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Bathing Suit

Bucky Barnes x Reader

Notes: Established relationship, one-shot, no smut (it’s implied), pool parties, low self-esteem, shopping, Reader hates shopping, Bucky is a supportive boyfriend, based on real events

Summary: Bucky tries inviting the you, his girlfriend, to a cookout and a pool party the Avengers are hosting at the compound, but you decline because you don’t have a bathing suit. You haven’t owned one in years, actually. Bucky takes you out shopping for one, and the whole day you come up empty-handed and upset. That is, until you find the bathing suit that changes everything.

A/N: So I bought a bathing suit for the first time in YEARS this weekend. Saturday seriously sucked for me. In the middle of my drudgery of trying to find a suit that actually looked decent, I came up with this idea for a fic. I hope you like it! Let me know if you did, and enjoy! ^_^

“Oh c’mon Y/N, I’m sure you’ll find something you like in no time.”

“That’s easy for you to say, Bucky. You were in and out of store like that!” you snapped your fingers on your last word to emphasize how quick Bucky got his new bathing suit. It was true, though. You and Bucky were literally in and out of Target in 15 minutes, and within that time he managed to find a pair of swimming trunks that of course made him look ridiculously hot, and all just for $20, too.

You on the other hand weren’t so lucky. It took you ages to find anything that you thought looked all right to you, and bathing suits were the worst offenders. Your bad luck with bathing suits had gotten to you so much, you quit trying to find one ages ago. In fact, it had been five years since you’ve owned a bathing suit. Maybe longer, you thought to yourself. It’s been so long you actually forgot exactly when you quit. But today’s shopping excursion reminded you of why you quit in the first place.

It was Bucky’s idea to take you out shopping. Last weekend, the entire Avengers team decided to have a cookout and a pool party. It was something they hardly had the time to do since they were too busy with missions, training, and other Avenger specific obligations. Each team member was allowed to invite a few friends, and of course Bucky invited you, his girlfriend. He was shocked and confused when you declined. You were always up for visiting at the compound, so why were you refusing now? When he asked, you gave him a simple reason.

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probably-tryingtoohard  asked:

Hi! I have an Instagram myself, and although I practice an (extremely stringent) "if-you-steal-art-I-unfollow" policy, I know that doesn't really help the stealing problem--one follower lost is probably nothing to these accounts thriving off of stolen work. Instagram doesn't seem to have an option (trust me, I've looked) for stealing other people's content. How can I report someone for taking art? (Gosh, you have no idea how much those people tick. me. off.) Thanks!

Originally posted by totallynotadeadpool

Knowing that people like you exist is honestly the ONLY thing some days that keeps me from leaving this fandom and all its art theft issues. Bless you, my comrade <3 <3 <3

3 Things You Can Do To Fight Art Theft:

1. Comment (without harassing). Many art thieves try to pretend they “don’t know” who the artist is, or that they “don’t know” reposting isn’t allowed (even when it’s written right on the image). Calling them out by posting a link to the original, tagging the artist, or even simply stating ‘this belongs to [ARTIST] and they don’t allow reposts’ is sometimes enough to get an art thief to delete a repost (to avoid copyright strikes). 

2. Link the artist. Send us a link so that we can report the art as stolen. You can also make a notifying callout post (again, careful not to harass) if it’s an account that steals from a lot of artists. However, dealing with tons of people treating you and your art like dirt can get really stressful (I know it’s ruined my day more than once), so sometimes you can also…

3. …Report “on behalf of the owner”. If you know an artist absolutely doesn’t allow reposts (for example, me), you can save them tons of time and stress by filling out a copyright claim on their behalf. All you need is a link to the original (most of my stuff is in my /tagged/my-stuff tag), and to tick the box that says you’re ‘authorized to report on behalf of the copyright owner’ (actual wording varies from site to site). When making a report, it’s absolutely vital that you know for sure the image was reposted without permission. I never give permission to repost (especially on Insta, Pinterest, WeHeartIt, etc.), so any of my art you see there is stolen, and you can report it. Buttons to look for include “report”, “this doesn’t belong on ____”, “this violates my intellectual copyright/terms of service”, and sometimes “inappropriate content”.

One advantage that art thieves have over artists is that there’s only so much a single artist can report (or emotionally handle) in a single day. Art thieves take advantage of that to get away with stealing. But if we all band together, we can take stolen posts down, get repeat offenders’ accounts deleted, and make this fandom a happier, fairer place to be.

Btw, thank you SO much to my followers who always have my back, and who I always see doing these 3 things above. You guys are ANGELS and you don’t know how many times a message like this, or a comment defending my art, etc. has kept me from jumping ship (and just not posting my art online anymore). You guys are so awesome, and I’m so grateful for each and every one of you. <3 <3

Originally posted by yourreactiongifs

In Texas (where I live) there is a statewide academic competition called UIL and, despite participating in it for the better part of six years, I still haven’t a clue as to what it stands for. But I compete in a lot of events, especially speech and debate. Specifically, Policy Debate and Informational Speaking. Both of these events include writing speeches on a time crunch. I have mastered at least novice public speaking after plenty and plenty trial and error. Here are some tips I’ve picked up. 

Disclaimer: Giving speeches is very subjective and this is what has worked out for me. If it doesn’t work out for you continue exploring different methods, you’ll find something!

-Have a decent idea about what you’re talking about. Most likely you’re reading this because you need to speak in front of the class and didn’t suddenly join policy debate. Most likely you know what you’re topic is and you’ll have done research on it. KNOW MORE THAN WHAT YOU PUT IN YOUR SPEECH. Know details and dates and anecdotes. If you’re discussing owning a tiger as a pet you should not only know about laws and regulations of owning a tiger but also know other things about tigers, like how big they get and how much food they require. This also helps if you are asked questions at the end. Even though it may not seem like it, people can tell when you know what you’re talking about.

-Know your audience. Who are you talking to? Are you persuading them or informing them? Are they college professors or classmates? If you know who you’re talking to it is easier to cater your language to those people. You don’t need to say “tigers are abused maliciously and without regard to any subset of decency” when talking to your tenth grade classmates.

-UMs and AND SOs. These are called filler words. It is second nature to use them. All languages have them and conversationally there is nothing wrong with them. However if you’re standing in front of people grading you it makes you sound unsure and not confidence. This won’t be an easy habit to break so don’t feel bad if you don’t get it right away. Start by acknowledging when you use filler words. Then think as you speak. Instead of using a filler word, pause for a second. I know it feels like you’re pausing forever but you’re not. No one really notices tbh.

-Write out your speech verbatim then condense into an outline. When writing out a speech for a class or something, you need to know what you want to say about each idea (before you write anything out you should already have facts and information). Putting it on paper makes it easier to say later when presenting. Practice a few time reading it aloud. Use inflection and tone to move the speech along. When you’ve read through it a few times condense it back down to an outline. NEVER EVER READ A SPEECH WORD FOR WORD UNLESS YOU’RE THE PRESIDENT AND YOUR SPEECHES ARE WRITTEN FOR YOU (or your teacher says it’s cool). If you read a speech in high school/college generally you’re monotone and boring and it is 10000000% obvious that you’re reading from a script.

-Practice with the outline. The more you practice the better you sound and the less you use filler words!!!!!!!


-IT IS OKAY TO BE NERVOUS. There are so many people who will tell you that nerves are terrible and will screw you up. At times that is the case. However take a deep breath and put things in perspective. Most likely you are not the only one making a speech and everyone else is just as worried about messing up as you. Acknowledge the fact you’re nervous. Take deep breaths and consciously think about slowing your heart rate down. I always look at the back wall when making a speech that doesn’t need to be persuasive. The wall doesn’t give a crap if your face is red or your stutter a bit. It’s a wall.
If it is persuasive then practice on friends and family. Make sweeping eye contact (not actual eye contact but it looks like it). And sometimes you just gotta suck it up and talk.

-MOVE. Don’t stand still. If you stand still you’ll become monotone and boring and you don’t want that. Talk with your hands. Sway a bit. Make a grand gesture when making a big point. Talk as though you were talking to a friend. If you were talking about how harmful tigers being held as pets is to a friend you would be getting worked up. You’d be moving and gesturing. Channel that in your speech.

-INFLECT. Remember how we don’t want to be monotone? When saying “Tigers being held as pets are, more often than not, a death sentence” don’t say it as though you’re telling your mom you’re going to Target. Emphasise the strong emotional words. (i.e. death sentence). Don’t scream it, but make it harsh and forceful.

-stand up straight. You’ll look professional and studies show certain postures help foster confidence.

-don’t make it obvious if you mess up. 99% people won’t notice/care.

-but it’s okay if you do

-you won’t ever be perfect all the time

-it is a skill and you’ll learn.

Additional Resources:

Five Basic Public Speaking Tips
Be a More Confident Public Speaker
Julian Treasure: How to speak so that people want to listen (this one is less about public speaking but still a good watch!)

I hope you found this helpful. If you’re looking for presentation tips this is a really great post about it. If you need anymore advice feel free to message me!

A Letter to the Sherlock Fandom

You may think that this is a lot of text and too long to read but I implore you to try so that you can better understand these points of view.

I apologise if this isn’t as eloquent or measured as I intended it to be but I am honestly so angry at the Sherlock fandom right now. Not all, obviously, many are conducting themselves amazingly no matter their opinion on the episode. However, there are a large (and loud) number who are not and not only are these people making the rest of us look bad and acting as if they speak for the fandom as a whole, I fear that they are doing (and may have already succeeded in doing) irreparable damage to what could have been a great community.

There are several points I wish to address in this post so I will try to dissect each one individually to the best of the ability.


No matter what you thought of the episode it is NOT okay, or even productive, to harass members of the cast or crew in any way (whether it be through social media, through official complaints (which can actually have further effects on their professional lives also which are definitely not yours to mess with) etc.). It started with Amanda back when season 3 was announced and that was just downright cruel and now it seems the lesson has not been learnt. They have worked hard on this show and even if it did not turn out as you personally expected it or wanted it to you cannot hate them for having a different view of where things should go than you. I have seen many people on Tumblr saying things along the line of ‘it our show anyway we can do what we want and it can be what we want it to be’. No. It is their show, we merely enjoy it - they created it and they have final say on what happens. I for one would not wish to see a world where the fans get to decide what happens as that would only ever cause further divide in communities and result in one section of a fandom having superiority over the others which is already happening in the Sherlock fandom with some Johnlockers/TJLCers.This harassment also extends to the harassment of other member of the fandom - labelling someone as homophobic because they don’t ship a same-sex ship is not only detrimental to the LGBT+ cause it puts up further barriers for the normalisation of non-traditional relationships.

On a similar topic, complaining to the BBC because you didn’t like the episode is not only petty but also counterproductive - these people are not asking for change in doing so they are calling for an end to the show and a witch-hunt in which those who created it are to be mocked in a public sphere. I have seen many people proudly posting images of their complaints and encouraging others to do the same and even petitions to a similar effect and it saddens me that people have become so arrogant in believing that the show is theirs and they were owed more that they would stoop to such levels. You were not owed anything. You didn’t like it, deal with it, move on.


I cannot express how much I dislike this term. Sometimes, yes, the teasing of fans with a potentially queer couple is done in an interpretably malicious way. With Sherlock, this is not the case. The cast and crew have said from the start that Johnlock (the main ship brought up in such discussions) was not going to happen. If you missed that and were not aware - fine; but if you knew this and then continued to be upset that it wasn’t happening - that is on you.  It is not queerbaiting if there was never any potential for the relationship in the first place - especially when neither character has been canonically stated to be queer.

Fetishisation of Gay Relationships and the Anti-Straight Trend in the Progressive Community

Wow, that was a long title. I have seen many of the aforementioned complaints to the BBC, petitions and Tumblr posts claiming that by not making a ship such as Johnlock canon they have let down a large portion of the community who are LGBT+ and have not given them the representation they deserve. Whilst representation is good and everyone does deserve to be able to see someone like them on television, as I said before, we have known from the stat that this was not going to happen with these characters. If you didn’t understand that clear message - again, it is on you, not the creators who have always been honest about the future of such a ship. You can be upset that they did not become canon in the same way that you would for any other ship but you cannot claim that you have been robbed of representation, misled in any way or owed better because you were never promised it in the first place.

As for the title of this section, I have seen a common trend in fandom communities towards making canonically straight characters gay, which whilst harmless if not taken to the extreme (as I feel some members of the Johnlock community have) actually highlights a double standard and serious problem that must be addressed. If one were to take a canonically gay character, strip them of their identity and make them straight they would be called homophobic in an instant. However, when it is the other way around, no one complains. Heterosexual is an identity too and to keep classifying it as separate from the others, in a class of its own, is only going to slow down progress and make it harder for true unity to occur. By stating that two characters, one of whom has categorically stated that they are not gay (and of course only one would be enough) have to be gay because of they way they interact (via your personal interpretation - often though tinted lenses) you are not only arguing that two men cannot be simply very good friends without harbouring romantic feelings for each other, you are also denying John of his own self-proclaimed identity.

The Bad Side of TJLC

(The previous paragraph is also relevant to this section and thus again I must state that whilst shipping two characters is fine, outright ignoring their identity and labelling them yourself is not.)

On paper, TJLC (The JohnLock Conspiracy) is not too harmful, you can speculate as much as you want. Where it becomes harmful is where people delve into the realm of delusion. There are many TJLCers who wholeheartedly believe that Johnlock is already canon or has to be canon and it is these people who appear to harbour the strongest negative beliefs about the recent episode and who are doing the most damage to this community.

I have seen countless posts recently along the lines of the following: 'clearly we know more than Moftiss’, 'how could they not see it was so obvious’, etc. Such arrogance as to your own beliefs is extremely harmful to the wider community. You do not know more than the creators of the show, the show is as they intended it to be - anything that you find within the show (with your TJLC-tinted glasses) that supports your predetermined theory is simply you putting two and two together and making five. It was not intended and therefore not symbolic of your beliefs and so your interpretation is no more than that - an interpretation not fact.

Believe it or not, for those of us not in the TJLC community, JohnLock was not obvious - for someone like me, when I first heard of this ship and TJLC I was incredibly surprised because I saw no romantic connection whatsoever - just two friends; and that was all that they were intended by the creators to be. If you were aware of the cast and crews comment of the subject and still deluded yourself into believing that TJLC was true - that was on you. No one else is to blame for your beliefs not lining up with the facts of the show.

Your ship does not rule this fandom and you do not speak for the whole fandom so those of you saying they didn’t give the fandom what they wanted - you are wrong. They didn’t give you what you wanted. You don’t speak for me and you don’t speak for the countless others like me who actually enjoyed the episode and/or are not in any way JohnLock shippers.

Sherlock Holmes and the Delusion of the Fake Episode

For those of you who still believe in some way that the episode was a fake one, that a  new episode will come out and say that it was all a dream etc. Again, you are deluding yourself and this is not healthy and will only lead to disappointment. It is what it is. Failure to accept reality for what it is and move on from there, living in a constant state of denial is a serious problem.

I have so much more to say and honestly not the words to say it without going off onto too much of a tangent right now. I may add continuations (in fact I most likely will once I can formulate sentences again) to this if I think of anything.

I know that one post on Tumblr isn’t going to make a whole lot of difference and the fractures in this community may never heal but I honestly could not hold this in any longer.

You are welcome to ask questions or for clarification on any point made or any point you wish me to address.

Can we stop demonizing the need for young doctors to take time off after difficult shifts? I mean its even in the frickin law book that after 24hour long shift we should go home so we dont cause any harm to patients
I know there is this “open agreement"that without saying a word we stay at work even if working already for 24hours. (But for the other 8 working hours we are paid only the first three).
So no, i wont be staying today thank you very much.
I went home and literally dropped dead into my bed.
You might think that i am weak or not build for this kind of job but i feel…hollow.
One more patient saying that he or she had The flu two days ago but now they feel fine and i might LOSE IT.


This is a (VERY LATE) holiday fic for my non-fandom writing group SS, flutterby_cupcake_26 on AO3.

It’s SoMa. It’s sweet, sad, and sappy. I hope you find some enjoyment even if it’s not your fandom or pairing, and I’m so so so sorry for being the worst latest SS EVAH!

Thanks go to @sahdah for the eyes, the film suggestion, and also for doing a silly awesome thing when we talked about no shave November.

Sahdah’s no shave November post can be found here.

Read on AO3 or FFN.

Fuck no shave November, that’s all he has to say. Fuck no shave November, fuck Black Star for goading him into that ridiculousness, and most of all, fuck Maka for being so damned earnest, and so damned cute when she’s so damned earnest that he never has the heart to say no when it actually matters to her. Not that he really denies her anything much ever.

No, really, fuck Maka. He wishes. Which is probably the reason he’s in this mess. Well, more like sappy, gross, sentimental feelings. Refer back to that whole generally-forgets-the-word-no-when-she’s-around thing.

The girl is definitely trouble.

With an exaggerated sigh, Soul scowls at his own face in the mirror. Yeah, alright, he’s got a nice, full, white beard since he’d been too lazy to shave it off right away. And his usual mop of white hair under the silly red velvet cap. And a soft red suit now stuffed at the belly. So maybe he can pass for pop culture Santa, except the whole red eyes and mouth full of oddly sharp teeth that make him look more like Satan than Santa–hey, only a few letters off, really.

He grimaces at his own reflection, and actually, that’s better than the scowl that would surely send kids screaming for the hills. Makes him look just that bit less like the devil posing as jolly old Saint Nick.

“So are you coming out?” A voice calls from the other side of the dressing room door. Is he? No. Definitely no. Being seen in public this way, even in a lame costume shop smack in the middle of a run down strip mall, is surely some form of social suicide, good bye cool, goodbye dignity, goodbye self-respect.

“Yeah, whatever,” he says instead with another exaggerated sigh, his inability to say no to the girl on the other side of the door biting him in the ass for the umpteenth time this month alone.

Taking that last step to the door, Soul twists the knob and haltingly swings it open.

Ah, there she stands, his reason for the season, his cruel, cruel mistress, leaned so casually against the wall that he might be looking for new jeans rather than sealing his social suicide. Not that he’s ever been much for people. Goodbye, cruel world!

“Oh my god, Soul, you look–you look–”

Her grin is stretched so wide across her face that he’s sure it has to hurt, green eyes sparkling, and his heart does loop de loops in his chest cavity. Yes, Maka is trouble and he is in trouble, as usual.

“–Ridiculous?” Soul says before she can, the scowl firmly back in place in spite of the way her smile does funny things to his insides.

“I was going to say ‘adorable,’ but just at the moment, with that sour puss, you look like you want to maim me.”

Well, he sort of does. Not maim, but mark, maybe. Touch definitely. Then again, he always wants that with her, the unobtainable, so that’s easy enough to tamp down on. No, even more than that, just at the moment Soul wants to wither and die, or maybe disappear, anything to diminish the humiliation he feels as two teen girls trying on some sort of skimpy elf get ups come out from another dressing room and start giggling his way.

“Whatever.” He shrugs as Maka glares at the girls, and unlike his scowl, that sends them scampering back into their dressing room. Go figure.

“I told you this wouldn’t work–can we go now?”

“It’ll work if you can refrain from glaring at the world for a whole hour of your life.” She saunters up and puts a hand on his chest, stroking the material of the fuzzy red coat. Maka herself has donned an elf costume–short festive dress, pigtails, ears. She looks adorable. His scowl softens considerably at her proximity.

“Doubtful.” Soul offers her a flat stare.

“Do it for the kids?”

This earns her an eyeroll even if he knows she knows that yes, he is a marshmallow on the inside, and yes, he would indeed humiliate himself to make sick kids smile even if no one else on the planet but her might realize that. Well, maybe Wes, but he’s not here to back her claim.

“Then do it for the reward?”

“Reward?” He’s already going to do it and they both damn well know it, but hell, may as well get something for the trouble and complete loss of cool.

“Mmm hmmm,” she hums and smiles sweetly. “I’ll bake your favorite cookies.”

Maka’s a good baker and pretty much never bakes. His stomach rumbles at the thought. “It’s a start,” he mutters.

“And…” Her hand continues to stroke at the material of the red coat.


“I’ll let you pick the movie tonight. Any movie, and I won’t say a word. Or retaliate.”

Well, that’s also something. It’s not his turn, and even when it is, if Soul picks something he knows Maka won’t like, she will pick the worst historical romance bullshit she can find the week after. There’s only so much coy flirting he can take, really, and the trite classical scores always give him childhood flashbacks he could do without.

“Getting warmer,” the concession is grumbled.

And, I’ll rub your back while we watch the movie.”

Ding ding ding we have a winner! Movie, cookies, and backrub with Maka. She’s hit the trifecta, and fuck it all if that sly smile doesn’t say she knows it.

Well, then.

“Fine, you win,” he grumble-sighs, and it’s only half for show because while he dreads the next hour, he has an evening of bliss ahead of him.

In the end, Soul supposes, an hour of Santa suit purgatory is a small price to pay.

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I re-watched this episode 2 days ago for inspiration for this week’s spnhiatuscreations prompt. I didn’t notice it the first time I watched the episode because I was too excited about the Sam and Dean hug after so long. But if you look closely you can see that they hardly look at each other directly through this whole exchange. Like they know they wouldn’t be able to hold it together if they look into each other’s eyes. I just love that almost more than the hug itself because it tells you so much about how they are feeling and their bond without having to say any words.
It’s one of those exchanges that make you forget they are characters on a show and you feel like you witnessed something so real. I don’t know. These two are always so amazing at portraying the emotional stuff. 

anonymous asked:

What's your opinion on camrens relationship? Friends with unspoken crushes on each other? purely sexual? Romantic? Just friends?

I think they had a real relationship, but things would blow up quick and they’d break up, but then accidentally start hooking up again without really talking about it. I don’t think they ever really needed to.

I think Camila was pretty blatant about that part when she said:

“Kisses are the best form of communication. It is your chance to say everything words can’t express. When you’ve feel weak and fragile and you’ve given them so much of your heart they could break it at any second say it..‘Kiss slowly, kiss softly’ fingers running through their spine, face, between hands. When you feel like you’re on fire- like no matter how close you are to each other you’ll never be close enough. Say it. Hands running through hair, desperate kisses, laughter in their mouth, but trust me…kisses are better than poetry.”

I think a lot of Camren’s relationship circled around physicality and just being their with each other whilst they could be.

I’m really bothered by the way a lot of male body positivity posts are worded. They’ll start out great, like, “Men who are fat are just as sexy and desirable and men who aren’t!” “Not being masculine doesn’t make your body any less amazing!” etc.

And then, suddenly, they start saying bullshit like “Women have no idea how hard it is to be judged for your body,” “Men have it so much harder than women; feminists just don’t get it,” etc.

And it’s like…. why? Why can’t you compliment men without tearing women and feminism down?

And the other thing that bothers me is they usually focus on men who aren’t getting it nearly as bad as many more marginalized men. They’ll focus on tall, lean, white, cis men and ignore the challenges that men who aren’t those things face. I mean, body positivity for women does the same thing, but I still don’t like it.

I just feel men deserve to feel good about themselves and their bodies, without having their pain used against others. Like, men deserve so much more than to feel like they only have value if you compare their struggles to what women face.

Men’s bodies are awesome. They deserve to be celebrated. Fat men, trans men, intersex men, men of color, every man you can think of deserves to know he’s amazing and his body is incredible.

But turning men’s positivity posts into a gotcha against women and feminism doesn’t do anything to help men. Can’t men get the positivity they deserve without the bullshit?

Our Space (Suga X You)

Tbh i was stuck on how to write for this one for a while and I think it turned out pretty well. Sorry for the wait. I hope you guys like it.

-Admin Nan

I stared at my boyfriend restlessly as he continued to busily have his hands typing away on his laptop, working on a new project he had going for his job. He has spent day and night either at the building working or at home working. I haven’t really got to spend time with him or seen he take a break at all recently. Work was all that has been on his mind.

“Maybe you should take a break, “ I suggested to my workaholic boyfriend.

“Nope, no can do. I got too much going on,” he said focusing his eyes on his laptop.

“You’ve been working all week. You need some time off. At least get some of the other guys to do it with you, I mean you shouldn’t be doing it alone.”

“I’m not alone, the guys are working. Plus this my job, I should be doing this stuff, ok,” he argued.

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[TRANS] ‘WINGS’ - Jungkook Thanks To

My one and only family under the sky
Mom, dad, hyung
Forgive me if I normally act nonchalant, I’m not like that insideㅋㅋ
I’ll call often and send lots of photos. Even if I don’t listen to you, I’m still mom and dad’s son
Thank you for always give me strength, I love you
And Jeon Sergeant… Nah you can just sufferㅋㅋㅋ
I’m kidding, you’ll be discharged soon. Before you’re discharged, go out and think about what you’ll do
I hope we can have a meal together soon

Bang Shihyuk PD-nim, I’m really happy to have such cool concept this time as well! I’ll promote diligently! Thank you!
Vice-president Yoojung, sometimes you would listen to our concerns and silently support us, that give us a lot of strength. Thank you!
Director Seokjoon, thank you for telling us plenty of things and teaching us whenever we perform! I won’t miss important stuffs and will work harder.
Director Shinkyu, seems like I didn’t get to see you a lot these days. I hope I can see you more often while promoting! Let’s go eat something tasty again!
Director Lee Hyuk, every time you greet us with your warm voice, all my worries seem to vanish awayㅋㅋ Let’s meet again soon!
Director Chaeeun, I can’t see you frequently but your pose is no joke, you gave me bread too. I ate that one deliciously! Thank you! ㅋㅋ

Manager hyungs who join us everyday. Chief Hobeom who looks remarkably tired lately, you have to gather with 7 of us Bangtan and have a meal!
Reliable Sejinie-hyung who’s becoming even more reliable! Thank you so much for staying beside us like this!
Jungilie-hyungnim who’s flying around lately ㅋㅋ Hyung’s really funny and interesting, and drive well tooㅋㅋ
Thank you for staying beside us! Let’s continue to go together
Yoonjae-hyung who would sometimes pop up and calm us down with his friendly voice just like Flying Merry ㅋㅋ
Minhyukie-hyung, Kwangtaekie-hyung, Soonhakie-hyung, the hyungnims who work really hard, who say they would wait for us even until late night, you went through a lot. Thank you!
Assistant manager Sungseok, although I don’t get to see you a lot, thank you for working so diligently! It’s been hard for you!
Team leader Hyukki, chief Jaehoon, Eunjung-noona, Eunsangie-hyung from Management Support team, thank you for teaching me one by one even though there are still many things I don’t know. It looks like you have a lot going on your minds, you all worked hard!
Woojung-noona, Surin-noona who sometimes stay behind until late to work and are constanly having more work, it’s a good thing but my tears are all welling up. Noona, hwaiting!
Hyunji-noona, Bunhong-noona who stick around until very late. Seems like it’s like that almost every day, aren’t you working too hard? You’re the best.
Sunghyunie-hyung, hyungnim~ Thank you for dressing us up with cool outfits this time too. I’m not interested in clothes so I don’t know that well but anyway, they look cool ㅋㅋ!
Hyunjoo-noona, Sunkyung-noona who worked hard even till the dawn! Thank you so much, really! Let’s play Anipang some time soon. I’ll let you win.
Gabriel-hyung, the hyungnim who has such artistic slosh hairㅋㅋ You worked hard too, I want to try that hair once before I die.
Seulie-noona, the link between us and ARMY, who work hard and readily, you’re the best!
Nayeob-noona, Yoori-noona, the two people I always run into whenever I’m at the company! Thank you for doing many things for us!!!
Team leader Heesun… Although normally I don’t see you around much..! I know you’re working really hard for us and the company! Fighting!
Hayan-noona, Hayan-noona who work so hard to the point her dark circles droop down to the chin! You went through a lot, but please quickly teach me English and Japanese!ㅋㅋ
Jinah-nim, Kyungjin-nim, Sungho-nim, Hyeyoung-nim, I don’t know you guys that well but I know you’re working hard for the company and us! Hwaiting!

Seolhee-noona, I don’t see you much lately! If we get busier I’ll see you a lot right?! ㅋㅋ Noona worked hard too!
Sunjung-noona, every time I see you, my memories back from the trainee days come back. It was tough but come to think of it now, they’re good memories! It’s been hard for you.
Mijung-noona, Yeonhee-noona, Seungwoo-nim, Hyunryung-nim, Hyewon-nim, we don’t meet much these days..! You’ve suffered a lot to guide us little guys to the right path. Please take care of us in the future as well!
Changwonie-hyung, the hyungnim who stayed up late to mix songs for us! Thank you for the blueberries, Gunnuts and lemons! You’re the best ㅋㅋ
Jooyoungie-hyung, Bosungie-hyung, Wooyoungie-hyung, the hyungnims who go back and forth and work so hard! Please take care of our songs in the future too..!
Team leader Jedong, yes! Leader! You’ve worked hard! Take strength from us and cheer up even more! Fighting!
Teacher Sungdeuk, the best choreographer! I’m looking forward to see which cool choreography will come out next! Please create lots of cool choreography in the future too!
Head of Department Hajung, Hyesoo-nim, Chaewon-nim, Seoyeon-nim, Yeonhwa-nim, noonas had gone through a lot..! Thank you for staying with us even until the dawn.
I hope we will continue with each other in the future too. I have something to say, noonas are tired enough so please don’t take the luggage when I’m carrying them.
I can at least help you that much.
Head of Department Dareum, Hyunah-nim, Seolji-nim, makeup artists!!! Thank you for making our eyes, noses, lips look this cool! It’d be great if we can continue to work together in the future too!
Seems like the two of you are Anipang masters. Head of Department Naejoo, Head of Department Jihye, Jinyoung-nim, hair masters!!! Thank you for styling every strand of our hair with all your hearts!!! I hope we’ll continue to work with each other in the future as well!
Director Lumpens, director Hyunwoo!! You went through a lot! It seems like you have to think a lot and your shoulders, arms hurt as well, but it is really awesome!
Thank you so much, I think directors and us have become destiny now ㅋㅋ
Head of Department Rinyong, thank you for taking beautiful pictures for us this time! I saw how much you put your passion into them! Thank you so much! You’ve worked hard!

I don’t know if hyungs would read this. But I’ll write it anyway. I feel really good that we’ve come together to this position. There are still many mountains to climb in the future
I hope we can help each other and together reach that peak. I think that our bodies may be 7, but our minds are one (although thinking of this, it seems weird). If we each look at different directions, our bodies wouldn’t know how to act
So in the future, let’s all look at one place and continue to go up for as long as we can
We will all know where that place is

Your existence is something I’m so grateful for, to the point it’s such a pity and an upset, that there isn’t any word in this world to show how grateful I am other than “thank you”!
Can human’s heart even be this tough?
You give me so much love that I probably won’t even able to receive any more in my next life
This may sound like an exaggeration but how do you guys feel about thisㅎ
I say this all the time but really, without you, there won’t be us, or something like that
I want to be someone’s great man, I want to be your eternal singer
So I can’t lose you guys
If you go further away, I’ll pull you closer. I don’t know how to do it, or if it works or not, but I’ll try to not let go of you
Again, thank you and I love you.

Jin | Suga | J-hope | Rap Monster | Jimin | V

It’s Fine.

Scott Summers x Reader

A/N: Not requested, but this just sort of happened. Also, sorry I’ve been kind of slow about requests, I’m trying to get two different longer fics off the ground at the moment, but I should pick up the pace again soon

Scott Summers is your best friend. You know you’re supposed to love him, not be in love with him. You know that’s not how it’s supposed to go, but that’s how it goes for you. And it’s fine. Truly. Most days you can almost ignore the way his smile makes your head spin, or the way your throat tightens whenever he slings an arm over your shoulders. It’s fine. You’re fine.

Today is not most days, though. You’re in Scott’s room, the maths assignment you had been working on long abandoned by now. He’s sprawled over his bed, his feet kicking at the headboard and you’re sitting on the floor, propped against the side of his desk. He’s telling some story or other about Jean, which you’re not listening to. You’re trying to ignore the way his face lights up when he’s talking about her and the way it makes your chest clench uncomfortably, but it’s impossible to avoid thinking about when his crush on her makes so much damn sense. Who wouldn’t prefer her over you? She’s so smart and so beautiful and they’d be so good together. You’d have to be blind to miss it. They both have the same drive, the same charismatic pull that demands attention without trying. They’d be perfect together. Even you can see it.

That doesn’t mean it’s any less painful to you.

“(Y/N)?” You’re shaken out of your reverie at the sound of your name.

“Hmm?” You look over at Scott a little belatedly, and he laughs.

“You weren’t paying attention to a word I was saying, were you?” He teases you, and you shrug guiltily.

“Sorry, I guess I’m just tired.” You say, and it isn’t a lie. You are tired, but that’s not why you weren’t listening. “Something about Jean?” You prompt him, giving him a small, tight smile, and you must not quite manage to keep your resentment from creeping into your voice, because he frowns thoughtfully at you.

“Hey, you okay? You’re really out of it, is something wrong?” He asks, and he sounds so genuinely concerned that you want to laugh, because there is so much wrong with you at the moment, and you can’t tell him about any of it.

Is something wrong? I’m in love with you.

You seem really out of it. You don’t love me back.

You okay? I thought I’d come to terms with this, but apparently not, because it still hurts.

“I’m fine.” Is all you say, your voice brittle with feigned nonchalance. “Just tired, like I said.” The words sound like an excuse even as they leave your lips, and Scott sits up, studying you with a slightly bewildered expression.

“You sure? You seem upset or something. What’s up?” He says, his voice gentle and sympathetic, and you rise abruptly to your feet, forcing back the hot sting of tears at the backs of your eyes, because you can’t be around him right now. You can’t take being his best friend today.

“I’m just not feeling too great,” You lie, fighting to keep your voice even. “I actually think I should go sleep or whatever. You don’t need to worry about me.” You say, trying desperately to reassure someone, though you’re not sure whether it’s for Scott’s benefit or your own.

“Okay. Feel better, then.” He doesn’t sound even remotely convinced, but he knows you well enough not to force the issue. You’re almost out the door when his voice stops you. “You know you can tell me anything, right? You’re my best friend.” He says, and the smile you offer him in return is more a grimace than anything else, because you refuse to let him see just how much his reassurance stings. You’re fine. It’s fine.

“Of course.” You get out, the words feeling like broken glass in your mouth, and then you shut the door behind you, tears finally spilling down your cheeks, because you knew exactly how this was going to end for you but that never meant this was how you wanted it to be, because you love him. You’re so in love with him but you’re his best friend. Nothing else.

anonymous asked:

on so many other blogs about DID, i heard "DID can only occur after chronic childhood trauma!" and also "DID is the only thing that could create systems!!!". and then, ive seen some posts that say at the end "endogenic (i think thats the word i hope its right) / natural systems dont interact!". Is a natural system a system that was created WITHOUT childhood trauma then? which one of these statements is wrong, or are they just diff opinions? (sendng twice bc tumblr eats asks)

The only way DID can occur is with repeated childhood trauma. There’s no opinion there. Pretty much any article about DID will support that, and I don’t think I’ve actually come across one that didn’t mention it as a requirement.

The presence of alters (or a system), is the defining diagnostic point for two disorders: DID and OSDD. Repeated childhood trauma is what creates the alters. A child goes though so much pain and suffering that they are unable to handle it on their own, so they dissociate, creating alters to help them bear the burden of the pain. It is believed that this happens in childhood because it is before our psyche as a person has fully integrated. If the trauma happens after that, then that extreme level of dissociation can’t happen. Dissociation and other dissociative disorders and symptoms can happen at a later age, but they do not include the presence of alters (i.e. depersonalization or derealization). There are some other disorders that have symptoms similar to that of having altars (like a misplaced sense of self, varying “selves” etc.) but they do not have the distinct altered states that DID/OSDD have. This is why it is important to get a professional opinion, because it can get confusing to try to figure things out on your own.

Someone who is a traumagenic system, and does not want non-trauma “systems” to interact with them is well within their rights to ask for them not to interact.

Someone who claims to be a “natural system” or “endogenic system” believes that they have formed a system without trauma, or if they’ve experienced trauma, that it didn’t influence the development of their alters. I personally have a problem with this. There is no reason why a healthy functioning brain would need to dissociate itself from reality and create alters. That being said, I think that there are some people (especially here on tumblr) who do not remember their trauma, and therefor think they are an endogenic system. It is okay to have a system and not remember your trauma. It can take a lot of time to work through trauma memories. But, to me, it is absolutely not okay to enter spaces for trauma victims and act like you have symptoms of a very serious disorder when you haven’t experienced the pain that goes with it. This disorder is not a game. It isn’t fun. I have come to love my alters through a lot of hard work and processing a lot of trauma. And my work isn’t done. Seeing people make light of my illness makes me angry.

I hope this answered your question. Sorry for the long answer but I just wanted to be clear about things.

- Kayla

ishqbaaz 29.03.13 lb

me, waiting for ulhas to get into his fulllllll ghaati form today like… 

  • lmao, even his tadi waala music is ghaati. 😂😂😂
  • me trying to avoid at looking at nakuul with the non kanji eyes to avoid scaringgggg myself: 
  • there so much stuff hanging off him, lord. bas ek nazar battu nimbu mirchi ki kami hai. 😕😕😕
  • oh kameeni, why are you so awful???? bechaara mahi (ve!) 😥😥😥
    • i can’t say the word “mahi” without adding “ve” after it. i can’t. i am physically incapable. 😕😕😕
      • also, name change notification: from now on, ulhas shall be referred to as “MAHI VE” 🙃🙃🙃
    • maushi isn’t taking any of their shit. 😶😶😶
    • wait what, 20k rent for A KHOLI IN A CHAWL????? ARE YOU KIDDING ME? that better be like months and months worth of unpaid rent, and not a single month’s rent. 😯😯😯
      • for those who aren’t familiar with what a chawl is: it’s a line of single rooms (each called a “kholi”) in an apartment block kinda thing. think something like a school, but with miniscule rooms, about 200 - 300 sq feet or so. the rooms serve as all purpose; fulfilling the need of kitchen/living room/bedroom. the bathrooms are shared public bathrooms outside the kholi. entire families (mostly lower working class) live in that one single room. 
    • oufffffffff oh aiiiwaiiii ki chillam chillli. could you women stop yelling so much? 😣😣😣
    • dang maushi got enforcer goons and shiz. 😟😟😟
      • waise, how to get into this line of work? 🤔🤔🤔 being a badass lady who commands gunde to do her bidding? just… asking for a friend. 😌😌😌
    • all of us @ random neighbour asshole who has a lot to say, though this has 0.0% to do with him: 
    • “mooh bandh kar, warna kaan ke neeche aise chitkaaunga na, tere bachche bhi behre paida honge.” 
      • lmaooooooooo, best. 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂
    • what a shitty neighbourhood. aur irony toh dekho, it’s named GOOD LUCK chawl. 😒😒😒
    • waaah, random fuckers in chawls also have khoon and khaandaan tadi. 😑😑😑
      • why are desis soooooo fucking annoying? like…. uske jaayaz ya najaayaz hone se tera kya jaata hai? tu apna dekh na, chutiye. 😒😒😒
    • mahi ve’s about to open up a can of whooopassssssssss. 🙃🙃🙃
      • and rightly so. saala bohut bolta raha tha. 😒😒😒

    THAT’S THE WAAAAAAAAAY, MAHI VE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  👋🏽👋🏽👊🏽👊🏽💥💥

    Originally posted by preitysrkfan

    • please to note that mahi ve’s a much stronger fighter than shivaay, who always needs his brothers to come help after a certain point. 😋😋😋 
    • okaaaay, he does seem to have the same degree of anger issues as shivaay though. he’s this close to murder. 😐😐😐
    • oh no. mummaaay ka chaanta. bhari public mein. shit. 😬😬😬
    • mahi ve why u be hating on pinks moms so much, when your own mummaayyy is THE FUCKING WORSTTTT? 😫😫😫
      • if i was him, i’d “take care” of real!shivaay and just move into oberoi mansion and just be happy being loved by everyone for the rest of my life. 😓😓😓
    • haaaye. bechaara mahi ve. *hugs him* 😭😭😭
    • anika’s still freaking the fuck out. and instantly my anxiety is up. girl please just take a xanax or something, before you kill both me and yourself with all this stress! 😩😩😩
    • pfffft, not even real!shivaay goes to office, and you expect me to believe mahi ve as shivaay does???? by god, 250 episodes ho gaye, aaj tak we’ve never seen this mystical “office” of shivaay’s. 🙄🙄🙄
    • mahi ve decides drown his sorrows in good ol’ bollywood fashion: DANCE BREAK!!!!! 💃🏽💃🏽💃🏽
      • good idea, because:
    • …. ok? the chawl ppl seemed to hate him though? now they’re happy to be dancing with him???? 🤔🤔🤔
    • … even the random dancing girls at the chawl have better outfits than anika. 😐😐😐
    • okaaaaaay, camera just did a kinda weird lingering shot at nakuul’s crotch. come on, i like him, but not THAT MUCH. 😬😬😬
    • anika’s being like donkey from shrek, annoying the driver with “are we there yet??? are we there yet????” 😂😂😂
    • did she see???? DID SHE SEE MAHI VE GETTING DOWN AND JIGGY LIKE SHIVAAY CAN NEVER (unless given copious amounts of Rudra’s “Special Punch”) 😧😧😧
    • if there’s a star parivaar award for ‘best pelvic thrusting 2017′, nakuul mehta definitely has it in the bag. A+, 10/10, god!level (and by “god”, i obviously mean govinda) pelvic thrusting. 👌🏽👌🏽👌🏽👌🏽👌🏽👌🏽👌🏽👌🏽
    • “cheapda kahinka!” 
      • lol girl you just jelly that shivaay never stuck his sunglasses in your choli all sexy like that. all he does is blow on your face. 🙄🙄🙄 mahi ve’s clearly the better seducer of the two. 😏😏😏
    • DID MAHI VE SEE THEM??????? 😱😱😱
    • also… bechaari khushi kumari gupta ko na jaane kya kya papad belne pade the, to find her kidnapped husband. these two have it sooooo damn easy! he just managed to wander out of wherever he was being held and find her standing riggggght there. 🙃🙃🙃
      • now that’s what you call serendipity, my friends! 😌😌😌


    *softly whispers to self* “… what the everloving fuck?????????”

    • shivaay like “shushhhhh, no, i don’t care about this fly dancing motherfucker right now; i’ve been to hell and back, give me a damn hug, wife!!!!” 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
    • how is mahi not noticing these two???? THEY’RE STANDING WITHIN SPITTING DISTANCE OF HIM. like… come on bruh. 😐😐😐
    • … pft. kameeni aur kameeni ka kameenaaaa bhaanja. to hell with both of them. bechaara mahi ve, stuck in this family of yucky ppl. 😒😒😒
      • petition to have mahi ve officially adopted by the oberois as the 4th oBro. 💗💗💗
    • ouff kameeni, you’re the worstttt. 😤😤😤
    • ok, kinda feeling the brotherly bonding between these two. what’s their (br)otp name? 🤔🤔🤔
      • i think i’ll call them “the kameena bros” 🙃🙃🙃
    • whooooo boy. and we thought only the oberois had such drama. 😕😕😕
    • like… why does she keep cursing HIM for being naajayaz?? he didn’t choose to be??? you’re the one who got knocked up out of wedlock. 🙄🙄🙄
      • is he shakti’s???? 😟😟😟
        • if yes, is he shivaay’s TWIN? or is he his older brother who has the exaaaact same face? (damn, dem some dominant genes, shakti!) 🤔🤔🤔
      • also, just wondering: does birth control just plain not exist in the ishqbaaz universe? 😐😐😐
    • heyyyy, his aaankhein are sorta kinda kanji again? 😯😯😯
    • time for tragic backstory. 😶😶😶
    • ugh these chawl ppl are truly the worst. fuck them all sideways with a cactus. 😡😡😡
    • ok, that’s the least convincing harmonica playing i have ever seen in my whole damn life. nakuul like… watch a youtube tutorial or something, my man. 😕😕😕

    • pffffffffttttt they’re 100% talking about holi celebrations. aiiiwaiiiii ka red herring nonsense. 🙄🙄🙄
      • … what about mahi ve then? where is he? did he just not come back home as shivaay that night???? or did he, and did real!shivaay stick HIM in the oberoi dungeon freezer to use for youth rejuvenating facial purposes, like svetlana is doing? 😱😱😱

    they/them/theirs pronouns. do not delete caption

    art by rommy torrico,

    and for this week:

    No nos dejen solas! A todas les pedimos que luchen con nosotras!- Comandante Ramona y Mayor Ana María. Para la ‪Comandante Ramona‬, Mayor Ana Maria and all the mujeres indigenas fuertes, bellas y luchadoras del ‪EZLN‬ and for all the indigenous women that are still fighting, resisting, surviving and fucking thriving in our countries. I will follow you till the ends of the earth. Todo para el pueblo, siempre.

    Revolutionaries die but the revolution don’t.- Yuri Kochiyama. Double whammy today (since it is the month to celebrate our API/A community and to celebrate all the mujeres) with the incredibly powerful ‪#‎YuriKochiyama‬. Everything about this woman oozes strength. In her early 20s (following the detention and death of her father, who the FBI believed was Japanese spy), Yuri was incarcerated and placed in a Japanese internment camp in Arkansas. Based on her experience of oppression in the camps, her awareness of social justice peaked and the activist vein within her started pumping hard. Once released, she moved to Harlem and as the civil rights movement started gaining momentum, her commitment to social justice deepened. From organizing boycotts as part of the Harlem Parent’s Committee in order to demand a thriving educational environment for inner-city kids, to working alongside the Republic of New Africa and other Black liberation orgs, there’s nothing she didn’t do. Her entire life was dedicated to activism, particularly focusing on denouncing US imperialism, doing organizing work to liberate political prisoners, and pushing for the US government to publicly recognize and apologize for its injustices toward the API community, specifically the Japanese internment camps. She also shared a friendship with Malcolm X (if you look at images of Malcolm’s death, you’ll see she was at his side, cradling his head when he passed). Yuri passed away last year at 93 years young. Immense gratitude and respect for your work toward liberation and solidarity. Rest in power, you radical soul

    I got my civil rights!- Marsha P. Johnson. The beautiful month of March is finally upon us, and with it comes the celebration of the mujer, past, present and future story. I wanted to start off with the powerful Marsha P. Johnson, one of the founders of STAR (Street Transvestite Action Revolutionaries) and an amazing activist. She is credited for being the first to fight back during the raid at the Stonewall Inn (which is now known as the Stonewall Riots). That was the night of her birthday. She and best friend Sylvia Rivera, worked with the Young Lords and the Black Panthers on various occasions. They also made it their mission to actively organize around QTPOC issues such as police brutality and homelessness (they created a shelter for homeless qtpoc youth and drag queens). Marsha was a black, bisexual, gender non conforming woman, drag queen, sex worker and activist. Marsha “Pay it No Mind” Johnson. Remember her name. If you didn’t know that trans women of color have always been at the frontlines of movements, now you do. Remember that. Trans women of color are most at risk of hate violence and police brutality and/or negligence. Remember that. 8 TRANS WOMEN, 7 WHO WERE OF COLOR, HAVE BEEN MURDERED IN THE LAST TWO MONTHS. REMEMBER THAT. And if your movement, or feminism or efforts of protection and liberation are not trans-inclusive or are constantly silencing and erasing the existence of trans folks OR if you are only angry when white or white-passing trans folks are being taken from us but do NOTHING when our black and brown trans siblings are being murdered, then you can get the hell out of here with that and get the hell away from me. ‪Marsha P. Johnson,‬ rest in so much power.

    We have to learn to say the word “home” without splitting our tongues.- ‪Key Ballah‬. This whole month is ‪#‎wcw‬ on my IG and it’s still Wednesday somewhere so #wcw it is. Truth time- Pooh is completely crushing on Key Ballah’s poetry. If you don’t know who Key is or if you’ve never read any of her poetry, go visit her website,, and immediately after you’ve gotten your fill of feelings for the night, mosey on over to your preferred online book dealer and buy her book (Preparing My Daughter for Rain: notes on how to heal and survive). It’ll be the best decision you make in the next couple of hours. This woman is an amazing powerhouse of poetry, emotion, beauty and magic. Hands down, she’s easily in my list of top 5 poets. All the love to you, @keyballah beautiful brown girl poet support badass artists of color always always always.

    Mira como nos hablan de libertad cuando de ella nos privan en realidad.- Violeta Parra. This is the first Chilean making a debut in my series. Anita Tijoux, Victor Jara, Pablo Neruda, Isabel Allende, Jorge Gonzalez y la gente Mapuche will also be making appearances cos you know I have to rep my tierra linda. Time to pay homage to a fellow compa, la Chilenita cantautora Violeta Parra. Violeta has to be the most important female folk singer and storyteller of Chile. This woman lived through so much and you can hear that when you listen to her music. La lucha, la desafianza y una voz desgarrante that shakes you right down to your core. Linda Violetita que se fue p'al cielo. Gracias por tu voz, tu arte (she was a visual artist, as well) y tu fuerza de amar.

    You give me the sweetest taboo, that’s why I’m in love with you- Sade Adu. ‪Sade‬ played a really big part of my life growing up. I think hers was one of the first CDs my mom ever bought when we first got to this country. I distinctly remember it being on repeat, and even though my mother didn’t have full grasp of English at the time, she still sang along as best she could. Music that makes you remember and that transports you to a specific time in your life is to be cherished. Almost 21 years later and here I am, still listening to this queen. Timeless.

    Not in the Mood for Love

    |Part 2| |Part 3| |Part 4| |Part 5| |Part 6| |Epilogue| 

    Member: Park Jimin  

    Genre: Angst and fluff (there is going to be  some swearing in this, but very minimal) 

    Word Count: 1439

    Summary: 1 argument is all it took to break off a 3 year relationship. Everything was a lie, nothing mattered anymore. Staying in your town was only killing you more and more each day so you decided to move to a new town and to a new life. You knew you wouldn’t be ready for a new relationship, you wouldn’t be able to handle any more emotional trauma. 

    A/N: Sorry I suck at summaries! This is going to be a series, but I have yet to decide how many parts. Enjoy! xx 

    Originally posted by suga-com

    3 years.

    3 years of laughter, 3 years of raw emotional conversations, 3 years of arguments and making up, 3 years of saying “I love you,” 3 years of spending almost every day together, 3 years of sharing yourself with another person, 3 years of being there for each other matter what. 3 years. What did it take to break those 3 years, 1095 days? 1 terrible argument. Your boyfriend just snapped, he couldn’t take it anymore. Apparently you weren’t enough for him, you could no longer satisfy his needs, he wanted to move on. You didn’t understand. What went wrong in those 3 years of supposedly true love? What was he thinking when you were looking at him like he was your world? What was he doing when you were pouring your heart out? Did he not feel anything in return? When did he decide that you weren’t enough?

    Keep reading

    Pay attention, my dear. I’m going to tell you the secret to getting a good boyfriend. You have to be confident.
    When you walk, don’t slouch. Hold your head up high like the princess that you are; if it helps, imagine that you wear a crown made of gold and silver and the minute it falls, it breaks beyond repair. Just so you know, you will never truly lose your crown. This is only an idea to keep you standing tall.
    When those boys you like speak to you, look them in the eye. These boys like it when you hold back; they like knowing they have power and control and I guarantee the ones not worth it will be unable to hold your gaze.
    Speak up. If they say or do something you don’t like, don’t be afraid to burn them with the well deserved words that come out of your mouth or simply leave them. You have the right to defend yourself and your values and keeping yourself in a good light is no reason to let yourself be treated like a doormat. You can still be as beautiful as you are while disagreeing; the worthy ones won’t run when you show you have some backbone.
    Tolerate no abuse. As you grow up, you will be warned about physical abuse constantly to the point of wondering just how high your chances are of coming home to us with a black eye but let me tell you something: abuse isn’t as black and white as him laying his hands on you. If he says things that make you feel any less amazing than you are, you need to leave. I don’t care how much he satisfies you, regardless of the exact way he does so. Those words are smoke, his arms are a burning house and you need to escape immediately.
    Know your worth. If you need a reminder of who you represent, look at your mother and the way she radiates beauty without even trying. I don’t know how she does it. What I do know, is that you can do more. You can be more than anything I or your mother could ever be. Never forget that you are capable of anything you put your mind to. Never forget that you are precious.
    —  Maxwell Diawuoh, How to Get a Good Boyfriend

    My head is full of uncertain thoughts and my heart is heavy to the point, I don’t want to feel anything. After that incident, I often caught myself staring blankly, crying, praying, wishing and begging. A very closed friend and you, can only bring my senses back. I’m not saying much, yet you two never let me feel I’m alone in this fight.

    Thank you. Your words always lighten up my dark world, though we are miles away, I know we’re inside each others heart, and without any promise, we always have each others back. I love you, I know you both are loving me unconditionally, so do I.

    In my silence, you heard me the most.

    anonymous asked:

    I have so much fucking respect for you. So fucking much respect. I read your FAQ and you are so mature for your age, or so you seem. I still can't believe it. And I absolute adore how you immediately decline any photos of BTS that were taken without their say. I love you so much. And your way with words... Your text posts about Jimin makes my heart flutter. I fucking love you I can't stop cursing. You're one fine human being and Jimin AND Yoongi are lucky to have you as their stanfan AND BTS.

    this message is incredibly moving, i’m so touched, thank you so much! personally i’m just not comfortable sharing photos of the boys that were taken without their permission in their private time. they need their space as much as any other person and i know that if it happened to me i wouldn’t be comfortable in the slightest. you should treat people the way you wish to be treated. i’ve been asked a surprising amount of times if i would share the photos due to them being low quality now that i do run a low quality blog, but i cannot tolerate such behavior so i had to add it to my faq page. once again thank you so much for your kind words!