was slapped and told that I’m not responsible.
I am responsible, how can i talk kung palo ka ng palo sa bibig ko
how can i talk if im too scared of you
not because im not looking doesn’t mean i don’t listen
you always makes me feel that I’m not good enough
i don’t stud at home, cause its better for me to rest than to stress again myself jut like wat im doing at school
i am studying at school, i am active in everything
i cant be someone who u wanted me to be na mapayat
i cant be someone who u wanted me to have a long beautiful hair
i know everything that ur doing was for me and dad and kuya
but come on, lets get serious about something
have you ever answered any of our questions without shouting??
u tod me na pinapaiya kita madalas, how come? i only said “ma mali date mo”
how much was that compared on how you correct my mistake, shane’s, kenneth’s, kuya justine’s, dad’s and kuya’s???
ur always angry and mad everyday, kada sumisigaw ka natataranta kame w/c causes us to do someting wrong again
when someone of us made wrong nadadamay ang iba
when you told me to clean myself earlier after the talk
i was thinking while having my bath about myself.
am i not good enough for you?
are my medals and trophies and certificates aren’t good enough for you?
how ‘bout my scholarship? aren’t they good enough for you?
how can i answer your every question when u keep on shouting and not toning your voice down?
i actually imagined myself hanging thinking “maybe that’ll be better kase wala na kayong iintindihin, no tuition problems, no headache” kumbaga isang bagsakan na lang ng gastos sa burol ko. But then may pangarap ako sa buhay hindi tulad ng sinabi niyong wala.
I promise to make myself proud one day. I’ll be working for my good and yours. hihiwalay ako para wala ng magpapasakit ng ulo niyo every second every minute every hour and every day. Yun lang.
P.S It’s not a suicide note