I’m such a complicated person.... Its crazy. There are times when I’m cool with my friends but then there are times when I just want nothing to do with them. Mostly when I’m dealing through shit and i just don’t want anyone to pity me or try to be there for me. Now that I’m thinking about it I’ve always been a distant person. Never had a long friendship.... never been in a relationship. Pushed every dude that showed interest in me away. I’m okay with being alone, but sometimes I crave intimacy.
The universe is crazy. In the blink of an eye there’s an unthinkable amount of solar systems and there’s this one particular blue dot that has complex creatures on it. While they’re using telescopes to see dead stars, some fall in love and some don’t. But I’d like to think that even the people who don’t admit it, everyone is afraid of dying alone. Like seriously, who wants to die alone? Having no one to hold your hand? No one to say I love you, even if we’ve been through some shit together… life, life is crazy. It’s okay if you are. Hell, if you were or looked normal, I’d like to think that something fishy is going on. We’re all crazy in our own little one. It’s just up to you if you let people in to accept your crazy.