Makkachin’s at the vet.  He doesn’t want to leave Yuuri but in the end he does because Yuuri tells him that he’ll do the free skate by himself.  He’s probably been worried about how Yuuri coped without him on the sidelines because this is the first time in a major competition since he’s become his coach that he hasn’t been there.  He knows how it all went.  I’m sure he saw the stream.  He’s proud of Yuuri, but he understands Yuuri and the comfort that he craves.   He needs to see how Yuuri is doing for himself at the train station.  He’s deep in thought of the future until Makkachin barks to tell him that Yuuri’s here.

I was torn on this last night but I’m certain now that these two are on the same page.  We don’t know what the future holds for these two.  Yuuri might have just been outside next to a highway in Russia thinking about retiring after this season, but that doesn’t mean he’ll stop skating here.  He could keep going.  The show has actually given us indicators that Viktor’s the only one retiring at the end of all this between Yakov, Yuri, and JJ (mostly just saying that Viktor was running from him, but that’s close enough to retiring).  So, this request comes from a Yuuri that finally understands Viktor and is professing his love.  There’s no hesitations anymore.  The build-up to this moment was done phenomenally.  It’s a roundabout way of doing things but he does practically propose right here.  

The tears that come out of him after this are of happiness.  “I wish you’d never retire” is exactly what Yuuri wants to hear.  Yuuri’s spent 8 episodes unsure if Viktor would stay with him when all of this is said and done.  But he gets that confirmation.  Yuuri needs to hear it from Viktor’s own mouth.  Viktor is also practically confirming the end of his skating career here because he doesn’t want Yuuri to retire.  He’s 27 years old and already stands at the top of the world.  He’s been thinking about what he wants to do in the future as Yuuri’s coach.  He’ll end his career on a really strong note.  Now, he wants to be Yuuri’s coach and his future.  They’ll go to grand prix final after grand prix final together for as long as Yuuri is willing to skate competitively.  And then after all of that, they’ll be together.  I’m really hoping that we get a sweet ending to all of this.

things some girls do that are cute

-scrunch up their nose when they smile/laugh

-long hair: put in ponytails. bonus if the ponytail bounces

-curly hair: just cute no matter what ?? 

-short hair: b e d h e a d

-running a hand through their hair absentmindedly when they’re thinking

-also having short hair but it’s kind of grown out past its shape so their hairs just really floppy

-wear clothes that are too big and the sleeves go over their hands

-flannel shirts

- b l u s h i n g

-get really excited about things they like and their whole face lights up when you mention it

-being happy

-love their pets a lot

-squint when doing makeup like it’s the most complicated thing ever because tbh it is

-sing/hum under their breath thinking no one can hear

-love their friends a lot

- ;) 

girls are such a blessing oh my g o d