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Ai Yazawa End-of-Book Notes 1-21

So at the end of every volume of NANA, Ai Yazawa has a brief paragraph about the manga or just some introspection about her life. They give great insight into the series and I think only a few are found on the scans of NANA online, so I thought I’d share them all!

Volume 1

The creator, Ai Yazawa, told us, “I created this story so that it could be enjoyed as a stand-alone and, at the same time, have a complete ending that could be connected to an ongoing series.  I hope you’ll look forward to the future of the two Nanas!”

Volume 2

A note from Ai Yazawa: “I had thought that if the two Nanas met each other, they would probably be constantly fighting, but they seem oddly friendly.  What’s up with that?!  It’s one of me (not so) seven wonders (ha-ha).”

Volume 3

Since childhood, the artists I’ve looked up to haven’t been writers and illustrators, but mostly musicians.  Music provides me the most emotional effect and excitement.  If there was no music, I don’t think my creative juices would boil.  Music is that important to my life.

- Ai Yazawa

Volume 4

I realized one day that there are hit songs with the same names as the main female characters, NANA, JUNKO, and SACHIKO (the kanji for JUNKO is different, though).  It’s not that big a deal, but I sometimes just hum the melodies longingly.

- Ai Yazawa

Volume 5

In the initial drafts, Nana’s band was a rockabilly band like the Stray Cats.  But due to various circumstances, I didn’t keep it that way.  But if they were rockabilly, Ren, Nobu and Shin would have had pompadours.  And Yasu too?

- Ai Yazawa

Volume 6

When I was a child, I used to take piano lessons.  Even after I stopped taking lessons, I bought sheet music I liked and continued playing.  I’ve had my hands full for several years now, but one of these days I’d like to learn how to play jazz piano, which I’ve wanted to do for years now.

- Ai Yazawa

Volume 7

I had an opportunity to interview a group of professional musicians.  I showered them with questions, but they answered willingly, and it was very helpful.  I was having problems balancing the fictional world of manga-like simplicity and gorgeousness with a sense of reality.  But I realized again that what’s important is the humanity of the characters.

- Ai Yazawa

Volume 8

When I was in high school, there was a cool girl in my class who was a lone wolf.  I was really into a foreign New Romantic-type band then, and when she asked me one day, “Do you want to go to their concert together?” I was overwhelmed.  My heart fluttered more than when I was with my boyfriend (☺).  Have you had a Hachiko experience like that?  - Ai Yazawa

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My dear lgbt+ kids, 

Here’s a hug for everyone who wonders “Do i only identify as lgbt+ because that happened to me?”. 

That can be many different things. A traumatic experience of any kind, abuse of any kind, any other event or circumstances that heavily impacted your life. Or maybe it’s not so much something that happened but rather a diagnosis that makes you wonder if your idenity is really only caused by a mental illness or neurodivergence. 

I’m no stranger to those doubts and worries as i have my “that”, too. I want to share with you what comforts and reassures me: 

Maybe in some alternative universe where that didn’t happen or that isn’t true, some things would be different. We can’t know that. But what we do know is that you don’t live in that universe. So, why does it matter? 

Here and now, you are lgbt+- That’s all that matters. 

With all my love, 

Your Tumblr Mom 

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Swiftly and With Prejudice - ThirtySixSaveFiles - Tales from the Borderlands
Part of the Street Rat AU
By Organization for Transformative Works

Pairing: Handsome Jack/Rhys
Warnings: violence, unhealthy relationships, mention/allusion to past death of a minor character, technically a/b/o although that doesn’t really come into play here
Summary: Tediore’s not happy about Hyperion’s expansion. Jack’s not happy about Tediore.

Rhys is happy to be useful.

Notes: This was a small scene that I realized didn’t fit with any of the last few pieces I have planned for this series, so I fleshed it out a bit. Takes place shortly after From a Position of Strength. Kudos to @tonberryqueen for correctly identifying Rhys in action as Jack’s #1 kink.

I want to write for Levi Ackerman, but I also don’t, because I just love his character so much. I feel like I’ll get his character completely wrong and it’ll be totally misinterpreted. But at the same time I want to because I feel like a lot of people see Levi as someone different from who he is. 

Levi Ackerman is a clean freak, but I feel like it is not because he hates dirt or because he picks at whatever he can, but I feel like he’s a clean freak because it is the only thing that Levi has control over. Levi doesn’t have control over much. He tries to have control over how he feels, the way he sees things, the way he reacts to things, but even that doesn’t work out the way he wants it to. But I’ll get to that later. Levi scrubs those floors until they’re sparking, sweeps his heart out, and dusts those cabinets because if he’s able to control his own environment than that allows him comfort. He watched as his mother would do her best to keep her son clean, having them scrounging up whatever soapy water they could fine to keep the bacteria away, also whilst trying to ensure his happiness. That was not able to be fulfilled. But if he could keep clean, then things would be alright. If he could get rid of the mud on his clothes and his environment tidy, then it didn’t matter if he had no choice whether his comrades would survive or not, as long as he had control over that one element. He disassociated himself so much that was all he knew to do in those tough situations Levi’s consistently putting himself through.

Levi is not some unemotional, nagging, tough guy with stoic actions that the fandom interprets him to be. He’s without a doubt, more or less “tough”, but not the way everyone thinks. We know that one scene where Levi grips Hange’s hair and makes a fool of her (yes, in good light, I know that) in a very blunt manner, but why are we so quick to forget that Levi put both him and the squad at risk when he gave that (in some ways philosophical) speech to Eren. He went on to offer some good advice, in a calm and easy going manner while the rest of them freaked. Levi can be so brash and harsh at times, because it is the only way he knows how to be. If he can allow himself distance from other people, then he thinks of it as a good thing. Not because he’s anti social. Because he’s lost so much. He doesn’t want to go through all the pain and agony of losing someone else, and if he can control that factor, then he’s happy. But as we see as the series progresses he can’t even have control over that. 

He is so good at advice. Why do we always gloss over this aspect of who he is? He’s not someone who’s unwilling to help. Sure, he’ll be blunt and tell you to your face if your problem is completely stupid and all your fault, but if he knows what you’re going through/dealing with is serious, he’s actually willing to help. He is an adult. He knows how to handle these things. And Levi knows the extent that his comrades go through, so why would he be selfish enough to keep his intent on helping back? He wouldn’t. We’ve seen this in both the manga and the anime, but everyone forgets that. Why. 

Levi’s comments are funny, and for some people, very relatable. But just because Levi doesn’t cry like Armin or get into angry tangents like Eren, or devote all his time into protecting someone like Mikasa, doesn’t mean that he is antisocial, or without emotions, or a selfish man. Levi cares so much but it is always glossed over by simple humorous banter or comments he makes, that people seems to forget that it is not who he is as a person. 

I’m probably reading Levi wrong, but the more I think about it the more I want to write about it. Sorry about this drabble. Let me know if you think I should write for him?

these words
they want to leap out of my throat
something like fear
keeps them circling my belly
chasing each other
into death
their slippery syllables
like half-remembered song
melody dissolved into the blood
parts of me
I cannot touch
here under my tongue
hidden by thin skin
the things I cannot say to you
just there
behind my ear
nestled against my eardrum
the words to describe your voice
under my eyelids
lines for all the stars in the sky
bursting gold and silver blue
the whole world or
just the parts of it I imagine
built into my bones
holding me up
in the sinew and pink tissue
I am made of words
of worlds
the secrets of the universe
moving through me

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