they are my anti drug

“- Don’t you dare touch him again…”


Kyuubi Naruto for my fave @moonsuke <3

Elena doing drugs to hallucinate Damon in S6 and now the crazy way they’ve had Bonnie act in reaction to Enzo throughout S8 is just proof that JP’s idea of “epic love” is no sense of independence for the female character in the equation. Their entire worlds revolve around the man they’re in love with.

It almost makes me glad that Bamon never became canon tbh.

Random headcanon

Joker doesn’t allow Harley to do any illegal drug’s (including weed). Because he know’s it can fuck you up. (worse then she already is) And know’s that most of the drug’s can fuck up your look’s which Joker never want’s to happen to Harley.

my sophomore year health teacher was so bad at the anti drug portions of the class and it still makes me laugh

like this dude came into class with a baggie of weed so all of us could smell it before he went into detail about how he’s not allowed to teach the legalization stuff just the DONT DO DRUGS bull so he spent the rest of class telling us stories about the crazy shit he did on shrooms in college and ended every story with “and that’s why you don’t do drugs”

I will be spending the next two days studying for my last pharmacology exam. We are covering vaccines, anti-cancer drugs, targeted therapies to treat cancer, biological response modifiers, vitamin and mineral replacement, fluid and electrolyte replacement, nutritional support, drugs for gastrointestinal tract disorders, and anti ulcer drugs.
Going to try to stay focused and take necessary breaks to prevent overload. Wish me luck.

A few weeks ago my mom yelled at me because I didn’t wash the dishes. I had told her that I had flu like body aches and would do them the next day. My anti thyroid drugs make me feel like this more often than not. Today she’s bitching because she has flu aches (from the actual flu apparently). She keeps complaining. I’m not going to feel sorry for her. I feel like this all the time and she just tells me it’s not a thing. Welcome to my world.

i think i should stop worrying about becoming too dependent on my prescribed anti-anxiety drugs because they are much better for my health and my liver and my self-worth and my serotonin levels than getting drunk when i am alone and scared

unfortunately in order to network & job search i am constantly going to events that serve alcohol - at one of them there were ZERO non-alcoholic beverages available, just wine, and i was incredibly thirsty from a long walk and overheated subway. i guess i could have tried to drink from the bathroom faucet. 

also a lot of the networking parts of meetups are at bars, and i feel uncomfortable not ordering a drink, and i know bartenders resent giving someone a water because most people don’t tip (i always do, at least $2 if i’m drinking water, but i’m not the norm) 

starting feb 15 i am going to stop drinking for two weeks but we’ll see. there’s just so much social pressure to be holding a beer or a cocktail glass, and i really can’t afford NOT to be at these events

i don’t know if these are excuses. they might be. i know i rely too much on alcohol. i think i’ll try leaning more on the drugs i’ve been prescribed to actually help me. 

OUaT, Story Telling..

J.K. Rowling Style

A while back a read a meta by, @colyssa I think, and she mentioned how Harry Potter was a series of 7 books where everything between book 1 and book 7 was “filler”. Combined with having just read that someone thought to remember how it had been mentioned by OUaT people (I have no source and no receipt. It’s not that important to my writing, only to it being a catalyst for me to write this) they needed 7 seasons to tell the story they wanted. I thought that “Why not?!” OUaT is a fairytale told the way J.K. Rowling told HP. Everything is clues that will suddenly makes sense in the end.


A/N: None of this is fact. It is my speculation, my interpretation. Everything from 5+ is guessing. This is speculation writing on drugs basically.

I am no expert on Harry Potter, this is written from memory and quick googling, if anything is incorrect I apologize and if you tell me, I will fix mistakes.

This also ended up more jumbled than I’d hoped, I hope it makes sense. It was originally a part of another meta/speculation I’m working on, but it became too big, so I split them, and this is by itself.

A soulmate is not a true love. A soulmate is someone who comes into your life and serves an importance purpose for your self development, and then you part ways. - Important to remember during this.

I won’t much parallel characters or ships directly, besides the protagonists. The core of the stories aren’t romance, the core of the stories are the battle of light vs dark.

Harry Potter had multiple layers and romance and ships, but that wasn’t the base of the story. OUaT has multiple layers and romance and ships as well, but the base of the story isn’t it.

HP was about the boy who lived, who lived on to be the boy who defeated Voldemort.

OUaT is about Emma who escaped the Darkness, who will live on to defeat the Darkness.

Harry was the key to defeat Voldemort. The key to defeat OUaT Darkness is (also a “one”. A yin yang force aka Regina and) Emma.

As I am SQ af, I read the show as such, and will put a SQ spin on it.


Part One

We are given the premise of the story.

We meet the orphan protagonist at an important birthday of their life. A birthday that will take the orphan back to their roots. They’ve lived their lives, so far, in a world they don’t belong in, alone, because their parents did what they could to give them their best chance, at choice that resulted in them growing up without their parents, without knowing where they come from, without knowing why.

On this specific birthday a person knocks on their door and barges into their life and tells them their origin. Thus taking them back to their world, the world where they have a destiny to be the savior, to defeat the evil.

We learn about many people, and the other world, and how they fit into the story told so far.

We are told about the evil that was the reason for the orphan’s upbringing.

We realize the orphan will be the person to defeat the evil at some point (in the end)

We are shown the importance of certain magical objects: Mirrors, Jefferson’s hat. Regina’s ring. Wands. Apples. The book.

(Mirror of Erised. The Sorcere’s Stone. Wands. The snitch. etc.)

Other objects and creatures we are introduced to without it having a real relevance yet.

(Emma’s yellow bug. Emma’s baby blanket. Rumbelle’s chipped cup. Regina’s tree necklace. Regina’s apple tree. Emma’s circle necklace. Henry’s scarf)

(Dragons, centaurs, invisibility cloak, Ron’s rat Scabbers)

“Uniforms”:

Harry in his Gryffindor robes, his glasses, his scar

Emma in her red leather jacket, her circle necklace, her tattoo

This is our protagonist. This is the person who shall be part of the last battle against evil.

Voldemort is the evil Harry will have to fight

The Darkness is the evil Emma (and Regina) will have to fight.

In the end of 1, Voldemort/Darkness fails to get rid of Harry/Emma. Voldemort/Darkness works through another person Quirrel/Regina

Part Two

Our orphan is now well aware of their origin and the world they came from, and are now once again a part of.

The orphan learns about the evils of the past. How Voldemort uses evils of the past (the chamber of secret’s and the basilisk) to mess with the present. How Darkness uses the evils of the past (Cora) to mess with the present.

Regina’s redemption begins for real.

More important magical objects are introduced

(Gryffindor’s sword. The basilisk and it’s tooth. Fawkes the Phoenix. The Whomping Willow. The flying car.)

(The diamond trigger. The dagger. Magic beans. The Jolly Roger)

New people are introduced.  H00k, H00d, Neal.

New people are introduced. Gilderoy Lockhart. Dobby.

Part Three

The protagonists interacts with a soulmate. Someone who will be there for a while, be important to them now, have meaning to the furture. Harry meets Sirius. Emma interacts more with H00k. Regina interacts with H00d.

A little time travel, because why not (doesn’t much change anything as much as let’s them see things in a new perspective).

Our protagonists gets to see their own power be greater than they thought possible. Harry produces a patronus. Emma and Regina move the moon.

Part Four

Things begin getting darker. Evil is shown in a new more blatant way. A death has great impact to our protagonists.

Voldemort’s sign is shown in the sky. Darkness creeps into Emma as it in the same time leaves Regina more and more.

In the end evil inhabits a new form. Voldemort arises again. The Darkness takes hold of Regina, but Emma sacrifices herself and takes it instead.

Cedric Diggory dies. Cruella De Vil dies.

Part Five

From now on, everything written is speculation. I obviously don’t know what will happen, I’ll be taking clues from HP to guess what could happen.

Part five is game changer. People start getting ready for the final battle. The protagonist learns of a prophecy. A soulmate dies. It gets dark.

In HP the Order of the Phoenix is re assembled, they’re getting ready for the final battle. Harry learns of the prophecy.

The one with the power to vanquish the Dark Lord approaches … born to those who have thrice defied him, born as the seventh month dies … and the Dark Lord will mark him as equal, but he will have power the Dark Lord knows not … and either must die at the hand of the other for neither can live while the other survives … the one with the power to vanquish the Dark Lord will be born as the seventh month dies

Sirius dies in the end of 5.

People of Storybrooke will see darkness they’ve never seen before. They’ll start getting ready for battle. Protagonist Emma will learn of a prophecy while in Camelot that she feels needs for no one else to know (hence the memory curse). 

My guess is Emma finds out how she and Regina are connected. How they are “of one”. She’ll learn in the end, the Darkness can only be defeated if she dies as well. Emma carries part of the Darkness in her since she took on the curse.

I can’t decide if only one of them will have to die or they both will. Or if only one, which of them it has to be. But because Emma has part the Darkness in her right now, I’ll go with her.

Initially I thought the prophecy would be that only Emma and Regina together can defeat the Darkness, and the Darkness can only prevail if it defeats both Emma and Regina. Which also, if we continue HP style, Darkness couldn’t be defeated as long as Emma and Regina lived.

I’m torn.

Anyway, Emma will carry the burden of that knowledge alone for now as Regina isn’t ready to learn yet.

I’m guessing the soulmate to die will be H00k. I base this on his death in Operation Mongoose and on him giving Emma his “protective” ring. But I’m also guessing this might not be of importance, or happen, until season 6 and that H00k will stay around until then. *

Regina’s soulmate, H00d, will leave her for Zelena. OR Regina will leave H00d for her family, Henry and Emma, and Hood will then go to Zelena. (This could also be delayed ‘til season 6)

Part Six

They’re getting ready for the final battle and clues on how to defeat evil is being collected. Protagonist goes on an important quest to learn answers. The importance of a ring is explained. Someone prominent dies.

(Dumbledore and Harry going after the locket) (Emma and Regina goes on a quest for answers?)

The ring Dumbledore wore in book 6 ended up being the death of him. The ring had been owned by multiple people, it’s origin was it was part of the Peverell brothers’ way to hide from death.

Voldemort used the ring as a Horcrux. When Dumbledore took the ring to destroy, it ended up destroying him as well (it would have either way). It’s origin, as the resurection stone, was then used by Harry when he went to defeat Voldemort.

H00k’s ring’s origin we don’t know yet. It’s been implied it has been part of a way to cheat death.

The second last person to possess the ring/stone died. That was Dumbledore and H00k. The last person to possess it was Harry/Emma

*H00k’s ring will probably be a part of three magical objects Emma and Regina will need, perhaps indirectly, in the final battle against the Darkness. 

It could also be important only now as an ingredient to be used at some point, as I’ve speculated before.

Harry Potter had the Peverell brothers magical objects: Invisibility cloak, Elderwand, Resurection stone.

Dumbledore had posession of all three at some point in life. It could be speculated H00k will have possessed all three objects Emma needs for her plan/to defeat Darkness. Excalibur, the ring, the?

Part Seven

Traveling for clues and the final battle between dark and light begins

In the end Harry learns Voldemort can’t die as long as he lives. In the end we know Voldemort only killed the part of himself that lived inside Harry. Harry returned to kill him.

So in the end, someone has to die. I really can’t decide if it should be Regina, Emma, or both. We’ll continue to go with Emma. 

Regina learns they can only defeat the Darkness if Emma dies as well. And as Emma sacrifices herself to end the Darkness, Regina takes a leap of faith and sacrifices herself for Emma. And because “Love, True Love, is magic and not just any magic, but the most powerful magic of all” they’ll be reunited.

Emma: “How did you know that would work?”

Regina: “I didn’t. But I had hope”