hades kylo misses you, the woman he's fallen in love with. he just feels so heartbroken when you leave, you're his main source of happiness and without you he feels very lonely. he always try to persuade you to come back faster, if it were up to him you'd never leave at all (renne)
it drives kylo crazy to say goodbye. the last thing that he wants to do is let you go, especially when he only sees you for half of the year.
he’s so head over heels in love with you, he’s always thinking about holding you and loving you, so, he always does everything that he can to get you to stay longer
“kylo, you know that i can’t,” you always say, but it doesn’t stop him from trying
he knows that you can’t stay away from the mortal world for too long, but he feels as if he’s missing half of himself when you’re away
the day when you’re called to leave, he refuses to let go of you. he’s so lonely down in the underworld, he doesn’t have anyone to hold him or kiss him like you do. he doesn’t have family down there, he doesn’t have friends, you’re his everything, and without you, he’s weak
he’ll never admit it, but the minute that you leave him, he breaks down. he cries and cries, refusing to leave his chambers. the underworld would just have to wait.
Listen I am so here for platonic “I love you"s. I don’t care if you think "I love you” is some sacred phrase to only utter to one person in your life, i don’t care if you think it makes me look overbearing. I say “I love you” to my friends every time I say goodbye because I want them to know 100% without a doubt that I care for them and love them and am there for them so so much.
1. realize they don’t care about you anymore. realize they don’t really care if you hold onto them or not. realize you’re not really all that important to them.
2. get sad.
3. get angry.
4. become lonely. miss them dearly. remember how it felt to laugh with them. remember how it felt to make them smile. remember how you thought they’d always be in your life. remember how you felt they were all you needed. miss them dearly.
5. watch a new tv show from start to finish. try to find ways to make eggs more interesting. put too much cayenne pepper in your eggs. take a walk. find new people, laugh new laughs, discover new music. keep doing this for as long as it takes. shed off the skin you wore when you were with them. become something new, something they wouldn’t entirely recognize.
6. miss them dearly, during quiet summer nights where the air is too humid and you’re feeling particularly nostalgic.
7. get angry, for brief periods, wondering why they let you go so easily.
8. get angry, for brief periods, wondering why you let them go so easily.
9. live as normally as you can, for a long period of time.
10. run into them on the street, send them a random message, recieve a random message from them. talk for a bit, realize you don’t know them anymore. dig down desperately for the love you used to have for them. find nothing but pleasant apathy.
11. realize you don’t care about them anymore. realize you don’t really care if they had held onto you or not. realize they’re not really all that important to you. realize you’ve grown too far apart. realize you love who they were, what they gave to you before. realize that person who you love isn’t the person standing in front of you. realize you let them go, somewhere in all the in between, without even noticing. say goodbye to them, move on.
(12. wonder, sometimes, even still, if things could’ve been different, if you could’ve held on, if you still can, if it would make any difference. think these things, and then forget them.)
The ultimate packing list if you are going to study abroad this year
For many of us, the new school year/semester is coming very fast and very soon. For some of us, a new education year is nothing special - you just have to set the alarm clock back into ‘I have got to get up early’ mode and go to school, college, university or however you want to call it.
However, for some of us starting a new year means more. It is related to moving out of home sometimes into a new city or even into a new country. This is related to getting familiar in a new surrounding and starting a new life where you don’t know where to find the best coffee in town, how to ride the bus or how to speak the language (cheers to all langblrs out there ;) ).
For all of you who belong to the second type of people, I dedicate today’s post. Organizing all the things that are related to such a move and saying goodbye to all your loved ones needs enough energy. You should not spend your time thinking about all the items that you need to pack for the big journey. And for this reason, I provide you with the ultimate packing list if you are going to study abroad this year. If you’re missing something that you would never leave at home reblog this post and add your most important travel gadget/item!
With that being said, travel safely and pack wisely ;)
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Flip-flops (in case you have to share your bathroom)
Hair straightener (no hairdryer, buy it at your destination)
Decoration (e.g. pictures of your friends and family)
All of your chargers
Kitchen(buy this stuff at your destination)
Favorite candy from home
Bujo or a traveller’s journal
Financial aid information
Luggage tags with your contact details
Medical insurance card
Travel details & confirmation
Wallet (Cash, coins and credit card)
Accessories (few, please!)
Sportswear and athletic shoes
Before you overload all of your bags contact your university and try to find out which of the items they will provide. Perhaps there is something like a starter kit they offer so you do not have to carry bulky bed or kitchen items with you.
Take only your favorite clothes with you. But there is this fancy dress that you own that one day could look so cool? Leave it at home. You won’t wear it. Period.
Don’t take things with you that can be easily bought after your arrival. This includeshair dryers, kettles, flat irons, big bags, stationery, kitchen items etc.
In case you want to travel with additional luggage ask your airline before your departure date regarding their conditions. There are airlines that offer an online check-in for your additional luggage or a pre registration. If you take advantage of such offers you can save a few coins.
Don’t forget to make a (digital) copy of your most important documents and cards!
But could you imagine how iconic the series ending would be if this was the last scene:
The girls are all together to say goodbye to Aria who is about to go on a three week honeymoon with Ezra.
Aria: “guys I’m leaving for three weeks, why is everybody crying?”
All the girls laugh and let out another sob at those words.
Alison looks at her best friends one by one and says, “I guess it feels like it’s the end of something.”
Everyone grabs onto eachother even tighter and nods while fighting back more tears.
Spencer takes a deep breath and speaks up through everyones sobbing, “Even if it really is the end of something, our story will live on in our hearts.” She looks up and smiles at Aria who almost wishes she didn’t have to go on a honeymoon.
“Yeah, well our story will probably also live on in this godforsaking town too for a long time,” Hanna says with her infamous hint of sarcasm in her voice. The girls all laugh at this and look at eachother again once more.
Emily lets her head rest on Alisons’ shoulder as Alison looks at Hanna and then to Spencer. She can’t help but put on her bold smile she was most known for when she was younger, and as she takes a deep breath she says,
“That’s immortality, my darlings.”
Seven Things About Supernatural: 13x01 - “Lost And Found”
Oh hey. The show’s back.
Honestly. This is mid-season or season-ender level crying happening. And shit, I am so fucking here for it.
Jack is his father’s son. Not Lucifer’s, despite his parentage, but Castiel’s. He doesn’t understand, but he wants to. He isn’t cruel, he isn’t violent. He’s something that doesn’t fit. Both of them want guidance from a missing father. He even looks a bit like Cas, and the scenes in the police station – light bulbs exploding as he passes, being stabbed in the chest to no effect – are callbacks to Cas’ entrance in 4x01.
(He also takes after his uncle Gabriel, what with the Nougat thing. And the t-shirt is kind of an awesome nod to what Dean “sees” in him – i.e. the son of Satan – via the horns.)
But yeah. He just wants his dad. He was just looking for his dad. I wonder who that sounds like…
Miriam – aka drunk fries angel – was a highlight. She’s merciless and damn good at her job, trailing the Winchesters to get intel while just sort of casually fucking with them. She writes “BITCH” in the dust of Baby’s back window, and she’s brutal in her fight with Dean. She knows how to make things hurt emotionally and physically, and makes decisions in the moment in ways that reminded me that I might have a very specific competence kink.
She reads Dean perfectly. Anything? Nope, Cas is dead. You want your son safe? Kill that guy and we’ll deal. I’m gonna die? Fine, but I’m taking a shot at the Nephil on the way out.
She also conjures up the ghost of Becky Rosen. Which…okay, I’m coming out of the text for a little bit on this one, because this was a thing that in the text is a little bit of a throwaway in the sense that we know how the angels feel about the Winchesters being a destabilizing, selfish force.
But the name Becky, that we’re supposed to hear. And she uses it, over and over, so that if we miss it the first time, we’ll catch it. And then she describes a really thoughtless, selfish person who breaks whatever she wants without concern for others in her own pursuit of satisfaction and amusement.
Guys, I think Dabb might have called the disruptive, abusive edges of fandom out for their bullshit. The ones who scream at the writers, the ones who kill the fun for other fans, the ones who are dicks at cons, etc. And that’s…fascinating? Because I know that Becky is a character a lot of folks have analyzed and tried to rehabilitate a little, even though she (and a lot of the fans portrayed in 5x09) are not a positive portrayal of fans in the same way some later portrayals are (e.g. 10x05).
And if that’s what he’s doing, that only really exists inside that scene – because we probably aren’t supposed to self-identify this way via Dean after Miriam calls him a Becky – but…
Anyway, it’s possible I’m projecting and seeing subtext where it’s not there, but I saw it the first time ‘round and in my morning rewatch and…yeah. I can’t unsee it.
Dean’s prayer fucks me up something terrible.
“We’ve lost everything, and now you’re gonna bring him back. Okay? You’re gonna bring back Cas, you’re gonna bring back mom. You’re gonna bring ‘em all back. All of ‘em. Even Crowley. ‘Cause after everything you’ve done, you owe us, you son of a bitch. So you get your ass down here and you make this right, right here, right now.”
This isn’t the first time he’s excused himself to the back of the building to try and contact an absent father, and gone unheard. He knows how this goes. You can see it in his face. He tries to have faith. He gets nothing.
Arguably, Dean’s quarrel with Chuck in 11x21 still stands. Nothing has changed. He’s still getting screwed over by a father’s willful absence.
And then there’s this:
“We’ve lost everything, and now you’re gonna bring him back. Okay? You’re gonna bring back Cas…”
He can’t even say that Cas is dead to Sam when they go looking for Jack, but he knows it. He saw the wing prints. Miriam taunted him with it. He’s fucked-up about losing Mary yet again – evidenced by his nightmare after Jack knocks him out – but this is the loss hitting him the hardest. It’s Cas’ body that’s his to prepare, his to burn.
“You’re gonna bring back Cas, you’re gonna bring back mom. You’re gonna bring ‘em all back. All of ‘em. Even Crowley.”
(That’s not an echo of ”I love you. I love all of you.” Not at all.)
“Well goodbye, Cas…”
And hey, if Dean’s prayer didn’t fuck you up completely, Sam teaching Jack about funerals – Jack who is an orphan now, watching both of his parents burn – is there to cause the leak in your ceiling that will pour water on your face.
“You say thank you. And you say you’re sorry. You hope they’re somewhere without sadness, pain. You hope they’re somewhere better. You say goodbye.”
Like, for all folks were complaining toward the end of Hellatus about who Sam is on the show of late – i.e. purely analytical, unfeeling – this ep was fantastic for centering him as this sort of mediating force who’s trying to work big picture despite the loss, trying to take all data into account.
And also trying not to die, because he was fucking terrified in that jail cell.
Which hey, understandable. And if we’re giving Miriam competence kink points for adusting on the fly, Sam earned his in bulk. Plus, he totally headbutted an angel. So hey. Sam fucking Winchester.
Actually, let’s just take a second to laugh about how scary Jack both is and isn’t. Because he’s not doing most of the exotic, terrifying things on purpose. He just does them when he’s scared. And he knows almost nothing about his abilities, but he’s learning what he can as fast as he can after “growing up fast” as per his mother’s recommendation.
His sense of self seems kind of nebulous. He “was” Kelly, though we don’t really know what he means by that exactly. When he uses his powers he feels somehow disconnected from them.
And he gets hungry and the lights flicker we’re all like, “OH SHIT CLARK,” and then nope, he’s just magically stealing candy from the vendo. And he feels really badly about frightening and hurting Clark and Sheriff Barker.
He’s still figuring out shoes, y’all. Shoes.
So I can’t help but notice that Sam doesn’t share the Castiel-as-Jack’s-father bombshell with Dean. Which, uh, I debated leaving as a bonus thing, or rolling into #5, but I think it’s significant enough to mention on its own, because this is a) kind of a big fucking deal with regard to understanding Jack, and b) kind of a serious fucking omission on Sam’s part.
Which…historically….well, Sam does that a lot. And he usually has a reason, but it also usually has consequences, so batten down the hatches for that, I suppose.
Bonus Thing: Sheriff Barker is a gift. I mean, she got the talk basically right out of the gate, and she advocates on behalf of people others call crazy or strange, and I kind of hope we see her again.
Bonus Thing 2: Hey, are we still using Baby as a gauge for Dean’s wellbeing? Because, uh…she needs some TLC.
Bonus Thing 3: There is a moment during the Miriam v. Dean fight that is fucking amazing blink-and-you’ll-miss-it physical comedy. He picks up a hat tree, she smashes the end off, then smashes it in half, and Dean does this cartoon panic and tosses the pieces up in the air.
Like, seriously. I need to learn to gif for moments like that.
Bonus Thing 4: The universe screamed at Dagon’s death. Presumably it did at Ramiel’s and Azazel’s, too? Guess that’s how Asmodeus gets the memo…
If I could offer you one piece of advice to hold in your heart, it would be to appreciate every second you have with the things that you love; be they places, objects or people…. Because there is a last time for everything and you don’t always get to know that it’s the last time when you’re in it.
There will be a last time you see a sunrise, a last time you taste ice-cream and a last time you smell a rose.
There will be a last time you enter every room, a last time you hold every pet, and a last time you hear a loved one’s voice.
Sometimes we know we’re in those moments and we can saver ever second of them - but so often we don’t know until that moment is gone and it’s too late to go back and relive it.
So hold onto those moments while you have them… live inside them…. appreciate them to their fullest every time so you’ll never regret taking them for granted one day when they’re gone.