So hello again. ^-^
Well I’m not sure if anyone is interested but if you wanna see more from my life then you can follow me on Instagram @vera_eberle
I thought it would be a good idea to write down the good things that happen to me and connect that with pictures I like, so I can look at it when I’m sad again because I don’t have anyone to talk to. ♥️
remember when kaz brekker told inej ghafa he refused to be the one to mark her body after everything she had been through?? because i sure do. the tattoo was mandatory for everyone in the dregs except her bc self-proclaimed monster kaz brekker had the decency to respect her past trauma & he didnt want her to feel like anyone owned her. and the first thing he did after purchasing her indenture was get her proper clothes?? and a knife??? lbr when will your fave ever
I struggle with knowing what is a "good price" for things. How much should I be paying per pound for chicken breasts? Strawberries? Cucumbers? Like produce and meat is weird and I don't know at what price I should buy and at what point I should pass. Sometimes I'll see bogo sales on chicken breasts and my parents will say "yeah that's an okay price sure not great though" and I just ??? Any good guides on when to buy?
I love this question so much- because finding the items you need for the right prices can be frustrating.
Here are some general tips that I hope will help:
1. Prices fluctuate. There are so many different reasons that product prices can fluctuate- increased demand, shortages, changing seasons, etc. Buy your favorite produce cheap whenever possible, and buy it in bulk.
2. Store brand. You’ll find that most supermarkets have their own brand of many popular items. For example- Stop & Shop brand oats and Quaker Oats. Same product, different branding. I guarantee you that the store brand will be significantly cheaper and will taste much the same! It’s my recommendation that you choose store brands over name brands 100% of the time.
3. Skip organic. Have ya’ll seen that Ali Wong special on Netflix? She talks about striving to live that “Whole Foods, organic, sliced mango” lifestyle. That is ultimately the lifestyle that I think we’d all like to live, being able to afford organic produce whenever we wanted. But the fact is- organic is sometimes as much as three times the price of non organic produce. And unless you’re a real food connoisseur, you won’t be able to taste the difference. So don’t try to.
4. Store cards. After you find your go-to supermarket, sign up for a store card ASAP. This card should be free of charge, and will save you a significant amount of money on random produce. Some cards even offer reward programs, like money off of gas or whatever. Worth it.
5. Compare prices. If you’re still unsure what classifies as a “good price” for something, compare product brand prices. Look at how much the product is charging per pound (substitute your measuring method) and choose the best deal. Sometimes things advertised as “on sale” are actually more expensive than other items that are not on sale.
Sorry this took me so long to get through! I’ve been filling in for people at work and haven’t really had time to think.
I usually don’t make non-fandom posts but I keep seeing white people all over my facebook saying things like “at the end of the day what am I suppose to do to stop it?” in response to Charlottesville.
Well, fellow white people, how about we at least speak up to our racist family members? That might be a good place to start.
I live in a small town in Kentucky, you can find a confederate flag on almost every street, either on someone’s window or their truck or even hanging from their house. At a yearly festival (Court Day) in our town, every other stand has blankets, dresses, bikinis, and jewelry with the confederate flag on every piece.
I grew up surrounded by racist ‘jokes’ about hangings, lynchings, and every stereotype there is. I grew up thinking that was normal. Family members used the N word without a thought. Gay people? That was the worst thing in the world (you can imagine their reaction to my not being straight). They were likened to pedophiles. Middle-eastern? According to some family, they were terrorists. Mexicans? My uncle despised them as much as he did 'the gays’ and 'the blacks’.
When I was in 5th grade, I had my very first crush (on a black boy in my class), I was told that I had to 'stay in with my own kind’. I was a child when I was told this.
I don’t even know how I didn’t become like that.
I’ve argued for hours with family over their racist views, and they get tired of my rants still, and yeah, some of them haven’t changed a bit. But, some of them have come a long way. Now, the 'N’ word is banned from the house and the Confederate flag is never allowed. No offensive joke is tolerated and stereotypes are argued. I’ve heard my mom actively call someone on their bullshit and my grandmother even has progressed.
We really have to talk to our family’s when they are like this. It might seem useless, but sometimes it can do a world of good. Sometimes, you really can change someone’s mind.
I cannot understand when people see white supremacy/racism right there in the open and choose to be silent. If someone doesn’t have the common decency to at least denounce this kind of thing when they see it.. then they are just as complicit as the Nazi/KKK. We white people created this problem of white supremacy and we must be the ones to teach our sons and daughters different, we must stop it.
I don't know why but I really want to see Virgil or Roman having a tantrum as little kids
Honestly? You are too good to me, Nonny.
- As a general rule, Roman was very happy and energetic when he was in child form.
- Rare were the times when he wasn’t laughing, shouting, or enacting dramatic “heroics”. He adored being the center of attention and the others were usually good at fulfilling that need.
- But when he got sick? Ohhh how things changed!
- “Nooooo, Dada, don’t wanna!!!!” Tiny Roman buried himself further under the blankets to get away from the foul tasting medicine Patton was trying to give him.
- “I know it’s yucky, bud, but you’ve got to take some or you won’t get better. Come on now, kiddo.” He tried gently coaxing the child from under the blankets, but Roman burrowed in deeper like a stubborn tick.
- “NO!!! Is UCKY!!!”
- Patton sighed. He never put up this much of a fight with Logan! He briefly considered getting the logical side, when a brilliant idea dawned.
- “If you won’t take it from me, I’ll have to get Momma, and you know what will happen then.”
- All movement under the blankets came to an abrupt halt. Tiny Roman silently weighed his options, then sullenly popped up from his blanket nest, his face flushed with fever and hair mussed. “Momma doesn’t give juice after. Hokay, I take now.”
- Patton smiled and dosed out the medicine and Roman downed it quickly, making a face at the bitter flavor. Patton swiftly handed him his juice, pulling the tyke in for a hug.
- “You did such a good job, Roman! So brave, taking your medicine like a big boy.” Patton fussed over the tiny prince, gently running his hands through his hair and silently assessing his temperature. It seemed to have gone down slightly, thank goodness!
- He got the little guy down for another nap, and was just walking away from the door when a piercing wail split the silence.
- He walked into the commons to see a Tiny Virgil in the midst of a full on temper tantrum. He was on the ground, screaming and kicking his legs while flailing his arms. Logan was standing with his arms folded, one eyebrow raised as he observed.
- “What is going on here?!”
Logan turned to him while Virgil’s screams got even louder.
- “I told him it’s nap time, and it would seem he is extremely unwilling to participate.” Logan answered dryly, ignoring the dramatic scene at his feet.
- Patton raised both eyebrows, and might have said something to his precious emo child, but a raised hand and tiny headshake from the other stopped him.
- After a few more minutes, the screams lessened to wails, and eventually trailed off to sad little whines and hiccups. Only when he was quiet did Logan finally speak.
- “Are you quite finished?”
- A pouty Virgil sullenly nodded, clearly exhausted.
- “Good. You know I don’t engage with tantrum throwers, Virgil, so that was a pointless exercise. Now, we’re going to get you into your favorite jammies and then you’re going to nap with Sir Snoogles.” Logan’s tone brooked no argument, and he swiftly scooped the tired child into his arms.
- “Otay, Momma.” Virgil mumbled into his neck, half asleep already. Logan sighed and shared a look of exasperated amusement with Patton before heading down the hall to the darker side’s room.
*breaks something I had to fix a few minutes ago* *goes to get my superglue that is there solely because they break so much stuff*
*eats my entire kitchen* "Can we go out to dinner now?"
"You know your friendship is good when there are rumors that you're gay."
"Make sure you get the trophies in the background so they know I'm accomplished."
"I don't think dinosaurs would have dress codes, see the fingertip rule doesn't apply to them because they have short arms right? I can't wear a skirt but dinosaurs could just wear no pants at all."
From the progress of the manga, we can see that Todoroki and Bakugou have to spend more time together to get their provisional hero license but don't you think it's odd that Todoroki never points out the similarity between Bakugou and Endeavor in terms of their abuse? I thought Todoroki would at least disapprove of Bakugou with his bullying.
the thing is, the audience sees more than the characters ever do.
Todoroki doesn’t actually know the full extent of Bakugou’s bullying. only the audience, Bakugou, and Izuku do. Todoroki has no clue that this has gone on for 10 years, and the most he really knows is that they used to be good friends when they were kids, and had some sort of falling out, and now Bakugou hates Izuku.
Todoroki doesn’t know that it’s gone on for ten years, nor does he understand how bad it was.
since coming to UA, Bakugou and Izuku’s relationship is nothing like it was during the years prior. Bakugou is still hostile towards Izuku, but the teachers actively discourage that kind of behavior, so it hasn’t been shown as often. and by the time they get to the dorms, well, Bakugou’s been all caught up in the guilt and shame he felt for causing All Might’s retirement, and generally kept away from Izuku. after their fight, their issues are… not quite resolved, but they managed to talk it out for the first time, and are much more calm and relaxed around each other. so again, there’s no reason for Todoroki to really suspect something, since they’re on much better terms now.
maybe if he paid attention earlier on, during the first exam to the Sports Festival, he might have noticed. but Todoroki was caught up in his own personal issues with Endeavor. he hardly noticed anyone else around him, and only focused on his own problems. which eventually lead to him failing the Provisional License exam, because of the issues this attitude caused in the past began to catch up with him.
even during the first exam, all Todoroki seemed to pay attention to was pointing out that Bakugou had amazing technique in his fight against Izuku, and that he was smarter than he seemed. he never mentioned the very obvious personal grudges fueling the fight at all.
up until the Sports Festival, Todoroki had no reason to pay attention to the people around him. he had no reason to notice Bakugou’s attitude towards Izuku, and had no reason to suspect that it was actually much worse than it seemed.
Todoroki is still learning about Bakugou. he feels regret for giving him a false win at the Sports Festival. he feels responsible for Bakugou getting kidnapped at the training camp. he actually does respect and like Bakugou on a level, and sees him as an equal. the relationship Todoroki has with Bakugou is nothing like his relationship with Endeavor, and nothing that he’s seen so far would lead Todoroki to make a connection between Bakugou and Endeavor’s behavior.
also, yes. both characters abused Izuku and Todoroki, respectively. however, their attitudes were completely different. Bakugou resented and feared Izuku because he was scared Izuku was looking down on him, and could maybe one day surpass him, which did nothing but fuel his inferiority complex. Endeavor hurt and abused Todoroki because he felt like he was doing something amazing, he was creating a masterpiece that could finally defeat All Might, something he’s been obsessing over for 20 years. he was full of pride, because Todoroki was his greatest achievement, and never seemed to realize that what he was doing was wrong.
they both did horrible things, but their reasons and they way they went about it were different, and again, there’s not much reason for Todoroki to make a clear cut correlation between the two character’s behavior since it doesn’t match up to his own personal experiences.
Endeavor has never once actually shown that he thinks that he did something wrong (even if he is beginning to acknowledge it to himself). Bakugou’s attitude, however, is slowly changing and he’s becoming a little bit nicer and is no longer actively hostile towards Izuku. there’s no reason for Todoroki to make a connection, because Endeavor is still pretty awful, while Bakugou has been making leaps and bounds in character development by the time Todoroki really started to pay attention to his behavior.
i’m sure Todoroki would disapprove of everything Bakugou did. i just wanna make that clear. Izuku did nothing to deserve that sort of behavior from Bakugou, and it seriously fucked him up, even if they are on better terms now. but there’s just no point in the series where Todoroki would ever actually see the full extent of what happened, nor be truly aware that it was actually that bad.
the audience almost always knows more than the characters, and this is an example of that. due to his focus on his own problems, Bakugou’s development, and the fact that the full extent of Izuku and Bakugou’s bad relationship was never shown at UA thanks to the better environment, Todoroki just wouldn’t have noticed.
i think one of the ways isak grew during his season is by starting to realize that he can be a positive addition to people’s lives, that he can, in fact, make things better
things weren’t going well at home for god knows how long, and i can’t help but think that isak took some of the blame for what was happening, because this situation wasn’t something he was able to make better. his mom was going through a very hard time, his parents’ relationship seemed to have fallen apart, his father left, and there was nothing isak could do about it. there was nothing he should’ve had to do about it as their child, at such a young age, but he saw his home become broken, and he saw that there was nothing he could do to fix it. i think isak probably tried as best as he could, by trying to not be an “additional burden” in the household, by remaining quiet and closed off and trying not to add fuel to the fire. but things didn’t work out, and he ended up having to leave home at sixteen, leaving as things still seemed broken beyond repair
and then you have his friendship with eva, one of his closest friends, and he blamed himself entirely for what happened to her relationship with jonas for over a year. he saw himself as the sole reason why jonas and eva weren’t together anymore, why they weren’t talking, and why the trio of friends they once were had fallen apart. and isak wasn’t innocent here, he did betray eva, but he wasn’t entirely to blame, eva said so herself. but once again, that’s the thing with isak, he blames himself more than he should for things he doesn’t have control over
isak will blame himself, think he’s at fault for other people not doing well. and you see that thinking pattern during the season. you see it in the locker room scene when even tells him he broke things off with sonja, and isak apologizes because he thinks it might’ve made him sad, i’m sorry if because of me you were sad. you also see it in the minutt for minutt clip, when he’s on the phone with sonja, and she has to remind him that it’s not his fault even’s not feeling well, that his mental illness is the reason why he’s feeling that way. he feels a lot of guilt, and sometimes his feeling of guilt is justified because he does mess up, speak before he thinks, and it’s a good thing that he feels remorseful and wants to apologize, it’s a good thing he wanted to apologize to eskild after what he told him in pride, it’s a good thing he wanted to apologize to mahdi after he pushed him, it’s a good thing he wanted to apologize to noora when he thought he might’ve been a little too harsh with her. it shows what a truly good and caring person isak is. but the amount of guilt he feels is sometimes disproportionate, because once again isak would see himself as the guy who can’t make things right, can only make them worse
but i think, or at least i’d like to think that isak has learned to take a step back and see the progress he makes, and realize that messing up is not all he does, see that he can, in fact, make things better, be a good person to others. i like to think he holds himself accountable just enough when he does mess up, enough to apologize and realize he was wrong and learn. but i also like to think that he truly sees what a great friend and boyfriend and person he is, and how it’s a good thing for the people he cares about to have isak in their life. i like to think that isak’s perception of himself is now a far better representation of who he actually is, and the role he plays in other people’s lives
Hi do you have any tips for getting into yoga? I tried some beginner series but honestly I don't even think I'm flexible enough for that. I don't know if I should consider taking classes, I really wanted to do it from home
the notion that flexibility is an essential thing to have to begin a yoga practice is really connected to the (western) concept of yoga that emphasizes it as an exercise of the body & shadows over yoga as of the mind / spirit too. flexibility and other physical benefits will come, but when just beginning, it’s good to include a practice of patience, mindfulness, relaxation, etc. it’s challenging, especially when we feel our physical limitations, but this is where our practice deepens because we now begin to see our spirit and mind being illuminated back to us.
if you feel you want to begin your practice with the help of being in a class setting, go for it! but it’s not a necessity. home practices can be just as enriching & enlightening. i think it’s good for beginners to begin with yin yoga; it’s paced very slowly and asanas are held deeply & for longer periods of time. from here, you can grow to extend your practice to hatha and work on flows / vinyāsa or any of the other 6 branches of yoga. this & this are good 30 day introductions to yoga specifically for beginners, but even i frequently go back to these videos and include them in my practice.
some tips i have:
breathing deeply through each asana helps and is a core technique in yoga to connect the body to the mind to the spirit. the breath is everything. breathe inwardly, being mindful of your tummy connecting to your spine
when feeling tense or not balanced, use movement.if you feel you’re not flexible enough, or you feel your body tiring or tensing, give yourself permission to flow through it
bring the earth to you! yogis often say things like “touch the earth / ground into the earth” etc. but if you’re just beginning, it can be difficult to connect to the ground, especially if you’re in a standing pose. bringing the earth to you by using pillows, blocks, etc. to support you is a useful option
bring awareness to your front body, back body, lower body, & upper body and their different energies. focus on energy & power of the lower body and bring it up through the feet and thighs, up to the upper body / back to help with balance or bring airy energy from the mind and lungs to the lower body to help with flow. there’s an upward current of softer, flowing energy through the front body, and a grounding energy through the back body!
this is rly comprehensive but i hope it helps, & i hope that you pursue your practice with positive and calm energy! :-)
I don't know much about the GOT duo. But like it said below, 4yrs to reveal. And wasn't one of them off the show when they finally did come out?
Kit Harington and Rose Leslie dated off and on beginning in 2012, she left the show in 2014, they went public in April 2016 and the latest gossip now that everybody and their blind-ass grandma have been allowed in can see they’re a thing is that they’re “finally” moving in together (via Refinery29). In 2013, Kit called Rose a “very good friend” and they both have been cagey and not always on the same public narrative page when it comes to the nature of their relationship, so a ton of mixed messages and interviews that don’t add up have been part of the are they/aren’t they gossip.
So on again/off again, not following the general Hollywood ish of moving in together before the wet spot on the sheet dries, misleading the public and the media during interviews, and spending years navigating their new celebrity as it pertains to their relationship before becoming more open? I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again: THIS. SHIT. HAPPENS. ALL. THE. TIME.
What is for you a well written show and well written characters you often talk about how you don't like when things are forced but I don't exactly know what you mean and I'd like to improve in writing :) 😇
I’d like to offer you a better answer, but I’m not that good at explaining myself, nor I’m familiar enough with writing techniques and theories, so I’m going to keep it super simple: in this show there’s little to none dissonance between how the show want the characters to be, and how the viewers see said characters. In many shows, there’s, let’s say, a character that is treated like they’re sweet and kind, when they’ve actually been acting petty and selfish, and the show doesn’t seem to realize this. SVTFOE rarely, if ever, does that: the important aspects of the characters’ personalities are not just handed, “told” to us, they are showed and pinned down.
Example: Marco has a hard time making friends, and as such values real friendships a lot, possibly even more than the socially outgoing Star. This is told to us in many scenes, like in Gift of the Card (not the first instance in the show, obviously).
But this alone wouldn’t really be enough to allow every fan to say “Yes, Marco values friendship over anything else”. So we got an episode like Friendenemies. In five minutes, Marco sees himself in Tom.
He’s overjoyed to have found a friend who shares his interests, even more someone who was at first hostile to him, making this feel like a “victory”, something earned with his own strength alone.
And then he’s deeply hurt, even ashamed of himself, when he realizes that he’s been used by Tom. At first he’s even confused by the locked door, because despite all his beef with Tom, he was ready to trust him, he was already in a “He’s my friend” mindset.
This is admittedly an easy example, since half the episode was focused on this idea, but it holds for most of the show’s cast. There’s a lot of subjectivity going on for sure, but I never found myself thinking “Wait, why am I supposed to like this character, when they act like an ass?”. Even someone like Pony Head has always been portrayed with a lucidity that’s extremely unusual in TV shows, especially for a secondary character. She’s self centered, she has a lot of flaws, and Star perfectly knows it (and clearly Marco as well) but they still accept her, because she’s their friend, and because she has her moments, she values friends as well, in her own chaotic, loud, ponycentric way.
So, again: the show tells us that Pony Head is like this, and the characters as well are aware of it. The two “worlds” go hand in hand, resulting in a credible way to portray a character, who immediatly results familiar and well understandable to the viewer: In Party with a Pony, Star immediatly believed Marco’s claims, because she was under no illusion that Pony’s character isn’t like that.
And, more recently, in The Bounce Lounge, Star has once again shown that she’s perfectly aware about who her friend is.
To recap: the series makes sure to show, not just tell, what the characters are like. This is essential to achieve the kind of consistency in characterization that’s Star Vs’ forte, and to make even someone like Pony Head likeable to most viewers (obviously subjective tastes still play a big role).
you make it look so easy to not feel nostalgic over your exes... I don't know how you do it :(
I’ve got too much to look forward to in my life to spend my time missing something that wasn’t good for me, wasn’t working, or was holding me back. I know that when it’s right, it’s right - If it was meant for me, we would still be together. I think when you’re whole, and happy as one it’s easier to let go. I’ve got no void to fill, and i’m positive the universe has better things in store for me than a girl who couldn’t see me for the light I am.
Ruby (With badly dyed blond hair tied up into sections):
Ow! Dad, be careful!
Well, it's not like I do this very often. I can' t take any chances or else you'll look even worse. (starts applying the dye to Ruby's hair.) Okay, according the instructions it'll take about thirty minutes for the die to work. Afterward your hair should be at least look like normal again.
*sigh* Well, that's a relief.
Yeah. Speaking of, (Meets Ruby eye to eye) Why don't you tell me why you did this?
(looks away from her dad awkwardly.)
I mean, I could see Yang doing something like this, if only because she could be going through the whole "rebellious teen' phase. But you, Ruby? This is so not like you.
Did somebody insult your hair? Was this a bet? Was it peer pressure? I just can't for the life of me why you would want to dye your hair of all things.
I'm not repeating it.
No, I heard you Ruby. I've known you long enough to keep up. What I can't understand is what made you think this way? Why did you want to look like me and Yang?
I'm just-I'm just-TIRED of always being looked at weird when I say you're my dad or that Yang's my sister. I'm tired of everything asking me if I'm joking, I'm tired of people assuming Uncle Qrow is my dad just because we have dark hair, I'm tired of feeling like I'm some sore sort of sore thumb in this family! For once, I just-I just- (tears start welling up in Ruby's eyes) I want people to look at us and see us a family and not just a guy, his daughter and the extra girl!
(Ruby looks like she's about cry when Taiyang cups her face and leans his head against hers)
hey now, Rosebud. Don't you cry.
But Dad I-
I know how you feel, Rosebud. I get pretty sick of having to say you get your looks from your mother too. But the thing is: It doesn't matter what other people say. No matter what you look like, no matter what other people say: you'll always be my little girl. There is no amount of mistakes or assumptions that can change that. Got it?
Good girl *pulls away only to see that Ruby's ahir dye looks a little messed up in the front* Huh? *runs his fingers through his hair, seeing black dye on them* Oh damnit!
*looks down guiltily*
*sighs before eying the bottle of hair die...*
(The Next Day)
...And then BAM! He goes flying into the nearest wall, with that stupid taser staff snapping in two!
Jeez Ruby, you're usually on the verge of bursting out of your chair when I tell stories. What's up? *Eyes the top of her head* Is your hair a different shade of black today?
Hey girls, Good Morning!
About time you got up! What in Remant where you do-*Sees that Taiyang has black hair* DAD! What happened!
Oh I just had a little accident with some hair dye. Decide to just roll with it. *walks up to Ruby puts their faces side by side, grinning* Almost like we're siblings huh?
*rolls her eyes* Sure dad.
Okay then, guess I should make you girls some break- *stops as Ruby wraps her arms around him in a tight hug.* Love you too, Ruby.
BonneyQ is it okay for you to continue the AU where it was a two year time skip and Juvia got pregnant with Gray's child when he was in Avatar to do their fight when they under Ice Lock and the Gray had to fight Natsu and then Juvia comes back please? I don't know if you're taking requests or not.
I think you are referring to [THIS], so here’s a follow up!
The first thing Gray saw when he woke up were
deep blue eyes staring at him, curious. For just a moment he thought it was
Juvia looking at him until his eyes focused and he recognized Gris.
“Good morning.” He mumbled and the boy tilted
his head to the side, as if studying Gray. “Where’s your mother?” The question
sent the child into a long babbling; Gris pointed to the open door and clearly
said ‘Mama’. “Alright, let’s go see her.”
Gray got up from the bed and put his pants back
on – after putting Gris back to sleep the night before, he had stayed after they
spent a long time talking about her two years on her own. Juvia told him to
sleep next to her and for the first time in two years, Gray had a full night’s
The little boy waited until Gray was dressed
and for Gray to point to the door before he started to walk as fast as his tiny
feet could carry him – his diapered bottom moving and Gray tried to contain a
smile, it was quite cute, really. Gris would look over his shoulder from time
to time as if to check Gray was still following him.
“Mama!” Gris said, happily, looking to Gray and
pointing to Juvia, who was at the small kitchen.
“Yes, baby?” Juvia asked and when she looked
up, and saw Gray there, she looked surprised. “Oh, Gray-sama, I’m sorry! Did Gris
He shrugged. “It’s fine. He was curious.” Gray
said. “It must be weird for him to see someone else sleeping here.”
“Yes.” Juvia chuckled. “It has been just us for
so long and he is such a curious little boy. He is loving all the new people he
has been meeting. Aren’t you, baby?” Gris hugged his mother’s leg and looked
up, giving her the most beautiful smile and Juvia smiled back. “That’s my
Gray, seeing the interaction, kneeled in front
of the boy. “Hey, Gris.” With his attention at his father, Gris watched as Gray
created a small horse with his magic and the boy’s eyes went wide, surprised. Gray
smiled when the little boy let go of his mother’s leg and took a step closer to
touch the horse, babbling away. “Careful, it’s cold.”
Gris took the horse and sat on the floor, thoroughly
checking the new toy and when it became too cold for him, he let go of it and
it felt on the floor, making him giggle. The boy looked up, his blue eyes
sparkling in happiness, and he said to the adults while still giggling: “Oops.”
Chuckling Gray got up from the floor and messed
with Gris hair before he turned to Juvia, who was looking at the scene before
her with watery eyes. Gray frowned and took a step closer to her.
Juvia shook her head. “Nothing. Nothing at all.
It’s just… seeing you and Gris interact…” She dried a tear that fell from her
left eye. “There were days Juvia thought she would never get to see you two
“I’m sorry I wasn’t there.” Gray said,
regretful. “I’m sorry you had to raise him on your own. I missed everything.”
“No. You missed a lot, but not everything.” The
blunette told him, stepping closer and wrapping her arms around his middle. “There
are many things yet to happen in his life. You will see it all from now on.” She
hesitated. “If… if you want to, that is.”
“I do.” Gray gave her a nod. “He is my son too.
I don’t feel like a father yet, I didn’t see you pregnant, I didn’t see you
giving birth and I didn’t hold him when he was born. But I know he is ours and
I want to be there for him. And for you.” Gray put a hand on her cheek. “You
will have to help me, though. I know next to nothing about raising kids.”
Juvia snorted. “Trust me, Juvia didn’t know
much either but then I had him in my arms and Juvia tried her best.”
“He is a healthy happy child; I guess you’ve
done alright.” Gray told her and leaned to give her a peck on the lips, she
smiled into the kiss. A moment later, Gray felt tiny hands pushing on his legs and
when he looked down, he saw Gris frowning at him, not happy at all. “What is
it?” The little boy kept pushing until Gray let go of Juvia and took a step
back, confused, and Juvia sighed. “What’s his problem?”
“He has had Juvia to himself since the day he
was born.” Juvia said to Gray and picked her son up when he raised his arms. “He
doesn’t know how to share me.” Gray looked to the boy and Gris was staring
daggers at him, his tiny arms around Juvia’s neck and his head resting on her
shoulder. “Only now we are seeing more people.”
Gray sighed. “Yeah, I get it. I guess I’ll have
to be around all the time for him to let me be around you.” He stepped closer to them and Gris held on even stronger to
his mother. “It’s alright, kid. I’d be upset too if someone I don’t know was
pawing my mother. Good to see you are taking care of her.” He looked at Juvia. “I’ll
start on breakfast.”
“Thank you.” Juvia tip toed to kiss him and
Gris pushed Gray away with his tiny hands when the kiss was a bit too long for
his liking. “Alright, baby. No kissing.” Juvia chuckled.
The thing about us is that you and I, we know the precarious magic of surviving on spite alone. Let them tell us about how there are soft things, good things, and I’d lick it up – I’d lick that honey from their fingertips but when I look at my hands, all I see is blood. That honey? It just leaves me starved.
But you know that feeling. You know the feeling of breaking your nails, of swallowing dust, you know what we had to do to survive and how we will never regret it. These are things we have kept, these are what we have managed to become.
It took everything from us and shit, I didn’t even know I was funny before but now I have no problem laughing with you. We earned this.
I was a semi detached piece of trash shit of a human, calling background my stage while I never got stars, fitting in seamlessly until I became as plain as I have spent years trying to be. Fuck that, babe. Fuck that. We have always deserved better than this because I still remember how your heart bled bled bled just wouldn’t stop bleeding and when I asked you why, why this, why won’t it stop, you just said that it has always been like this.
You, taking a step back.
Your heart, leaping forward and getting cut on the barbed wire.
I am so tired of empty symphonies. We have felt hollow for so long, gasping for a breath, and no one who hasn’t tasted salt on their lips when they tried to swim knows what it is like, what a shame it is, what a burden it is to carry a universe inside your bones when it is the invisible kind.
And now I am back to our spite and I wish I could show you how beautiful it is to be a fucking wreck, like – look how I’m bleeding on this page and look how little I care. Look at this masterpiece that took me ages to make, this masterpiece of baring my skin and leaving my heart out in the open for the whole world to see.
I want to tell you that I have learned how to grow out of all this poisoned soil. I know now that the world, which is telling me to shut up, doesn’t matter at all. It never has.
Shit, the next time I say that I am “just” anything, I will throw up the explanations. They are someone else’s problem. They were never mine.