these are not mine lol

really tho i’m so tired of seeing those posts that r like “stop trying for people who don’t show any effort” because like…….idk bout any of u but i’m emotionally n mentally screwed and sometimes it is very -very- hard for me to show someone that i genuinely want their time and attention because the only thing my mind is set to when trying to get close to them is ‘don’t get too close. they’ll hurt u. push urself away. be distant. whats the point if they’ll only leave anyway.’ and i can’t help that…..? i mean yea i’m trying to get better with it but seeing those posts jus make me feel like such shit for it, its so tiring lol