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Rules of Engagement: Book 3

Inside Choices is a behind-the-scenes blog from the Pixelberry Team!

Since it launched last fall, Rules of Engagement has been going full steam ahead. Now on its third book, the trilogy is settling the question of your nana’s inheritance, once and for all. Will true love prevail? Are you headed for married bliss or total disaster? And can your siblings figure things out in time? All will be answered in the upcoming Rules of Engagement chapters!

A chat with the Rules of Engagement writers has been long past due, so here they are! To get a behind-the-scenes peek at Rules of Engagement, read on…

I remember the feeling of excitement in the air when Rules of Engagement was being brainstormed as the first book to follow up the initial three in Choices. How did you come up with Rules of Engagement? Where did you want to go with it?

Kara: I was still working on TC&TF, which was a trilogy, so it felt right to think of this one as a trilogy too. With how big the cast was, I think it would’ve been hard to do justice to all of the characters and plots that we had planned in a shorter amount of time. We knew we wanted to get another book out fast, so we didn’t have too much time going into it. We brainstormed each sibling’s plot separately, which was a lot of world building, but we were really happy with how different each story came out. We knew we wanted Rules to have more crazy twists and drama than the other books, so it was really fun trying to come up with those, but mostly I just fell in love with all of the characters and telling all of their stories.

Jennifer: I remember when we were first brainstorming, one of the themes we wanted to touch upon was the theme of family. That’s why the siblings are so close, and I think the idea of keeping the family together was what inspired all of Nana’s zany requests. Even though Nana’s will seems pushy, I always thought, at the heart of it, what she wanted most was to see everyone happy which is why the tasks push them to making such drastic changes in their lives.

Coco: I didn’t join the Rules team until later on in Book 1, but I know they wanted to create a book that enabled players to travel often and see new places! Because cruise ships are so mobile, the Ember of the Sea was an ideal setting. I have an uncle that worked briefly as a pianist on a cruise ship in the Mediterranean, so I drew a little bit from my experience when I visited him! Getting to write about travel adventures was one of the aspects that excited me the most, and I can’t wait to show the different places we’ll go next!

What’s new about Book 3? How do you think the series has changed?

Coco: In Book 3, players get to plan different aspects of their wedding from the vows to the decorations! The finale will be fun either way, but the art and events change depending on your choices, and our artists did a great job. I hope this gives a more customizable and personal feel to your wedding day!

We also reveal a bit more about the backstory of the family members, particularly your aunt and your cousin. In particular, how you choose to treat your cousin will affect your playthrough and ending of the series. I have something of a soft spot for cousin – she’s so snarky and fun to write, but she’s also been through a lot. I’m looking forward to developing these characters more and revealing new dimensions to them.

Since this is Rules of Engagement, we’ve gotta talk romance. Who would you date in Rules of Engagement?

Ariel: Actually, the Rules of Engagement writers each have a different favorite suitor. There’s no lack of love for any of our leading lady’s prospective fiances! We often joke about which writer is the leader of their favorite guy’s fan club and who’s the hottie of the Ember of the Sea, but at the end of the day, each suitor has their own strengths designed to make us swoon. The businessman appeals to those who want to get swept off their feet and enjoy grand gestures, while the prince is perfect for anyone who loves adventure and being spontaneous, and last but not least, the bartender speaks to those who desire that confidante who always knows how to make them laugh.

Coco: Ariel came up with a very diplomatic answer, but don’t be fooled! She’s Team Bartender all the way! :P I have to agree with her; I think falling in love with your best friend sounds like the ideal. However, I think the prince is the most fun to write because he’s the most rebellious.

Jennifer: I originally wrote for and have a soft spot for the businessman. But if I could personally date anyone in Rules, it would be the older brother, Alex, because I always find his chapters hilarious.

Aside from the cruise and the massive inheritance, a good chunk of Rules of Engagement ties into real life. There’s the ups and downs of dating, figuring out your future and identity, being there for your family… How do you relate to the story? And how does that influence your writing?

Kara: Rules has always been close to my heart because I was able to put a lot of my own family experience into the story. I’m the youngest of four, with an older brother and two older sisters–I guess maybe that makes me the Jess? Also, like the Rules siblings, I’m biracial, though I’m half Chinese and they’re half Filipino Chinese. Growing up in a big family, I’ve always loved sibling dynamics and how each person can be related and have these shared experiences of childhood, but also have their own personality that they bring to the table. I think what I like most about Rules is that the siblings all love and support each other so much. That’s what I’ve always loved about my own family. We’re each off doing our own things in life, but deep down, we’re a team and we always have each other’s backs. I really wanted the Rules siblings to have that same feel.

Jennifer: I relate to the story on many levels which is why it’s so near and dear to my heart. Having a close family is a big one like Kara was saying. My nuclear family isn’t that big, but I grew up with my sister and my cousins, so it felt that way. That made it super fun to write the sibling scenes, particularly the ones where you get dressed with your sisters or stay up late to giggle in your room talking about life (and boys). Another big one is that my own family is Chinese but grew up in the Philippines, so the blend of those two cultures was something we decided to put into the family’s background. And of course, I drew on my own experience dating (eep!) when it came to capturing the excitement of meeting someone for the first time and realizing you’re falling in love as well as portraying the doubts and thoughts that crop up as you’re discovering who you are in that relationship and how you relate to the other person.

A key part of the whole inheritance task deal is that each sibling has to learn something - whether its responsibility, spontaneity, or discovering true love. Which of Nana’s lessons speak to you the most?

Coco: I think I’m somewhere halfway between the twins Jess and Nicole (perhaps most people are?), so I’m not sure that either of their tasks fits me perfectly. But I think all of the inheritance tasks were their nana’s way of guiding the cousins along to the future in the best way she knew how. As a 20-something who recently graduated college (ugh, a millenial, I know), I can definitely relate to them in terms of trying to figure out my next step and where to go from here. I feel like the summer tasks give the cousins a chance to experiment and explore, whether it’s with careers, love, adventure, or independence, as well as learn that these don’t all have to be mutually exclusive.

Jennifer: Of all the siblings, I’m the most like Nicole in that, when I was younger, I wanted ultimate control of my life. In college, I had a very detailed plan to become a doctor and save the world, so I think it’s funny that I became a writer for Pixelberry. Of course, writing was such a big part of my life growing up–I started when I was six and kept writing throughout high school. I’m surprised I didn’t embrace that side of myself earlier, but I think I was a little afraid since so much of writing is putting yourself out there. I guess what I learned and tried to put into the Nicole arc is that life throws you so many curveballs, that some spontaneity and a little bit of courage is necessary for you to figure out what you want most and to go for it.

What do we have to look forward to with the rest of Book 3? What are you most excited about?

Jennifer: Planning your wedding! =) Also, I hope people enjoy the conclusion as much as we enjoyed brainstorming it. There’s something very satisfying about tying up loose ends.

Coco: There’s plenty to look forward to, like new ports to visit, new outfits, new characters, new animations, and also a few new romances for the supporting characters! In the first two books, we wanted to give you more of an opportunity to go on different dates and have fun, but in Book 3, you’ll hopefully get to know your special, chosen fiancé on a deeper level. I’m probably most excited about bachelorette/bachelor party shenanigans, but also a few things that I can’t quite share with you yet! ;)

As we reach the conclusion of the series, thanks to everyone who has been traveling on the cruise ship with us, from the several writers who have moved on to new projects, and of course, to the players! We hope you’ve had fun escaping to the Mediterranean with us.

Be sure to check back Wednesdays for new chapters of Rules of Engagement: Book 3! Where do you think the cruise will go next?

-Jessica

I keep seeing all these sexuality posts about how folks can know at a pretty young age what their sexual preferences are.

My concern is that I never see posts come across my dash that say it’s OK to not slap a label on yourself and just feel alright saying “I’m a bit confused, I don’t really know right now.” 

There’s lots of actual kids on this site and I worry sometimes about how much Tumblr influences them. It’s totally fine to take some time and discover that part about yourself.

In the overly religious place I grew up I had no idea it could even be a thing to like girls if you’re female, or even what asexuality was until later in life. I think all these terms floating around might be overwhelming for a young person and they don’t need to pigeonhole themselves into calling themselves something to just please people.

…Does that make sense at all? I’m so tired, but I’ve been thinking about this. 

bandaged-chessmaster  asked:

What exactly are county fairs? And why does so much bs happen there?

This is so hard to explain to someone who isn’t American…like fairs are a wild concept…

So this is just from an Ohioan’s perspective, idk what they’re like elsewhere, but in a community that is so driven by agriculture like counties in Ohio (the one I grew up in is billed as “the agricultural capital of the state” so yeah it’s serious bizz) a lot of the fair has to do with farm animals and that shizz. If you’ve ever heard of 4-H, this is like the oscars meets the golden globes meets the emmys to those groups. 

It’s a week long thing where people from all over the county bring the livestock they’ve been raising all year to show and possibly place in competition, so on the fairgrounds you’ve got a bunch of ag buildings housing pigs, cows, goats, sheep, rabbits, chickens, ducks, horses, etc. that you can go see when they’re not competing. The not-so-fun part is that most of these animals end up getting sold to market at the end of the trip, but individual people can choose not to. Also I know horses don’t get sold, and i’m pretty sure the rabbits, ducks, and most of the dairy cows don’t either. 

There’s other competitions for other 4-H groups that center on fine arts, horticulture, sewing, crafts, etc. as well and they usually have their own buildings. So that’s the main reason WHY we have county fairs, but the more attractive side is that there’s also food carts selling the greasiest, most fattening junk you can imagine (ignore how unattractive that sounds, I fucking love fair food,) carnival rides and games, and - at least in my hometown - the greatest redneck sports of all time: demolition derby and truck pulls. I’m not even going to try to explain this, you’re gonna have to google it for yourself, but 1. yes I have been to them, 2. yes I have enjoyed them, 3. yes I am ashamed. 

anonymous asked:

I'm curious, and I'm sure you've answered this already, but what made you love Scarecrow so much?

I have, but I don’t mind answering again! (it’s always nice to get asks after all) It was a combination of a lot of things. I never grew up watching BTAS like a lot of the fanbase, so Arkham Asylum was my first true batman experience™. I didn’t realize it at the time, but Scarecrow was going to quickly become my favorite. I will forever praise his gameplay sections, and that amazing voice with by Dino Andrade. It was a little later on that I got into the actual comics, and then I really became obsessed with our dear Master of Fear. I plan to own a copy of every comic that he appears then someday, and I’m getting there. Currently my Scarecrow comic collection is somewhere around three hundred issues!

He’s a character I can deeply relate to, we share a lot of similar traits. Jonathan Crane has always brought comfort to me, I really do love him~ <3

Today is special.

Why?

Because today is the 4th anniversary of a group of boys who started from the bottom and climb, and are still climbing as high as they can.

These boys are Bangtan Boys also known as BTS.

Originally posted by sannal2054

For me BTS is one of the most special groups to exist.

Because not many groups are willing to tell their stories.

BTS does not have to rely on buying song after song after song. After all, they have the freedom to produce, experiment, write and create the art they want to create. It is amazing to see a group of people who write in an industry where many companies opt out of letting their idols write and create and instead choose to mostly buy songs, giving their artists minimal freedom in many cases. BTS, however, does have that freedom and uses it to their full advantage.

Originally posted by meandmyopinionss

Look at the solo songs or any of their solo work as an example.

Rap monster tackles society, Illness, pressures and so much more in his songs. He shows worry for the new generations and generations to come faced with injustice, anxiety and depression. He worries about his members and shows understanding and compassion. In fact, he uses lyrics as an expression of his inner struggle and philosophical thoughts and in turn opens conversations that are very much needed in society. He works hard to communicate with all the fans and in general, he works hard to communicate with people. He does not just show interest in his fans but in society as a whole.

Originally posted by momo-foam

Suga too wanted his voice to be heard. He said it himself, he was not content with just rapping. He wanted people to listen to what he has to say too. And definitely, Yoongi has a lot to say. At first, he seemed like such a closed person, but his mixtape gave everyone such an amazing insight into his mind. From the depression, to self hate, to allusions to suicide and social anxiety he bears his soul to all, in turn trying to help others realise that they are not the only ones going through a hard time. And if he continues to recover(because I believe that even if one gets better, some demons still remain and always have to be fought)  then hopefully so can we. And also, how can one not love a man who reveals a song called ‘first love’ only to reveal that his first love was his piano, when that is such a beautiful and sincere confession.

Originally posted by junghosyub

J-Hope’s mixtape is one I definitely cannot wait to hear. Because I feel like he is a member who also has a lot he wants to say without any constraints. Hoseok ’s song ‘mama’ just showed how amazing he is as a person. He had a solo song in the Wings album, like all the members and he chose t write a loving and sincere song thanking his mum for all that she has ever done for him. For how she loves and supports him in this difficult path. He seems to struggle with feeling like he is not good enough. As a member or son. I hope that’s not true. He also shows his emotion through his dance.

Originally posted by gdiminyoongi

Not these three members show us the most of what they are feeling through writing and producing. However, the other 4 are also working hard on developing as writers, amazing sure to develop and also express themselves.

Taehyung showed his inner turmoils and  guilt over an unknown action or feeling in stigma as he apologise see to his brother and sister and even worked with Namjoon to produce a new song, showing a different side of him, as well as a different singing technique deciding to tell different stories with his voice and songs. Taehyung is also proving himself to be a very good actor, telling more than than just his story.

Originally posted by pjkook

Jungkook, in my opinion, seems to struggle most with expressing himself. And I believe that that is normal. After all from a young age he has been a trainee with means that most things kids get to experience such as relationships, getting in trouble, love, sex and more this teen was not allowed to have. He was too busy being 'manufactured p’, as some may say, to be the perfect idol. However, since he grew up in the public eye for quite a long time we see how his story is his progress as he tries to gain confidence and express himself asking Namjoon for help with his songs 'Begin’ as well as by releasing amazing covers.

Originally posted by jeonity

Jimin, like Hoseok shows his emotions through dance but also has shown us how he can communicate through his vocal colour and his emotional expression. He worked on 'LIE’ showed confusion, loss and heartbreak as he is 'caught in a lie’ and while we do not know the reason for these emotions we can appreciate them better and can relate them to us and our situations.

Originally posted by jikookfantasy

Lastly, Jin is the member, who I believed was the least able to express himself, not because he doesn’t want to but because he doesn’t have the opportunity to showcase his stories as much. However, his solo song 'Awake’ is a true gift. It tells the story of a boy, not a man but a boy, who comes to the heartbreaking belief that yes, he may never be able to reach the top like others but he will continue to work just as hard and give his all to be better and better and better. It shows his loyalty and passion and that is what I love about Jin. But I would really love to see Jin tell other, different stories through acting.

Originally posted by catchsuga

So as you see they all have something to say and they all try their best to say it.
and let’s not forget all the amazing choreographies

And let’s not forget just how close their bond is

Originally posted by sweaterpawsjimin

Originally posted by pkjmnie

Originally posted by yoongiski

So thank you Kim Seokjin for always making us laugh, for being so kind and caring.

Thank you Min Yoongi for opening up to us and inspiring  us

Thank you Jung Hoseok for being a true sunshine, giving strength to all

Thank you Kim Namjoon for working so hard to create and for always choosing BTS and freedom of speech

Thank you Park Jimin for being so supportive, always being there for your me,beds, hugging them and making them feel supported and loved

Thank you Kim Taehyung for showing us your different sides and working so hard at writing.

Thank you Jeon Jungkook for showing us all your different talents and inspiring us to try new things.

Thank You BTS for being a part of out loves.

Thank you to all the staff for working so hard for our boys success, be it makeup lighting or anything else.

Thank you to all the managers, the CEO and anyone else helping them on their journey.

Thank you to the parents and family of the members for giving birth to such amazing, kind and talented people.

Originally posted by trashoferverything

Originally posted by lostinbangtan

As always, I hope BTS is healthy both physically and mentally and  that they know we are here for them and that we will always love and support them.

Originally posted by allforbts

BTS is already perfect as is and it is  we, ARMYs that have to keep replaying these boys because they do so much for us. They say and create so much for us. BTS is kind, thoughtful, they love their fans, show respect to all and are extremely humble, not taking what they have for granted but rather strive forward to improve.

Originally posted by jhopeloviu

So thank you BTS for being BTS

I hope you will remain together for very long.

I hope there will be no serious drama between you.

And I hope that we can stand together, BTS and ARMYs for many years to come.

If we can’t understand we will try to understand your problems. So please do not push yourselves and harm yourselves. We do not want that under any circumstances.

Originally posted by fullfangirling27

I’m so proud of being an ARMY.

Originally posted by btstaehyunged

So thank you and happy anniversary

Thank you for reading

Chester

I could hear
all those things
you ran from
with every song
you released
living your dream

you didn’t need
to play your
albums in
reverse to hear
the taunting
of your demons

I grew up
I cradled your
songs close to
my chest
&
I knew I wasn’t
the only one

that felt numb
that watched the sun set
that wanted something
rather than nothing
to matter

I wish we could’ve found
a new palette of colors
that just weren’t a collection
of shit grey so maybe the world
wouldn’t need rose colored glasses
just so it can make another rotation
just so the fingers of the sun
could tighten it’s grip out of love
rather than anger

I hope you slipped calmly
beneath the waves when
you decided to let go
of the edge you so
desperately clung

I’m sorry that your armor broke
I’m sorry that you were the only
one who could repair it
I’m sorry that your symphony
played it’s final notes in
the middle of battle

you may have already felt
like a ghost in your final
hours but we never lost
sight of the spirit you let
spill from your eyes with
your honest lyrics
&
your highest notes

you felt the weight of
a thousand worlds for
so long that anyone
could understand
why you would
floorboard
it to insanity

you don’t need to apologize
I understand that these plans
we make can be written in blood
washed away with the mud
of uncut clouds
leaving us with more questions
of subjects we thought to be
experts on

I hope you didn’t scream at yourself
I hope you finally felt like you won
I hope you can walk to what you
always wanted when you wake up
on whatever road you travel next

I fucking care that your flickering
light went out amongst a sea
of dimmer specks,
even though
you might feel you didn’t shine
as brightly as you did
so many
used you to guide us
shining brighter
than Polaris did in
a world without the pollution
of smog traced neons

I’m sorry that you lost books
of stories when you lost track
of your scars
&
those consequential sharp
edges are wounds some of us
share as we trudge
this unmapped path

so we all continue forward
under this blanket of scars
&
we still listen to your words
hydrohelioizing your perfect
non-flickering

polarisized star

Book Reviews by my Dad

For Father’s Day, I asked my dad to write some reviews for books we’ve both read and he came through so beautifully everyone needs to read these


The Lord of the Rings by J.R.R. Tolkien:

Epic. It is not cool not to like The Lord of the Rings.


A Song of Ice and Fire by George R.R. Martin:

As epic as The Lord of the Rings. It is not cool not to like Game of Thrones.


The Harry Potter Series by J.K. Rowling: 

My daughters grew up with Harry, Ron and Hermione…

…But, of all the other characters in the book, Arthur Weasley is the man…and, definitely, the Dad.

What was Harry thinking that he didn’t name any of his kids after him?


The Lunar Chronicles by Marissa Meyer:

Creative! … and fun. Cinderella’s cinder is grease and Rapunzel’s tower is a satellite. Makes perfect sense.


The Raven Boys by Maggie Stiefvater:

What is there not to love about the Raven Boys and the idea of ley lines being a bridge between spiritualism and magic and science? Also, I like the way things are described in there:

“The voice was careful, masculine and local; the vowels had all the edges sanded off…..”

“…there was something pregnant about the night…”

Maggie Stiefvater is the fairest of them all.


The Twilight Saga by Stephenie Meyer:

While I was reading it, it seemed ok.

It is like cheap whisky… you wake up promising to never do that again.

I had a really interesting conversation about the possibility of a female Doctor with my 12-year-old sister two weeks ago. Doctor Who is her favourite tv show. In the past, she has always underlined that she wanted her Doctor to be young and attractive and basically Matt Smith, thank you. I don’t think she would have had issues with a Doctor of Colour, but a female Doctor would have been almost as bad as, you know, some old guy.

I never had the impression that she put any deeper thought in the matter. And then two weeks ago, faced with the more tangible potential of a female Doctor happening, she looks at me and tells me she doesn’t think a female Doctor is a good thing, because a female Doctor can’t do the same things as a male Doctor? “Really?” - Unsure look. “I guess…?” Silence. “My favourite scenes are the ones where he realises that he’s wrong, that he’s an idiot, they couldn’t do that with a woman?” - “Why?” - “I mean, there’s not really a reason, but…”

There’s this back and forth in which she comes up with new things that a female Doctor probably cannot do, only to me met by her own confusion every time I question why. There’s no direct logical reasoning that goes “Female Doctor” -> “Incapable of all the Doctor’s ‘weak‘ moments”, but she also kind of holds on to that concern as a real one. She never fears that a female Doctor cannot be an awesome hero. She fears she cannot be an awesome, flawed one.

And that’s fascinating perspective from someone who is essentially half a generation younger than me, who grew up with a slightly different media landscape, with half a generations worth of new heroes. So here’s to the Doctor as a flawed female heroine, as someone who is silly, as someone with faults, as someone who gets to be wrong. In spite of being a 2,000-year-old alien, let her be a role model who is real.

At some conventions there are artist-related events because literally every nerdy fandom attracts a number of artists in various stages of aspiration. One such event at Indy Pop Con was the Drink ‘n’ Draw- where we all met up at Scotty’s for brews and had a drawing session. 

I didn’t really read the blurb, I just kind of wanted to hang out with other artists and talk about cats. So I did certainly not know that it was a competition- first prize gets a free artist’s table at next year’s show. Runners up get a bag of goodies with a sketch book and some nice pens. Judge faves get a sketch commission.

Now I am not a competitive person. Like… I’ll participate in friendly competition if it’s a thing I like doing, but I’m not in it to win it. So I was just like… pff whatever, I’ll make someone else look good. 

But you have to adhere to a theme. And this year’s theme was ‘The Last Battle.’

And it could be anything you want within that theme. Mostly they were looking at things like storytelling, composition, and technique. 

I wasted about fifteen minutes of the hour and a half that we had, trying to figure out what I wanted to do. I’m awful at open-ended themes all the time and I mentally rattled off a list of subjects that would be good to work with before I finally landed on one that I wanted to do. 

Barney the Purple Dinosaur. 

And I know what you’re thinking:

“What?”

But literally every kid I know grew up twisting the theme song to Barney and turning it into some morbid collection of ways to end the dinosaur’s reign of terror and all of them involved tying him to a tree. 

‘With a knife in his back and a gun to his head-

Woopsie-daisy, Barney’s dead.’

And I figured like… since I’m not really here to win, I’m at least gonna have a good time. So I skipped past the pencil stage and went straight for the sharpies and went to town on this piece of paper. 

And I was not gonna hold back. 

With ten minutes left, the event runner walks by my table and has this ‘what in the fuck is this’ look on his face.

“You know… like in the song?”

“…what song?”

Okay so this is the first person I have met in my life that has not indulged in the honored past-time of recounting the Death of Barney through song. So I start singing the song and he’s still just a wee bit perturbed. 

He walks away, shaking his head, but he’s definitely amused by it. 

Time is up, drawings are in. 

I’m just chillin’ over in my corner with a Pepsi and one of the other artists at my table keeps eyeing the judges because she came to WIN.  She nudges me and she’s like “they keep looking at yours, man.”

“They’re probably trying to dry it off because I spilled Pepsi on it.”

“I dunno… they look intrigued.”

Intrigued is an… intriguing word to describe the faces they were making at my hot mess of a doodle. 

The winners have been decided. 

They get through their personal faves and start listing the runners up. The artist that was checking the judge reactions got one of the judge’s favorites prizes. My girlfriend gets a runner-up for hers. They get to the last one of the runners-up and say:

“Okay, this one came REALLY close.” He holds up a drawing. “Who did this one?”

My hand shot straight up.

“Is that… is that BARNEY?”

“OH GOD WHY?”

“What the fuck?”

I am SHOCKED at this point because what kind of a childhood did y’all have? A fucking nurturing one? “Come on guys, it’s like that song. You know… tie barney to a tree…”

No?

Nothing?

Come on!

So that’s how I won a free sketchbook and came to be known as the chick that ruined everyone’s childhood at Drink’ n’ Draw. 

And I suspect I might have actually won the table if I’d made it clearer that the shadowy figure walking off into the sunset is Baby Bop. 

The problem isn’t that multiplayer titles exist. There are some people out there who absolutely love them. and I couldn’t be happier for those players. I’d also be lying if I said that I didn’t play a few myself.

The problem is that for every multiplayer title that gets made, another singleplayer title isn’t. So when developers who previously catered to the story-driven, singleplayer genre leave to create co-op content, who will be there to fill that hole? What will be left for those who don’t want an online title, when that‘s seemingly all that is being developed? 

Players such as myself, who have always gamed on their own -who enjoy playing on their own- are slowly being alienated. Video games just aren’t for us anymore, and that stings. I’ve been gaming my entire life, and I’ve seen the way things have changed. The games I grew up on had soul and meaning, but they’re slowly dying out.

And I know that most of these multiplayer titles can be played alone. However that still doesn’t make them enjoyable to me. Because to make room for playing with friends, or perhaps as an effect of it, the story will have been gutted, the npcs will be bland and the game will be all too eager to waste your time. They don’t have to tell a story, since they’re counting on you to do that for yourself.

So you’ll have to excuse me if I seem overly upset about all of this. But I don’t see why I should just shut my eyes and open my wallet, to support creators of games I barely recognise and feel left behind by.  

Good Girls Go Bad

Set in the 40’s. Y/N was your stereotypical girl next door, growing up in the apartment right across the hall from James Buchanan Barnes. She had always been the shy, reserved girl; she was the complete opposite of the enigmatic ladies man. Despite their proximity, she was sure that he didn’t even know she existed. What happens when they run into one another during a night out on the town? Is just one night all it really takes? 

Word Count: 3,408

Warnings: swearing, smut


Originally posted by evanstansource


You sighed, adjusting your dress as you gazed into the mirror. Even though it was still rather conservative, you couldn’t help but notice that it was more revealing than you were used to. The neckline plunged rather low, the collar fastened with a bow that drew attention to your cleavage. The waist was cinched, showing off your figure. Paired with the red heels that your friends had chosen for you, you were looking like a regular bombshell. Your friends had insisted that you go out with them tonight. You had turned them down too many times. They said that now, of all days, you had to accompany them. The newest army recruits would be shipping out tomorrow, and it was sure to be a lively night.

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@poulerslashes​‘s fic sore must be the storm did things to me

Through his shock, a cold thought occurred to Midoriya, tamping down any other reaction he might’ve had to such a confession. “Todoroki,” he said firmly. “Don’t give up. We’re getting out of here.”

“I’m not giving up,” Todoroki said. “I’m only considering all possible outcomes.” His tone grew quiet again. “And I just…I wanted to know that I told you. At least once.”

anonymous asked:

ok this is going to sound rude but i totally don't mean it to be, but as an asian i always get super exited when i see asian authors, so i was wondering why you chose to write a european story rather than something korean? loved it tho

Hi nonny:

I get this question a lot, so I’m going to come across as a bit short or annoyed, but it’s not about you, I promise (I don’t know you after all). 

It’s about your question.

It is a rude question, and I don’t appreciate it. Frankly, what I am and how that affects what I write is none of anyone’s business. If you want to know why I wrote Wintersong and not something Asian, I write a little about it here. And it isn’t that I don’t intend to write something Asian-inspired; I do. Why did I choose to write something European? Many things. I like Mozart. I like the German language. I like European folklore. I am pretty goth. I grew up with these things, so I know them pretty intimately. 

But I want to unpack this question a little. Why is it that women of color are expected to write or perform their own marginalizations? Do we go around asking out queer people to only write queer stories? Do we ask disabled people to only write their disability? Incidentally, I wrote my disability into Wintersong. I gave Liesl my bipolar disorder. But the praise and censure I get always stems from the most obvious marginalization I have: my face, and by extension, my ethnic background.

If you want to get into the weeds of why I didn’t write something Korean first, it’s because I’m not Korean. I am of Korean descent, yes. I am a member of the diaspora. But neither am I truly a part of the Korean-American immigrant experience. I grew up pretty privileged: my dad is white, I went to an all-girl’s private school, was part of swim and tennis clubs, etc. I had a lot of the markers of cultural whiteness, which is tied with class. My Koreanness is whitewashed, not just by my cultural privilege, but because I didn’t have access to a Korean extended family. My aunties, uncles, and cousins all live in Seoul, or some didn’t make it out of Pyongyang before the establishment of the 38th Parallel. I’ve been to Korea twice. The only Korean members of my family are my mother and my grandmother. Everyone else is white.

That cultural whiteness? It comes across to a lot of people, and it especially came across to other Koreans. There are reasons I don’t speak the language as well as I should, considering it was my milk tongue. I went to Korean school and attended Korean church for a while, but I was bullied and ostracized so badly I stopped going back when I was 9. I wasn’t bullied because my dad was white; I was bullied because I wasn’t Korean enough. I didn’t share their cultural language. I didn’t even share the same parental pressures. My mother is the one who had been pressuring me to quit my day job and become a full-time writer, not my dad. As a result, I was the outcast in every Asian group I ever tried to be a part of as a kid. Some were open about it to my face. You’re not Korean enough. Some were more insidious about it. They would deliberately choose subjects and topics about which I had no handhold, freezing me out of conversation. My friends? The theatre kids, the artist freaks, the writers. The vast majority of them? White. 

This obviously left pretty deep psychic scars. I can’t eat doughnuts, for one. They smell of Korean school and shame. But it also left me with a deep insecurity about even approaching a Korean subject in writing. Am I enough? Am I enough, am I enough, am I enough? It’s only as an adult that I’ve made Asian friends, that I’ve slowly started to find my way back to the heritage I’ve kept at arm’s length. 

I’m telling you my history, nonny, to better answer your question. But to also maybe shed a light on the effect of asking a marginalized person to perform their marginalization for you. For me, that question is fraught, and I imagine it is for a lot of other Asian writers as well. When I hear that question, all I hear is You are not enough. You are not Asian enough. You didn’t even write something Asian. You are not enough, you are not enough, you are not enough.

CONFESSION:

I don’t like it how some people in this fandom criticize characters like Cullen for having bad viewpoints due to a traumatic event when he was younger and more ignorant, while they themselves stay completely ignorant to how much he grew and how different his views are in DA:I, not to mention that they most often praise characters with their own bad past = bad decisions/views arcs like Solas, Anders, Fenris, etc., some of which don’t even end up changing their minds.

I personally like and try to understand all of them as much as I can and it confuses me how some people can blatantly loathe one of them like they made some serious personal offense against them and plain out bully those who disagree while excusing the actions and previous/current opinions of other similar characters.

Things aren’t black or white, not in the entire DA lore, not for any of them and extreme hatred towards those characters who feel very much burdened by their past views and at least try to change their ways, as well as towards the part of them fandom that likes them in any way is just unfair and cruel.

Steven Universe Podcast Highlights

For those of you without itunes lol

~ Steven/Rebecca played a lot of video games together as kids. Yoshi’s Island, Ocarina of Time, etc. They also watched a lot of anime/cartoons. Detective Konan and off-brand goldfish was a tradition of theirs. Boot-leg One Piece episodes with bad translations were also a thing.

~ Steven looked at Rebecca’s art growing up, and they collaborated a lot. He doesn’t think he would have continued art without her.

~Steven drew a lot of trains, Star War ships, etc. and Rebecca did more art about characters. They kind of still do that, now. (Backgrounds/Characters design)

~ Rebecca made sure she made a show that she always wanted to work on, because she knew it would go on for years and take up a lot her time (she learned this from her work on Adventure Time).

~ Steven’s world is a mish-mash of all the things Rebecca/Steven grew up liking together. Their home life, video games, shows they liked, books they read, etc. Once the crew got bigger, she asked them for personal elements to add into the show, too.

~ Best Advice given in early stages: Rebecca worked on Hotel Transylvania for a time, and got a lot of advice from the director. He suggested simplifying the early plot. As in, not having them hide the fact that they were gems, but instead focusing on Steven trying to catch up with their ability level, etc.

~ *talking about Hellboy* “Can I say hell? I’ve said hell… several times.”

~  The Goddess Ishtar was a huge influence on the imagery in the show (7 lions, stars, etc.)

~ The gem language does exist, and if you know what it is you can read it… But because Steven doesn’t know it right now, the audience doesn’t either. Maybe there will be an episode where Steven learns to read/write it in the future!

~ Rebecca notices when people get theories right, but doesn’t say when. She loved seeing people figure out that Garnet was a fusion, and was the one who drew in the Ruby/Sapphire’s silhouette in “Fusion Cuisine”. People got so used to the theory, they got tired of it. People didn’t get the simple idea that Ruby/Sapphire just wanted to be together. People thought you would lose Garnet if she was made up of two characters, or that they were fused because of a terrible accident, etc.

~ Rebecca and Steven find it surreal that people make memes out of things from the show, and things they wrote.

~ “Steven Reacts to Crying Breakfast Friends” was based off a fan reaction video of someone freaking out over Jailbreak and Garnet being a fusion.

~ “Last One Out of Beach City” was named after a song, but Rebecca didn’t realize until later that people would take the title as being ominous.

~ Rebecca Sugar really likes Betty Boop, and references it in “Adventures in Light Distortion” when everyone is shrinking and growing.

~ Because the show was about Rebecca and Steven’s relationship, and how she could just be herself around him, the show comes from a place of being “truthful” about their lives and themselves. The LGBT themes, the positive body representations, etc. came from that and occurred naturally, not always intentionally.

~ Rebecca and Steven have grown along with the show, and Steven Universe has grown with them. The crew has helped a lot with this, because they all have different opinions, life experiences, interests, etc. to bring to the table.

~ Steven ( Zach Callison) and Connie (Grace Rolek) are on next week’s show! (Thursday) Subscribe to the podcast on itunes! Hit everyone up on twitter, too!

i know we all love to say being a fan of 1d is hell but i just want to say on this anniversary that 1d is still the best thing to ever happen to me. not only did all those years bring me joy through their music and the boys themselves grew very close to my heart as we were growing up together, not only i love them all dearly, not only is their music a huge part of my life and something that makes me happy and has helped me through some things, but i also found so many amazing friends thanks to being a fan, so many amazing people on this site, some of the best friends i have. it’s such a huge part of my life and of who i am and i am always gonna support them individually but im also going to be waiting for them to come back as band for as long as it takes tbh

anonymous asked:

sorry but i don't understand why touka wants to have the baby? the future is uncertain and they're all starving. It's the worst time possible, so why bring a child into a world like that? i don't really get her reasoning plus i don't think kaneki would want it

I’m sorry, I really resent the idea that she’s being judged for her choices. I don’t think anyone can argue that having unprotected sex was irresponsible. Or that it’s pretty bad timing. But it happened- it’s said and done. Deciding whether to bring a child into the world or not isn’t just as simple as “oops, this is real shitty timing, lets just get rid of it”.

These things happen. Even to people who are trying to be careful with protection. It’s life. Deciding whether to terminate a pregnancy or having the child despite unfavourable circumstances is an incredibly tough and complex choice. Sometimes the decision is made using logical reasoning weighing the pros and the cons, sometimes it’s an entirely emotionally driven decision. I don’t think it’s right to judge either way.

When is it good timing for a ghoul to have a child? Ghouls are given a death sentence from the moment they are born in the world. Do you also condemn every single ghoul parent for bringing a child into a world where they’re likely to be slaughtered before they can reach adulthood? Should we be judging Mirumo Tsukiyama for having Shuu when the CCG could have found them out at anytime? Should we be judging Ukina and Yoshimura for having Eto when they knew what V’s response would be? These are the sort of ethical and moral quandaries that have been brought up literally the entire manga; is it ok for ghouls to live in a world that doesn’t want them?

And if you can’t see why Touka as a character would make the decision to do everything to bring her child into the world then I don’t know what to tell you- it’s been there since volume 3 of the original series:

Live. Even if this world says your existence is wrong. Live. Even if you have no choice but to kill to survive. Live. Even if everything has been terrible from the moment you were born.

This pregnancy is just an extension of those themes. 

I’m sure both Touka and Kaneki are going to be filled with doubts and fears about whether they’re doing the right thing, whether this is the best choice. And especially with Kaneki’s childhood, I can see why this would be a tough issue for him. Both of them grew up as orphans from a young age- do they even know how to be parents? But despite all those things, that doesn’t mean a child can’t end up being a blessing and they won’t want it just because it’s going to be tough. You can’t predict how the child’s life will end up, so Touka deciding to try everything to give it a chance to survive isn’t a guarantee to condemn it to a life of suffering. And if it is? That’s life.

I think the big problem with trying to hair-split “cyberpunk” versus “post-cyberpunk” is that the distinction is only really useful in terms of constructing a timeline of media.

Like, you’ve got all these stories that make up cyberpunk as a literary movement; and then you’ve got all these stories written in response to cyberpunk as a literary movement, by kids who grew up reading and watching and listening to cyberpunk stories. It’s that second group that comprises “post-cyberpunk” - which in practice means anything published in the genre after 1991 or so.

The thing is, it’s a purely temporal distinction; a question of when, not what. There’s no clearly defined set of themes or aesthetics you can point to and say, this is cyberpunk, and that is post-cyberpunk. I’ve seen all sorts of attempts to construct such a taxonomy, but I’ve never seen one that produces even halfway sensible results when applied to actual, published media.

In terms of genre and aesthetics, it’s all just cyberpunk - and if it seems to be egregiously missing the point, that doesn’t make it “post-”cyberpunk, it just makes it bad cyberpunk,