there were so many great lines

thank you both for such nice messages, I’m so glad you like my art…!! hopefully I can help at least a little bit!

anon 2) my brush settings can be found here!
anon 1) wrinkles can get pretty complex! it depends on the type, weight, thickness, and cut of the fabric, whether the character is in motion, etc; I wish I could get into everything, but it’s a huge subject that I don’t think I could possibly cover…!! but I can at least give you some very very basic tips on building up a dress (and the lace underneath!)

here are some examples of dresses I’ve drawn recently. they might seem complex, but when broken down to their most basic form, they’re actually very simple shapes that follow very similar rules!

are you seeing any patterns between them? while they do differ a bit, they’re by and large made from the same long line that curves into itself and back out. learning where this line goes and how it changes under different circumstances is learned largely through practice and intuition, but there are some steps you can take to begin building a foundation to work from! (or at least to sort of break down the process!)

  1. determine the shape/angle of the dress itself. in this example, I’m using a big poofy dress shown from slightly below!
  2. use this as a guide when adding that curving line from before. think of how the fabric folds, and keep in mind that the direction of the curve (and how harsh it appears) depends on where it falls on the dress and the angle at which it’s being viewed from. in this example, it’s more pronounced on the edges, and is facing different directions on the left and the right sides.
  3. wherever cloth folds, wrinkles appear! wrinkles will be more abundant where the cloth is more compact; in this case, that’s toward the waistline. on a dress like this, a fold will originate at the waistline and radiate downward; this means that on an uninterrupted fold, the line that you draw should (if you were to continue it all the way, which is not always necessary) reach cleanly back to the waist. I added one translucent line to help illustrate this idea!
  4. want to add a lace layer? it’s the same concept!! add your basic curving line underneath, keeping in mind that the cloth above will likely mirror whatever it’s falling over. (not perfectly, but somewhat!) so try to keep it a little consistent!
  5. details are easy now!! you can add any sort of lace pattern you want by just tracing over that first line! I used a basic scallop shape here
  6. want even more lace? just repeat step four as many times as you want underneath your last layer of lace!

once you get the hang of this part, figuring out more complex stuff gets much easier! I’m not great at explaining things, but hopefully you were able to come away with some kind of new information, haha…!! I’m wishing you both the best with your art!!!


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pairing: jimin x reader, jungkook x reader

genre: smut, angst / punk!jikook

word count: 17,335

note: inspired by the anime/manga “Nana” / music playlist

description: It was everything, from his tattoos, to his touches, to the way sweat rolled down his neck as he strummed into his guitar on stage; everything about him completely enthralled you. So why are you now, two and a half years later, on a train to Seoul, telling a complete stranger the recollection of how you became fated to forever have scars on all of your future hearts due to the happiness, but most of all the pain, that came along with falling in love with Jeon Jungkook.


The slight tremble in Jimin’s fingertips developed into a full-blown tremor as he closed the door to his studio, effectively leaving you behind — but it wasn’t that simple. It wasn’t that simple because he wasn’t just leaving you behind. He was leaving you behind with a guy that you were completely in love with… Which kind of blowed considering he was starting to fall for you himself.

The music from the party was reverberating inside of his chest and he knew that his ears should be ringing with anger, but instead he just felt numb. It was like he couldn’t hear anything; no music, no crowd, nothing. It was all one giant blur that didn’t seem to make sense to him, and all because his mind was screaming that nothing else mattered right now — nothing except for you.

Jimin knew very well what leaving you in that room with Jungkook meant. It meant every single feeling that the two of you had ever had for each other would inevitably rekindle, and compared to what Jimin had with you, even if he did consider it one of most amazing stints of time of his entire life, it didn’t hold a candle to what you and Jungkook had, and probably always would have.

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Sorta-Transcript from online fan Q&A with Shelby Rabara, Deedee Magno Hall, and Michaela Dietz

Anyone can watch this online Q&A with the above voice actors, but if you don’t want to watch/can’t listen to audio, I made this sorta-transcript. Meaning I did not transcribe the exact words in most cases, but I wrote down the questions and the basic idea of how they answered. Enjoy! 

Shelby Rabara (voice of Peridot) was the Livestream host for fan questions! Deedee Magno Hall (Pearl) and Michaela Dietz (Amethyst) were giving answers, but usually Shelby gave her answer too.

Shelby read fan questions.

1. Favorite episode and why?

Deedee: “Steven and the Stevens”: she likes the song, because it reminds her of the movie That Thing You Do.

Michaela: Is it a cop-out to say all of them? Ha. “Tiger Millionaire” is great because Zach’s performance is great and wrestling’s cool.

Shelby: “Lion 3: Straight to Video.” Because it’s emotional.

2. What character that you don’t voice do you relate to most?

Deedee: Amethyst.

Michaela: Really??

Deedee: Because I like to eat. I like to eat FOOD.

Michaela: You don’t like to eat stacks of garbage and moldy burritos?

Michaela: Steven. He has a good head on his shoulders.

Deedee: And you also have a very good heart like him!

Shelby: I relate to Connie. She is level-headed and uses logic and makes the correct choice.

Michaela: She’s bright and assertive and so are you.

Shelby: Are you having fun here?

Michaela and Deedee: YES! We just had a great panel and cosplay!

3. If your characters were human, what jobs would they have?

Deedee: Pearl would work in a Laundromat because she’s really good at folding clothes and I think either that or maybe she might be in the cleaning business because she likes to organize. She’s tidy.

Michaela: I need the Pearl method in my home. Amethyst would be a camp counselor. She would be the wacky counselor who’s getting too into the games.

Shelby: I’d want Amethyst as a counselor.

4. If you were a Gem, what would your gem weapon be and why?

Deedee: Because I’m a mom, I would want to have a healing blanket to heal them.

Michaela: The power of a bad joke. “Orange ya glad I didn’t say banana?” So powerful.

Shelby: I would wanna read people’s minds. Can I use that? Is that like Garnet’s third eye?

Deedee: Similar but not.

5. How do you get into character when you perform voice-overs?

Michaela: I have an evolved routine. I wake up. And that’s what I do. I’m so close to Amethyst! I wake up, I talk, it’s acting.

Deedee: That comes so easy to you! I have to wake up early, and warm up, especially if it’s a singing episode. No coffee with cream. I have to drink water to avoid sticky saliva. Green apples!

Shelby: I noticed that you ate green apples!

Deedee: I wish I didn’t have to do that! But green apples help lubricate and get rid of mucus.

Michaela: Or a potato chip. Not a weird flavor.

Shelby: I’m gonna try those things next time I’m in the booth with you guys.

6. What’s your favorite Fusion?

Michaela and Deedee: [Start singing “Giant Woman”]

Deedee: Though I do like Sardonyx.

Michaela: Every time a new Fusion appears I like that one. I’m crushing on Smoky Quartz.

Shelby: I like Stevonnie. That’s an aesthetic I haven’t seen in cartoons. It’s Steven and Connie mashed together!

Michaela: Says young cosplayers remind her of Stevonnie with the maturity they exude. Stumbles over calling Stevonnie a “young woman” and then acknowledges they’re a nonbinary Fusion. Says that easy confidence is so attractive.

Deedee: AJ is a perfect voice for Stevonnie. She killed it at the panel, and the singing with Estelle with Rebecca playing was amazing. What a great Fusion they are.

7. Give your best impression of another character.

Michaela: muhmuhmuh! [Onion voice]

Deedee: I’m nervous doing this in front of you. “YOU CLODS!” [Peridot voice]


Deedee and Michaela: NO YOU’RE THE BEST!

Shelby: Let’s just fawn over each other.

8. How long does it take to record an episode?

Michaela: Depends on how many lines we have. Could be an hour, could be four hours.

Deedee: We get in at 9, could be wrapped up by 1.

Michaela: An episode takes ten months from the idea to on the TV.

Deedee: Like a baby. It IS a baby.

9. What celebrity would you like to see appear on the show?

Michaela: Rebecca Sugar. And T-Pain. He’s a big Steven Universe fan.

Deedee: I just want to meet him and sing with him: Bruno Mars.

Shelby: I would wanna see Adele. Adele should voice a character. And she’s funny. And she loves herself.

Michaela: Loving who you are is so on-brand!

10. Who’s the best Steven Universe villain?

Deedee: Can I say Peridot? She started out as a villain and then changed for good. [Michaela helped express this and they say they Giant Womaned that.]

11. What would your fusion dance be?

Deedee and Michaela do a fusion dance with Shelby providing beatboxing.

Michaela: Actually that’s how we greet each other on the street.

Deedee: I was nervous. Dancing in front of you makes me nervous because you’re a pro dancer.

Shelby: Imagine us in a booth together! Our work isn’t even work.

Michaela: People probably see us and ask if we had too much ginger ale. Too many vegetables.

Deedee: YOU CAN NEVER HAVE TOO MANY VEGETABLES. Fruits and vegetables. Also, hydrate. Drink lots of water.

12. What are your favorite memories from recording?

Deedee: We’re still making more memories! The efforts! When we crack up over making effort noises.

Michaela: Do you hear that? It’s an earthquake!

[All three make noises like they’re losing their balance.]

Michaela: When we get together it’s always a great time, like a mini family reunion. Recently AJ was there, Estelle was there, you [Deedee] were there, Paz was there … I think Zach wasn’t there? Toks was there! [Nanefua’s voice actor.] We had a reunion. We’re so close!

13. What has been the most difficult scene to record?

Deedee: There are many re-dos. For me, the really wordy Pearl lines, ‘cause I don’t speak like that normally. The intricate dialogue that Pearl says is tough for me.

Michaela: You execute them flawlessly.

Deedee: Take after take after take.

Michaela: During Amethyst’s angrier self-expression phases, it was hard to scream a lot and vary it so it didn’t all sound the same. Very challenging.

Shelby: We’re our own biggest critic. When we have long runs, we have to think so quickly. Finding the levels is important, trying to hit them emotionally.

Deedee: It’s so helpful to have Rebecca, Kent, Matt, and Ben in the booth giving specifics to us on how to execute our lines.

Michaela: You both are so good at taking the text and making it feel like your own. I learn the most from watching other actors.

Deedee: We go to school every sesh!

14. Tell the fans what your favorite line is.


Michaela: CHAIRS!

Deedee: I like saying everybody’s names. “STEVEN!” “AMETHYST!” “~GARNET!” [The “Steven” read sounds fearful, the “Amethyst” read sounds angry, and the “Garnet” read sounds almost pleading.]

Shelby: Mine’s definitely “Clod.”

Shelby: On Sunday, Cartoon Network they’re filming a music video for “Stronger Than You” with Estelle!

[The VAs sing a line from “Stronger Than You.”]

Michaela: But we’re not really stronger than YOU because you guys are really strong.

Deedee: Really strong. Stay strong! In the real way.

Shelby: YES.

My Drama Year!

It had been some time since I had wifi, so I ventured to the library to download K-Dramas for entertainment purposes. This is My Year in K-Dramas. The last two are recent and I have watched them with wifi because I am in a better place. Yay!!

     1. Oh My Venus

      This drama started out being really sad to me, then it became rather weird, but then I thought it was cute. It is one of those dramas that I would definitely say I enjoyed. Without wifi and cable, it was also hard to watch a second or third time. By the third time, I just went through my favorite episodes/moments. Would still recommend! 4.5 STARS!


           2. Cheese in the Trap 

                Now this one I was actually kind of bored with until about the fifth episode. Sorry, but true. I had a hard time understanding why it was popular. Of course, though, I did enjoy watching it after getting into it. After some time, it had me hooked and trying to figure things out as it went and the male lead had me all confused and stuff! Kekeke Would I recommend? Yes. 4 STARS!


    Originally posted by b2utygot7

            3. Liar Game

                This one I stumbled upon by chance. I looked it up on Google and decided the synopsis made the show seem very intriguing. So I downloaded it and enjoyed every second of this mystery thriller!! From beginning to end I was hooked, like a fish on a line!! I could not get enough of the show and even checked to see if there was another season. I still need another one. TOTALLY DAEBAK!!! 5 STARS


            4. Descendants of the Sun

                 THIS ONE!! Yes, this one. This drama I kept in my files for a long time, even after I moved TWICE(!!!!). I love this drama from beginning to end and may have watched it about ten times… Without skipping episodes. I love it so much, I had the poster as my phone’s background and had ringtones. I am not ashamed!! Song-Song couple is love, dude!! This one breaks the record. WAY PAST 5 STARS!!!


             5. W: Two Worlds

                  Now tell me why Lee Jong Suk said he wants to play a more masculine type of character when he did such a cool, manly job playing as his character Kang Chul?! He is the definition of perfection and I love him so much. I started feeling rather odd when I wanted him to catch me in a bathroom. Like, I volunteer to be scared like that!! All semi-joking aside, the drama is freaking awesome and the story line was well thought out. I would like to meet the writer and get some tips. 5 STARS!!!


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             6. Goblin

                 So many favorite scenes, so much bromance. Is it bad of me to say I loved this drama from beginning to end, too? I hope not. Although, for some reason, I wasn’t too into the beginning scene of the first episode. I shrug when I think about it because I have no idea why I’m not pleased with it. Gong Yoo did amazing acting out the battle and the movements were great and everything, but eh. ANYWAY! This drama had me swooning over anything and everything and even made me feel lonely af. I super love love it, though and totally watched it again and again!! Another one that broke the scale!!


            7. Weightlifting Fairy Kim Bok Joo

                 I just recently finished this one, so fresh out of the mind reaction. Here goes. NAM JOO HYUK, STOP STEALING MY HEART!!!!!! The story was great and the acting was even greater!! I love that it’s not the typical thin boy loves thin girl. Noooope, nope, nope. I am so in love with the story, I may go watch it again. With each episode, I had to make sure I was breathing because Nam Joo Hyuk kept me from breathing correctly. The love scenes were so cute and well thought out and that’s what really had me feeling like a high school teenager again. Oh, those feelings of blissful love. Sigh. I would definitely recommend this drama that peoples ears would fall off. I’m so in love with it. ANOTHER SCALE BREAKER!!!!!


    Originally posted by irrational-obsessions-gottcha78

    Thank you so much for reading!! (If you did) I know it was super long and not well typed, but I was afraid of mentioning any spoilers. Please keep in mind that I really did enjoy each and every one of these dramas. No harm, no foul.

    Got a drama you want to recommend I watch and review? Leave me a comment/message! Thank you!! Heartu!

    SJM Accent Challenge: The best of

    I love this challenge so much! So I thought I’d share some hilarious lines/great moments from some of the ones I’ve heard so far. I’m sorry if you’re not on the list! There were some I forgot, or looked for and couldn’t find. And there are so many I haven’t listened to yet!

    If you heard a line that was funny to you that wasn’t on this list please feel free to reblog and add it!


    • (epic entrance) “We’re live.”
    • “I love doing weird shit like this.”
    • “Chaol Westfall, Yrene Towers, Nehemiah—what the hell is that?
    • “Oh, that’s not a ghost that’s my dog.”


    • “Abraxos is hugs in Spanish”
    • “I don’t know the context of destroyed… anything manorian.”
    • “I would die for manorian.”



    • “My favorite ship is definitely Nessian, but I wouldn’t say no to myself and that magical cabin.” (Little does she know, she’d have to fight @rufousnmacska )
    • “I’m not saying that he’s terrible he’s just super moody and I just want to slap him.”

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    anonymous asked:

    I want to be an animator when I grow up but I know a lot of the in between animation is given to animators in Korea. Is storyboarding a lot like animation? Is it just as fun? And is it possible to be both?

    This is unfortunately true, at least if you want to be a 2D animator- all animation is pretty much done overseas for TV (even some CG Features). 

    But storyboarding more and more has become very much like animation. With everyone mostly storyboarding digitally now, there is an ability and tendency now to pose out way more, and most studios are asking for that from Board artists. So the line as blurred quite a bit. Many artists on the Bears story team are really great animators, and even did internships at big studios as animators. 

    I’ve personally always loved storyboarding because on top of animating/acting, you get to juggle all kinds of other skills like writing, design, and cinematography. So yeah- fun! 

    Doing both is possible although not super common–at Pixar, there were some animators that would often go back and forth from animation to story. 

    Hope that helps!

    - Daniel

    falsettos pro-shoot (v long post)

    - honestly the thing that sticks out right away is how amazing mendel is (even though he’s an absolute SHIT psychiatrist lmao) and i love brandon uranowitz
    - jfc seeing christian borle and andrew rannells have close-ups and cry tears made me cry
    - the cube thing is so well-designed??? it fits together so well?????? wow kudos to whoever is responsible for that
    - also the choreo!!! all the little dances ahhh
    - STEPHANIE J BLOCK IS A GODDESS and she can sing and everyone in the theatre clapped after “im breaking down” and the fucking bananas amd saggy carrot and the way she belts with the banana in her mouth omg
    - the lesbians are fucking adorable
    - “what more can i say” was so pure and wholesome (okay maybe not super pure with marvin checking out whizzer like that but id still consider it wholesome haha)
    - i appreciate how the very first song establishes how they’re childish and trina cleans up after them
    - andrew rannells’ solos made me cry
    - the weird hand things mendel does???? what the fuck? but i love it????? XD
    - “thrill of first love” was so GOOD
    - and i loved all of the chess game in “chess game” haha
    - anthony rosenthal’s unimpressed expressions are also v good, they made me laugh every single time like jason’s so done with the adults in his life XDD
    - the chess piece at the very end made me think of marvin’s line in “chess game” (that’s the king, treat him nice) and my hearts squeezed
    - oh my god, “what would i do” and the way they sing but dont touch and the light darkens on whizzer 😭😭😭 and just their expressions and how they’re crying but laughing and I JUST WANT THEM TO BE HAPPY
    - when charlotte and cordelia come in during “unlikely lovers” and marvin and whizzer are being kinda stupid :’)))) and honestly, all of “unlikely lovers” was just 💕💕💕💕💕
    - all of marvin’s reactions to mendel during “marvin at the psychiatrist”–actually, just all of that song like that was one of my first super faves of the musical and the performance exceeds everything
    - all the appreciation for everything whizzer wore
    - whizzer makes this EH sound when marvin tries to come onto him and it’s hilarious
    - also the way whizzer beckons marvin at the beginning ahhh (AND HIS EYEBROW RAISE)
    - during “four jews in a room bitching”, there’s a line where they say “jewish men” and in the performancr they were like “jew!…ish…men” and it’s great
    - “year of the child” in general was adorable and made me proud of marvin for growing and prioritizing his son more than he did
    - mendel and jason’s relationship is the best 💕
    - WHIZZER’S THANK YOU TO JASON AT THE END, and also after he toasts jason he kisses his head and just, all the tears
    - “i never wanted to love you” was so heart-breaking in so many ways
    - i also appreciate that in all the marching around and stuff, jason and whizzer are placed beside each other often
    - “march of the falsettos” was super surreal on a screen, i cant even begin to imagine how it must have been like live haha
    - any time christian borle sang a sweet high note
    - cordelia’s face during when charlotte is singing about her great day
    - when whizzer punches nancy reagan
    - when the lesbians kiss at the bar mitzfah and trina’s awkwardly there XD

    Strings II

    Summary: The Red String of Fate exists, and like only someone people in the world, you have the rare ability to see them- to change them.

    Genre: Soulmates!Jungkook + angst but not angst at all + fluff

    Word count: 14.6k

    A/N : Surprise!!! I am back! After months of procrastinating here is the long awaited part II! Thank you for all the praise for part I and I hope you guys like the sequel just as much. It’s not edited properly and there might still be mistakes but I really just wanna get this out! Comments and criticism are very much appreciated. :)) 

    Part I 

    For the first time since you’d found out that you could see strings, breathing felt easy. 

    You felt like you were floating, grasping onto the air with your fingertips, flapping your arms as if wings had been stitched onto the flesh like seams to keep you airborne and for fleeting moments, you embraced the sensation of liberation

    You couldn’t deny the way your cheeks ached in a way that was anything but unpleasant and your hair in those brisk moments spiralled behind you in its frenzy of locks and screaming with sovereignty.

    Despite the ruins you were the cause of, despite the flames you’d set alight and left unattended, despite all things destruction that you were the cause of- oddly, you’d never felt so free.

    You’d never felt so close to the air.

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    Renew The Get Down

    Hey all,

    I really love that Tumblr is rallying around Sense8 and trying to get it renewed. With the same energy, I think we can also try to renew The Get Down. There’s already a petition you can sign to show your support (which is linked at the end of this post), and if you have Twitter feel free to spread the petition there too.

    Here’s my testimony to the show if you. In Part 1, you might not fall in love with the story right away, but you really fall in love with the cast. The direction is a bit all over the place, but the chaos works for the 1970′s Bronx, New York setting. Part 1 is cheesy, outlandish, hilarious, and heartbreaking. Episode 1 can be treated as a microcosm for the rest of Part 1, but the series gets more grounded and less outlandish as it progresses. Part 2 really raises the stakes. Honestly, you’re missing out on a lot of bonding moments and character development if you skip Part 1, but Part 2 is where the drama really starts, and if you watch all of season one you’ll understand why fans are so frustrated with the cancellation. Part 2 left us with so many unresolved plot lines. Similar to Sense8, it seemed things were just getting started out, and they cut us off. The Get Down had great amazing black and Latino/Latinx representation, and also included canon gay/bi representation. The young and incredibly talented cast made The Get Down enjoyable even when the writing and direction wasn’t at its best. Tremaine Brown Jr., who portrays Miles “Boo-Boo” Kipling, was just a 14 year old rapping on the subway when he was approached by a casting director for his ability. A lot of these actors and actresses are new names, raw talent, but The Get Down will make you remember their names.

    June is LGBTQ+ Pride Month and Immigrant Heritage Month.

    Please sign the petition (there’s only 3,000 signatures at the time of this post) and spread the word to #RenewTheGetDown


    “Choose Me” (ft. BTS’ Suga)

    You sighed, your heart easily feeling heavy as you emptied out your resolve with that one text. You thought hard, the past three and a half months with Namjoon had been a dream, and now, more than ever, you felt like all you did was receive from him. In the countless random moments you had with him, you tried to look for a clue where he might be. 

    Was he in that coffee shop that played the best music? Was he in the school cafeteria where he finally acknowledged that the lunch ladies can actually make decent food? Was he in the library where you first got to know him as your crash course Philosophy tutor? Or was he in between all of those moments, somehow still by your side while knowing that you saw through him and was looking for something that he did not have?

    And in these questions, you found the answer. 

    Your feet moved faster than you could comprehend as your frantic fingers pressed for his name. There was a short ring as you climbed the stairs. 

    “Hello?” his deep voice will never fail to catch you off-guard.

    “Namjoon, I know exactly where you are.” you declared, catching your breath at the last flight of stairs. “I want to see you, but I don’t think you’d want to see me.”

    You heard him sigh, chuckling below his breath, laughing at how well you seem to know him. “You must know a lot about me, Y/N-ssi.”

    The formality somehow made you sad as you traced your steps towards a familiar room.

    Kim Namjoon was the vice president of the student council. He was VP Namjoon in your phone before he became Joonie, before he started to be someone you cared for. That was his identity before you and seeing him through the window from where you stood in the hallway, sitting on his desk in the student council room with the late afternoon sunlight washing over his melancholic face, made you realize how you seem to be going backwards. As if you were going back to where you started… before Namjoon and towards Yoongi and maybe, the past before that too.

    It was a bittersweet feeling, but slowly, eventually, that moment became your eureka. If you really were going back to where all of these started, then you were going to do it right.

    “We’re alike and lately, maybe too alike.” You smiled as you watched him fiddle with the hem of his jacket with his head hung low. “I’m sorry, Namjoon.” You choked out. Maybe he sensed it, maybe he heard you through the thin walls, but he began looking around for you and you had to fling yourself to the nearest wall to prevent him from seeing you. “Don’t… look up. Look out the window or something. I don’t think I can say what I want to say while looking in your eyes.”

    You peeked from where you stood and saw that he had indeed turned his back and looked out of the window. With a hand in his pocket and the other holding the phone against his ear, he said with a stable voice, “Okay, I’m ready. Today is the day, huh.”

    “I’m sorry.” You repeated weakly, stepping out to look at his back again. “We can’t choose the people that we fall in love with.”

    He chuckled darkly, his next words laced with just the right hint of contempt. “You see, Y/N… I don’t believe that.” He declared with the tone of finality that everyone seem to acknowledge and even when there was no one else around, you were sure that people would have whispered their agreement. “People always say that. Not only in love or relationships, they say that they didn’t have a choice, but in reality everyone has a choice. Always.”

    He took a short moment, maybe to recompose himself as his voice had gotten a decibel louder or maybe just to take a quick breath before he continued more calmly, “You could’ve turned me down, you could’ve stopped your feelings for Yoongi or you could’ve fought for him, but you didn’t. You were the one who gave up on him first. You always had a choice, Y/N. You will always have a choice, don’t forget that.”

    You nodded silently even though he cannot see you. “I know that I can’t get mad at you, you know why? Because I chose you. I chose to play this game even though I knew that I would lose.”

    “I’m sorry.” You could only repeat the words meekly because you couldn’t argue with Namjoon. He was always right.

    He sighed and turned around again, startling you as he leaned on the windowsill. His eyes were trained on something in front of him, so you knew that he was deliberately not looking at you. “Are you apologizing for breaking my heart or are you apologizing for not accepting my heart at all?”

    You took a second to think, but that second was enough for you to see the way the single teardrop from Namjoon’s eyes catch light and glisten in the darkening room.

    “I’m sorry…” you hesitated, wondering if you should finally reveal yourself. “…because I made the great, Kim Namjoon cry.” At your words, his eyes immediately connected with yours. You were stunned, but you continued with your trembling voice, “…but I’ve thought about this so many times before actually deciding. No matter how I feel now, I still think it isn’t right for me to keep seeing you when I can’t give my whole heart to you. I don’t want to use the clichéd “it’s not you, it’s me” line, but really, it’s me. I need to take a step back from all of these and just find out if I want to be with anyone.”

    He nodded and you didn’t know if he accepted such an explanation or simply understood you without further questions. “Y/N?” The way he said your name, without any suffix or formality, made you rethink everything. “Remember that favor you owed me?”

    Immediately, you remembered the favor you owed him for his time as your tutor and how those days already felt like a million miles away. “What is it?”

    “Don’t ask me to be friends with you.” Kim Namjoon was always warm, but now, he made you feel his chilling words down your spine as he looked at you with his unwavering gaze. “Let me decide if I want you to be in my life again.”

    When you finally nodded in acceptance, you realized that you were also crying. His words definitely signified the end of something. “I understand.” You bit your lower lip, looking for all the words that you had wished to say but couldn’t, so you settled with, “…and if I change my mind?”

    His smile, the one that spread on his lips and parted them to reveal his teeth and deepen the dimples on his cheek, might’ve been his parting gift to you. “Then you’ll have to wait in line. I’m highly eligible.”

    You returned his smile and even though a wall, a window and a few paces separated you, this was the closest that you had ever gotten to each other’s hearts. You meet his eyes from where you stood for one last time. You wipe both of your tears and smile at each other before you finally ended the call.

    You waved at him one last time, mouthing, ‘Thank you.’

    Genre: Angst/Fluff/Drama/Romance/CollegeAU

    Pairing: ReaderxYoongi/ReaderxNamjoon

    Summary: It’s the number one rule: you should never fall in love with your best friend or worse, Min Yoongi. With love in the equation, it becomes much difficult to find the right answer. Is it really true that you can’t choose who you fall in love with?

    One Two Three Four Five Six Seven Eight Nine Ten ElevenTwelve ThirteenFourteen Fifteen Sixteen Seventeen Eighteen Nineteen Nineteen Point Five Twenty Twenty One Twenty Two Twenty Three (END) Epilogue

    a/n: OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD I’M SO SCARED PLEASE DON’T KILL ME. I DIDN’T WANT THIS, BUT AAAAHHHHH IDK ANYMORE. I mean Not Today is a pretty obvious reference here. 

    HVFF Nashville Wrap Up

    It’s midnight. This is the first second I’ve had to sit down and write about Nashville. I was knee deep in SDCC planning with my Just About Write ladies today. It’s gonna be lit folks! We can’t wait to cover it for you.

    So… I decided to go to HVFF Nashville for one reason and one reason only. M*lissa B*noist was attending and my daughter could meet Supergirl. The obsession runs deep my friends. When M*lissa canceled Lauren was absolutely devastated and I was in a bit of a panic. Primarily because I didn’t know what else she would enjoy at HVFF. She’s not allowed to watch Arrow. She’s only seen a few clips, but Lauren loves Felicity Smoak. Hand to God this is how she described the show to a friend.

    Friend: What’s Arrow

    (The friend overhead my husband and I discussing my blog)

    Lauren: It’s about Felicity Smoak. She is super smart and loves computers like I do. She fights crime.

    Friend: Okaaaay. But… who is Arrow?

    Lauren: (completely blasé) Oh. He’s just Felicity’s boyfriend.

    I mean…. she’s not entirely wrong. She also possibly summed up 95% of the fandom’s view of the show, so I give her points for that. But… Emily Bett Rickards wasn’t going to be there. So, I was unsure of her level of excitement over Stephen.

    Turns out she was pretty excited to meet him. 

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    whaddup can I have a jhope FUCKBOI au w number 31 pls and thank u sugartits

    idk why you went on anon mate i know it’s you @freehoseoksdick hope you like it lad and stop calling me sugartits 

    31. “I’m trying to flirt with you.” 

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    I tried animation on paper today after so many years because I wanted to put my money where my mouth was. Clipping paper together at the bottom so they were all in line , just that and my blue pencil with its nubbey eraser on a table

    you dont need programs , you dont need light tables, you dont need any kind of like ..EXPENSIVE THINGS that are keeping you from starting to animate. Just do the thing , and it may not be great when you start but keep doing it and you’ll get better. I used to really dislike doing it because i didnt understand it at all but im a big believer in ppl finding their own way - dont let things stop you. 

    July 9, 2017

    SAM: Okay! 30min. Go!!!! #askSam

    FAN: Happy anniversary being cast as JAMMF /do you own rights to your audition tapes? If so will you share with us OL fans?
    SAM: I actually saw them recently. Gabs sent them to me. Spooky… black hair Jamie!

    Hi Sam! Are there any stunt- or action scenes for you in your new project? Greetings from Outlander “Kaffeeklatsch”
    Its an “action comedy!!!” I love stunts….

    One word to describe Jamie in season 3?
    He’s anyone BUT JAMMF….

    I’m coming to Comic Con. Can you save me a seat in the panel room?
    Ask @jennadewan !? #seatKeeper

    Is it true ~ did you get your hair cut?
    Maybe maybe not. Movie magic?!

    How do you spend your time on long plane flights sleep/read/study scripts?
    Sleep. It’s a great oppertunity to catch up! And maybe a wee dram…

    Will you do another Barbour event in NYC?
    Working on it! Can’t wait for you to see my @Barbour collection for Autumn Winter this year!

    Do you have anything else in the pipe line but the Spy movie going?
    So many projects, in different fields, exciting but hard to keep up! 

    Did you go on a safari when you were in South Africa?
    I wanted to stay, had planned too but unfortunately had to leave, only saw Zebras (cool!) and Springbok (wandered onto our set!) 

    Have you talked to @caitrionambalfe lately?

    What accent are you using for Spy movie?

    What are you craving right now?
    Sipping on an April Spritz… mmmm

    Hey there did you actually get seasick while filming S3?
    Afraid not… But pretending to throw up raw eggs quite a few times can set someone off!

    NIC RASENTI: pfft he did. Ask the bucket on the ship deck, he tells a different story…
    Didn’t you play the bucket?

    Would love to hear you narrate an audiobook! Is that something you would consider?
    Already done! @cassieclare #ShadowhunterAcademy

    Your FIRST thought on learning that you had been cast as Jamie Fraser?
    I was over joyed and didn’t realise what a wonderful adventure it’d be. So so lucky

    Anymore tennis games coming up with @caitrionambalfe ?? But u can’t cheat next time
    Table tennis? I’d have to let her win….  :)

    What’s it like working with Kate McKinnon? Does she keep you lol?
    She’s SO cool and funny! What a pro.

    Turtle Soup or Print Shop?
    Wait and see……

    Would you ever consider an interview/experience with @BearGrylls ?
    Where do I sign up?

    Does the next @Barbour campaign have pups? How have you managed not to steal one? 12/10 would dognap!
    I’m still trying…. Would love one!

    Any bruises or injuries filming the Spy movie?
    Nothing major…. Risky business though!

    Do u like star wars?????
    Do you?! More Star Trek…

    Waiting for @SamHeughan to notice my friends like…
    Well…. where are they?!

    Can you do a #handstand?
    Actually I’ve been learning but at the moment no, I’m rubbish! Unless against the wall…

    Are you ready for the So Cal heat? #SDCC2017
    I CANNOT wait!!!!!! So excited for @Comic_Con !!!! 

    Ever been jalouse at Catriona Balfe? 
    Im like ALWAYS totally ja-louse. ;p

    Are you dancing at the @MyPeakChallenge Peakers event ?
    Who’s asking? I’m dancing.

    Have you ever wanted to play Shakespeare?
    I have in the past and would love to be back on stage.

    I’d think you would fit right into Game of Thrones… would you be up for it?
    What character? And could they film in Scotland?

    Dream meal?
    Right now I’ve been craving mexican! Margaritas!

    Did you ever thought that MPC would reach so many people in the world like it’s reaching now?what do you think about it?
    So  so happy, with the research projects we’ve funded and the community and support people give each other. More to do!!!

    If you could be on a reality show, which would you do?
    The Bachelorette

    @MrStevenCree would be so jealous unless you picked him.
    Very quiet from Mr Cree tonight…. suspicious!

    When are u starting to film season 4?
    This Fall….

    Wasn’t the water too cold in the scene where you have to hide in the River?
    VERY cold… ahem

    Did you watch Valbo on tv? XD
    Hehehe I loved watching him in pain. ;)

    Thank you for always being so gracious  
    No THANK YOU!!! You are all amazing. So blessed.

    SAM:  Okay I have to go! I’m sorry! Early call AM.Thank you for questions, I’ll do another on way to SDCC! Great to hear from you all. Good night!

    BONUS –>

    STEVEN CREE: Hi @SamHeughan , I’m sitting with @grahammctavish If you could take us both on a date anywhere in the world, where would it be? 

    Somewhere they’d have trouble letting you in…

    ROSIE DAY:  where can I buy some whale?
    I know a guy. No cash. Credit only.xxxx


    heatheroreilly A little story for you guys this morning. @yaelaverbuch I are great friends. We have known each other for over 15 years. As individuals, we are absurdly competitive. Together, it’s to the extreme, we compete in everything, from pull ups to the crossbar challenge, to who picks the better line at security in the airport. It is admittedly a little insane.
    Last year, we were casually watching TV at night in KC where we were roommates. I mentioned to Yael that I never know how many juggles to say when kids ask for my highest number. I had truthfully never counted. I guessed maybe 300 or so before my attention span would go and I rationalized that my hip flexors would begin to hurt. I asked Yael if she knew what her highest number was.
    She basically implied that she could go as long as she wanted really. That unless a bird flew by and hit the ball or a lighting bolt struck her that the ball wouldn’t fall. I laughed at this, but then realized she was being serious. Not in an arrogant way, she was just telling the truth.
    I said come on, like how many? 1000? 2000? 3000?!? So I basically dared her that she couldn’t do 3000 right then and there. That would be ridiculous and would take way too long. Impossible.
    It was 9 pm. She took her ball out in the parking lot and didn’t come back in for 30 minutes or so. It was about half the Law and Order episode I was watching.
    I hear the door open. Yael is breathing a little heavy and sits down on the lawn chair next to me that for some reason is a critical piece of furniture in our temporary living room.
    She says that she did an extra 50 just in case. She did 3,050 juggles. In her first try. In running shoes. In a dark parking lot. She was kind of still annoyed that I didn’t believe her in the first place. After all, she knows what she is capable of. She has been relentlessly dedicated to technique and mastery of the ball.
    Respect. You were right. I was wrong.
    Today, Yael is launching @technefutbol. I am not just saying this as her friend. If you are an aspiring soccer player, I strongly suggest you check it out. I just started the program. It is awesome and I guarantee you it will change your game.

    That’s Good to Know (Mark)

    For: Anonymous

    Prompt:   Mark joins you on a big family holiday, with fluff. (I didn’t know if you meant holiday as in vacation or holiday as in Christmas or New Year so I went Christmas)

    When you’d asked Mark if he’d like to spend Christmas day with your family he’d been nervous to accept the invitation. You’d been dating for a while, almost six months, but with his busy work schedule you hadn’t yet had the chance to introduce him to your parents never mind the rest of your family and there you were asking him to meet them all at once. But he’d accepted, despite the nerves and now he was standing beside you, holding your hand in a vice like grip, a somewhat stiff smile on his face as you waited for your parents to answer their door.

    “You’ll be fine.” You murmured, giving his hand a squeeze. You felt a little nervous too, your parents hadn’t been a huge fan of your last boyfriend, your brother and your grandmother hadn’t been either. But this was Mark, you reminded yourself, trying not to let the nerves show. You’d been younger then, your judgement hadn’t been the best. But you knew better now and Mark… Mark was everything your last boyfriend hadn’t been. He was kind and polite and respectful. He was perfect boyfriend material. Surely they would see that. “They’ll love you.” Not sure which one of you that you were trying to convince the most.

    Mark turned to you, eyebrows raised. “And you know that for sure, do you?”

    “Yes.” You insisted. If you liked him, there was no way they wouldn’t like him too but before you could tell him this you heard footsteps coming down the hall and you snapped your attention back to the door.

    Mark did the same, forced smile back on his face.

    And it was your mother who answered.

    “Y/N.” She exclaimed, immediately pulling you into a hug. You felt Mark reluctantly let go of your hand and you returned the hug, wrapping your arms around your mother and squeezing her tight. Your own work schedule was almost as busy as Mark’s and it felt like forever since you’d last seen her.

    And then she was letting you go and you were taking a step back. “Mum, this is Mark.” You told her, gesturing to your boyfriend. “Mark, my mum.” You said next, nodding at the woman in front of you.

    “It’s nice to meet you Ma’am.” Mark said, bobbing his head respectfully.

    For a second your mum said nothing and you caught Mark scuff one shoe across your doorstep, obviously worried. “Ma’am.” She repeated at last and for a second you thought she might be offended. And then she smiled. “Well aren’t you precious.”

    “Um…” Mark mumbled, obviously unsure of how to take that. “… thank you?” he ventured.

    “You’re welcome.” She said, still smiling brightly. “It’s nice to meet you too.” She stepped back from the door and gestured down the hallway. “Come on in.”

    ~~~~~~ ~~~~~~

    Your mum was smitten. She kept saying things like “He’s adorable” and “Isn’t he sweet” whenever she thought he wasn’t listening. And she was right. Mark was adorable and he was sweet. You just didn’t know if that was enough to endear him to your brother and your father. Adorable and sweet didn’t appeal to them as much as it appealed to her.

    But you needn’t have worried. When your brother asked the question “Do you follow basketball?” and Mark had answered with an enthusiastic yes that was your brother sold. He was a simple man.

    Your dad had taken a little longer to come around. All Mark got out of him for a while were one word answers, curt nods and the odd brusk question about his line of work. But you’d been expecting that, you knew that was what was worrying him the most, Mark’s profession. When your relationship went public he knew you’d be under scrutiny too and he didn’t like that idea, he’d told you so more than once. And he didn’t like the fact that Mark had so many other admirers, so many fans, all telling him how great he was. Wouldn’t that go to his head, make him arrogant? You’d argued of course, told him Mark wasn’t like that. He had his head screwed on properly, he was mature for his age, sensible. Your dad hadn’t listened.

    It was over dinner that his attitude began to thaw. Mark had started talking about how much he missed spending the holidays with his family. He’d started singing his own parents’ praises and boasting about how amazing his brother and sisters were. He’d pulled out his phone so he could show your mother and grandmother pictures of his nieces. Using your phone at the dinner table was usually a no in your house but they’d asked. And when your mother and grandmother were done cooing over how cute his nieces were your dad had taken a look too before handing the phone back to Mark, the stony look he’d had on his face since you’d both arrived softening.

    Then dinner was over and Mark well and truly earned himself a spot in your dad’s good books by offering to help your mother clear the table and fetch dessert. Your mum had tried to refuse the offer but Mark had insisted saying she must have been cooking all day and it was the least he could do and she’d given in.

    “He seems very down to earth.” Your dad had said when Mark was out of earshot and you knew right then that Mark had won him over, coming from your dad that was a huge compliment.

    And with your mum, dad and brother all on side the only person left to impress was your grandmother. Your grandmother, being your favourite person on the planet was the person you wanted to warm to Mark the most. She was incredibly important to you and as such you wanted her to get to know your know your boyfriend, to get to like him. But your grandmother was notoriously hard to read and other than tell him how cute his nieces were she hadn’t said much over dinner. You just hoped she’d decide she liked him before the day was over. If she didn’t that wasn’t going to make you like Mark any less but it would be upsetting. 

    ~~~~~ ~~~~~~

    A few hours later and Mark was sitting beside your grandmother on the couch. Your grandmother had a family photo album open in her lap and was showing him pictures of your brother and yourself when you were children. You watched them from the doorway with interest. Mark was giving her his full and undivided attention and your grandmother was clearly in her element. They looked completely comfortable in each other’s company and you couldn’t help smiling.

    “So Grandma seems to like him.” Your brother said from behind you and you jumped slightly, your hand going to your chest.

    “Yeah, she seems to.” You agreed, ignoring the amused look on your brother’s face. Sneaking up behind people wasn’t big and it wasn’t clever.

    “Mum and Dad do too.” He added.

    “I guess.” You said, your gaze going back to your boyfriend. Your mum was sitting beside him now, reaching over him to point to one of the pictures in the album your grandmother was still holding, your dad sitting in an armchair to their left. You watched as he said something and Mark smiled, not the forced smile he’d used on your mum when she’d answered the door earlier, this smile was wide, genuine. Then Mark nodded, said something in reply and your dad laughed. You felt your heart swell. He was surrounded by your family and he looked at home. He looked like like he fit.

    “You really like him, don’t you?” your brother said quietly.

    You’d been so caught up in watching Mark that you’d almost forgotten he was there. “Yes.” You said, not able to tear your gaze away from the scene in front of you. “I really like him. He makes me happy.” You admitted. It wasn’t something you’d voiced aloud yet but you more than liked him, you loved him and you were so incredibly glad your family were on their way to loving him too.

    “That’s good to know.” Your brother said, apparently satisfied. “As long as it stays that way then I’m okay with him sticking around.”

    You resisted the urge to roll your eyes and repeated the words “That’s good to know,” instead. Mark didn’t need his permission to stick around, that was up to you, but you appreciated it, it was nice to hear.

    ~~~~~~ ~~~~~~

    “See, you had nothing to worry about.” You said as Mark pulled out of your driveway. Your grandmother especially had been reluctant to let him leave, telling him he was welcome to visit her any time. “I told you they’d love you, didn’t I?”

    “Love’s a strong word.” Mark said, “but yeah, they didn’t seem to hate me, that’s something.”

    You shook your head. He’d never been the best at taking a compliment but that was ridiculous even for him. “I know my family.” You informed him. “Believe me, they loved you.”

    “If you say so.” Mark said, still unconvinced.

    “My dad thinks you’re ‘a down to earth young man’,” he’d said it again as you’d been getting ready to leave, Mark had really left an impression on him if he’d said it twice in one day, “my brother didn’t try to warn you off, my grandma kept telling me to make sure you eat properly and I’m pretty sure my mum is almost as in love with you as I am.” You finished as you pulled up at a red light.

    “Really?” Mark asked, turning to look at you.

    And it was only then you realised exactly what you’d just said. ‘Almost as in love with you as I am’… that was tantamount to a confession. You felt your face flush red. “Um… yes?” you ventured, not sure how Mark was going to take it, or if he’d even noticed what you’d said. Maybe he hadn’t, maybe you were safe…

    “And just how in love with me are you?” he asked. His tone of voice was light but you couldn’t quite decipher the look on his face.

    You could tell him that it was just a figure of speech… or you could tell him the truth. You took a deep breath and decided to go for it, if it wasn’t what he wanted to hear after six months of dating then it probably wasn’t something he was going to want to hear ever. “I’m ridiculously in love with you.” You admitted, the words coming out in a rush. You really were. When you were together you were blissfully happy, when you were apart you couldn’t stop thinking about him. You loved him, there was no denying it.

    “Seriously?” he said, his expression still unreadable.

    “Seriously.” You told him.

    “Good.” He said, and noticing that the light in front of you had turned green he moved his attention back to the road.

    “Good?” you echoed. Good? You’d told him you loved him and all he could say was good?

    “Hmm.” Mark hummed with a nod as you left the traffic lights behind you and you continued on your way. “That’s good to know.”

    Was he serious? “Glad I could help.” You said shortly, irritation mounting. Why wasn’t this as much of a big deal to him as it was to you? He might not love you but you’d thought he at least cared about you. That hadn’t been the reaction of someone who cared.

    It was a good five minutes before either of you broke the tension that was mounting between you and Mark was the one to break it. “It’s good to know…” he said quietly, “… because I love you, a lot and I didn’t know if you felt the same way. You do though, so that’s nice.” And with a cough he leant forward and turned on the car radio.

    Relief washed over you. When he hadn’t responded the way you’d thought he would you’d thought a break up was on the horizon. Your family had only just gotten to know him, they’d have been devastated. And then his choice of words caught up to you. “Nice? That’s the best you can do?” you asked, unable to help a smile.

    “Yes, nice.” Mark grumbled, not appreciating your teasing tone on the slightest. “Do you want me to take it back?”

    “No…” you said quickly, smile widening. He was obviously embarrassed and that was adorable. “… no. Nice is good. I’ll take nice.”

    “Good because that’s all you’re getting.” Mark told you, doing his best to sound gruff but the flicker of a smile that accompanied the words let him down. He was happy as you were right now, you could tell.

    Exo Reaction to Someone Flirting with Their S/O


    He’s one of the members that would not interfere directly. Instead of coming over, he would make silly faces at you over the flirting guy’s shoulders. Wiggling eyebrows, cute winks, and small kisses are ways to draw your attention to him. You would be giggling and unable to focus on the guy in front of you. The man would eventually realize what was going on, and storms away while Xiumin innocently shrugs his shoulders.


    Although Suho is extremely well-mannered and patient, even he would still be irritated when he witnessed an unknown man acting overly comfortable with you. He would make the most passive-aggressive comments in the person’s face. “Oh, I didn’t know that you and my girlfriend were close.” Then Suho would make a face at the man until he gets the message and leaves.


    You and Yixing would be having a really nice conversation at a Cafe when a young guy walked over to you and starts to chat you up. Lay would be really lost and wonders why the stranger was being so friendly. Later, he would get an epiphany and suddenly realize that the boy was flirting with you. He would not be the type to feel threatened by a random boy, so his slow reactions would actually turn into a running joke between the two of you.


    When he sees a guy is leaning unusually close towards you, he would quickly walk over with a fake smile and size the other guy up. Baekhyun seems like the type to use skinship to send a message to the offender. Wrapping his arms around you or giving you a kiss and then interjecting himself into the conversation is his way of showing that he’s your boyfriend and not to be messed with. Unless the other guy is seriously harassing you, I doubt that he would get angry or violent.


    His reaction would be similar to Baekhyun’s but more exaggerated. He would be extra hyper when greeting the guy who was hitting on you. His large eyes will be wider than usual and his smile would nearly fall of his face. After joining the conversation, he would not so subtly kick the man out of the conversation. “Wow, look at the time. It looks like you have to leave now. Too bad.”


    Jongin would ignore the person flirting with you and intertwine his hands with yours before leading you away. He would not say a single word or even look at the guy because he wants to pretend that nothing happened. Although he would try to act normally afterwards, you can tell that he’s annoyed on the inside because he’s smiling less and his eyes are darker. If you’re regularly being hit on, he might snap one day and aggressively tell the unlucky person to screw off.


    When he noticed that the waiter was leaning unusually close to you, he would stare silently at him. The atmosphere would immediately turn cold as the waiter becomes increasingly flustered under Kyungsoo’s cold gaze. He’s more of the quiet type, so he would not express his possessive feelings verbally. Instead, he would let his eyes and dark expression do the talking. You would have to distract him in order to lighten the mood and cheer him up.


    Based on his personality, Sehun would scoff at any guy who tries to approach you. He would probably make some sassy comments or roll his eyes in an extremely obvious way. Sehun would not care if he’s being rude since no guy should be hitting on his girlfriend. But it seems unlikely that any guy would flirt with you in front him since his cold, handsome looks and great height are already enough to ward off any potential suitors.


    He would be quite easy going about this since he understand why these men are attracted to you. He would actually tease you for having so many guys hitting on you all the time. “Wow, I think there’s a line waiting to ask for your number”. But he would still be irritated if others were constantly interrupting his time with you. Pouting would be his way of expressing annoyance, but you would just find it extremely adorable.

    Gifs do not belong to me. 


    Chapter 6


    I literally woke up with a big goofy smile on my face. The only thing I could think about was how good Kai made me feel last night. After we were finished at my place, we went back to his. I knew my legs were like noodles so I wasn’t even gone attempt to walk.

    I managed to take a quick bath since Kai was downstairs doing lord knows what, but I literally was limping. I think the hot bath made my legs better though.

    “You finally up?” Kai asked as he came in scratching his head. He had on his durag, boxers, and socks looking like a whole full course meal. Kai didn’t even have to try.

    “Yea, how long was I sleep?”

    “10 hours g..” he shook his head with a smile as my eyes widened. That’s honestly a blessing for me. No wonder I woke up feeling refreshed.

    “Haven’t gotten sleep like that since I was in the womb.” I admitted, making Kai laugh. It was true. I’ve always had trouble staying asleep growing up and I still do. Maybe I need Kai to dick me down every night.

    “I made breakfast.. you hungry?” He said as he grabbed a pair of sweats out of his drawer before slipping them on.

    “Yes, but you gotta carry me.” I smiled as he winked at me before coming to pick me up bridal style.

    As he carried me to the kitchen, the mixture of different foods filled my nose and it smelled lovely. When Kai sat me down on one of the high chairs, I gasped at what was in front of me.

    “Kaiden! You didn’t have to do this, thank you!” I said still in disbelief. I was shocked because I didn’t think he could cook and because he made a whole feast. He must’ve loved our little event from last night because he doesn’t even cook for himself.

    “Yea I did.. its my way of apologizing from spazzin’ last night. I hate fighting wit you, especially over small shit. Plus, you put it on a nigga.. I ain’t even gone lie.” He grinned at me as he ate a piece of a strawberry. Just when I was about to thank him again, his phone started ringing.

    “Hello?” He answered, giving me the hold on signal with his finger.

    “Ma, I got comp-” Ma? I know that isn’t short for mom, which is short for mother.

    “You outside?” I looked down at my attire and mentally cursed to myself.

    “Uh baby.. my mom’s outside and I’m pretty sure you don’t want her seeing you like this so you might wanna go put on some clothes. I mean it don’t matter to me but..” he assured me, referring to the red bra and panties I had put on specially for him since it was his favorite color. Scratch that, did he say his mom?

    “Kai I know you did not just say your damn mama.” He looked at me with a look of sympathy on his face because he knew I wasn’t ready to meet her yet. Especially when I just got done riding her son’s dick into the sunset. How could he?

    He’s told me many stories about his mom, and she seems like a sweet lady. I don’t really care if anyone doesn’t like me, but I WANT his mom to. Meeting her like this just gives me bad vibes. I swear Ima kill Kai when she leaves.

    “We ain’t got time to discuss this ma, just go throw some shit on.” He said as he jogged towards his living room. I swear this nigga probably set this whole thing up.

    I ran up the stairs so fast, I almost busted my damn ass in the process.

    Shaking my head in slight anger, I snatched off my bandeau and replaced it with a plain T shirt and a pair of biker shorts. That was appropriate enough I guess.

    Leaving my hair in its ponytail, I took a deep breath before making my way down the stairs where I heard Kai, his mom, and his brother.

    “Baby, who’s got you cooking? Every time I try to get you to cook with me, you never want to.” I heard her say to him as I chuckled lowly. When I was at the last stair, I hurriedly walked to the kitchen to show my face.

    I didn’t even step a toe in there yet and they were already looking at me. A smile immediately spread across his mother’s face as she walked up closer to me. Wyd?

    “Buttercup! Is this the one you’ve been talking my ear off about?” She looked at Kai as he nodded and smirked at me. Wow, he’s been talking to his mom about me? Kai trying to earn some cool points I see.

    “My little almond! Come, come!” She said anxiously as she motioned for me to come and hug her. Kai and his brother were too busy laughing at the fact that she nicknamed me her little almond, but I didn’t care. I thought it was cute. Her dimples were the cutest.

    She was just a gorgeous little petite lady with long black hair. Her black didn’t crack at all. She looked like she could be his sister.

    “Hi Ms-”

    “Honey, you can call me Kaidyn or mama Kai.” She assured me as she released me from the hug. She smelled like fruit.

    I’m guessing Kai was named after her. I didn’t feel comfortable just flat out calling her by her government yet, so Mama Kai it is for now.

    “Kai talks about you all the time! You raised him into a great, respectful young man and I want to thank you for that. The way he treats women is incredible.” I explained to her as she nodded.

    Kai was always saying how didn’t disrespect women because he came from one and grew up in a house hold full of them. Plus, he wouldn’t want anyone disrespecting his mother.

    “Yes, I’m very thankful that he remembers what I taught him. He will not stop calling me every night about you, Ms. Robyn. You’re even prettier in person.”

    “Thank you, you’re gorgeous.”

    “Ma, when we gone eat?”

    “Who is we? I made this for my baby and mama.” Kai rose an eyebrow at his brother. They were forever being mean to each other. I don’t know if that’s how they express their love or what.

    “You need help Mama Kai?” I asked once I noticed she was setting up the table.

    “Oh no baby, thanks for asking though.” She gave me a big smile as she started to get out some plates for all of us. I forgot that Kai had told me that she was a chef, so of course she’d enjoy doing this.

    “So Mama Kai, I hear you’re a chef..”

    “Yes ma'am, I have a passion for cooking. Ever since I was little, I’d always be in the kitchen helping my mother cook. Kai obviously does too, but he thinks it’s "gay”.“ She explained, shaking her head at the end of the sentence.

    "Kai why? I think it’s cute.”

    “Why you gotta put me on the spot like that, ma?” He said as he looked down at her. Kai was a good 6'5, so he was the tallest in here.

    “Boy please, wait til I show her your baby pictures.”

    “So what about you Robyn?”

    “Well, I have a passion for designing clothes. I’m launching my Summer Collection in a few weeks. I’ve gotten as far as designing hundreds of prom dresses, wardrobe for Met Gala, many award shows, and I’m currently working on a makeup line for my girls of color.” I explained confidently, as she nodded with a look that said she was impressed.

    “That’s great! I wish you nothing but more success in the future. I might have to get you to design my wedding dress.” She smirked at me as I nodded. I would love that.

    Once she had brought us our plates, no words were said. Everybody was just eating, and the food was so damn good. I honestly haven’t had cooking this good since my mom.


    Popping a piece of gum in my mouth, I grabbed my purse and carefully walked down the stairs. I had on heels, and I would hate to break my ankles trying to be cute going down the stairs.

    When I reached the last stair, I seen Jaylen in the kitchen munching on whatever. Probably a bunch of junk food.

    “Where you going wit ya nipples out?” He smirked as he winked at me.

    “A place.” I stated dryly, trying not to get too carried away in the conversation.

    “Damn, what a nigga do now? You being all dry and shit.” He got serious and looked down at me. I went into the fridge and grabbed one of my waters before sitting on the couch since Winter wasn’t here yet. She was forever taking her sweet ass time.

    I didn’t want to ignore him I just.. I don’t know.

    “So you don’t hear me? Aight cool.” He nodded before leaving and slamming the door in the process. I knew one of his biggest pet peeves was being ignored, so I don’t know why I would do that. He’d never do me like that.

    “I’m so stupid.” I sighed as I put my head in my hands. I was honestly confused. I just wish Jaylen wouldn’t have said what he said to Kai, because if he didn’t things would be so different. I’m not even gonna put all the blame on Jaylen because it was both of them. Sometimes Kai doesn’t know how to let stuff go and he gets mad too fast.


    I’ve been out dragging Kai with me all day to buy new fabric. The way I’ve been working, I was bound to run out.

    Both of us were tired as hell and since my place was closer, I just decided to go there. Hopefully O was in his room.

    Jaylen 🤡: wya

    I was honestly too lazy to text back so I would have to get to him later. I knew Kai was tired of holding all my damn bags so I hurriedly unlocked the door.

    As soon as I waited for Kai to come in, I couldn’t believe who I seen on the couch. Jaylen was about to speak until he saw Kai come behind me and kiss my neck. “I’ll be in ya room sleep.”

    “Fuck you doing with this buster ass nigga?” Jaylen stood up, pointing to  Kai. Kai stopped dead in his tracks and turned around to make sure Jaylen wasn’t talking to him.

    “Fuck you said?”

    “I said fuck you d-”

    “Jaylen!” I yelled, not wanting this to go further. I swear Jaylen doesn’t know how to shut up. I saw Kai come closer so I tried to hold him back but failed miserably.

    “Nah watch out, let him repeat that shit.” He stood there waiting for him to go on. Jaylen waved him off as if he wasn’t here and turned back to me.

    “So this why you be some-timing Robyn? Cause you got a nigga now? You stopped fucking with me for this monkey ass nigga?”

    “Yea she got a nigga now. Fuck you worried bout my girl for? Wit this damn over processed perm you got.” I didn’t even get a chance to talk.

    “Look here coochie beard, once again I ain’t talking to you. Did ya mom not teach you to speak when you spoken to? Damn.” He aggravatingly sighed. Jesus..

    “You guys ch-” I started to say but was cut off.

    “Ion give a fuck if you talking to me or not, the fuck you worried bout my girl for? She good, she don’t need to be talking to you.” He said, which Jaylen found funny. I really hope he wasn’t about to do or say anything stupid.

    “Since you know everything and y'all so gucci, was she ya girl when we was just on the phone two nights ago? Was she ya girl when we was just chillin’ on Wednesday? Was she ya girl when she was letting me touch all up on her? Was she ya girl when I ate her puss-”

    That’s all it took for Kai to charge for Jaylen and deck him right in the mouth. Next thing I know, I saw him pull something from the waistband of his jeans and my heart dropped. “Talk that shit now, bitch ass nigga!” Kai yelled aggressively.

    “Nigga fuck you!” Jaylen spat.

    I knew about his past so I knew him shooting Jaylen would be nothing for him. But this was over something so small and stupid and believe or not, I’d hate to see Jaylen get hurt in any type of way.

    “Kai stop!” I pushed him back with all my force. When he saw the look on my face, his eyes softened but he was still breathing hard. He shook his head before tucking the gun back in his jeans and storming out of the condo.

    Sighing, I noticed Jaylen holding his jaw on the couch. “You aight?” I questioned as he nodded.

    “Damn Jaylen, you need to learn to stop talking to everybody like you’re crazy. Why would you say that to him?”

    “Fuck outta here, that nigga was coming at me like I’m a bitch.” He spat before standing up and grabbing all his things to leave.

    *Flashback Over*

    I shook my head at the event and realized that Jaylen’s art show was tomorrow night.    I had been working on my dress for decades because literally everyone was gonna be there. It was really important to him and I know he would hate me if I missed it.. Fuck.

    “Girl what you over there looking like a lil lost puppy for?” I heard Winter’s voice, making me smile a bit. I haven’t talked to her in forever. She was like a big sister to me.

    “No reason-”

    “Wassup hoodrat?” I heard Jaylen’s voice. Winter’s happy mood immediately changed. It was so funny, because she literally could not stand him. Everyone knew that.

    “Boy you look like one of Santa’s elves with all this damn green on, fuck outta my face.” She rolled her eyes as she snatched her keys off the table.

    “Come on Robyn, before he make me hurt him.” She mugged him as she left out of the door first. I looked back at him and he looked at me, shaking his head.

    “Hollywood, yo.” He said but I just shrugged it off.

    Was I?


    Once my mom left, I felt relieved. I knew she would like Robyn because she got along with everybody. The only way she wouldn’t like you is if you were disrespectful to her or family. Other than that, she straight.

    I didn’t have much cleaning to do since all the food was gone. My mom told every damn body in her phone that I cooked, so a few of my cousins and shit came over. I didn’t mind though, cause I didn’t want all the food just sitting here.

    I had felt bad for yelling at Rob like I did yesterday, so I cooked for her. I would’ve went out and bought her a new bag or something, but she would’ve declined so I did something simple.

    I wasn’t trying to be insecure or nothing, but when you get fucked over so many times, it’s hard not to think some fishy shit going on.

    I don’t give a fuck about Robyn having a nigga as a friend at all. It was just that nigga that I don’t like. This nigga sat there and flirted wit my girl in my face like that wasn’t disrespectful.  He had the nerve to tell me what went down between them like I wasn’t gone do shit. I swear if Rob ain’t calm me down, I would’ve bodied his dumbass. I got heat for niggas like him.

    That’s why I don’t want her fucking with him. I trust her, it’s just him that I don’t trust. I got the perfect career, and the girl of my dreams. I ain’t letting nobody fuck that up, real talk.

    It took a lot of shit to get to where I’m at today. Shit used to be dangerous and hectic before I saved up enough money to start my own business. Before I even started, I bought my mom a gigantic, beautiful house and a brand new Snow White Jag. That was one of my biggest goals before anything. She took care of me all my life, so I felt as if I needed to start taking care of her. Whatever she wants, she can get it because she wasn’t always rich, but she still made sure we had everything we wanted and needed growing up.

    After I realized that I had more than enough to start my own business, I left that dangerous life style behind. Being a hitman wasn’t always easy, but it paid hella good. Good enough to where I started expanding my work.

    I just pray that this shit doesn’t catch up to me because I’m doing great right now. I’m genuinely happy. But you know every time some shit going good, you get slapped in the face with some bullshit. It never fails.

    I swear I been feeling like some shit was bout to pop off lately, like I needed to go see a therapist or something. I keep having these paranoid thoughts that I’m either bout to get killed or go to jail. I really didn’t want to talk to Robyn about this neither. That’s why I needed to see a therapist.

    “Babe, you seen my sketch book?” I heard Rob ask from my room. Snatching her book off of the island, I jogged to my room only to see her fat ass in the air searching for something on the floor. She stayed wearing those tiny ass shorts around me. Her ass swallowed them every time.

    “Aye, I wanna talk to you about something..” I said in a stern like tone as I sat down on the bed after handing her the sketch book.

    “Man Kai don’t tell me you got something, I’ll kill you.” She stressed as I looked at her like she was crazy. What type of nigga would I be to fuck her raw if I knew I had something? I don’t get down like that.

    “Nah, you got me bent.”

    “Sorry, spill.”

    “I love you, aight? Like that first day I saw you, I ain’t think you was gone talk to me but I’m glad you did. These months I’ve known you have by far been the best moments of my life. Swear I can’t even go 30 minutes without talking to you. You special Robyn, and I just wanna say that whatever happens to me in the future.. I’m sorry and I love you.” I explained to her as she wore a confused look on her face.

    I didn’t wanna tell her about my thoughts because she would stress about that shit and I know she got enough shit on her case to be stressing about already.

    “Kai, where is this coming from? Don’t talk like that, I’d lose my shit if something happened to you.”

    “Just remember what I said, you got me?” She nodded followed with a sigh. I wrapped my arms around her and kissed her slightly big forehead.

    “What you wanna do today? I’m all yours.” She looked up at me as I became deep in my thoughts. I didn’t want to sit around, because I knew tomorrow was quickly approaching.

    Tomorrow it was going to be 5 years since my baby girl’s been gone, and it’s a hard time for me every year. If she was still here, she would’ve been 9. I could’ve still been walking her to class every morning, tucking her in bed every night.. all that.

    I remember cooking for her and she would always be right by my side, watching my every move. She told me that she wanted to be a chef one day because she loved to help me cook. I didn’t think cooking was gay, I just said that shit cause I didn’t wanna explain the real reason. Ever since my baby passed, I gave that shit up.

    I missed her more than anything, and since she’s gone I don’t even know if I ever wanna have another child.

    “Kai?” Robyn sat up and held my face, breaking me out of my thoughts. She didn’t know the exact day my baby died, so of course she didn’t know what I was thinking about. I didn’t want to talk about it either. I need to text Kayla though, to see if she’s still coming with me and my moms.

    “Yea wassup?”

    “What you wanna do today?” She repeated, stroking my beard. It actually felt good.

    “Oh, it don’t matter babe. We can go have to the park or something it don’t gotta be nothing big.”

    “How about a picnic?” At first I was about to decline until I thought about it. That ain’t sound too bad.

    “Yea, that sound chill. Go pack some shit and I’ll get everything else.” I told her as she nodded and made her way to the kitchen. She better not pack no vegetables and shit. I was cool with fruit.

    The sound of my phone vibrating had broke me out of my thoughts. It was Kayla.. my assistant.

    Assistant🤞🏾: everything’s set for the week, thank me later 😊 ungrateful bastard

    I huffed at the last part of her message. She was forever complaining about how I don’t appreciate her enough. I thanked her  lil annoying ass every second of the day.

    Me: you still going wit me & my mama to see baby girl?

    Assistant🤞🏾: duh Kai.. don’t forget she was my baby too.

    Not wanting to argue with her, I left it at that and just went on about my day. Going to the hall closet, I got out two small and old blankets that Robyn and I could use.

    Once I was done, I went in the kitchen to see her leaning on the counter scrolling through her phone. Her booty was poking out of her shorts and I had to get her.

    “Let’s go!” I yelled as I sent a hard slap to her ass causing her to jump up immediately. “Kai! Ouch!” She dramatically whined.

    “You’ll be aight.” I laughed as I rubbed the spot for her, as she led the way out of my house. I noticed that she had caught an attitude so I was literally about to kiss her ass.

    Getting on my knees, I wrapped my arms around her waist so she could stop walking. I gently kissed the spot that I hit before standing back up. “Happy now?” I asked as she nodded with a smile.

    Shaking my head at her fake attitude, I opened the car door for her as I made sure she got in and put on her seat belt. After getting in myself, I started the car and followed the directions that she had put on my phone.

    Cause I Love You by Lenny Williams was softly playing on the radio and I had seen Robyn turn it up. “What you know about that? That’s grown folk music.” I smiled at her as she waved me off.

    “Boy I grew up on this music. This is the jam.” She said as I nodded in agreement. Ain’t nothing like that good old school music. You could never go wrong with it, it was good for the soul. I liked our generation of music too, but I was more of an old soul.

    “I love youuuuuuu.” I sang to Robyn as I gripped her thigh while I drove. She covered her ears and shook her head no.

    “You sound like a dying lizard.” She busted up laughing, as I couldn’t help but smile. She was forever talking shit about ya boy.

    I looked over at the short shorts she was wearing, but I didn’t mind. I felt like since it was her body, I couldn’t tell her what to do with it. If she look good in the shit, why would I tell her to take it off? Just know if a nigga look, I’m cutting his eyes out.

    Once we reached the park, I shut the car off and grabbed the basket as she grabbed the old blankets. We had walked up to the hill that Robyn told me about and it was as dope as she described. Some serious brainstorming could be done up here.

    “Robyn this all you brought?” I asked as I sat everything on top of the blankets she had put down.

    “Yes babe, I told you I’m trying to go vegan.” She smiled confidently. This girl..

    “Why you ain’t pack nun’ for me then?”

    “Cause then I would’ve asked for some, I’m sorry.” She apologized as her face twisted up into a frown.

    “You just too cute. You ain’t gotta apologize, I guess I’ll just be healthy with you.” I said as I popped a grape tomato in my mouth. Which was a stupid thing to do by the way, cause I fucking hated tomatoes.

    “How you know about this view?”

    “My daddy used to take me up here all the time and read me his little poems.” She smiled as she looked off into space.

    I took that as my time to let her do her and enjoy the view myself. I had to get a picture of this shit though. Just imagine it at night when you can see the stars and shit.

    Putting my phone away, I decided to just admire the sunset and my girl’s presence. I tried not to think about the fact that these mosquitoes were tearing a nigga up.

    Some Marvin Gaye was playing from her Beats Pill, and I ain’t know about her but that shit was making me horny. The way the sun bounced off of her toffee colored, smooth, freshly shaved legs.. the way her ass say gently onto the ground. The way her natural beauty stood out on her bare face. I could go on.

    “Why’re you staring like I’m not yours?” She smiled, looking over at me. Damn she was beautiful.

    Not wanting to reply to that, I grabbed her hand and interlocked my fingers with hers, lightly squeezing her dainty hand. Her hand felt like butter and shit. Her whole body felt like it, to be honest.

    She had let go of my hand and grabbed it, which broke me out of my thoughts. I was about to ask what she was doing until she shushed me before smirking.

    Her hand slowly guided mines from her small perky breasts down to the band of her shorts.

    “I like how you trying to be sexy and shit, but we gotta speed this up before a bear pop out and eat both of our asses up.”

    I told her as we both busted out laughing but I was lowkey dead ass.


    You seen Robyn? Her ass been ducked off.“

    "Fuck that hoe.” I mumbled only loud enough for myself to hear. It’s crazy how people do you.


    “Nothing man, I'ma bounce.” I said, and with that I dipped. I wasn’t in the mood to talk about her fake ass right now.

    First of all, she cut me off out of no where and to be honest, that actually hurt the little bit of feelings that I did have left. She ain’t say why or nothing.

    I’m thinking that maybe her phone was broken or whatever, so I thought she hadn’t forgot about my event and was still coming. Boy was I wrong. She had me looking hella stupid.


    Everyone was here, but Robyn. She was supposed to be like the first person here, but here we are.. 3 hours later and she a no show. This event was about to be over in a few minutes.

    Once I thanked everyone for coming, people were starting to leave so I took that as my time to hit her up again hoping that she had a good excuse. She better have had the bubble guts or got shot or some shit.

    Calling her for like the 100th time, her phone had went to voicemail. “You good?” Odell asked as he noticed the frustration on my face. I couldn’t tell him that I was pissed because his sister ain’t show up. He’d think we fuck with each other.

    “Ion wanna talk about it..” I told him as I walked away and sat outside on the steps. I had on a maroon suit and Robyn was supposed to have on the sparkly maroon gown that she made specifically for this night. She wouldn’t stop talking about how she couldn’t wait for me to see it. A nigga was actually excited to see it, too.

    I really couldn’t believe this motherfucker.  She could’ve at least called in advance and let me know. I wouldn’t even have been mad, but to stand me up? She got me hella fucked up.

    After a while, a car pulled up a few feet away from me making me look up. When the door opened, there appeared a tipsy Robyn wiping her mouth. I then started to put the pieces together when her nigga or whatever was zipping up his pants. Why did she even bring this clown? Now I was really pissed.

    I thought they were about to come inside of the building, but they went the opposite way to the hotel next door. So she blew me off to suck some dick? She could’ve did that earlier. It couldn’t wait?

    “I swear as soon as bitches get dick that’s all they see, think, smell, and breathe.” I mumbled to myself as I pulled out my phone to check my messages.

    That familiar scent that I loved so much had caught my attention. I looked over and noticed that Robyn had went back to the car to get something. I took that as my que to speak to her.

    “So you really stood me up for some dick, Robyn?” I stood behind her as she jumped at the sound of my voice. She slowly turned around and blinked. She sobered up real quick.

    “Jaylen, you were constantly touching on me, flirting and all that and you knew I had a boyfriend. You even told him about the little event that we had, which caused him not to like you. If it was the other way around, I would tell him to cut off a girl that’s constantly stepping out of the friendship boundaries as well.”

    “Ok and instead of cutting a nigga off, you could’ve fucking told me to chill. Its cool though, cause I see that he more important than me. Even though I was here for you before him. I see where your loyalty lies Rob.” I chuckled bitterly.


    “You ain’t even gotta apologize to cause you know you ain’t even sorry.” And with that, I walked away.

    *Flashback Over*

    That was the last time I heard from her trifling ass, which was a couple of weeks ago. Unfortunately, I needed to talk to her just for a second cause I think I left my watch in her room the last time I was there. Now I was wishing that Winter liked me, cause I could just tell her to get it. Oh well, here goes nothing.

    Sucking my teeth, I pulled out my phone and dialed her number since it wasn’t saved anymore. After a few rings she answered. “Yo,” I heard a male voice, which made me think I had the wrong number but it couldn’t be.

    “Where Robyn at?” I asked blankly. He started to laugh, which confused me.

    “I know this ain’t who I think it is..”

    “Nigga you guessed it. Now put her on the phone, I ain’t call to catch up on old times and shit. Time is ticking.”

    “Nah she occupied wit my dick right now.”

    “Aight, well can you put it on speaker?” I asked, waiting for him to stop bullshitting. I didn’t care about all that extra shit, I just wanted my watch honestly.

    Next thing I know, the phone had hung up making me suck my teeth. I guess I would just have to go over to O’s place my damn self.

    Grabbing a condom or two, I slid them in my wallet before sliding it in my back pocket. Once I stepped into my shoes, I grabbed my car keys and went next door.

    It was quiet in here so I was hoping that Robyn wasn’t here. That way I could just get my watch and leave. When I walked into Robyn’s room, there she was on the bed laid up with Kyle. Cuties.

    “Yo-” I cut off his attempt to start ranting. He could never chill, like dude ain’t nobody even worried about yo funky ass.

    “Nigga chill out ain’t nobody checking for yo nut head ass girlfriend, I came to get my rollie.” I waved him off as I went to the closet and grabbed the duffle bag I had left over here for decades.

    They had went back to ignoring my presence but when I started to walk out, I threw some water onto her bed to where it got on both of them. Her nigga immediately got up and I dashed off, laughing my ass off. You would’ve thought that I was Jesse Owens.

    I knew her nigga stayed strapped, but I just liked fucking with him. He got so mad over shit and it was mad funny. I could tell he really ain’t like but I ain’t give a fuck.

    Once I was back in my crib, I unzipped the duffle bag and my watch was right at the top. I was only going to the store to get more paint but I still needed to look good. You never knew who you were going to see.

    Since I only lived on the second floor, it took a few seconds for me to get off of the elevator. When I got to the parking lot, I unlocked my car with the button on my keys and got in. The first thing I did was put on my seatbelt, safety first.

    Michael’s was literally a 5 minute drive since it was around the corner. With the way my speeding skills were set up, I was there in no time.

    As I went to the aisle with paint, I noticed a petite light skin girl trying to reach for something. She had on a shirt with a little girl that read RIP. The girl looked like her too.. damn.

    I heard some stuff fall which broke me out of my thoughts. She was struggling over there. “I got it. What you need?” I assured her as I walked over to her. She looked at me confusingly before speaking.

    “The lavender paint. I don’t know why they put it at the top today. The pastel colors go at the bottom.” She said as she started to pick up the things she dropped. I noticed that it looked like she had been crying, but I ain’t wanna get all in her business.  

    “Here you go..” I handed her the paint as she just stood there staring at me like she was thinking about something. She was looking at me like I was a piece of meat.

    “I.. My bad. Thank you.” She said lowly as she took the paint from by hand. I chuckled because I could tell that was nervous as fuck.

    “Need anything else?”


    “I needed that, I haven’t had sex in years.” She caught her breath as she took her hair out of the ponytail that it was in, letting it flow down her back. I had been pulling on that shit for the longest.

    Long story short, she told me that she just wanted to do something to take her mind off of whatever she was sad about. We went back to my place, and y'all know how that go. I ain’t think she had it in her.

    We talked for a bit, ended up drinking way more than what we was supposed to, then had sex. It’s been a minute for me, so I was geeked about that.

    She never told me what she was crying about, but I got some pussy instead so I wasn’t tripping. “Why is that?” She shrugged. She started to put back on her clothes.

    “I’m gonna go though, bye..-” I stopped her then remembered we never exchanged names. I mean it really wasn’t important, it’s not like I'ma ever see this girl again.


    “Kayla.” She smiled weakly before leaving out of the room. I heard my front door slam shut, so I took that as my time to get up and get in the shower.

    Washing my body and hair for about 30 minutes, I finally stepped out and just threw some shorts and a plain white tee on. I was only going to O’s house. I guess that was the spot for tonight.

    Lacing up my vans, I made sure everything was turned off before leaving and going next door. When I walked in, I seen O and Winter playing Uno.

    “I got a blunt.” I called out as I seen Winter smile. Now she was trying to be my friend. Pulling the blunt and lighter out of my pocket, I took a seat at the table where they sat.

    Once it was lit, I started to take a few hits before feeling buzzed. Winter had reached her hand out making me laugh. Fuck her, I just remembered all the times she put her hands on me.

    “Get Out the way, tranny.” I said as I playfully pushed her out the way. I knew she’d curse my ass out, but it was funny every time. I loved fucking wit her. All bullshit aside, she was the homie though.

    “Look here Banana bitch, I’m warning you now.. I will fuck you up today.” She threatened as I tried my best to hold in my laughter.

    “Jay, why you always fucking wit my girl? One day she gone fuck you up and I even ain’t gone say nun’.” O chuckled as he wrapped his arm around her. She stuck her tongue out at me and I flicked her off. I swear if Winter was my girl, I’d have her in check fuck that attitude shit. He be letting her punk him.

    “Here..” I gave the weed to O. Winter scoffed. I knew he couldn’t smoke since Football but I was trying to make her mad.

    “Why didn’t you pass it to m-”

    “Cause nobody like y-” I started to say before her hand came in contact with the back of my neck. This hoe.

    “I got my own weed from back home anyways fuck that weak ass corn you got.” She rolled her eyes as she got up to go in O’s room. She always felt the need to let everybody know that she got her weed from Jamaica. She need to take her ass back, don’t nobody care.

    “Corn? Girl please.” I waved her off. Now she was just saying shit just to say it.

    “Y'all argue too much.”

    “That’s her, she can’t ever take a joke.”

    “Cause you not fucking funny nigga. You swear you Kat Williams wit your ugly ass.” She rolled her eyes. I really tried to hold in my laughter, cause I ain’t want her mad ass to explode on me but this shit was funny.

    “You know who funny? You are. You funny as shit. HAHAHA.” I draped my arm across her shoulder as she quickly pushed it off with a mug on her face.

    “I’m going to sleep, you’re aggravating.” She waved me off as she put her head down on the table, putting her damn stale ass ends on my plate in he process.

    “I love you.” I teased her, only for her to ignore me. She was really pissed off.

    I was about to speak until I seen Robyn come down the stairs with Kangaroo. She really cut me off for this hairy nigga.

    “You let her have company?”

    “Yea.. I trust her.” He shrugged as I sucked my teeth. But if it was me, he wouldn’t condone that shit.

    I’m guessing her nigga had left, because she came back and started small talk with Odell.

    I tried my best to ignore her like she been doing me but she had a nigga beat. I was still putting in effort to ignore her every move and gon’ about my business but, shit. She was breath taking, I glanced at her with the quickness and froze when we locked eyes.

    She looked away but I pulled some Kanye shit and kept looking to make her feel uncomfortable and I succeeded. Her conversation with O was cut short, she rubbed the back of her neck nervously and headed towards the bathroom, a few steps away from the kitchen where I was. I gave it a few seconds before I headed that way, to make it really seem like I had to piss.

    I heard her talking to herself softly before I opened the door, of course Robyn ain’t lock the damn door. She jumped and I put my hands up in surrender. “It’s only me.”

    “Jaylen, you scared the shit outta me.” she said, holding her heart. Her chest heaving up and down. Damn, I really scared her.

    “I hope you flushed.” I joked but she ain’t catch it. I smiled nervously and she smirked. “Anyway, I ain’t know you was still in here. My bad.” I tried to guilt trip her into talking to me. Drastic times, drastic measures. I started making my way out and her voice stopped me.

    “It’s okay.” she said softly. She wanted to talk to me but it was something or someone holding her back.

    “We grown, we ain’t kids. This nigga tell you to stop fuckin’ wit’ me?” I mumbled with a slight frown.

    “Yeah.” she mumbled lowly.

    “I respect that.” I said to her surprise and mine…I meant it though.

    “You do?” I nodded. “I woulda respected the situation even more if you woulda hit my line and told me where we stood. I was thinking we was cool during the finals. You up and left a nigga like KD did Westbrook and ain’t say shit.”

    The basketball reference must’ve confused her because her eyebrows came together.

    “You just cut me off like I was dead weight. Like it won’t shit for you to leave me alone.”

    “I do miss us being friends. Kai don’t though.”

    I rolled my eyes. So this nigga the reason why she missed my event? Rob ain’t known for breaking promises so I know she ain’t do that shit by free will.

    “We friends. This nigga won you at an auction or sum'n? You his property? He fuckin’ you?” I asked, not really wanting to know the answer. Knowing Rob’s curious ass, she probably turnt the hell out already.

    “Friends don’t look at each other the way you look at me and touch me, and talk to me. He felt some type of way.”

    “Nigga, pineapples. Create a fuckin’ safe word, you had me out here lookin’ stupid at my event. Where’s Rob? You seen Rob?” I imitated my head ass emotions. “I ain’t doing shit on purpose, you fine and sometimes I can’t-”

    “See. Friends don’t call each other fine.”

    “Man, shit. You pretty, far from ugly. Name one nigga who wouldn’t tell you that every chance he could.”

    She couldn’t.

    “Exactly. Look, I’ll stop the flirting. We could be strictly friends, you know I ain’t got much other than O and big head ass Winter. I told you some dark shit and you up and left wit’ it.”

    “Sorry, I should’ve said something.” she said. “Sorry, you’re right. How was your event?”

    “My fleeky bestie wasn’t there to match my fly. It was cool though, killed it by myself.”

    “Happy for you.” she said. And then it dawned on me, he told her to stop talking to me but we see who got the upper hand. We having a whole ass conversation in the bathroom. Nigga nowhere to be found.

    “Wait. We talking, you gon’ make sure thuggish-ruggish bone ass Kenny don’t pop the trunk on my bitch ass?” I said in air-quotes, mocking and quoting him from that one altercation. Nigga thought he was tough. My skinny ass could murk him in two licks AND walk away with his bitch.

    “I told him we were just friends. I’ll make sure he doesn’t try shit.”

    “Shit, I’ll make sure he don’t try shit. Fuck him.” I spat and she shook her head.

    “Jealous ass.”

    “I got a right to be.”

    “You started it. How I let you eat and you go in for seconds on the same night with a random?”

    “She ain’t random, we know her very well.”

    “Nigga…okay, I’m going upstairs.”

    “I’m playin’, Rob. Good talk, though.”

    “Yeah, cool ass. Let’s try this again when you ain’t on 10.” she smiled cutely and I mirrored it.

    “I'ma chill out.” I semi-promised. I'ma try to at least so we could be on good terms. She my only real friend.

    “Kay. I know you didn’t really have to use the bathroom, stalker.” I was about to respond and say something childish back, but I remembered that she never showed me the dress cause she didn’t show up.

    “Ay, you should show me that dress that you never got to wear.”

    “Oh yea.. I did tell you I’d show you. Come on.” She grabbed my hand in excitement and quickly led the way to her room. I missed our friendship and I wasn’t letting nobody come in between that shit this time. Kai who?

    Read It Wednesday

    Welcome to week 14! A day late, sadly, hope you can forgive me. Please note that Drabbles are no longer included in Read it Wednesday. Also note that if you don’t see a series here, it means I’m behind on reading, but once I catch up you can be on the lookout for it here! This week is a little shorter but I tried to include at least one fic from everyone who tagged me. Alright, here’s this weeks compilation of fics!

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    Artist appreciation day!

    Augh so my internet was down all day, so I didn’t get a chance to get this post going until too late (it’s almost 1 am now) but I love all my fellow snk artists and wanna do some shoutouts!

    @alinajames - I love you girl, thank you for drawing the best Reiner I’ve ever seen in my life, wonderful reibert, and amazing gallirei. Everything I see of yours brings a big smile to my face!! <3 <3 <3

    @from-armin-to-z - adorable Reiberts, ahhhhh!! your ideas are always so creative and I love seeing your improvement over the years

    @sookashira - Such a cute style!! I love the way you draw all the characters, especially bertolt <3

    @bear-tholdt - speaking of someone with an adorable style!! Your reibert pieces have always been so wonderful. I love your use of color, how nice and funny your pics are. You’ve been an inspiration for me from the beginning. <3 Nurse pals

    @oeilvert - Great work, awesome hange, and moblit too. I always admire how easy and effortless your figures look, your clean lines, and expressiveness in your work.

    @alemanriq - Ahhh your art is so good! LeviHan and otherwise, I love the way you use color and again, such nice ideas. <3

    @zzz5011 - AUGH SO GOOD. Perfect linework, super awesome dynamic pictures and poses, I really admire your art! Please keep the reibert flame alive!

    @hrhase - Your twitter sketches kill me everytime. Thank you for spreading the love around to lots of different characters, and always drawing fun and interesting scenes. Also draws a great Reiner, ahhh

    @usnk-ussk - Gorgeous, unique reibert artwork. I could stare at their pieces all day.

    @nenekantoku - Can’t pass you up Nene, you’ve been a big inspiration for me over this past year. I love the way you draw anything, but Reiner and Bert will always look best to me in your style.

    @whalessong2 - again beautiful reibert work, I’m so happy you’ve started to post some more on twitter. ;-;

    @melsnoodles - dude, you can draw more reibert any day of the week. :) Your sense of humor is fantastic and on point, too

    @suits-neechan - speaking of a great sense of humor, I just love your reibert comics. You’re fucking hilarious and I love seeing your art!!


    - Andy!! I love how clean and beautiful your lines are, and you’ve got so many amazing ideas. Please keep drawing, especially the reibert!

    @rico-aot - I need to buy your doujins! I love your reibert work, it’s always so expressive and beautiful ;-;

    @tycheh - Great painterly style! The reiner and bertolt stuff you were producing during S2 was rocking my world so hard! Please paint more!!

    @inktamer7 - You can tell you’ve had so much training as an artist. Your Reibert pieces are so detailed and beautiful, I could stare for hours at your linework. Looking forward to your Reibert week submission!! It’s going to be amazing!

    @lyferie - Your art is so soft and lovely, cute beruanis and reiner thrown in here and there. I think your color work is gorgeous!

    @redcoaster - Holy shit, I’m so impressed by your anatomy and draftsmanship. Your thirst for rogue titan is also very admirable ;)))

    @lampurpleart - Purple your work is so nice!! Your paintings and color usage are just fantastic. We still gotta draw chibis together one day!

    EDIT I FORGOT @nelldya HOW DARE I LOVE YOUR REIBERT ARTWORK AHHHHHH it’s so damn cute and also fantastic. <3

    EDIT AGAIN I FORGOT @lupotterdraws HI!! I can’t believe I forgot you, your Reiner pictures have killed me multiple times, and you draw such a great Levi squad. ;-;

    I’m sure I’ve missed some folks, but wow, there’s just so many nice and amazing artists in the snk fandom. I can’t give enough love to all of you. <3