they are so angry can u feel it

i hate bein adhd bc my emotions r out of control, always. like being sad sucks cuz it always feels like im in a black pit of despair. being angry is shitty bc ill need to go on a 10 hr rant before i calm down. being excited???? simultaneously exciting AND terrible. being excited is EXCITING only if you’ve got nothing to do. otherwise being excited is this never-ending plea with ur brain to just calm down so u can live ur life but instead its like a bouncy ball got released into ur head and wont stop bouncing around long enough for u to focus and catching the ball is nigh impossible

  • family: we support u in ur recovery that entails you not locking up ur emotions all feelings are okay!!
  • me: *shows an emotion*
  • family: calm down lol its not all about you you know honestly we dont know what to do with u when ur like this so dont blame us if we accidentally say ur too much for us to ur face bc nobodys perfect!!! oh so u mean its only okay for you to get upset you can get upset even if you dont have BPD its not always worst for u we're feeling very uncomfortable and provoked by your mood disorder tbh like please at least try to calm down we all have to work on this together if u get angry u have to let us express how annoying that is for us or youre being unfair!!!!

When you fuck up, and someone points out how you fucked up, no matter how upset you feel about it, take a step back and deal with your fuckup and your feelings separately.

Your apology should be about what you did wrong and how you plan to be better in the future. Thank them for telling you and giving you the chance to realize how messed up it was. You can say you regret your choice.

Your feelings of guilt/embarrassment/etc need to be handled s e p a r a t e l y.

Don’t demand that a person you just hurt comfort you through your feelings about the situation. Don’t expect them to immediately look past what you did - and the hurt it caused them - to reassure you and make you feel less bad about it. Definitely don’t give a half-assed or nonexistent apology and then attack them for causing you to experience a negative emotion.

Just apologize. Process your feelings about the situation separately with someone who agrees to that, who’s not involved in the situation.

And when you do, don’t make yourself out to be a victim there, either. It’s okay to say “What I did was wrong. Being told I was wrong brought up all these feelings I need to process and understand so I can be better.” You don’t have to make the people you hurt sound like bullies to justify being upset.

dont rb unless u have a cluster b PD
  • someone: hey! uh i noticed that u made a mistake/have this flaw/etc? i can help u !
  • me internally: splits, starts getting teared up, hears distinct agonized screaming in the back of my head, is suddenly ashamed of every part of myself and wants to kill them and myself, cant move or speak properly because i am so humiliated and angry
  • me externally: haha sure thanks
Dating Taehyung (V) includes

Originally posted by mvssmedia

  • he’s such a child omfg i love him 
  • he’d be so confused regarding his feelings towards you 
  • end up confiding in jimin about the girl he makes an extra effort to make laugh and be around 
  • “I think you like her, V" 
  • “should i ask her out?“ 
  • “definitely" 
  • and when he does its just the purest thing y'all i c an t 
  • taehyung is romantic af dont lie 
  • he’ll get you a flower when confessing
  • and you’d wouldn’t be able to stop smiling cause hes just so sw E E T
  • speaking of smiles 
  • box smiles for d a y s
  • you’d do what ever you could to make him smile cause it just makes you weak asf 
  • along with his puppy eyes you’re just completely under his spell
  • and he knows this 
  • “hey Y/N can we get this, please”
  • “no, thats expensive”
  • *insert puppy eyes and box smile* 
  • please?
  • “urgh fine" 
  • speaking of expensive 
  • G U C C I 
  • gucci everything hoe 
  • he’d buy you gucci toothpaste if he could 
  • he’s so into skinship 
  • he’ll hold your hand in public
  • and kiss you 
  • but only on the cheek
  • cause lips kisses are reserved specially for your alone time 
  • V doesnt strike me as the jealous type 
  • but if he’s feeling insecure about a guy he’ll straight up ask you about it 
  • no beating around the bush 
  • Tae is not one for getting angry 
  • but when he does
  •  ooohhh boi is it hot asf
  •  his voice drops like 3 octaves 
  • you once got into an argument with him and his voice dro P P ED and you just had to take a fucking moment cause 
  • d a m n 
  • I feel like he can switch from big spoon to little spoon
  • but mostly big spoon 
  • DATES WITH V ARE CUTE ASF 
  • dates to places like the park
  • or the zoo 
  • y'all dont even have to go out 
  • building forts out of pillows and duvets on a quiet sunday when it’s drizzling outside 
  • Tae will always buy you cute jewellery if he sees it 
  • you have like 4 necklaces, 6 rings and like 184738 bracelets 
  • you make V weak asf when you’re in his clothes
  •  you once wore a hoodie that was even big on him
  •  he saw you and could not stop smiling and laughing to himself
  •  "wow my honey is so cute”
  • he’s rapping like all the time
  • he’ll do it subconciously while washing dishes or something
  • he’ll rap about anything tbh
  • when will he feature on cypher im waiting
  •  HE LOVES KIDS LIKE HE LOVES OXYGEN OKAY
  •  he wants like 5 kids
  •  and maybe 10 dogs aswell idk
  •  hella family oriented
  •  pIGGYBACK RIDES
  •  lots and lots of backhugs 
  • he rests his chin either on your head or shoulder when he hugs you from behind 
  • LMAO you cant rest your chin on either cause mans tall asf
  • so you just end up with your arms wrapped around him and your face buried in his back
  • inside jokes for d a y s that leave you guys a giggling mess
  • lowkey annoys the other members when you suddenly burst out laughing about something
  • probably salty that they don’t have a significant other to have inside jokes with lmao 
  • i heard someone sAY TICKLE FIGHTS
  • always end up with you pinned on the floor a laughing mess cause V is way stronger than you and you’re ticklish everywhere
  • his hands just tickling you on your neck and stomach 
  • he blows raspberrys on your stomach cause it makes you laugh even harder
  • sometimes they can lead into small kisses leading up slowly to your neck then eventually your mouth
  • slow and long kisses leave you all soft and loved
  • but sometimes depending on his mood his kisses are fast and teasing asf
  • leaving you begging him for more
  • and then there are his o t h e r type of kisses that leave your lips a swollen and bruised mess 
  • those kisses always end up travelling down your neck, leaving hickeys behind
  • lowkey your favourite type of kiss tho
  • right y'all 
  • time for s I N
  • we all know tae doesnt even bother keeping his tongue in his mouth on a normal basis 
  • so when times like this come his WILL use it
  • and use it extremely well
  • sometimes he doesn’t have to get his dick involved to make you come 
  • V’s into foreplay pass it on 
  • dont get V twisted
  • he can be rough as hell if he wants to be
  • and that deep voice of his
  • whispering impure thoughts and desires
  • him calling you baby with that deep voice of his 
  • “come on baby, grind for me”
  • okay wO W 
  • moving on 
  • afterwards he’ll cuddle you so tight and tell you how much he loves you, his beautiful hands playing with your hair
  • hands down a relationship with V will make you feel like a child again
  • so youthful
  • so hopeful
markhyuck au where

mark is a real estate agent trying to sell a house that has been unoccupied for years but donghyuck (the ghost who haunts it) won’t let him.

warning
: very long post / aged up!markhyuck 

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i wrote this bc i had to get this out of my system - yall can keep scrolling if u dont like markhyuck !! ALSO i have z e r o clue how the real estate industry works so this is probably super inaccurate

ok so:

  • no one wants to buy this property bc its apparently haunted by a ghost
  • mark thinks thats just stupid
  • hes just trying his very best n rly wants a promotion !!
  • so his boss (obviously taeil bc we love a moon taeil managing a real estate business) offers to give a raise n promotion to anyone that can sell the house bc the last dude that tried to got so close but the couple pulled out last min after hearing abt the rumours
  • mark thinks he is aBSOLUTELY FULLY CAPABLE of selling this house so he tells his boss he wants to give it a shot
  • taeils like r u sure you’ve only been working here for 6 months
  • n mark lee’s all hell yea i got this thats why rumours around the world are saying mark is abs-
  • so boss man’s like aight ill leave this task to you 
  • everyone else in the office is all :000000
  • sicheng the cute intern is all ARE YOU SURE ABT THIS MARK in his broken chinese n he’s all cute and worried and its the first time the others have heard him speak this much
  • jaehyun his bff in the office is like good luck man bc he once tried selling it too but whimped out after encountering so called ghost
  • so anyways mark has to go inspect the property the next day
  • he gets given the keys yadda yadda
  • when he turns up to the house (which, mind you, is a very nice house located on the outskirts of town by a little lake) and opens the door he hears a loud “WHO GOES THERE”
  • and mARK FREAKS TF OUT
  • like he legit jumps n he’s pretty sure he almost peed himself n hes sso oso scared but then he remembers his mission and that he’s not going to turn out like the rest and he w I L L sell this house 
  • so he loosens his tie with a d e t er m i n e d face and enters the home
  • “whos there!! show yourself!” 
  • he thinks he sounds pretty fierce but it actually came out a quiet squeak
  • anyways it’s silent for a bit and mark’s like super wary as he closes the door behind him
  • “LEAVE THIS HOUSE IMMEDIATELY!!!” and suddenly theres a picture frame thrown at the wall
  • mark panics again and he’s so close to running out but he stays determined!!! bc!! fully capable mark!!
  • “no i have to sell this house and i won’t leave until i do so!!”
  • and it just goes silent again until the voice speaks up again
  • “who are you”
  • “i, um. mark?”
  • “you sound unsure”
  • “well. i mean, would you kill me for being a little nervous? jheesh”
  • he looks around. where is the voice even coming from? it projects through the entire house like its on speaker
  • mark’s not sure where he got this sudden confidence from but he feels a lot less scared than before so he just loosens his tie and walks around the house with his clipboard, doing his lil inspection
  • the ghost? spirit? whatever it is doesn’t say anything and mark just shrugs and carries on with his business and before he knows it an hour has already passed
  • “hey spirit” he calls out
  • and it’s like silent for ages
  • so he just shrugs and he’s about to leave when
  • “you can’t sell this house. it’s mine”
  • and mark just stops at the door and he can’t help but feel a lil sad at the spirit’s sad tone bc it probably has like so many memories in the house and it probably hasn’t crossed over or whatever (he’s not sure how the whole supernatural thing works but he’s watched ghost whisperer before)
  • the last thing mark says before he leaves is “i’ll be back tomorrow and you better be gone”
  • he thinks he hears the spirit scoff but maybe its just his ears
  • honestly mark has a hard time believing all of this and he goes to bed that night wondering h o w he’s going to deal with this situation
  • anyway mark turns up the next day and this time the spirit doesn’t seem as hostile 
  • that being said it continues to threaten mark and starts moving objects around
  • but honestly mark (and his newfound confidence) only rolls his eyes as makes a list of the repairs that need to be done (bc deep down he doesnt believe any of this is actually happening)
  • so they fall into a routine
  • mark keeps coming back and the spirit keeps threatening him
  • sometimes it tries to sabotage his work by moving things around 
  • mark’s gotten so used to it that he literally just sighs like “give it back”
  • the spirit actually listens to him and does
  • eventually they start talking more 
  • mark’s found out the spirit’s name is donghyuck but that’s all the information he knows 
  • he thinks it’d be inappropriate to ask stuff like “oh so how did u die” so they just end up having the most random conversations
  • “make sure you paint the hallway walls blue. the mustard yellow is so outdated”
  • “you’ll leave and let me sell the house if i paint them blue?”
  • “i never said that”
  • and mark ends up spending more time at the house than necessary
  • so one day jaehyun pulls him aside at work n he’s all “dude??? are u ok? you’re hardly in the office these days”
  • and mark’s like “yeah man u know its just the repairs for the house they’re taking ages”
  • jaehyun is suspicious but shrugs it off and tells him to be careful
  • taeil asks how the task is going and mark suddenly gets all nervous for no reason bc HOW IS THE TASK GOING??? he doesnt even know

  • he just gives another casual response n says the house should be ready soon for him to start bringing in clients
  • taeil just pats his back and wishes him good luck
  • when mark finishes work that evening he literally feels so down bc he literally had one j o b but here he is being all chummy with a ghost that haunts this house and its all just so messed up in his head
  • he doesnt know what makes him do it but that evening he ends up going to the house
  • “someone’s working the night shift”
  • mark just blinks in confusion at the words because what the heck. he’s meant to be here for work and this isn’t work so w h y is he here at 7pm on a friday???
  • instead he just takes a seat on the floor by the wall in the empty living area and sighs like a sad puppy
  • “what’s the matter?” donghyuck asks and his voice sounds genuinely concerned??? if anything it scares mark a bit
  • “who - no. what are you?” he finally asks
  • and then there’s silence
  • it’s literally like that for almost an hour before mark asks again
  • “are you like some kind of ghost? spirit? do you need help crossing over? i just. i really need you to leave and you’re not making my job any easier and i’m so confused and half of me doesn’t even believe any of this is real”
  • silence
  • it almost convinces mark that he really is going mad because there’s no such thing as ghosts and he’s just talking to an empty house
  • until a quiet voice says
  • “i’m neither of those”
  • mark feels so, so confused and he just ruffles his hair in frustration
  • “then what are you?”
  • “what’s your favorite color?”
  • he’s taken aback by the question 
  • nonetheless, he responds with a quiet “green”
  • “green is disgusting. red is better”
  • “red is literally the color of the devil i’m guessing thats what you are”
  • he’s expecting an angry remark but instead he’s met with soft laughter and all mark can do is smile in return
  • he ends up spending the night at the house talking to donghyuck all night
  • it’s a saturday the next day and mark is so co n f u s  e d when he wakes up to the smell of pancakes?
  • he follows the smell and finds a plate of pancakes sitting at the table with a note “i’m assuming you never ate dinner last night. eat up - D”
  • mark thinks he’s living in a dream bc did a ghost just?? COOK for him??
  • reality at this point has become so warped in his mind that he doesn’t care anymore and he starts eating
  • he hears laughter 
  • “calm down youre eating as if its your last day on earth” 
  • he sticks up a middle finger at no one in particular, hoping donghyuck will see it from wherever he is, and he’s only met with more laughter
  • when he’s finished eating and rinses his plate (which he has no idea where it came from) he’s thinking about what donghyuck said to him last night about not being a ghost
  • “donghyuck”
  • “mark”
  • for a brief moment he’s startled. it’s the first time donghyuck’s said his name and he’s not sure how he feels about it. if anything, the tips of his ears growing red must indicate a positive sign 
  • “what ar- i mean. how do yo- no. what do you look like?”
  • silence
  • he runs a hand through his hair with a frustrated sigh before leaving the house again
  • he doesn’t return for another week
  • when mark comes back, he’s with a client
  • mr johnny seo and his boyfriend chittaphon seem extremely keen in the property and want to move in despite hearing rumors about a ghost
  • mark doesn’t know whether that’s a good thing or a bad thing
  • johnny and chittaphon are into that buzzfeed unsolved kind of shit and run their own vlog series on youtube and theyre just e c s t a t i c that they might be moving into a haunted house
  • mark thinks theyre weird as shit but he wants that promo
  • donghyuck probably doesn’t mind sharing anyway
  • when he thinks back to donghyuck he feels a pang in his chest and dare he say it, he misses them? 
  • anyways
  • mark takes the couple back to the house and he feels weird
  • he can’t pinpoint what’s wrong but he just feels strange inside his chest
  • there are two things he’s learnt about johnny and chittapon:
  • one, they cant keep their hands off each other
  • and two, they can’t stop filming every waking moment of their lives
  • so when they’re following him to the house with their giant ass camera and chittaphon’s giggles, mark can only roll his eyes as he inserts the key 
  • but the door won’t open
  • mark’s confused - he hadn’t come back to change the locks so why won’t the key fit?
  • he feels slightly flustered in the presence of the couple and their camera and he laughs nervously
  • they must feel pretty bad for him because they laugh nervously too
  • mark tries again but to no avail and sighs in frustration when it hits him: donghyuck - this was clearly his doing 
  • mark clears his throat awkwardly before turning back to the couple “i’m sor-”
  • “LEAVE AT ONCE”
  • johnny and chittaphon jump back, eyes wider than saucers while mark has to c o n t a i n himself from rolling his eyes at donghyuck’s ~scary voice~
  • he half expects the couple to run away but instead johnny only begins to roll the camera once again and there’s a look of nervous excitement on chittaphon’s face
  • mark turns to the door once again and hisses “donghyuck open the door”
  • he hopes the couple haven’t heard him but judging by the looks on their faces, they have
  • “LEAVE MY HOME AT ONCE BEFORE I CURSE YOU AND YOUR FAMILIES”
  • and mark can only snort
  • johnny looks absolutely f a s c i nat e d by this point and mark groans internally before beginning to knock on the door
  • “donghyuck not cool just open the damn d o o r before i break it down”
  • there’s silence and mark takes it as his cue to try unlocking the door with his set of keys again 
  • it works and he allows the couple to enter
  • donghyuck attempts to scare the trio a few times during mark’s tour of the house by moving things around - causing johnny to drop his camera at one point and chittaphon to curse at him for bringing it because its probably broken now
  • anyway the tour goes t e rr i b ly 
  • mark is pissed
  • he’s not sure what johnny and chittaphon are feeling
  • when he sees the couple off he just shuts the door angrily and donghyuck just g i g g le s 
  • “what the fuck man did u have to do that?”
  • “i told you to leave”
  • “and i told you to leave. what is even your problem???” 
  • at this point mark’s just yelling and donghyuck doesnt seem to care tbh
  • there are a few more clients he tries to bring that week and the week after
  • they all go awfully thanks to donghyuck and by the end of the fourth week mark is on the verge of giving up
  • donghyuck on the other hand seems to be having way too much fun 
  • “can you just like, stop?” mark sighs 
  • he’s very very tired at this point and he’s considering giving the keys back to taeil and telling him he can’t do it
  • he’s picks up his blazer that he’d taken off earlier and is about to leave when he hears a 
  • “where are you going?”
  • mark just releases the loudest snort before turning to the empty walls of the house and raising a brow at nothing in particular
  • “are you kidding me? i’m done. congrats donghyuck you get to keep your damn house”
  • donghyuck doesn’t say anything 
  • - when mark shakes his head and turns to open the front door 
  • it won’t open
  • “very funny, donghyuck. open it so i can leave”
  • he’s met with silence a g a i n so he pulls the keys out of his pocket 
  • “wait!”
  • he whips his head around in confusion bc its the first time he’s heard donghyuck speak in such a desperate tone
  • he feels his ears growing red again
  • “uh.. yes?”
  • there’s a couple seconds of silence before donghyuck speaks in a quiet voice
  • “you asked me what i was right?”
  • mark just scoffs bc why is he even having this conversation at this point
  • he decides to answer anyway 
  • “like every day but sure”
  • “go to the loft” 
  • mark spends a few seconds contemplating whether he really should or not
  • he follows his gut instinct and makes his way to the loft
  • he’s only actually been up to the loft once just because it takes forever to get up there 
  • when he climbs up the ladder and looks around at the empty space he shrugs
  • “well?”
  • “go up to the bookshelf on the far left”
  • mark feels like a child being directed right now but he follows the instructions anyway
  • he feels slightly nervous and a part of him wants to escape
  • its congested up here and he can feel the back of his neck grow sweaty like he’s been waiting for this moment for ages!!!
  • a part of him wants to run out of the house as quick as possible he’s not even sure what hes expecting
  • “now um.. move that red book on the end”
  • mark’s hand is s h a k i ng at this point and he slowly does what hes been told
  • suddenly????? the bookshelf starts moving 
  • and then it hits mark
  • its a fake bookshelf thats actually meant to be a revolving door
  • mark is literally about to collapse bc he doesnt know whats waiting for him on the other side 
  • when the door finally reaches the other side all he can do is stare
  • he feels like he’s in a different world, standing in the loft which resembles an open space apartment, with a tiny window and a mini kitchen on the side, a door which leads to what he assumes is a bathroom and a small bed
  • but that’s not what catches mark’s attention
  • standing in front of him is the most b e a u t i f u l boy he’s ever seen in his entire life
  • he doesn’t look much younger than mark himself, slightly shorter with dark red hair, golden skin and the biggest chocolate brown eyes he’s seen on a person
  • mark doesn’t know how to react 
  • his mouth goes dry and the boy looks so frightened standing there in his own vicinity that mark’s afraid he’ll disappear if he touches him
  • donghyuck?
  • clearing his throat in an all too familiar voice, the boy speaks
  • “that would be me”
  • mark passes out
  • when he wakes up a while later, he’s on an unfamiliar bed and he looks around with narrowed eyes - realising that it wasn’t a dream and donghyuck is in fact a human living in a loft
  • mark looks around at the place and his jaw drops when he sees the wall opposite the bed is fULL of screens capturing cctv like images of almost every corner of the house
  • there are about three computer screens at the desk and mark is baffled
  • it looks like the bedroom of a teenage hacker 
  • “oh good you’re up. i thought you were dead” donghyuck says, walking over to him from the kitchen with a plate of food
  • mark sits up slowly, his head is aching and hearing donghyuck’s voice like this, so clear, so close to him, so soft - he thinks he’ll pass out again
  • he feels himself growing warm when donghyuck takes a seat beside him on the bed, putting the plate on his lap before getting up
  • before he can, mark grabs his wrist “wait”
  • “you probably have a lot of questions” donghyuck speaks over him
  • “well, yeah”
  • “eat up we’ve got all night” donghyuck says
  • mark hasn’t even made eye contact with the other boy yet because he can’t bring himself to
  • donghyuck is intimidatingly beautiful 
  • “i- what time is it?”
  • “9. you were out for hours”
  • “it’s been a long day” mark shrugs, taking a bite of the surprisingly good food donghyuck managed to cook up
  • so it turns out donghyuck’s family were the owners of the house but he’d been left an orphan as a teenager
  • in order to avoid being taken into social care, he made his own living space up in the loft so no one would find him - once he’d turned 18 they stopped looking for him and using his intelligent brain, he’d conjured up all the right devices to make it seem like the home was haunted by the ghosts of his family members
  • mark is baffled by the end of the explanation
  • “but the things moving around the house..”
  • “ever heard of remote controlled toys and simple physics?”
  • mark nods slowly and donghyuck just shrugs casually 
  • later on donghyuck shows mark how he’d managed to keep up this strange lifestyle of his
  • he also finds out that donghyuck is not much younger than himself like he’d predicted - there are only a few months separating them
  • mark ends up spending the weekend at donghyuck’s place
  • when it’s sunday night and mark’s getting ready to leave, donghyuck actually walks him up the front door
  • it feels weird to say the least - hearing donghyuck’s voice like this and not projecting through the speakers he had hidden behind the walls
  • he doesn’t want to admit it to himself, but donghyuck’s voice is sweeter than honey and he feels like melting every time the younger speaks to him in a quieter tone
  • “hey donghyuck” he says, once he reaches the door and turns to the younger
  • “hm?”
  • “you ever thought about just.. buying the house?”
  • donghyuck lets out a laugh
  • mark finds it condescending
  • “do you think i have the money to do that?”
  • “well since you’ve managed to maintain it so well - yeah” it turns out donghyuck does weird internet jobs from home where he gets paid a shit ton of cash through his online services - mark thinks its illegal but doesn’t want to say anything
  • donghyuck shoots him an amused smile and shakes his head 
  • just as mark pulls the handle of the door, there’s a warm hand on his and all he can do is gulp as he meets donghyuck’s nervous eyes
  • “you won’t still try to sell it.. right?”
  • mark remembers his outburst a few days ago and he sends the younger a sympathetic smile, shaking his head slowly “i won’t”
  • “thanks” and then donghyuck’s hand is gone
  • mark lowkey feels sad at the loss of warmth but it returns when donghyuck asks him in the most v u l ne r a b l e voice
  • “will you be back?”
  • “i don’t know”
  • mark tries to ignore the heartbroken expression on donghyuck’s face while he’s driving home that night
  • the next morning at work mark feels miserable 
  • mainly because it’s a monday but also bc of donghyuck
  • he’s just so conflicted and he doesnt know what to do
  • when he’s on his break and passes by taeil’s office, he hears taeil talking to one of his co-workers nakamoto yuta, a guy who transferred to the company a few months before mark joined
  • they’re talking about the house and most importantly they’re talking about mark
  • “boss just give me the house i’ll do it - i’ve already got a couple people i know who would be willing it purchase it despite the current situation”
  • “yuta you very well know this is mark’s-”
  • “boss it’s been over a month now and he’s scared off all his clients. please?”
  • there’s a pause before he hears a “alright. i’ll talk to mark tomorrow”
  • mark just p a n i c s because all he can think about is donghyuck
  • that night mark drives back to donghyuck’s place and the door is already open for him
  • “you came back” donghyuck sounds breathless - like he just ran down from the loft 
  • - mark sees sparkles in his eyes and his stomach does a backflip
  • “i came back” he repeats, the smile on his face growing
  • when he’s later sat down on donghyuck’s bed, eating the leftovers from the dinner donghyuck’s just made, mark explains his work situation to him
  • the younger boy nods, trying desperately not to let the sadness show on his face but fails
  • “hey” mark says, bringing a hand to the younger’s cheek
  • it’s weird but neither of them say anything
  • donghyuck thinks mark has the softest!! hands
  • “i won’t let them sell it” he says in the s o f t e s t voice and donghyuck wants to melt
  • instead he just scoffs and shrugs mark’s hand away
  • “if anything, i won’t let them sell it” he says and mark laughs
  • deep down they both know it’s not selling the house that’s the issue at hand; it’s mark not having an excuse to keep coming back
  • the atmosphere is weird and tense when mark leaves that evening
  • donghyuck walks him down to the door again and mark has the urge to hold has hand and tell him it’ll b ok 
  • just as mark’s about to get into his car donghyuck calls for him 
  • when mark turns around donghyuck is suddenly !! in his arms!! and wow! soft and warm donghyuck!! 
  • about a hundred alarm bells go off in mark’s head and his heart is POUNDING but all he does is bring his arms around the younger boy and tighten the hug
  • when mark arrives at his own place he thinks that donghyuck doesn’t just sound like honey, but smells sweet like it too
  • he decides honey is his favorite smell
  • the next day at work mark isn’t surprised when yuta greets him enthusiastically in the morning
  • he also isn’t surprised when both he and yuta are called into taeil’s office
  • mark has to act fast - he can’t let yuta take this from him
  • he’s been up all night thinking about this, thinking about donghyuck
  • so when taeil’s about to speak up, mark cuts him off:
  • “boss i want to purchase the property for myself”
  • both taeil and yuta’s jaws drop and he’s pretty sure he hears jaehyun gasp from outside the door - the office wasn’t exactly a large place
  •  “you want to do what”
  • yes. i’ve thought this through and yeah. as a customer, i want to buy it. i’ve already spent so much time at it it practically already feels like home” donghyuck feels like home
  • i’ve already thought about selling my place for a while now anyway - and i don’t think anyone else would be more willing to buy this house more than i am”
  • taeil and yuta stay silent 
  • eventually taeil agrees but hands over the property to yuta to sell to mark
  • when they all come to a deal or whatever mark is dragged aside by jaehyun
  • “is this why you spent so long there? you wanted it for yourself?” poor bb he is so confused 
  • mark just smiles and nods “yeah, guess i did”
  • mark doesn’t return to the house for another few days - he’s gotta tell his parents about his abrupt decision to sell his place and purchase a new one
  • since he lives in a different town from his parents, they offer to come with his younger brother jisung to help with the move out - he tells them its ok and that he has lots of helping hands here and he’ll call them over when he’s settled in
  • mark heads to the house towards the end of the week, the contract behind his back as he unlocks the door with his keys
  • “hey spirit - come out wherever you are!” he calls out playfully
  • to his surprise donghyuck’s already on his way down - trying not to smile at the sight of the man in front of him
  • “mark lee”
  • “donghyuck” he says, unable to contain his excitement as he holds up the paper in front of the younger 
  • donghyuck squints at it, confused for a moment before his eyes widen
  • “YOU DID WHAT?????////”
  • “i bought this house!” 
  • donghyuck doesn’t know whether he should laugh or cry
  • “what the hell you just bought my house?!”
  • mark’s slightly confused bc he thought donghyuck would be happy
  • donghyuck looks like he’s abt to burst into tears and mark the awkward turtle starts panicking again
  • “i - i thought it would be better than a random person buying it??” 
  • “nO because a random person would never buy this house for as long as im alive and now yOU just came out of nowhere and TOOK POSSESSION OF IT??!?!?” 
  • donghyuck’s a lil mad bc he feels like the house is all he’s got and now its gone and he’s mad at himself for letting his guard down in front of mark and getting so attached to mark and falling for mark and he doesn’t even realise he’s saying this all aloud until mark stares at him with wide eyes
  • “you what?”
  • silence
  • “you do realise not saying anything won’t work anymore since i can actually see you now, right?” 
  • silence
  • donghyuck”
  • there’s a quiet mumble “sowhatifilikeyou”
  • mark feels like he’s about to comBUST
  • donghyuck’s face is literally the color of a tomato and he just shrinks and he’s so cute mark wants to kiss him
  • so he does
  • donghyuck’s lips taste like the warmth of the summer, the confused and nervousness of their feelings, but most importantly they taste sweet - just like honey, just like donghyuck
  • when mark parts from the kiss first, donghyuck’s fingers curl softly into the material of his shirt, he presses his forehead against the younger’s 
  • “i’m sorry i did this all without telling you - i just. i did what i felt was right. this feels right, donghyuck. being with you feels right.” mark’s just so nERVOUS and half of what he says comes out so shaky until donghyuck responds quietly
  • “i want to be with you”
  • mark wants to pass out
  • this time however, he doesn’t
  • anyways~~
  • time skip a couple of weeks 
  • donghyuck moves out from the loft and they settle into the house properly
  • after much insistence donghyuck removes the cameras from around the house except for the exterior and they turn one of the spare bedrooms into a little study for donghyuck where he can do his “illegal business” 
  • mark suggests him getting out a bit more and donghyuck reluctantly agrees 
  • mark takes donghyuck out on dates to the movie theatre and out for breakfast
  • donghyuck is so nervous in public and is practically glued to mark’s side the whole time it’s adorable
  • they’re both living so d om e s t i ca l ly its sickening
  • at mark’s housewarming he tells his family and friends that he met donghyuck through tinder
  • jaehyun doesn’t believe him bc donghyuck’s voice sounds so familiar but he doesn’t know where from - he chooses to drop it though bc the couple in front of him look so happy so he goes to bother sicheng
  • ~~ 
  • “hey loser” donghyuck walks out from his study room one sunday afternoon when mark’s on the couch watching tv
  • “yeah??” mark lowers the volume
  • “cough up your rent for the month - we gotta pay the water bill cause your fatass won’t stop showering every two minutes”
  • mark almost chokes on his spit
  • me?” 
  • donghyuck nods, flopping down to take a seat beside him
  • “idk if you’ve noticed but im the owner of this house if anything you should be coughing up rent”
  • donghyuck snorts “owner in name. we all know who this house rly belongs to”
  • mark gives him the stink eye “listen you little shi-mph”
  • before he can begin his string of insults donghyuck’s already climbed onto his lap and his lips are on mark’s
  • and they live happily ever after !!!!

mochamark  asked:

park wink as your bf please? thank you💖

Originally posted by 01line

thanks for requesting!!


-definition of a gentlemen

- the type to hold the unbrella over u when its raining even if he gets wet, makes sure that u are walking on the side farthest away from cars, walks u home when its late bc hes scared of u walking alone

- secretly likes seeing u in his clothing so he leaves a lot of sweaters hanging around in hopes that he would see u one day wearing them

- once he saw u wearing his sweater and he nearly f A INTED

- help this poor boy

- he thought u were so cute and swore his heart almost stopped beating

- u were that cute

- going out shopping to buy matching items

- once suggested to have matching sweaters

- but u quickly denied it LMFAO especially when he held up a mustard yellow sweater and ur like

-honey,,,,no 

- so instead, u guys get matching phone charms!!! or lanyards w matching keychains!! ooo or those little plushies!!

- jihoon loves to buy u tiny matching keychains bc he thought it would be cute 

- but tbh u have a lot so u give some away to the members LMFAO 

- and then all of u are matching!!

- lots of cuddles!!

- likes to cuddle a lot when u two are laying down or spending time together

- when u guys cuddle, likes to give u kisses on ur neck or shoulders

- or just peppering ur face in kisses if u were on his lap bc he loves to spoil u

- so cute ok

- anyways, he likes to give a lot of hugs!!

- doesn’t matter what kind, he will hug u anytime

- but lowkey loves backhugs bc he likes to rest his head on ur shoulder and then u guys do that little waddle u know

- clingy af but knows when to back off lol

- likes to cling on to ur arms when ur purposely ignoring him or something

- ‘’why are u paying attention to ur phone?? pay attention to me instead!!”

- likes to hold hands a lot!!

- doesn’t matter if ur hands get sweaty lmao he likes to cling on to ur hands

- claims that he will love u even if u got sweaty hands lol

- date time!!

- the two of u like to go out on dates to find those aesthetically pleasing places lmao

- like cafes

- latte art!! jihoon thinks its so cool and so do u ngl 

- also, long walks in the park!!

- especially if he sees that there are people walking their dogs bc he lOVES dogs

- the type of person to stop and ask people if he can pet their dog LMFAO

- the two of u also like to have picnic on rlly nice days and invite the rest of wanna one

- mostly bc it gets wILD

- but gets jealous when he sees u having long convos w someone else and he’s not apart of it 

- the type to pout at you and get grumpy bc it should be him making u laugh not seongwoo >:(

-and karaoke battles w the rest of wanna one

- the night ends up w u and jihoon escaping bc it got too wild u were both scared that u guys would get kicked out LMFAO 

- the type to replace the shoelaces on ur shoes to different colors and tie them for u

- ‘’there!! we match now :>’’ 

- enjoys taking selfies w u and posting the cringiest captions or pick up lines lol

- also the type to judge u if u take those aesthetic pictures of ur food

- but then u end up judging him bc he does it too

- ‘’do u have to do that every time we go out?” 

- ‘’uhm excuse me?? YOURE DOING IT TOO WTF’’ 

- ‘’…..’’ 

- also the type to nap in ur lap when the two of u are watching a movie

- and demands that u play w his hair

- ‘’why are u paying attention to the movie?? aren’t i more interesting??”

- cue him pouting cutely at u ndjknfds

- and ur like

- ‘’,,,u loser’’ and u finally look at him

- and he just gives u a cute little grin and ur like

- dying

- how can a person be so cute??? the world may never know,,,

- also likes to give u lots and lots of kisses

- his kisses are, in general, the softest and sweetest in the world (in ur opinion)

- also the type to pull u close to him while he is kissing u because he likes the feeling of holding u close!!

- likes to put lots of emotions behind it bc he wants to convey what he feels through it

- gets flustered and stutters a bit when u two pull away bc he’s still relishing the feeling of ur lips on his

- and he’s like

- ‘’wOW’’

- ‘’how did i get so lucky???”

- jeojangs u a lot

- jihoon: look!!
-you:???

-jihoon:

Originally posted by woojinsus

-fights can be kinda rough w jihoon

-bc u two are still young, there can be misunderstandings and u guys get angry easily


-usually jihoon gets very defensive once u argue w him


- if it’s something dumb, he’ll scoff and roll his eyes but probably say something that makes u even angrier lmfao


- if it escalated into something more serious, u would be the type to walk out first


-mostly bc u know if u get jihoon angry, he would lose control of his filter and would say whatever what was on his mind


- and as mad as u are, u didn’t want this to go to the point where it could end up really bad

-’’u can yell as much as u want but im leaving before i will say something i regret’’

- and u just leave like boom

- but despite the harsh argument, he would be the type to go find you after cooling down 

-and wouldn’t leave u alone bc he hates when u guys drag on the argument, especially over something petty

-making up is mutual tho, the two of u talk it and see what terms u guys can agree to and fix

- in the end, the two of u reunite and spend the rest of the night cuddling away

-because really, who can resist park jihoon??

-especially w his puppy eyes that are steal your heart away? 

i.
I fear recovery
Ive lived all these years at rock bottom,
and even on sunny days when I can see the the way up
I sit and stay.
All my friends are with me and they refuse to leave,
and I dont know how to bond with someone,
if its not through mutual sadness.
So I’ll spend the rest of my life pricking my finger on the thrones of something beautiful.

ii.
And while I lay with the sinners,
I wish to be the worst of them.
We all doubt if we belong here among each other,
because someone always has it worse, right?
So we whisper to our neighbors about the past abuse,
and we hope this will make living worse,
because I can’t let them believe I am faking.

iii.
A symptom of emotional numbness they never warn you about;
You start to wish for the car your in to crash.
not so you can taste death,
but because the worst events will make you feel again.
and late at night I contemplate suicide,
because then I would pay attention to myself.
Every impulsive act has become a way to feel again,
Every impulsive act has become a cry for help form myself.

—  Its hard to say-the big three//kayla
WHY DID NOBODY TELL ME ABOUT THIS HOLBY CITY SHIT #2

BECAUSE HOLBY WAS TOO GOOD & AND I LOVE THE FANDOM SO I HAD TO WATCH IT AGAIN

-NO MY POOR BABY LOOK AT HIS EYE OH MY
- THAT BRUSH DOESNT EVEN HAVE PRODUCT ON?? HE’S PUTTING ON AIR
- THAT FUCKING DICK ISAK(??) MUST’VE HURT HIM
- YES COME ON ZOSHIA(??) FILL HIS LOCKER WITH LEAFLETS
- HOLY MOLY I NEVER NOTICED THEM CHEEKBONES THO
- ARE ITALIAN GUY™ AND CHEEKBONES™ TOGETHER???
-IS THEIR SHIP NAME ITALIAN CHEEKBONES
- BECAUSE I WILL ONLY SHIP THEM IF THAT IS THE SHIP NAME
- HANSEN IS SO FUCKING WISE AND KIND AND CARES 4 ALL DE STAFF
- “GRIEF MANIFESTS ITSELF IN MANY DIFFERENT WAYS” DID THIS FUCKER GOOGLE INSPIRATIONAL QUOTES OR SOME SHIT
- WHAT BAMBI AND CHEEKBONES™ ARE SISTERS WHAT
-KNOWING THAT MAKES CHEEKBONES™ STEPPING IN LAST WEEK EVEN GREATER
-SHE WAS BEING ALL TOUGH AND BIG SISTERLY AW
- FUCK U ISAK STOP BEING SHITTY
- HE WASN’T TALKING ABOUT THE BANK OH NO
-OH SHIT HE PEED IN THE LESBIANS™ OFFICE
-SOMEONE HELP DOM FUCK U ISAK
-“ADULT LOVE” SHOULD NOT BE SCARY OR CRAZY IT SHOULD BE NICE & KIND & REAL & SMOL DON’T BELIEVE HIM DOM
-DOM WAS JUST TELLING THE TRUTH ABOUT THE PROCEDURE U PRICK FUK U ISAK
- I FEEL LIKE THE NURSE BEING ARTEM CHERNECK’S(??) DAUGHTER WAS SUPPOSED TO BE A BIG THING BUT IDK WHO THE FUCK ARTEM CHERNECK IS
-HE STOLE HER MONEY WHAT
-HE DIDN’T STEAL HER MONEY HE STOLE HER DAD’S
-OH WAIT HE DIDN’T STEAL NOTHING HE GAVE IT TO HIM IN HIS WILL SO WHY SHE SO ANGRY??
-LOVELY LESBIAN LADY™ LOOKS GREAT AS ALWAYS
- YESSS ZOSHIA(??) TOLD PEEPS ABOUT ZE ABUSE AYE ZOSHIA(??) IS A G
-IT IS TRUE DOM COME ON BOI U CAN DO IT YES U CAN TELL THEM HE A DICKKK
-WAIT THIS WOMAN HAS 2 HEARTBEATS DA FUQ
-WHY IS THE ITALIAN GUY™ COMING UP WITH ALL THESE WEIRD WISE SAYINGS LIKE NO UR NOT HANSEN 2.0 OR SOME SHIT
-YESSSS DOM THROW THE TRUTH AT HIM BOIIIII FUK U ISAK
-OH NO DON’T HURT MY DOM
-NO0O0O0O0O0O0O0O0O0O0O0O00OO0O0O0O0O0O0O0O0O
-FUK U ISAK
-YESSS ZOSHIAA COME 4 DAT BOI
-“WE ALL HAVE HOLES THAT NEED FILLING” BEST QUOTE OF TODAY 11/10 WOULD CHOKE ON MY WATER AGAIN
- YESS DOM IS TELLING THEM ABOUT THE DICK BEING A DICK FUK U ISAK
-“SHE LEFT ME A MESSAGE SAYING SHE LOVED ME” IS TOO PURE I LOVE THEIR FRIENDSHIP
-YEAH BOIIIIIIIIIIIII THEY ALL CAME AND PROPER OWNED ISAK ALL OF THEM ARE PART OF THE DOM DEFENCE CLUB
-WHO IS THIS ARTHUR DIGBY HE SEEMS LIKE A PROPER G
-FUK U ISAK
-WHERE ARE MY LESBIANS????
-FUK U ISAK

Hyung Line (+Mark) reaction to their GF kissing another guy&and finding out she was forced

 Story Line- 

Nobody knew that you and *NCT Bias Name* were dating. He was an Idol and SM Entertainment was very strict about it. It was NCT Anniversary Party with all the SM Artist included. Of course you were invited as an close friend.

 As you sat by the bar with a few friends of yours, they decided to play Truth and Dare. Of course you had to do a Dare it’s just a game right? Wrong.

 You were dared to kiss the cute guy who was sitting across the bar. At first you denied it but the forced you.

 "You even don’t have a boyfriend why are you making such a fuss about it.“ They said.

 You had to do it. Nobody should now that you were dating. That’s what your boyfriend wanted. So you did it. You didn’t kissed him right. Just a peck and run off.

And then you heard his voice. “WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON!” you heard him screaming, walking past his band members rushing to you.

 "It’s not what it looks like babe…. let me expl-“ He cut you off.

 "It’s not what it looks like my ass.” Everyone at the party was watching you both. “I shouldn’t have dated you.”

 He said while looking into your eyes. “*his name* what………"your voice was shaking. Your tears running down your cheeks. 

 "You were just a waste of my time” and with that your heart broke. 

 Your friends watched you. Watched you running of the club. Crying. They rushed over to your Boyfriend.

 Telling him the truth.


  Taeil 

 As your friends told him the truth he would immediately rush out of the club. Searching for you. But you were gone.

 He tried calling you, messaging you, leaving hundert of voicemails. You were sitting on the bench at the park were you guys first met.

 Your mascara was all over your face. You were shaking from crying. He found you. immediately rushing over to you. 

Telling you he was sorry telling you he loves you. And pulling you into his embrace. Where you could feel his heart beat. It was beating so fast that you thought it’ll explore. Are you going to forgive him?

Originally posted by taeilsgirlfriend

WinWin

After your friends told him what happend he was to ashamed to run after you.

I think he would be standing out of your door that day after. Hoping you would open the door for him. In his hands your favorite flowers. 

As you opened the door he pulled you in a tight hug. Telling you he was sorry for not believing you. Telling you he was sorry for the things he said to you.

And giving you a light kiss on the forehead. Don´t wanting to let you go.

– I think WinWin wouldn´t cry but very angry about himself. –

Originally posted by fairyprincewinwin

Johnny

Johnny is not a guy who cries easlily but in this he would cry. Johnny takes love and realtionships very seriously so he would run after you.

You were standing in front of your apartments door as he did hold your waist pulling you into his cheast while crying.

“I´m so sorryy babe…….I was just so angry…and I couldn´t control my anger…..I know you would never cheat on me…….” his voice was shaking.

It was the first time that you saw Johnny like this. The tears running out of his eyes, his hands shaking.

You would pull him into a big hug. Telling him it was okay and that you love him.

After his and your tears dried he would open the door of your apartment and would start kissing your neck.

“Let me make it up to you. Let me show you how much you mean to me.” 

Originally posted by fxlse-prophets

Taeyong

Taeyong would blame everything on himself. It was now two weeks after the party and you still ignored him. Everyday he would knock on your door. Asking you to let him in. Telling you it was his fault.

The other boys started worring about him. He wouldn´t eat or sleep. He couldn´t dance or rap. He was nothing without you.

Johnny and Hansol called you and told you everything. You couldn´t leave Taeyong like this even if the things he said to you wasn´t right.You loved him.

 So you came to th their dorm. Knocking at Taeyongs door and going in.

His eyes teared up as he saw you his voice started shaking.

“Babe…please don´t leave me please….I´m nothing without you…..I don´t want to lose you….so please don´t leave.”

seeing him like that made your eyes tear up too. 

As you hugged him you could feel his heartbeat going back to normal as his tears slowing dried.

“I´m not going to leave you Tae….not again”

Originally posted by teeuai

Yuta

Yuta would be so angry.

“HOW CAN U GUYS FORCE HER DOING SOMETHING LIKE THAT!” He would scream at your friends making everyone looking at him.

His members trying to calm him down.

“Yuta calm down. You should go after Y/N now.It wasn´t her fault.” they said.

As Yuta finally calmed down he run out ouf the club.

There were you. But you weren´t alone. There were a guy. Holding your waist trying to pick you up.

“Come on sweetie I just want to have fun with you.” the guy said as you tried to remove yourself from his touch.

“NOo let me goo!” you screamed. In that moment Yuta came. Punching that guy over and over again.

“YOU BAS*ARD HOW DO YOU DARE TOUCHING MY GIRLFRIEND!” Yuta punched him harder. The guys eyes stared to close.

“YUTA THAT`S ENOUGH!” you heard the other boys shouting. They stopped Yuta from doing something more dangerous and trying to wake up the now knocked out guy.

Yutas frist bleeding as you hold his hand. He looked in your eyes pulled you then into a long kiss.

“I´m so sorry…..”

Originally posted by nctuhohahyes

Doyoung

Douyoung would get very angry too. Not just because of you but because of your crazy friends.

He would be too ashamed of himself. He would wait a few days before starting to call you. 

As you guys finally met he would still be angry. Telling you to search for new friends and telling you he felt betrayed, yelling at you, telling you it was your fault.

You two would start fighting which would leave into a break up. But a week later he would call you again. Telling you he was sorry for everything and telling you he wants you back.

But you coulnd´t take someone back who didn´t trust you.

Originally posted by muraldepaleta

Ten

After your friends explained everything to him his mind would go blank. He would rush out of the club seeing you walking on the street trying to catch you.

“Y/N……..I….I`m so-rry I didn´t…” he couldn´t bring any other words out he was just so confused and wou were just so angry.

He tried to pull you into a hug but you pushed him away.

“Don´t touch me Ten. I´m just a waste of your time anyway.” you said while galring at him.

“No…Y/N please just listen…I-” you cut him off.

“Ten I can´t do this anymore. It´s over. you said. You gave him the promise ring back he gave you last year.

 And left. Leaving him completly shooked and alone.

He tried everything to get you back but

it was just a waste of his time.

Originally posted by memeyeols

Jaehyun

(aww my poor Jae)

He would be the most emotional one of the boys. He would stay in front of your apartments door everyday. Begging you to let him in. Telling you he was sorry.

After three days of ignoring his calls, messages or knocks on your door you let him in.

As you opened the door his tears would start falling faster than before. Seeing your also puffy eyes, messy hair and tried tears.

“I´m so sorry babe……I´m so sorry for everything..sorry for not believing you..it was all my fault.” and with that he felt on his knees. His hands on his face his cries going louder.

You bend over to him pulling him into a big hug, crying with him.

“No Jaehyun…it was my fault…I´m so sorry….I love you so much…”

You guys stayed like that in silence just listening to your own heartbeats.

As Jaehyun pulled away he put his hand on your chin pulling you in for a kiss. The kiss that he missed so much.

Originally posted by muraldepaleta

(Why is it so hard to find gifs from Jaehyun where he looks sad?)


Mark

Mark would blame everything to himself. He would be sitting in the dorm in his bed thinking about a way to apologise to you.

He loved you so much and hated himself so much for the things he did to you. He would ask his hyungs for some advice . They would tell him to just speak to you and telling you he was sorry.

So he did. He called you over to the ice cream shop where you guys had your first date. And would apologise to you. Begging you to give him another chance.

And you accepted his apologise because you knew it was your fault and you told him that. 

You loved Mark so much and he loved you and you guys knew that since that day your love started growing more and more.

Originally posted by meekokohaku

I can’t believe I have to say this but people are really fucking dumb so here it is:

women do not get to speak on behalf of mlm’s and how fetishization in fandom affects us. women do not have any fucking right to tell us what does and doesn’t hurt us. men fetishizing lesbians is the exact same fucking thing as women fetishizing gay men. you do not get a pass because you are a woman. your opinions and feelings on this issue do not matter because YOU ARE NOT MLM’S.
until you get your head out of your ass and actually LISTEN TO US. you don’t get a fucking say period. posts made by women about the issue are not legitimate sources. if you think this is about you it probably is. you need to shut the fuck up and listen to us. “queer women have it worse” is not a legitimate fucking argument. gay men are murdered for being gay too, and that’s not even touching gay trans men and gay men of color. you are not fucking special.

reminder that I am a nb trans boy as well and that us trans dudes (especially us non passing or just enjoy dressing femme trans dudes) that we face a form of misogyny because society does not view us as men, despite the fact that we are.

my personal experiences with each sign
  • aquarius: such a family orientated person, very INDEPENDENT, emotionally dettached, secretive, always late, caring, will be an amazing parent, into fashion/looking presentable at all times, has some weird habits, looks angry all the time, science hoe, hilarious
  • gemini: weird sense of humor, very closed off emotionally, hates drama, doesn't like sharing feelings, loves so hard, competitive, comes off as mean but is actually a teddy bear, SWITCHES up a lot, loves pizza, can't stand feet, gets excited when people have a similar sense of humor
  • virgo: a LITERATURE freak, passionate, shy, very kind to the people they care about, always makes sure you're alright, has an odd way of showing affection, can come off as a bit mean, loves to annoy you, weeb, woke af, not the type of person you'd expect to like rap
  • taurus: HORNY, so organized, loves to decorate their room, obsessed with their dog, has had a sugar daddy at one point, very kind, is wearing pajama/lounge clothes everytime i see them, doesn't give a fuck about anything, has an attitude
  • libra: everyone loves them, is only a sweetheart to really special people, fun to be around, lowkey a hoe, instantly brightens up your day, is always there for you, super considerate, usually the mom friend, will literally kill anyone who hurts them or their friends, evil, BOSSY
  • scorpio: sassy, crazy, LOUD, gets upset over the slightest inconvenience, isn't afraid to argue with you, always has to get their way, will do anything for the people they love, animal lover, buys whatever they want, the one still partying at 6am
  • leo: a total sweetheart, offers good advice, WITTY, super smart, very dramatic, friendly to everyone, i've never seen them get angry, lazy as fuck, loves to talk about themselves, calm and collected, easygoing, great vibes, does whatever they want
  • capricorn: can keep a secret, pretty QUIET, loves video games more than your average, a great friend, very mysterious, nice to literally everyone, is easy to get along with, very serious but can crack some funny jokes, responsible
  • aries: if they don't like you, you'll know, very VERY sweet to the people they care about, only cares about a few people, artistic, acts like a tough bitch but isn't really, has a crush on everyone, loves the outdoors, eats a lot, compassionate, AGGRESIVE
  • cancer: a NERD at heart, always talking to someone, can come off as shy or quiet but boy r u wrong, very respectful, protects the people they love, enjoys annoying people, when they get angry, they go crazy, always has to get their way, such a good imagination
  • sagittarius: brutally honest, doesn't seem like they have feelings but is actually sensitive af, often CONFUSED, crazy, so much energy, optimistic, can't stop singing even if they sound bad, loves everyone a little too much, always seeking adventure, takes pictures of the sky too often, space hoe
  • pisces: makes sure their friends are happy before themselves, laughs at offensive jokes, quiet, has a lot of social anxiety, can be aggressive, hates change, self deprecating jokes, SMART, angry, takes care of the people they care about, shy

anonymous asked:

hii can u do "I have you shoved against the wall but now I can’t stop looking at your mouth" with nightwing where he's angry trying to discipline the readers rogue/ deadly fighting skills while on patrol.. srry if it's confusing u don't have to if u can't think of anything :,) :*

“What the hell were you thinking!?”

Everything still feels like it’s working in overdrive, so you merely stare back at him as he slams you into the wall, panting softly as the adrenaline slowly leaves your system. You don’t think you’ve ever seen Dick so mad, not like this, and especially not at you. His shoulders heave with every angry breath he takes, and the grip he has on your upper arms is near bruising, fingers digging into your skin, keeping you right where he wants you.

“You could’ve been killed,” he seethes, squeezing your arms. “I told you to wait for me, dammit. Why are you so eager to prove yourself, huh?!”

“I’m not trying to prove myself,” you hiss, trying to shove him away unsuccessfully. “I don’t need you guys protecting me. I’m perfectly capable of taking care of myself, asshole.”

“Obviously not,” he retorts, moving to crowd you further against the alley wall. “If I hadn’t shown up when I did you would’ve been killed.”

You grit your teeth and brace yourself against him, pushing at his chest fruitlessly. He only presses closer, and you find yourself completely sandwiched between his hard chest and the brick of the building, no leeway to maneuver your way out.

“Dammit, Nightwing, let me go,” you order, wiggling around.

“No,” he responds, catching your arms and lifting them above your head. “Not until you tell me why you thought you could handle the Joker’s most dangerous thugs on your own.”

The air is charged with a strange, scorching sort of tension. He’s staring at you heatedly, eyes hard under his mask, brow furrowed and jaw clenched. He’s waiting for a response, you can see it, so you tilt your chin up defiantly and arch against him, chest pushing at his own as you sneer petulantly. You can see his anger build until he growls, maneuvering your wrists until he’s securing them in one hand as the other grasps your jaw and yanks your face closer.

“You’re infuriating,” he snarls, but you don’t get a chance to respond before he’s slamming his mouth against yours, groaning low in his throat as you whimper and press closer, trying in vein to take control. The kiss is all carnal need; teeth and tongue and grunts and groans, all of the pent up energy the night had built between the two of you exploding with every shared breath. By the time he’s had his way, you’re both panting against each other, and he knocks his forehead against yours and lets go of your wrists, instead moving to wrap his arms around your waist and pulling you up and against him.

“Dammit,” he whispers, melting against your touch as you cradle his face in your hands. “I could have lost you, babe. I’ve never been so scared before.”

You wrap your arms around his neck and press a gentle peck to his lips.

“You have to learn to trust me,” you whisper, playing with the hair at the nape of his neck. “I know how scary it is for you, but you need to understand that I can take care of myself. I know that I’m a bit more reckless than you’re used to, but it’s how I was trained. I promise I know what I’m doing.”

“Just be careful,” he murmurs, kissing you again. “I couldn’t handle it if something happened to you.”

w/ldlesbian >>> flakylesbian

anyways i changed my url because someone found my blog lol (who would be a threat to my safety) so ye lmao

anonymous asked:

Hi, how would RFA gang + minor trio deal with a short MC (like 5' and just tiny in general) that doesn't like being called cute, people patting their head, or being used as an arm rest, but would just barely make an exception for the person they're interested in/in a relationship with? Bonus if MC is just slightly older than them or is as old as Jumin and V. PS: Love the Professor Layton emoji's

Grouping these requests together, because what’s better than a short, older tsundere~? (PS i love this MC plz feel free 2 ask for them again)


Zen

  • “Ugh, if you have to send your selfies to someone, just send them to me so you don’t bother anyone else.”
  • because you HATE the fact that 707 lords the fact that ~he knows what you loooook liiiike~ over everyone, you send the group a picture to take him down a peg and
  • man
  • ZEN THINKS U ARE CUTE
  • He really can’t read you though, but that’s because you’re grumpy and incredibly hard to interpret. Even though you say you call him an unrepentant narcissist, you save every one of his pictures, and hold your phone to your chest whenever he says something nice to you.
  • Your form of encouraging him is mainly telling him that he is, objectively - it’s not anything about your personal opinion, it’s just objective - a good actor, and anyone saying otherwise is a moron.
  • that makes him feel weirdly good, particularly since - despite what you say - you’re always on his side and encouraging him in your own way.
  • he can’t help but call you cute and his princess which just
  • annoys you
  • but he also not doing it sarcastically which makes you feel weirdly nice but
  • THAT ALSO ANNOYS YOU
  • ZEN ANNOYS YOU
  • YOU HATE HIS DUMB HANDSOME FACE AGHHH
  • hE DEFINITELY does that thing where he puts his hand on the top of your head because you’re SO SHORT
  • and SO ANGRY
  • and he can just put his palm on your forehead as you try to get at him because he’s super buff and you’re just a tiny, ineffectual steamroller
  • “I AM A MATURE RESPONSIBLE ADULT DON’T TREAT ME LIKE THIS”
  • “i DO TAXES”
  • “I HOLD CONFERENCES”
  • “I AM HIGHLY RESPECTED IN MY FIELD WHY DO I GET TREATED LIKE A TOY AGHHHHHHhhHhhhHHhh”
  • ok Zen admittedly does tease you a lot b/c he thinks its funny but once he realizes that there is some actual baggage due to your height he lays off and actually starts specifically complimenting you on your intelligence, skill, and professional abilities
  • which takes you off guard and you really
  • really
  • like it.
  • (at one point, he does the hand-comparison thing with you - you and him putting your hands up against each other to see how big his is in comparison to yours - and he grins so widely and damn does your heart go pitter-patter)
  •  whenever you have a talk or something important to do he is ALWAYS THERE IN THE FRONT ROW
  • YAAA BABE GO GET ‘EM
  • (one day, one of your colleagues makes a short joke about you on stage and he’s like…. ready to fite someone)
  • He says to you later that he knows you can take care of yourself but he also wanted to deck that guy
  • (it’s time for doki-dokis from you SHIT)

Yoosung

  • you find it extremely difficult to be properly tsundere around Yoosung because he is just this adorable little chick of a person
  • like
  • just thinking about getting annoyed at him makes you feel weird
  • and as soon as you see his dumb cute face in his avatar you just kind of deflate and calm down.
  • (seriously Yoosung becomes your chill-out medicine whenever you hear his voice on the phone babbling about something ridiculous you’re like)
  • (okay)
  • (things aren’t so bad, Yoosung exists)
  • you do say exactly what you’re thinking regarding his grades tho - like yoosung, quit gaming and study christ
  • “you need to take school seriously”
  • “this is me, as a professor, telling you to shape up”
  • WAIT YOU’RE A PROFESSOR
  • “………iii…. am an intelligent, competent scholar who is well respected in my field, yes?” you say to the shocked chatroom, who had, from your picture, thought you couldn’t even be 20.
  • yoosung freaks out. DO YOU TEACH AT SKY UNIVERSITY, he says, ARE YOU SECRETLY ONE OF MY TEACHERS OMFG
  • well first of all yoosung, DON’T YOU THINK I’D RECOGNIZE U IF I TAUGHT YOU
  • (and also in the interests of not making it weird, you A.) don’t teach at his school and B.) are actually a very young, newly appointed professor)
  • but that does mean you have your Shit together, and you start getting on Yoosung about his academics. when he gets bad quiz grades, you offer to tutor him, because hot diggity are you smart
  • the two of you stay Just Friends for a pretty long time because Yoosung kinda really needs to grow up a bit like
  • you are around Jumin’s age but the life experience gap is still pretty extreme
  • but he starts to really, really admire you and how - even though you’re often gruff with him - you always believe in him and how he can do better
  • makes him want to really become an adult.
  • He starts working himself out. He takes his studies seriously, he relies on other people for less, he does his own taxes and becomes a much better cook…
  • you and everyone else are kinda shocked by the change tbh.
  • One time, when he’s with you, he looks down at you and stares for awhile and you’re like
  • oh fuck here we go
  • he’s going to be like “wowwwww i can’t believe you’re so MATURE when you look so CUTE and SMALL” because he’s done it before aND SO HAS EVERYONE ELSE
  • (you can’t get mad at him but it BOTHERS YOU)
  • but when you ask him what he’s thinking, he just shakes his head a little and says, “Do you think I look good next to you?”
  • “I’ve been trying really hard - do you think I can ever catch up and be a good match for you?”
  • “I want to be a mature guy you can feel comfortable relying on…”
  • (ahhhh????/??!?!?????)
  • (you’ve clawed your way to the top and here is this sweet mild person wanting u to rely on them?? that’s ODDLY ENDEARING??)
  • anyway yoosung tries 2 be a cool dude for the tiny, angry professor he loves and you are embarrassed

Jaehee

  • you actually have a pretty good working relationship with Jaehee because she is far too mature to join in with the other’s blatant disrespect of your height
  • you actually have a very ‘office ladies’ like friendship where you complain about the dumb people in your respective lives
  • “oh my god so this fellow professor i know did the DUMBEST FUCKING THING, i s2g if he didn’t have tenure”
  • “another cat project… another cat project….”
  • you frequently tell Jaehee to knock ‘em dead and she’s not sure if you mean that literally or not.
  • knowing u it’s probably both
  • Anyway Jaehee doesn’t really see much of your tsundere side directed at her, until she actually meets you in person.
  • the first time she sees you - really sees you - she is
  • struck
  • dead.
  • you are SO TINY and SO CUTE and OH GOD she just WANTS TO SEE YOU IN A FLUFFY DRESS HHHHHHH
  • seriously it’s like - the same feelings she gets about Zen? she gets about you, because not only did you come from low beginnings and claw yourself up with your blatant determination despite what others said about you (which she finds inspiring), you’re also so adorable
  • SHE WANTS TO STARE AT YOU FOREVER
  • cute features, tiny body, omg… omg…. o m g…………
  • omg jaehee, the serious office lady, is SWEATING
  • but she knows that she needs to keep her freakin’ mouth shut unless she wants to die
  • so she stews on this FLUTTERY FEELING and her INTENSE DESIRE TO JUDO KICK ANYONE WHO SO MUCH AS THINKS OF TROUBLING YOU…
  • (also you are extremely smart like you went to school and worked at the same time and you just got ur doctorate like um excuse me could you chill)
  • but she can’t contain it totally.
  • One day, she’s out shopping with you and she sees a cute, frilly dress in the window that would look so…. cute on you… and she stops and stares at it.
  • You look at her, clearly baffled because - Jaehee. Is that… your style…?
  • and she’s like no omg i just think it would look good on you
  • i mean
  • oh no
  • i SAID THAT OUT LOUD
  • and your eyebrows go up but Jaehee has the benefit of the doubt by now so you don’t blow up.
  • …….and the next time you guys go out together
  • you are wearing that dress she liked
  • and jaehee faints.
  • (she can die happy)
  • pictures of you start to join the altar of Zen she has in her apartment


(more under the cut!)

Keep reading

i.
jesus said
“do not throw your pearls to pigs”
but i didn’t listen
and gave you the keys
to my kingdom 
 
 
ii.
i hate
that it feels
like defeat
to say
i miss you
 
 
iii.
hey, i don’t wanna be annoying but
you said you’d be there for me
and then you ignored my messages for two days
or maybe more cause i’m still waiting
 
hey, i don’t wanna be annoying but
can you please be careful
when you say you love someone
cause then they might miss you
and feel very stupid for doing so
 
hey, i don’t wanna be annoying but
i can’t even get angry at you
so i have to write crap like this
and hope the letters fill the space you left
 
 
iv.
i keep waiting for you to say something,
to stop pretending like you haven’t ruined it
by treating my openness like something cheap
 
 
v.
i keep waiting for me to say something too
but I never do
—  i hate u, i love u // julia m.

anonymous asked:

oh lmfao i thought u were an astrology blog. but if u don't do those types of asks i suggest u just ignore it next time :) that might help u

Why are you being a baby and why are you angry that I didn’t answer your description that you can easily find online…….? LOL I don’t have to answer those kinds of questions if I don’t want to - don’t feel so entitled (I don’t even know which ask you’re referring to, I’m just assuming it was a description or something)

And don’t suggest anything to me; I could choose to answer and I did, basically informing/explaining to you (as well as everyone else) to don’t send those types of questions

Drop your attitude and your pompous approach, that might help you!

anonymous asked:

Omg can you draw Maria finding out about the reynolds pamphlet? (Btw, love your art)

Hi!! Here it is, & thank u anon! im sorry this took so long to answer!! I saw this is my inbox and i was always thinking of how Maria would feel about the reynolds pamphlet. angry?? sad? ashamed?;;; lmao ill stop talking now

Adrien’s Modeling Expertise- Adrinette Month Day Six

Adrien has more practice modeling than anyone knows. They have no idea how much he hides, constantly, as days come in and out.

“Oh look, Plagg” he peers over the edge of the roof, the breeze blowing through golden hair, a cheerful smile crossing his face. “He fell.”

The kwami looks sick, staring between his holder, and the boy- what’s left of the boy- lying on the pavement below. “Kid. What did you just do?!”

“What a shame,” Adrien smiles, turning to lean against the railing, closing his eyes and smiling contentedly. “I don’t think anyone will be too upset though.”

“How could you say that? What’s with you, kid?” Plagg stared as his holder went through the same motions he’s gone through a million times. The blush, the head-duck, rubbing his neck awkwardly.

“Sorry, yeah, that sounded wrong. I just meant that he wasn’t the nicest person. He was flirting with Marinette earlier. She wasn’t interested, but he wouldn’t take a hint,” he laughs a little awkwardly. “Maybe I overreacted a bit…”

“You think?”

Adrien shrugs. “I should get out of here before the police show up. He fell, but I don’t want to take any chances with being implicated.”

“Adrien. He did not fall.”

“That’s your opinion.”

She walks through the hall, and he follows her motions out of the corner of his eye. Her ponytails bounce lightly, as she walks, and she smiles… at everyone else. Shoot. It’s not enough for there to be another ‘accident’ over, but he doesn’t like it.

She sees him, and gasps slightly. He looks up, and his eyes widen, as if he’s just noticing her. “Oh, hey Marinette, what’s up?”

“A-adrien, hi!” she blushes, smiling. His Lady is so beautiful when she’s blushing… “Adrien?”

“Oh, sorry, just… you look really nice, Marinette,” he brushes hair out of her face. “Your eyes are… perfect.”

“O-oh…” her blush deepens. “Um, what…?”

He blushes deeply. “Sorry! I mean, you’re pretty, and you caught me off guard, and oh my god…” he bushes further, and it’s only half an act. She really is beautiful… but he’s too acutely aware of her, of everything about her, to be caught off guard. He’s under her control, and he couldn’t not know where she is… always… he smiles. “Sorry, I’ll stop talking.”

She nods, blushing. “U-um… do you want to get lunch? I mean, Nino and Alya are coming too, so…”

It’s not a date, but it’s something. He smiles brightly. “I’d love to.”

“Really? Great! You’re great, I mean, that’s great, it’s great that you can come!”

He laughs, slightly, and takes her hand. “Lead the way.”

She stares at the bodies, hands over her mouth, and he feels his heartbeat falter. “Princess…”

“Chat… Adrien?”

He looks down. “I’m sorry, you weren’t supposed to find out… after you told me they were following you, I just got so… angry, and…”

She looks up at the wall, at the mural painted. 'Princess,’ in red letters, with red roses around it. Bloody graffiti.

“You… killed them… and used their blood…”

“My Lady, I…”

“I love it…”

He blinks, and sees her hands lowering, tears in her eyes and a glowing smile on her face. His eyes widen, and he’s not even modeling this time. “You love it?”

“You did all this… for me?”

He relaxes. “Of course, my Lady.”

“That’s so sweet…”

He presses his lips to hers. “Always… I love you.”