i never, ever thought another man could love me. not like this. i was convinced for years that being trans meant that i was unloveable and undesirable.
but you know that post that goes, “all i want is a partner who is way out of my league but thinks that i’m way out of their league and we’ll live together in perfect confused harmony with a dog”?
trans dudes who like dudes, especially if you’re young and feeling real hopeless–don’t worry, it’ll happen. you CAN find a man who loves you–gross, mushy, sappy love–who’ll nurse you through your surgeries, cook dinner with you four or five times a week, whose body meshes just right against yours… who, years on, still stuns you with your shared vulnerability and trust, with his laugh, with how you can see the freckles in his eyes when your faces are pressed together; with how your skittish pulse slows in his arms, or that when you’re both half-asleep, he’ll press a kiss between your shoulderblades and pull you closer to him…
tl;dr: being a gay trans man doesn’t doom you to a life without love. hang in there.
In which, early on both Yurio and Otabek miss their boyfriend each other, but possibly feel too awkward to admit their enthusiasm about seeing one other again. ;v; (Both trips worked out fine in the end haha///)
I feel like I digressed from the prompt a bit though
@blairtrabbit: they would find some amazon civilization blairtrabbit: johnny would almost get them killed Me: like Me: immediately blairtrabbit: like jack would see the giant women step out of the bushes his eyes would get really big
and he would side eye johnny and shake his head slowly
blairtrabbit: but it would be to late Me: hahahaa oh my god blairtrabbit: johnny would have his mouth open taking a deep breath
blairtrabbit: then the very next shot blairtrabbit: them in a cage over a fire
Me: “I do not know why you continue to behave this way toward women when I suck your dick every night, Johnny,” Jack says
but in a more PG way
blairtrabbit: johnny just has his head in his hands
Random appreciation of Ethan because he’s come so far and it makes me emotional. I watched an older video recently, back when his channel was still fairly small, and he talked about what the channel meant to him and what he wanted to do with it, and just to continue to make people happy. He also said that he was afraid because he didn’t want us to forget about him. Now, just seeing how much the channel and community have grown since then is so incredible. And now he lives in LA and does YouTube full time and is sooo close to 300k! And he still constantly reminds us of how much the community means to him, and how much he loves us, and it’s too sweet. I just love seeing people living their dreams, and I’m so fucking proud of him.
I don’t know, I’m kind of emotional today and this community means the fucking world to me, I love it to bits, and I couldn’t forget him if I tried.