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Why I Think Momo is Kickass and You should too

So with the emergence of the anime becoming more and more popular, of course the fan base is growing and growing, I would even say to heights like seen in Fairy Tail, Naruto, etc.

 However, with the series getting more popular, you are stuck with more….negative opinions about the characters that in my mind are sometimes just not necessary.

 Now, this blog is normally Ochako and Kacchako and I intend to mostly keep it that way but lately, I’ve been seeing a lot of negative posts towards Momo and frankly, I’m heavily displeased by this, especially since she’s one of the most well portrayed girls in the series and it’s really heartbreaking on my end to see posts that essentially dismiss her for more shallow reasons that don’t need to be here.

 I mean to start this off, are we going to simply forget that she came into UA on a recommendation and was a student that made even All Might shook when asked why Iida was the winner of the exercise

or how, even though the class didn’t know her, she was still voted to be Assistant Class President? 

 or how she was able to act calm and rational during the USJ villain fight?

 or how she still managed to get the top grade in the midterm exams and didn’t get it to her head but actually acted BENEVOTELY and helped her classmates who asked her for help?

or how it was HER plan that got Todoroki and her to win the exam that they were fighting in?

 But ya know, because of her BODY, we’re going to ignore that right? We’re going to ignore how amazing and how smart she is simply because of her body.  

I won’t lie guys, I’ve heard people complaining about her quirk and even saying how bad her quirk is designed when it’s like??? It actually makes a lot of sense why it’s like that since she does create large objects like shields, spears, A FREAKING CANON, like it makes sense for her to need to use fat call throughout her body to be able to achieve that look.

Which brings me to talk about her costume. Oh boy, this is the one that when I first entered the fandom, no one really said anything but now that the series is more popular, everyone has become experts on body proportions and quirk designs and apparently fashion design since her costume isn’t good enough for her.

I mean look at the costume design that Horikoshi put in for her and how he planned that all out for her

At some point, yes I understand, Horikoshi is a pervert, sometimes his intentions aren’t the best, I get that. But consider this, even though he had the ability to make Ochako’s and Tsuyu’s costumes completely perverted, he chose against that. He had the perfect opportunity to indulge in that yet he didn’t. What I love about Horikoshi is that he thinks about the practicality of the quirks and designs the costumes based on that as well taking into consideration the character’s personality and what they would want.

 So guys, at some point, reality check moment: Momo is comfortable with her body enough to wear a costume that she deemed necessary for the usage of her quirk. And she chose that design for that outfit and has not said a word about this entire series. She even had an opportunity to create it to be more closed and she chose not to. MOMO CHOSE HER OUTFIT AND VIEWS IT GOOD ENOUGH FOR HER HERO WORK.

 In this moment too, I would like to share what even Midnight said during Episode 34 at the very beginning.

So another reality check: The only people who are saying it’s sexual are the people who are sexualizing her to begin with. Instead of viewing it as more of a practical thing that is designed for her quirk (which involves utilizing her fat cells and creating stuff through her skin), people begin to view as sexual and are condemning her for having a revealing costume. Which, to me personally, I find ironic since tumblr is filled with campaigns of free the nipple and the stopping of sexualization of breasts and female anatomy, yet look what’s happening here. People are taking her costume and saying she’s being sexualized for choosing a design that would give her optimal openness to use her quirk.

 I mean look at how she used it in the Aizawa fight

 Having that navel cavity helped her out immensely during this fight and she was able to create the alloy material in a much faster way with having access to areas where most of her fat is stored.

Which, I also heard people commenting on how Momo’s body doesn’t make sense and how skinny she is in comparison to her boobs (which I’ve seen that in real life, it’s not uncommon), but if you see in this spread

She actually isn’t the skinniest person in the world. Keep in mind that while she does use her fat cells to make stuff, she does also consume A LOT OF FOOD TOO to keep up with the level of activity too so she does get chubby sometimes so it’s a wrong assumption to think she has this INCRDIBLY PERFECT BODY WITH NO FAT when she does! Which only makes it only more natural and real!

Honestly, her entire arc in the beginning of the manga (or at least up into this exam point) has been so powerful, so realistic, and so amazingly well done.

I mean to consider, very similarly to Bakugou, while we haven’t gotten much of her backstory, given how she behaved in Season 1, we can have a somewhat assumption that she came from a great home and was well praised for her quirk. Obviously, her quirk isn’t one with a talent, she had to work immensely for it, but she must have been placed into situations where she was elevated and praised for how powerful her quirk is (like she was put in situations where she was able to be able to use her quirk to the fullest and not have much backfired).

Even Aizawa says this during their fight

Which does imply this isn’t a constant state she’s always been in, it’s one that has been gained since the sports festival (hence why the arguments that she should be shouldn’t be self confident are wrong). 

Yet, with coming to UA and being in a hero course, after participating in the festival, well she starts to crumble and kind of doubt her abilities against the others

 Like it starts off with her not getting a high ranking on the race

 Then she mentioned the issue with the cavalry battle later on but definitely the heavy hitter for Momo was her fight with Tokoyami where she was left in shambles since she wasn’t able to make much on an impact on the fight itself (which this was amplified more in the anime than the manga itself).

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Thus really bringing down her confidence. And now a lot of people screamed about how misogynist her hero training was and how demeaning it was which leads to 2 issues that some people forget about.

 1.     That there are multiple sides to being a hero. It’s not always the cookie cutter “fight villains, rescue people, rinse and repeat”. Even famous people in our society, even though their job is to act/sing/etc, they still go out and do publicity work and that’s what they do. It’s a part of being well known and using your abilities outside of the field you are in.

2.     This was all part of Momo developing. This was just another way to bring Momo down a couple more notches. It’s a bit cruel and hard but this was a way for Horikoshi to get her  out of her mindset and be exposed to something where her confidence could be lowered. Guaranteed if she was put into an actual hero training internship, she wouldn’t have been lowered as much as she did.

 Which could lead the argument that it wasn’t necessary to have any of that stuff happen to her but consider, would she have gotten in this state if she didn’t have those things happen and accumulate?

And would she have gotten her confidence back from Todoroki/Aizawa and execute an amazing plan without that encouragement from those moments?

Probably not.

 Ok this post is beginning to get way to long so I’m going to stop here before I go on and on and on about Momo. As much as Ochako is my best girl and I will forever sacrifice myself to her, even I have to admit Momo is utterly amazing and I only talked about what happened in the first 65 chapters. I didn’t even brush on how amazing she was during the invasion of the villains or how she managed to be a huge help in the rescue of Bakugou or even how kickass she was during the license exam (which she helped my princess Ochako and that pleased me so much). Momo is just more than the simple sexual object people are complaining her to be as, she’s an incredibly smart and amazing woman and Horikoshi put so much thought into her, more than what any of us could ever imagine. I am truly excited to see more of what she can do in the future and I hope she gains more fans since she truly deserves it.




One of my most reader-tested and approved recipes! This crusty, fluffy artisan bread needs only 4 ingredients and 5 minutes to come together… you won’t believe how easy and delicious it is!

The beautiful, crusty and fluffy bread that results from just four ingredients will knock your socks off! All it takes is flour, salt, yeast and water, all mixed up in a bowl and set to rest for 8-24 hours.

Just make sure your flour is fresh and yeast isn’t expired. I’ve used both active dry yeast and highly active dry yeast with great results!

YIELD: Makes 1 loaf
3 cups all-purpose flour

2 teaspoons kosher salt (not table salt)

½ teaspoon dry yeast (active dry or highly active dry work best)

1 ½ cups lukewarm water

Special cookware needed: Dutch oven or any large oven-safe dish/bowl and lid*

In a large bowl, stir together the flour, salt and yeast. Stir in water using a wooden spoon until the mixture forms a shaggy but cohesive dough. Do not over-work the dough. The less you “work” it, the more soft, fluffy air pockets will form.

Cover bowl tightly with plastic wrap. Let dough sit at room temperature for 8-24 hours*. Dough will bubble up and rise.

After dough is ready, preheat oven to 450 degrees F. Place your Dutch oven, uncovered, into the preheated oven for 30 minutes.

While your Dutch oven preheats, turn dough onto a well-floured surface. With floured hands, form the dough into a ball. Cover dough loosely with plastic wrap and let rest.

After the 30 minutes are up, carefully remove Dutch oven. With floured hands, place the bread dough into it. (You can put a piece of parchment under the dough if your Dutch oven isn’t enamel coated.)

Replace cover and bake for 30 minutes covered. Carefully remove cover and bake for 7-15 minutes* more, uncovered.

Carefully remove bread to a cutting board and slice with a bread knife.



Uncovered baking time depends on your oven. In my oven, the bread only needs 7 minutes uncovered until crusty and golden brown, but this can vary. Just keep an eye on it!

Preheating your Dutch oven to 450 degrees F will not damage it, or the knob on top.

I’ve let this dough rise anywhere between 8-24 hours and it has baked up beautifully. Just make sure it has risen and appears to “bubble” to the surface.

There’s no need to grease the Dutch oven/baking dish/pot. My bread has never stuck to the pot. If you are concerned though, put a piece of parchment paper under your dough before placing into your pot.

I do not recommend using whole wheat flour or white whole wheat flour in this recipe. The resulting bread will be very dense, and not as fluffy and delicious.

I used a 5.5 quart enameled cast iron Le Creuset pot, but you can use any large oven-safe dish and cover. All of these also work: a baking dish covered with aluminum foil, crockpot insert, stainless steel pot with a lid, pizza stone with an oven-safe bowl to cover the bread, and old cast iron Dutch oven.

Add any mix-ins you like - herbs, spices, dried fruit, chopped nuts and cheese all work well. I recommend adding them into the initial flour-yeast mixture to avoid over-working the mix-ins into the dough. The less you “work” it, the more you’re encouraging soft, fluffy air pockets to form!


🔮Lyrium’s Focus & Study Spell Jar


To aid students needing a boost to their concentration as well as promote clarity, logical thinking and understanding of difficult material. This jar can be used to assist with reading, writing papers, studying for exams, or any other academic need you may have!


Sage – wisdom
Rosemary – memory, mental clarity
Lavender – calming

Sodalite – knowledge, deep understanding
Fluorite – intellect, logic



There’s really no wrong way to go about this, but I’ll give a basic explanation of my process for making this! I started with a foundation of sage as I don’t like using powders on upper layers since the tiny particles inevitably fall through, ruining the effect of the layering. If you don’t care for aesthetics though, that’s not an issue. Next, I poured in some sodalite and fluorite chips and mixed them together into one layer. I mixed the rosemary into this layer as well. Finally, I topped it off with a thin layer of myrrh resin. I recommend using lavender instead as a cheap herb that’s easy to obtain, but I used myrrh here due to its connection with spirit work and the underworld (being a death witch myself) as well as its calming abilities. Afterward, I lit a tea light on top of the jar and allowed it to melt and charge the spell as I spoke my intent for each herb and stone. Then, I always finish my spell jars by humbly asking my ingredients to please lend me their energy when I need. Again though, you’re free to do your witchcraft however feels right to you. Also, I don’t care much for candle colors, but you’re free to choose based on correspondence if you want. I just used black cherry because the scent is relaxing to me.


Wow what a shit year! Not for anime, I mean, it was okay at worst. I think we’re definitely at the upward slope of the anime renaissance now, but still at the very start of it. It’s hard to think about that when most of what comes out (and is somehow popular) is just…the most generic shit. Well, I did the work for you. I weeded and trudged through some of the worst anime around and even some of my shit favorites to bring you the actual good, worth watching anime of the year.

Yeah, not everything you saw or want to see on this list is here, but you can check my foreword from last week that explains all that garbage. Links to each anime’s respective review will be on the titles (and added for those that just finished). Know that this list is pretty fluid. From 8 or 7 up, it’s all very much I loved them, but the higher up, the more I recommend anyone watch them.

10. Magical Girl Raising Project

Madoka was cool. I finally watched it this year and I was just as blown away by the psychological aspects as I expected to be. It just lacked that extra bite it needed to really scare my pants off. MGRP however, did indeed take a few years off of my life. I’m really in ruins right now since I can grab you by the shoulders and tell you now: you’ll like a lot of these characters and their thought out designs and personalities, but don’t get attached, cus ALMOST ALL OF THEM DIE.

I have to put MGRP on this list because aside from its fun and original designs, awesome interactions, cool-ass premise and execution (sometimes literally), it had some amazing rewatch value. I watched this anime three times, which is a lot to do in one year. I just had to watch people’s reactions and seeing stuff hidden in the background and revisiting some foreshadowing was so much fun. Definitely worth a watch and I’ll cover more about it in my upcoming review.

9. Orange

Regrets, like I have over not putting Kekkai Sensen into last year’s list, are the main theme of Orange. Buried under the shoujo themes of romance, high school, and angst, lies the actual regret: letting a friend kill himself. The main story unfolds itself very slowly as the group of friends discover that is what they must prevent, but it’s done in a realistic way. The signs of depression and suicide are so jokingly cast aside; it’s no wonder people miss it before it’s too late.

The climax of this story was heart-pounding and gut-wrenching. You find yourself rooting so hard for there to be success, to save someone who may not want to be saved, but must be saved. It might also make you pay closer attention to those around you. It’s an important anime to watch. If you do want one with a little less romantic emphasis though, I recommend you see Colorful instead (or also!).

8. Sweetness and Lightning

I need to marry someone who can cook. It doesn’t have to be a five-star chef, though I wouldn’t complain if it were the case, but Sweetness and Lightning reignited my need to be fed well. The show is about how food brings family and friends together. Aside from the great character interactions, well written children characters, and for god’s sake, the beautiful, perfect looking food, this anime was so pure in the amount of love put into it.

The food tops even some shown in Shokugaki no Soma, purely cus it’s doable for someone with a low skill level (like me), the meals are made for picky eaters (like me), and there’s not a ridiculously emphasis put on the orgasmic nature of food. That’s a thing that Shokugeki no Soma and even Koufuku Graffiti used stylistically in a comedic manner, but it doesn’t fit in Sweetness and Lightning for good reason. This show is accessible in that way, making it easier to show to someone who might want to try anime, but doesn’t want all the sexy fanservice.


Kick-ass and Metal come to mind when Drifters is mentioned. I love Kohta Hirano’s previous work, Hellsing, a lot. It was a massive gore and blood fest with a sprinkling of comedy in the mix. This is a war and gore fest with a, not a sprinkling of comedy, but more like Hirano accidentally knocked the bottle of comedy over when he was checking on the oven directly into said mix. It’s really funny, but also really awesome. I have a lot to say about it in my review, but I think a dog fight with dragons involved kind of state my case for me. Also Elves, Dwarves and other Tolkien demihumans and monsters abound. It’s fun.

The animation is also gorgeous, especially that stylized, graphic novel looking opening theme with the rock anthem “Gospel of the Throttle” making you “NA NA NA NA NA NA” along with the characters every opening. It’s an excellent show to watch with friends or get yourself pumped. Returning sometime next year!

6. Kuromukuro

How can something be so trope-y, yet so damn enjoyable? Kuromukuro isn’t an original concept, but is done in an original way. The samurai trapped in a machine for 500 years is the new exchange student. The reluctant heroine needs to board the mecha to fight the alien threat. The school festival has been compromised by an alien mecha entering the atmosphere. This anime is funny, but it’s also emotional and holds a much wider scope than I ever could have expected. P.A. Works has been putting out some good contenders in the last few years, and with their lovely art style and well-balanced budget, they were able to pull off this massive mech story in an engaging and entertaining way.

I applaud the cast for one of the best ensembles on this list, bringing forth some of the best and most memorable character chemistry of the season, and some hilarious situational humor. I also cried a little near the end, but honestly, a lot of anime on this list did that to me this year.

5. My Hero Academia

Shonen anime is such a delight now, always a favorite of mine as a kid, but not as firmly as now. I love the underdogs; I love the over the top villains; I love the powers, the fights, and the yelling to infinity. It’s just so exciting and blood pumping, and MHA made it so refreshing with such an interesting spin. These characters are children, inexperienced, with quirks that may or may not be useful. I love Deku because his anxieties and general feelings of being less than everyone else not only make it exciting to see him overcome them, but to use them to keep his head and ego from getting over inflated like some shonen protagonists. Bakugo is such a good foil to him, showing where this could be a major weakness to a shonen protagonist.

Also it’s coming back with THE TOURNAMENT ARC, and if you’re like me and haven’t started the manga yet, DO IT! You won’t regret it! I’m more than excited to see more of this awesome anime in action.

4. Flip Flappers

This anime, wow this anime. I’m so upset not more people are talking about it, but have you seen this delight for the senses? I’m looking forward to reviewing it now just because my jaw is still kinda on the floor. Beautiful animation, a crazy cool style, and some of the best nonsense in magical-girl but not really fight scenes I’ve seen in a while. This anime reminds me of something, but I can’t quite put my thumb on it. I do know it’s like an amalgamation of my editor’s anime “TYPE” so you’ll see more about that in the review.

But good lord did I love the heart of this show. The pure romance, the exciting battles, the trippy psychological horror. Let me just say, that one episode (the Maria Watches Over Us “GOKIGENYO”), probably has scarred me for life, but I love it. It’s just so different and good. It deserves a watch, just for how delighted your eyes will be.

3. Erased (Boku Dake Ga Inai Machi)

I love a story that can get you emotionally invested and cheering for or yelling at the character who you don’t have any control over. Erased was paced beautifully (though some might disagree due to the slight differences in adaptation), and its animation only made every silent, tender moment more enjoyable to look at before the lighting and mood would change and the feeling of bloodlust would stain the air. That’s how you write suspense.

I’m a little annoyed because apparently some other people were reading some character motivations “differently,” (looking at you crunchyroll), but I think it’s safe to say this doesn’t cross the line into romance, at all, and stays a thriller about growing up in a life-threatening situation.

2. Shouwa Genroku Rakugo Shinjuu

I love the theatre, and I love comedy and storytelling. This anime manages to hit both of these points while showcasing some of the best animation I’ve ever seen. On top of the animation, there’s good directing, and supporting that is a great soundtrack. The story is vast and covers several characters’ lives over several decades surrounding World War 2.

The rakugo, though, is what makes the story. It’s not the first anime to touch on this topic, but it’s the first to do so in such an interesting way. It was very refreshing compared to a lot of titles on this list (though many of them are refreshing ideas!) with its originality. It’s heartfelt, it’s serious, it’s funny, but it also makes me want to cry. If it weren’t for the top spot being so hype as hell and generally a weekly freak-out among me and my friends, this would have been number one.

1. Mob Psycho 100
What can I say about Mob Psycho that hasn’t already been said? Its opening is gold, its animation is unique and interesting, its writing, directing, and characters are all praise-worthy. It is just hands down the best anime of the year. You may be thinking, “but Mitsu, One Punch Man was number one LAST YEAR. Isn’t Mob a little overhyped?”

No. Sit down and shut up. One is probably one of the best writers on the scene right now and is doing a lot better at writing genuinely empathetic characters and commentary on modern anime genres and tropes than most of the big budget barf fests. I think the “overhyped” talk is nonsense when it comes to mob. It genuinely does some interesting and groundbreaking work. That’s why it’s not only on this list, but number one. It never moved an inch since I decided it should be on the list.

Everything I’ve said has BEEN said by several really good reviewers and critics out there and you should definitely check out what they have to say about it too, because honestly, they’re a lot better than I am. I like Mob Psycho, I like One Punch Man, but I like Mob more. I’m so delighted that One Punch Man will be returning shortly and I only wish for Mob to also share the spotlight, as it deserves.

anonymous asked:

How do you go about constructing faces i really struggle with it and yours turn out so nice

 so this is shitty but: I drew this very quickly to show the order in which I draw different features, because usually different elements inform how I draw the other parts of the face. A lot of people start out drawing eyes which works for them, but personally I wouldn’t recommend it especially if you’re struggling with it. I still start out drawing the face shape because like I said, it informs the placement of the rest of the facial features.

If you’re having trouble and not already using guidelines I would recommend it! Eventually you’ll get to a point where you won’t need them, but they are very helpful for keeping shit in line (literally) (also remember that they should follow the curve of the head and not be drawn straight on, faces have volume and even though my style is about as flat as it gets in terms of coloring I still try and reflect that.) ex:

There are a few features that i kind of use as ‘built in guidelines’ for faces: such as the ears, which align with the bottom of the nose and the top of your eyebrows. There is a little room to fudge this but this is a good general rule to follow and it helps to remember this when you’re drawing the head at different angles especially.

The hairline is also something that helps me determine the angle of a head, in this really shitty 10 second example I used u notice a lot less of the hairline is visible when the head is angled. (I usually draw out the entire shape of the head underneath the hair, even if the hair obscures the shape)

proportions on the face are hard to nail down, and they used to trip me up a ton when i first started drawing, specifically nose/forehead ratios (i used to draw some looooong faces) so just keep those things in mind. forehead height varies a lot depending on age (for example babies and young kids have larger foreheads, their facial features are lower)

i hope this helps a little, i know i’m not the best at tutorials lmao.

also if i totally misinterpreted your question lemme know I can try and answer the best I can (sometimes I get kind of vague art questions that i have… just no idea how to answer, if you have an art query it usually helps me if u can be as specific as possible with the kinds of issues ur having)

anonymous asked:

Um I don't want to offend you by asking this, but do you have any recommendations for mm cc creators? I love your work, but I want a variety in my game with cas and build mode. Also, cc creators don't only use THEIR cc. I think. Thanks!

Hmm well there are A LOT of mm creators. And ur definition of mm is probably different then mine, bc some people think recolors aren’t mm enough lmao. but ‘off the top of my head(see page 10000000)’ the mm cc creators I see a lot of stuff from is:


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anonymous asked:

Top 10 books recs, please?

oh, sure! sorry if this is long and boring, but i had to explain why i recommend these books and make a tiny description of what i think about them, in case you’re interested to read one and have no idea what you have to expect for it.

  • crime and punishment, fyodor dostoyevsky; along goethe’s faust, i think this is my favourite book. even though there are almost 600 pages of heavy dostoyevskian description, complex monologues and even more complex events, i literally devoured it in two days and absolutely love it. if you want a complex read but also a fascinating story with beautiful characters, you must read it. 
  • agony and ecstasy, irving stone; this book changed my life. this novel, which is about michelangelo’s life, emanates such art, with its richness of information and smooth, beautifully-written prose. you’ll immediately wish to know more about art and you’ll become conscious of what a divine thing it is.
  • the blind assassin, margaret atwood; i don’t like contemporary books, but this novel is definitely an exception. her writing style is marvellous, raw, and even though the story seems kind of banal, this book is an experience. an easy, but complex and surprising read. totally recommend. 
  • les fleurs du mal, charles baudelaire; baudelaire is my favourite poet for who i carry in my heart an eternal and intense love. you absolutely need to read his poems! they’re so gloomy, palpable, cold. and i love him. 
  • against nature, joris-karl huysmans; this is the most pretentious book i’ve ever read, but also one of my favourite. however, it’s a book hard to love. the number of the characters is insignificant and the action is almost nonexistent. the book consists mostly on descriptions and monologues. but they’re more than beautifully-written and, oh, i can’t put it into words. life-changing. it’s a small and strange read, but its complexity is fascinating. and huysmans is such an underrated author, he’s incredible.
  • hamlet, william shakespeare
  • king lear, william shakespeare; in case you wondered what are my favourite books by him. they have, especially hamlet, a deeply important place in my heart. 
  • the portrait of dorian gray, oscar wilde; i find this book an essential read only because it utterly changed my view in literature. it was my first classic. you just can’t not love this novel.
  • the aleph and other stories, jorge luis borges; he’s m a g i c a l. his writing style is extremely poetic and wondrous and his ideas are sublime.
  • faust, johann wolfgang von goethe; my absolute favourite book. my heart beats for it. every moment i live, i live with this play in my mind. my love for this piece of paradise is hard to put into words. everything about this was beathtaking and goethe is such a genius. someday, you need to read this book.
  • orlando, virginia woolf; her works are delicate, vernal, fragile. they give me an inscrutable and unique feeling. and this book is my favourite.

anonymous asked:


heLLO HI WELCOME TO YOONMIN HELL - I don’t know what you’ve already read? or even what you’re into? but i’ll try to cover the basics

okay this is getting really fucking long. i’ve a ton more to recommend though? anon come back when you finish all these classics and we can get into the moderns LOL

fyi i have a fic rec tag which i update occasionally as i find particularly interesting fics that i’ve read recently!

appblr tip: real talk about selective schools

If you want to get into selective schools and you’re a run of the mill kid (by that i mean you go to a school that doesnt routinely send students to ivy leagues/other very selective schools, and you haven’t cured cancer), here’s the damn truth: your chances are slim. 

I got a fucking 36 on my ACT. I was a National Merit commended student. I had an amazing gpa and took as many APs as I could (my school didn’t offer a lot, but I had A averages in all of them). I had work experience, volunteer experience, was the leader of two clubs, and had multiple awards for academic team. My teachers wrote stellar letters of recommendation. My Common App essay was fire. I was in the top 25% of every school I applied to, four of which were highly selective. 

I got into only one of those four selective schools, which proceeded to give me a whopping $0.00 in scholarship money and financial aid. 

A few other people in my class applied to Ivy Leagues and super selective schools, including the valedictorian of our class. they all got rejected (we’re all going to good schools though, don’t worry).

So if you go to like a normal high school that’s not a literal feeder to selective schools, you’re at a disadvantage. If you’re not a rich legacy, you’re at a disadvantage. If you don’t have a dramatic story or aren’t willing to spill your guts for no reason, you’re at a disadvantage. 

Sorry for bragging about myself. I’m not trying to talk myself up or scare you, it’s just a real word of warning and an example.

If you’re still set on going to a selective school, here’s my advice:

  • when you’re researching schools, be ruthless in trimming your list down. you’re going to have to put in a lot more effort for a selective school application, and it’s a lot easier if you don’t have a billion apps to do.
  • i would recommend picking only a few selective schools to apply to. don’t apply unless you can see yourself going there, and enjoying yourself in late winter of your third year. move past freshman year in your imaginings, and in your research too.
  • the application fees are way more expensive at selective schools (except for a few that are free if you apply for financial aid, which is free to apply for, so do that). bear this in mind when deciding to apply. do you really want to give $70 to this school that may ultimately reject you?
  • visit, if you can. schedule a meeting with a professor in your field. if you can’t visit, reach out to a relevant professor or the admissions office anyway. ask questions even if you already know the answers. show you’re interested. the selective school i did this for was the one that ultimately accepted me.
  • have safety schools, ones that are reasonable at the sticker price. when selective schools say, “we charge $70,000/year, but that’s just the sticker price! we give out SO MUCH money!!!!!”, they’re lying, unless you’re really, really unable to pay anything. middle class? good fucking luck. and don’t count on scholarships, no matter what great things you did in high school, they’re not giving them. 
  • research state schools too. everything i wanted at selective schools i have at the state school i’m going to (except division iii sports. oh well). selective schools and state schools have the same things, the selective schools are just more impressive because there’s fewer people, and they’re only appealing to top students anyway, while state schools have to appeal to everyone. don’t fall into this trap!!
  • ask yourself why you want to go to a selective school in the first place. think really hard about this one, and have an answer that you’re proud of. i didn’t think that hard about it, and my answer was somewhere in the realm of, “i’m tired of being treated like a freak for being smart, and i want to be somewhere with like-minded people so i can be ‘better’ than all the people who made me feel bad about myself.” i’m not proud of that. spite is not a good reason to dole out ridiculous amounts of money, and it wasn’t even worth the application process. 
  • repeat this to yourself every single day: SELECTIVE SCHOOLS ARE NOT BETTER THAN STATE SCHOOLS/COMMUNITY COLLEGES/ANYWHERE ELSE. stop idolizing them. you are not superior if you go to one, you are not inferior if you don’t (or don’t get in. see next point). chances are, if you’re willing to put in all the hard work to prepare for a selective school, and the grueling application process, you’re an amazing student, and a hardworking, intelligent, good person. any place would be lucky to have you. and if they decide they’re not going to have you, their loss. not yours.
  • don’t get your hopes too high. it’s a fucking crapshoot. everyone applying has basically the same qualifications, they basically draw out of a hat, and the “hat” is a complicated system which gives a lot more people jobs than drawing out of a hat. although they have about the same effectiveness. 
  • please, please, please, don’t base your concepts of self-worth on getting in somewhere selective. it’s so easy to do that, it’s such a simple dichotomy: if i get in, i’m good, if i don’t, i’m bad. No, no nononononononono. you are so much more than what some old dudes in an office decide to whittle you down to. please never hinge your happiness on other people’s decisions. 

in about three weeks, i’m heading off to my last choice safety school, which slowly moved up the list as the application process wore on. i couldn’t be more excited. it took me a long time to unlearn the terrible things i’d told myself about where i “should” go to college. when i finally got around to thinking about my happiness and my reasoning, i realized i had made a lot of mistakes in my thinking, as meticulously outlined above. honestly, i was an idiot, but things still worked out in the end. you’re going to do great, you are great, i promise. 

(i’m really sorry to all the people i inadvertently insulted through this post. i just think there’s a lot of misconceptions about selective schools among high-achieving high-schoolers that need to be rectified. also i’m still kind of bitter, because i obviously run on spite im sorry)

Good luck everyone!

odddragon7  asked:

I am a huge kingdom hearts fan and I would love to draw characters from the series but I have a hard time doing do you have any drawing templates you might would like to share

Usually people have trouble with the hairstyles, as Nomura designs some… unique hairstyles lol 

(for clothing, I don’t really have any tips :( I have to use reference pics every time I draw their clothing. If you’re good at drawing zippers and belts, then you’re halfway there. )

I don’t draw their hair 100% exactly as Nomura draws them or how they’re portrayed in-game, but the general shape is there. 

Spiky-haired KH characters have their hair grouped in a way that is one of the signatures of their design. Like Sora:

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anonymous asked:

do you have any fic recs?

hi there ! yes, i do. i try to reblog everything i’ve been reading recently (or fics i’ve been meaning to read) on my fic recs blog @guccirecs but since this is fanfic writers appreciation day i’ll try to list as many people off the top of my head :’D

@floralseokjin @taesthetes @yoongihime @tayegi @kittae @gukvory @dailydoseofdia @the95liner @mint-tape @roseok @btssmutgalore @1honeypot @pleaseseokjin @ellieljade @rapmonluv @workofteaguk @ricepot-jisung @rainygguk @chinnychimchim @chimdeer @noona-la-la-la @taecup @jjkfire @kainks @dreamscript @wonhopes @fireheart-namjoon @gukblush @hungline @houseofdemi @drquinzelharleen @kstopping @hayjeon @helloblamebts @xhixtape @blushoseoks @bluekyun @hobibliophile @jiminniemouse @jimlingss @taeciturn @minsvga @versigny

and ofc mj :’(

vermilion-blues-deactivated2017  asked:

Do you have any long, multichaptered fics with interesting plots and character development and basically everything a real book would have? I'm not looking for anything specific, it's just you always only find/recommendations oneshots, and I want something longer.

i think your best bet for these kinds of fics would definitely be looking through the superlong tag! Here’s some recommendations as well from the top of my head:

Misfit - (wattpad) Dan is different. He’s learned to accept that. He’s fated to be this way forever; a misfit from society. When he’s struggling to make ends meet and he’s faced with the option of looking into a serious job or taking on a roommate, he opts for what seems like the easier option at the time. Potential roommate number eleven, Phil, turns out to be an insufferable optimistic ball of sunshine that Dan wants nothing to do with. His options are running out though, as are the savings he’s been using to pay his rent, so he finds himself begrudgingly agreeing to let the other man move in.

A Royal Pain (ao3) - Dan Howell is a prince. Unlike most, known for their benevolent behaviors and elegant manners, he’s known for his sullen mood and vituperative remarks. After all, being a prince is not much fun; not with the lack of friends and the abundance of dumb tasks, such as trying to find the perfect bride and hosting dinners with nobles. Dan only has one friend, a prince from the neighboring kingdom Leona, and his days improve greatly when Phil finally comes to visit. However, with Phil comes a variety of strange accidents, all of which putting his friend’s life in danger. Is someone trying to assassinate Phil? And what can Dan do to stop it, to save his friend?

Nothing Burns Like the Cold - (tw)  Phil Lester is different, having the power to manipulate water with just a flick of his hand. Because of this, he was transferred into the special school, Dahlia Academy, which was built to harbor students with magical abilities. Here, he meets Dan Howell, a cold and distant pyromaniac who doesn’t get close to anyone

Let Me Down Gently -  AU in which Dan is (briefly) a lawyer, until he gets fired and kicked out by his girlfriend. Wandering alone at night looking for a place to stay, he happens across a slightly strange man who introduces himself as Phil and who owns a B&B. Without much choice, Dan takes up the offer to stay there, and quickly grows to have a certain fondness for Phil. There’s only one problem: Phil runs the B&B with his long-term partner Alex.

My Love is on the High Seas - After being accidentally kidnapped by pirates, Dan realizes that just maybe, his heart has been stolen as well.

In My Way - Daniel Howell is 21 and Britain’s newest star. He’s just been cast in the much-anticipated film adaption of Last Man Standing, the popular teen fantasy novel with a huge fanbase hanging off his every tweet. In other words, Dan has made it big.Phil Lester couldn’t care less. He’s a stressed out PHD student working part time at a bookshop while he struggles to get into post-production. He’s 26 and still lives in a tiny flat on the fifth floor of a building with a lift more broken than it is in use. He loves books, but he thinks big film adaptions screw with the plot too much. Needless to say, Phil is less than impressed when Last Man Standing is getting filmed in his hometown. And he certainly doesn’t want anything to do with obnoxious, arrogant, so irritatingly perfect leading actor Daniel Howell.


anonymous asked:

Could you give any of your favorite dnp fanfiction recs?

Hoo boy! You ask the tough questions! Get me talking about social issues & I’ll just rant off the top of my head, but ask me for my favorite phanfics & you stop me in my tracks.

First I’ll point to my AO3 list of bookmarks, which has tons of stuff I would obviously recommend, since I’ve bookmarked it all for repeated rereading (though when you get past a certain point in time before I discovered DnP, it’s pretty much all Johnlock). But I’ll also list just a few of my very very favoritest DnP favorites (all on AO3, because that’s where I do most of my reading).

I’m really tired right now as I’m about to go to bed, so the summaries/descriptions are going to be sort of uneven and probably won’t do the fics justice, but I’ll do my best. I hope I at least get all the links right. Let me know if any of them are wrong.

Birthday Sex by thejigsawtimess/@danfanciesphil: Lots of FWB sex, lots of feels, lots of unrequited pining, lots of unhealthy emotional manipulation, lots of angsty angsty angst. Also possibly the best, most emotionally effective fic I’ve ever read in any fandom. Also really incredibly well-researched to make it as canon-compliant as possible. Also really incredibly long. Don’t start reading it within 4 hours of bedtime unless you have a lot more self-discipline than I do.

Faking It/What A Fucking Mess by asianellenpage/@producedbyjhope: Dan accidentally says something in a liveshow that implies he and Phil are a couple. For … reasons … they end up faking being together for a while, which is particularly difficult because they did used to be together in the past. I’ve read a few “fake relationship” fics, but I particularly like this one.

Greedy by thespianhowell: This is my second favorite angst fic, right after “Birthday Sex.” I’m not even sure how many times I’ve read it—probably more than 20. And it was amazing every single time. It hurts so bad, and yet I crave it! Maybe because of the relief when the pain gets resolved? I don’t know, but I love how this one breaks my heart then puts it back together.

If Lost, Return to Phil by @thatsmistertoyou: The first AU I ever fell in love with, because it’s basically just a modern-day FWB scenario, and then Dan makes a wish that things could be different … and the wish comes true. Seeing Dan and Phil’s lives if different choices had been made, how their characters have changed and yet stayed the same, it’s all fascinating. Highly recommended!

It all started with a snake bite by winstonlives: Okay, yeah, this one’s mostly just plain old smut, with Phil being extra extra hot. It’s some excellent smut, though!

it’s no good (unless it’s real) by blueshirt: Sort of a TATINOF tour FWB with some lovely pining and miscommunication.

A Map of My Heart and Mind by Cadensaurus/@cadenisphantastic: Dan and Phil get drunk in Vegas and find themselves accidentally married. What follows is some sweetness and some angst and some more sweetness and some more angst, etc. It’s lovely! I couldn’t put it down the first time I read it and literally stayed up all night.

Missing Pieces by @ramonaspeaks: I adore the unrequited pining angst in this one! I’ve reread it many many times. Love love love love love. I should write more about it, given how many times I’ve read it and how much I love it, but I’m becoming incoherent as I begin to nod off over my laptop.

Roll the Dice and Swear by @ramonaspeaks: Okay, yeah, again, this one is mostly just for the smut. But it’s good smut! Set during the mysteriously undocumented trip to Vegas for Dan’s 21st birthday.

Ships that pass in the night by @agingphangirl: One of the stories that actually got me interested in AUs! Dan and Phil are both YouTubers, but they’ve never met, because Phil’s a big ol’ socially anxious mess who keeps making the worst possible assumptions. This is the fic that taught me that AUs can still have great characterization. (WIP)

Unspoken Rules by @agingphangirl: FWB with great characterization and lovely angst. I love me some well-written angst!

When It Rains It Pours by wordsongs: The angstiest of all angsty fics on my list, possibly the angstiest I’ve ever read. Dan gets gang-raped and goes on a long, difficult road to recovering emotionally. The characterization in this story is just heartbreakingly wonderful. Dan’s pain and self-loathing, Phil’s forlorn desire to help … just … ouch! (WIP)

So maybe you’ll like some of those. Those are the ones I’ve reread the most times, anyway. Happy reading!

Five Times Enjolras Almost Proposed to Grantaire, and Twice He Did

@ionlyrunfromshameyour wish is my command. Established ExR, Modern AU, fluffy as fluffy can be.

Grantaire bounced on the balls of his feet, barely able to contain his excitement as the line into the Louvre inched forward. “So I know I’ve said it like a bajillion times, but I really appreciate you coming here with me.”

“It’s not like it’s a hardship for me to spend time with you on our vacation to Paris,” Enjolras said, amused. “I may not be as into art as you, but there’s some great pieces in the Louvre – Delacroix’s Liberty Leading the People; Meissonier’s The Barricade, rue de la Mortellerie, June 1848; Vien’s The Triumph of the Republic…I could go on.”

Rolling his eyes good-naturedly, Grantaire looped his arm through Enjolras’s and leaned his head against his shoulder. “Naturally, I should have guessed where your interest would lie. Just promise me you’re not going to pull a Bastille reaction and start crying.”

Enjolras scowled at him. “Look, it was our first night in Paris, I had had a bit too much wine at your insistence, I would remind you, and it’s an emotional part of history.”

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K-Drama Recommendations

People close to me or those who follow me on Twitter would know how it seems that I always recommend every single K-drama I have just finished watching. That’s not true though. At least, I don’t recommend /all/ that I watch, only most HAHA. 

Thus, I have decided to organize my recommendations into a list consisting of my top favorite K-dramas with the reasons why I watched them and why I recommend them for others to watch. These reasons may be highly subjective as they weren’t exactly reviewed technically.

NOTE: These are K-dramas I recently watched (from 2 years ago up to now) which means there are other great (classic) K-dramas that I did not include only because I remember these ones better. 

1. Pinocchio

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Why I watched it: It stars Lee Jongsuk, one of my all-time favorite actors. Besides, it has an interesting plot: a girl who hiccups every time she lies, a terrible past involving the guy she likes and her mom, and the leads characters’ struggles to reach their dreams in the media industry. 

Why you should watch it: This drama is arguably my number one favorite K-drama because unlike most other dramas whose plot revolves mainly around the couple’s romance and the troubles surrounding their happily ever after, this drama deals with wider, more substantial issues (e.g. the ethics of the media industry, family). Also, Pinocchio is unlike other dramas whose plot seem to lose direction halfway through, or whose premise lacks depth resulting to it getting boring and drags on, or having a promising start but  not being able to wrap things up cleanly later on. This drama has many layers gradually getting revealed. What you thought was the main problem actually has a deeper aspect to it. It’s not just about jongsuk and shinhye’s romantic-slash-niece-uncle relationship nor is it a typical love triangle. The supporting characters also prove important to the overall story, even those who seemed to be very minor characters at first. Character growth can be observed and the ending is appropriate, without leaving loose ends.

2. You who Came from the Stars

Originally posted by soosoosoohyun

Why I watched it: Jeon Jihyun, Kim Soohyun, and a love story between a sassy actress and an alien. Who wouldn’t be interested?

Why you should watch it: It’s a comedy (Jeon Jinhyun’s Cheon Songyi will make you literally LOL), drama (watch out for Kim Soohyun’s crying scenes!), and romance (there’s undeniable chemistry between them + Do Minjoon’s subtle but sweet, protective antics) all rolled into one. There’s a reason behind this drama’s immense popularity -be it the characters and how the actors accurately portrayed them, the unique storyline, the creepy antagonist, or all of them.

3. I Hear your Voice

Why I watched it: It was really popular at that time (no doubt why!) and it had an interesting story.

Why you should watch it: Older woman - Younger man (who, incidentally, can read minds!!) romance but it is in no way awkward. If anything, that made everything even cuter and sweeter (that backhug is still the best backhug in the history of kdrama!). Plus, the woman being strong and modern (although sometimes an adorable fail, especially when Jongsuk reads her mind) and the guy being a pure, innocent high schooler adds to the cuteness and uniqueness of the drama. This closely rivals Pinocchio as my all-time favorite kdrama (which isn’t surprising since they had the same writers, and Jongsuk as lead). It has a neatly written story, with depth and substance (tackling the concept of what makes people monsters and other ethical issues in the background of various legal cases).

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4. Reply 1997

Why I watched it: The lead character is a kpop fangirl (which means I can relate). And I love Eunji and Shin Soyul.

Why you should watch it: It’s a perfect coming-of-age drama. Aside from successfully showing character growth for each one of them, it had a unique and very interesting way of storytelling, by means of flashbacks. It keeps you hooked since every episode seems to end with a cliffhanger, leaving you curiouser and curiouser. The characters’ diversity is also an interesting factor -two kpop fangirls, two sets of potential couples, two secretly in-love bestfriends, and the funny guy. I also like how it dealt with homosexuality, with one of the them being secretly in-love with one of their guy friends.

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5. School 2015

Why I watched it: Yook Sungjae. And because I loved the earlier series School 2013 too.

Why you should watch it: It’s an inspiring drama. Although it is set in a high school, it has universally relatable themes of dreams, love, friendship, and family. Bullying is portrayed in a straightforward, honest manner which made the antagonist very unlikable and makes people realize how serious a crime bullying is. The love triangle was an interesting storyline, with both males being likable, unlike in Filipino dramas where one is bound to be a jerk. However, the second male lead’s character was written so much better than how the other guy’s was. They also built up his relationship with the female lead so much more that the ending actually became disappointing. Symptoms of second male lead syndrome can be expected. On the other hand, the female lead’s acting is extremely commendable as well as the way the characters were written. It would’ve been nicer though if they were able to follow through the subplots concerning the other students because they were able to deal with them closely at first, only to leave loose ends. It makes the viewer ask what happened to some of the minor characters. Still, on the overall, the drama is a good watch. 

6. Plus Nine Boys

Why I watched it: Two words: Yook Sungjae.

Why you should watch it: Although I watched this primarily because I have just finished School 2015 at that time and needed more Yook Sungjae, I wasn’t at all disappointed. It’s very light and easy to watch and has one of the most satisfying endings for me. It’s not your typical happily ever after. It’s not predictable such that everything suddenly fits into place. Still, you’ll be left smiling at how things turned out. The plot is simple and the portrayal is realistic. I especially love the scenes where the three brothers interact with one another or with their mom and uncle because it depicts a very normal everyday scenario not unlikely to happen in real life. It has its fair share of heart fluttering and comedic scenes but for me, what sets this drama apart is really how realistic and normal (often undramatic) it is.

Preference: You Have a Miscarriage

Summary: basically what the title says!

Warnings: miscarriages get mentioned in this, as you can see from the title. I’m sorry if that’s triggering for anyone!

Feedback is appreciated! This isn’t my best work, but I tried. Enjoy!


Ashton: “A miscarriage?” Ashton echoes from beside you, his eyes flickering from you to the doctor. “But how? I did everything right this time. I took the prenatal vitamins and went to all of the classes.” You say, your hand resting on your stomach. The doctor shakes his head. “Sometimes, it just isn’t meant to be. I recommend that you and your husband start looking into adoption or surrogacy.” He says, before leaving the room. Ashton sighs, looking down at you on the exam table. You’ve been trying to get pregnant for four years. You’ve gotten pregnant twice, including this time, and they’ve both ended in miscarriages. “Ash?” You whisper, tears blurring your vision as you look down at your hands. Just because this isn’t your first let down, doesn’t mean it doesn’t hurt any less. Ashton leans down and kisses the top of your head, grabbing your hand with his own. “I understand if… if you don’t want to be with me anymore.” You mumble. Ashton lifts his head and looks at you. “What? Baby, that’s crazy. I’d never leave you.” He says, tears forming in his own eyes. “I can’t give you the family you want, though.” You say. Ashton shakes his head. “Then we’ll adopt like the doctor recommended. (Y/N), my family is wherever you are. You’re my wife. I don’t need a baby to be happy. As long as I have you, I’m completely content.” You bite your lip. “I really wanted to have a baby, Ashton.” You say, the tears finally rolling down your cheeks. Ashton pulls you into a warm hug. “I know, baby. I know.” He murmurs, his voice muffled by your hair. “Hey, we’ll be okay. Our baby is safe and is where she should be. She’s watching over us every day.” Ashton tells you when you pull away. He kisses away the last few stray tears on your cheeks. “I want to adopt. But… can we wait a few months? I’m not ready for a baby again yet. I’m a mess right now.” You say, your emotions and hormones swirling in every direction. Ashton smiles. “Best looking mess I’ve ever seen.” You both cry for a little while longer in the doctor’s office, then head home and sit in the nursery for hours, until you fall asleep and Ashton carries you to bed. It would be a long road ahead after this, but Ashton knows that you’re strong and can get through it.

Calum: You found out about the miscarriage three weeks ago. You and Calum had both been heartbroken, wanting to start a family more than anything else. You both got a week off of work to sort through everything and to try to recover. Calum tried not to show how much he was hurting because that just made you feel terrible. You’ve both been trying to go back to normal. You’ve been ordering Chinese and pizza for the past weeks, neither of you having the energy to cook.But today, when Calum walks into the kitchen after work, he sees you there, chopping vegetables. “(Y/N)?” He asks. Your head snaps up and he immediately notices the tear stains on your cheeks. “You remember Sarah from my work?” You ask, your voice strained. Calum nods slowly. “Well, she’s pregnant.” You say simply, your voice cracking on the last word. Calum shuts his eyes against the pain he feels in his gut. When you’re hurting, so is he. He hates seeing you beat yourself up over it. “And you know, I sat at my desk for an hour trying to figure out how that’s fair. How come she gets to be pregnant instead of me? How come her baby gets to be perfectly healthy instead of ours?” You ask, cutting the carrot rather hard. Calum walks over and takes the knife from you, just as you break down. Sobs wrack your body as Calum pulls you to his chest. “It just isn’t fair.” You cry. Calum feels tears roll down his own cheeks. “I know. I’m so sorry, angel.” He says, even though it isn’t his fault. “We deserve a baby. We do!” You say, and it makes Calum’s heart break even more. He pulls you into the living room and cuddles you tightly against his chest. “We’ll get through this, (Y/N). I promise you that we’ll have our baby someday. I’ll do everything I can to make that happen.” Calum says, squeezing his eyes shut as he makes a silent prayer.

Luke: “Princess? The boys are here. Are you sure you want to go through with this?” Luke asks quietly, poking his head into your shared bedroom. You’re still curled up in a ball, tissues all around your body as you cry and stare off at nothing. You’ve been like this for weeks since finding out you suffered a miscarriage. “Yes.” You croak, tears streaming down your cheeks. Luke sighs and shuts the door as he leaves. He walks to the room that was set up to be a nursery. The boys turn and look at him. “She wants it all gone. We’ll take the furniture to my parents’ place for now and paint the walls a different color. Make it look nothing like a nursery.” Luke tells them, even though it hurts him to be destroying the same nursery he and the boys had put so much time into making. “You should really get her to see a counselor, mate. She doesn’t seem like she’s doing very well.” Michael says. “I’m working on it. She’s finally began taking showers and eating some more, so that’s progress. I’ll bring up seeing a counselor when she’s ready.” Luke says. “What about you? How are you holding up?” Calum asks, tilting his head to look at his best friend. Luke’s eyes are bloodshot from crying and he has dark circles under his eyes from not sleeping. He seems to have lost a little weight. “The doctor said it could have been from exhaustion. What if taking her on tour caused it?” Luke asks, finally breaking down and letting his tears fall. “You can’t blame yourself, Luke. It just wasn’t what God wanted for you and (Y/N) yet. It had nothing to do with her coming with us.” Ashton says, pulling Luke in for a hug. The two other boys join in, holding Luke against them tightly. “Lukey?” Your voice rings through Luke’s ears. He pulls away from the boys to turn around and face you. You’re leaning against the doorway, your hair in a messy bun and wearing one of Luke’s band tees. “What’s the matter, love?” He asks, wiping away his tears. “Can we keep the nursery for now?” You ask softly, your bottom lip quivering. “Of course we can, princess.” He says. “And I was thinking… maybe we could go see her grave now?” You ask. You and Luke had your little girl buried at a local cemetery, but you never went to see her. “Of course.” Luke says, pulling you into a hug. It seems that you were finally ready to start picking up the pieces.

Michael: He’s angry. He’s so, so angry for months after you hear the news. Him being angry doesn’t mix well with you being sad. You grow apart; your nights filled with tears and screaming instead of healing. It’s not until he stops coming home at night that you know what to do. “I want a divorce.” You tell him at dinner, on a night where he’s actually home for the first time in weeks. His head immediately snaps up. “What?” He asks, his voice low. “I want a divorce.” You repeat. “Why?” He asks. You scoff. “Michael, its obvious that you blame me. You barely speak to me anymore and you’re never here at night. I get it. I get why you can’t even look at me anymore. It’s okay.” You tell him, biting your lip as your voice cracks. Michael stands up and walks over to your side of the table. “(Y/N), I don’t blame you. I’ve never blamed you. I only go out at night so I can try to forget that it happened. I hate the fact that we don’t have our baby, but I would never, ever blame you for that.” He says, kneeling down so he can see your face. “God, how could you even think that? I love you so much. You have to know that.” You look at him with tears rolling down your cheeks. “I needed you. I lost a baby and you just completely shut me out when I needed you. You can’t do that.” You tell him, wiping away your tears. “Oh, baby, I know that now. I’m so sorry I wasn’t there. I’m such an idiot. Come here.” Michael pulls you into a tight hug, which eventually ends up with both of you siting on the kitchen floor with you curled into his chest and his arms around you. You cry together, until neither of you can cry anymore. You agree to see a couple’s counselor to get back to where you once were. Michael knows that it’s going to be hard getting you to trust him again, but he promises that he’s not going anywhere unless it’s with you.

whiteraven16  asked:

I missed out on reading some really good books though out high school. So I was wondering what are some book that everyone should read at least once? You know the MUST HAVE read books

I missed out on some of those in high school, too… and I haven’t caught up with all of them in the (many) years since high school. Yesterday I mentioned my Top 10 recommended books, but I wouldn’t say all of those are MUST READ books. (I mean, I think they are, but it would be a little short-sighted to categorize all my favorite books as “must reads.”) I think books everyone should read are those that are widely discussed and can help you connect with other readers; books that are consistently referred to in other books. So I’ll give you a list of 10 I think are must reads, but I really hope my followers will chime in and add to this list. 

In no particular order (off the top of my head): 

The Great Gatsby - F. Scott Fitzgerald
Jane Eyre - Charlotte Brontë
Don Quixote - Miguel de Cervantes
Hamlet - William Shakespeare
Their Eyes Were Watching God - Zora Neale Hurston
To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee
Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy
Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck
The God of Small Things - Arundhati Roy
1984 - George Orwell

Ugh, so hard to keep this list at 10. Help me out here, followers! 

About Dean’s Dreams

Relationship: Dean x Reader
Rating: Brief smut
Warnings: Mentions of canon events
A/N: Thank you to @pixikinz for beta reading this for me and giving me the assurance I needed.

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Summary: Dean writes letters to the woman of his dreams. As in, the woman he’s with when he’s asleep.

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“Come to bed,” She says.

Dean thinks that’s funny- and maybe she does too since she’s wearing her sweetest smile- because he’s already asleep.

Dean starts writing the letters long before he starts having the dreams.

It begins after the racist monster truck case that brought Dean back to Cassie Robinson. The first woman he loved and lost. He suggested that this goodbye might not be as permanent as their last and Cassie said that she was a realist and that she didn’t see much hope for them. Dean told her he’d see her again, and when she nodded her head disbelievingly, he said it again, meaning it.

He vowed to himself that he would, he’d return to her. That he’d make it happen because when you meet someone like Cassie Robinson you don’t let go. You hold on tight and you come back.

Writing letters to her was his way of making sure he’d follow through on his promise. He never sent them, that was the point. He wrote things he wanted her to know, but for him to share them he’d have to physically bring them to her. It was an insurance policy of sorts.

Dean wrote about all kinds of things. The cases he and Sam worked, leaving out most of the gore and playing up the heroics, even though he knew Cassie would see right through the latter. He peppered his notes with jokes he knew she’d love, jokes he knew she’d roll her eyes at and jokes he knew would make her huff in annoyance.

He put effort in the letters he wrote. Dean went as far as researching some writing tips just to impress the journalist.

In rare moments of vulnerability, Dean wrote things he could never really talk about. Not even with Sam. Maybe especially not with Sam. He didn’t think he was keeping what he was doing a secret, but he only ever wrote the letters when his brother wasn’t around.

He poured honesty he didn’t even know he possessed onto pages upon pages. He wrote about how desperate he was to find his father, even though he played it like he was on board with the arbitrary cases John would send their way. He wrote about how afraid he really was of Sam’s visions. About what they might mean for his brother. About what he could become.

He wrote all of this for Cassie to read but then months went by and his dad died and the yellow eyed demon came back for Sammy and Dean sold his soul.

Dean wrote about all of that too. Wrote about having a year to live. Wrote about his fear of dying. Wrote about the nightmares where hellhounds drag him to hell. Wrote about being afraid of what he might become there.

But Dean wasn’t writing to Cassie anymore. Maybe he hadn’t been for a while. He definitely stopped beginning the letters with her name. He’d grown up since he selfishly went and got Sam from school, since they worked the Racist Truck case, and he wasn’t deluded enough to think returning to Cassie was an option anymore. That it ever really was.

“I don’t have any siblings,” She tells him as they rock on a porch swing. “I can’t imagine giving up so much for someone.”

“It’s my job. He’s my responsibility.”

“It’s amazing that you believe that.” She leans into his side more and allows him to hold her. It makes him feel good, she’d learned. She doesn’t think it’s half bad either.

Dean went to see Lisa Braeden, as part of his Dying Wishes Tour. She told him he could stick around after the changelings that took her son were dealt with, but Dean couldn’t. Dean was dying. Dean had a timer counting down the minutes before his eternal vacation in the pit began.

He fed her some line about having work to do because he couldn’t tell her any of that. He could pretend to, though. Which is how he began addressing the letters to her. Not explicitly, of course, but in his mind, she was who he was writing to.

That’s when the dreams began. They were like snippets of the life he could have had with Lisa. Dreams of watching Ben at baseball, going to the movies as a family, cooking together. They were dumb things too like fixing the knob to a closet door, brushing his teeth while Lisa stood beside him brushing her teeth. They were good dreams. They were the version of his life where he could be happy.

Then, Dean died.

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floatingheadcomics  asked:

Any tips on colouring faces? Like you, I've been drawing for years now but only recently have I started going into the technicalities of it. I'm self taught and hope to get as good as you :) thank you for inspiring me and others just like myself. Love your art (duhh) <3

Oh gosh, coloring is my weakest point honestly. And I’m especially bad with faces D:

Errr, the most I can suggest is studying the anatomy and planes of the face. Knowing how the face works really helps you properly place shadows and highlights and brings a lot of depth to your art, especially with soft shading.

Here’s some crappy example sheet thingys I made eons ago so you can kind of see what I’m talking about:

[ Yellow: lights / Red: shadows / Blue: lol idk why I made it blue but it’s just more shadows ]

In terms of cel/hard shading, I suggest keeping it simple. Overall it depends on your art style and preferences, but personally speaking my art looks like crap when I go overboard with hard shading. Someone like Danica Sills is quite excellent at it though; I def recommend watching some of her videos for reference.

Also this might be obvious but it’s really important to know where you want your light source to be when it comes to coloring/shading. Is the light hitting your character from the top left?? Straight on??? From behind??? This drastically changes how you shade and also affects the mood of your art.

As for colors themselves, don’t just shade with a black/grey or darker color of the skin. Try nudging the color to a more warm or cool tone. Example:

As you can see the face has more life to it with a pinkish shade vs. just a darker orange. Also its very subtle but even the highlight is moved to yellow instead of beige. Basically I pick my base color and then go slightly up the color-wheel for hightlights and down the wheel for shadows.

Besides this I don’t really know what else to say??? I’m sorry, this is all terribly unhelpful :/

I HIGHLY recommend watching tutorials/speedpaints on YouTube, that’s where I’ve learned how to do most of this stuff. I can’t remember any videos I’ve watched on coloring skin, but somebody like Sycra probably has one (his video’s in general have helped me improve A LOT).

Thank you for your kind words! :’D And good luck on your art journey! Being self taught is really difficult, but there’s plenty of resources for us online to learn from so there’s nothing holding you back. I hope you have fun and find success in all your endeavors <3<3