You know, it’s bad enough when you ship normally. It’s life-consuming, you search for fanfics and fanart and metas of your ships constantly, and it’s scary how much they affect your happiness on a day-to-day basis.
But you know what’s even worse? When you crave them being together. Screaming at the TV because you’re honestly so tired of them circling each other and racking up the tension without doing a damn thing about it or screaming more when they finally do, devouring every fic you come across for the ship (even the ones with the bad smut where they say things like “member” which is usually a deal-breaker), crying at sad gif sets because they can’t stop breaking each other’s hearts and the tags are even worse, laughing at the crack, sobbing at their separations. Basically feeling every emotion imaginable in HD that they feel plus all of your own and never being able to stop, ever.
I think a quote from Jimmy Novak would do nicely here: “It’s kind of like being chained to a comet.” It’s like getting on a roller coaster and never being able to get off. It’s like falling in love, except you’re in love with two people being in love and not just with a person, which is a million times worse while also being a million times better. It’s all-encompassing and there's nothing you can do to change the fact or to stop it, except to fall in more deeply than you already were.