there now you know which one i am

Dear North Shore Students,

For now I will not mention my name, but I would like to address the rumours being held to my name. I consider myself to be a respected member of the North Shore community, however recently I have committed acts which even I cannot deny are vilely wrong. I am the one who attacked Luke Warner and I have no defense for that, apart from pure rage. I beat him with a baseball bat. I kicked him. I laughed. I am not proud to put my name to it.

It took me a while to realise that I hated myself with a passion for performing such a terrible act, but as you know so many of you wanted revenge for Luke and I wasn’t willing to tarnish my name. I give you permission now to go ahead and hate me in anyway necessary.

I have another thing to confess, one that I know you will all be shocked and revolted to hear of. It frightens me to this day to know I am capable of such a horrid act, and I have carried it heavily in my heart for all this time. At the end of finals party last year I raped Holly Benson. That is why she hates me with a passion and I can’t blame her for it. She has good reason to hate me. I have had so much hatred thrust upon me that I can’t help but pass it out to others.

When you finally read this letter I will be long gone, I don’t expect to ever gain your forgiveness, so I have done what I do best, turned to my Dad for help. Don’t come looking for me, it’s too late.


Alexander Mercier

@hibikitikibi thank you so much for tagging me!

Rules: Answer the questions and tag 15 blogs you want to get to know better.

Nicknames: Leafy by people on the internet! I also had some college friends who would call me Hays, which was really cute!
Star Sign: Gemini
Height: 5′4
Time right now: 1:20 am
Last thing I googled: Ummm I’m not actually sure, probably something to do with flight rising
Last movie I watched: I think it was the Trolls movie with one of my friends, and boy let me tell you, that was. A wild ride
Last TV show I watched: Modern family
When I created this blog?: only about a year and a half!
Why did I choose my URL?: I felt like changing my url for a bit, and I really like togedemaru and saying uwu. I’ll probably go back to leafy-yawn eventually!
Gender: Im a gal
Hogwarts house: Every single online quiz I’ve ever taken has placed me in Hufflepuff (which just so happens to be the best house!)
Pokemon team: My go to sumo team is Weesnaw (mudsdale), Etsy (comfey), Friendlyfire (toucannon), Roly Poly (togedemaru), Adeline (salazzle), and Bwark!? (primarina)
Favorite color: pink! I also love green
Lucky number: 420
Favorite character: man you can’t make me choose like this!
Number of blankets I sleep with: 1 or 2, depending on how cold it is
Name: Hayley
Birthday: June 19
Relationship status: single
Chinese zodiac: monkey
Siblings: none, unfortunately
Favorite Smell: Honeysuckle
Pets: 2 kittoes, a pupper, and a horsie (that thankfully does not live in our house uwu)
Wake-up: 8 or 9
Sleep: 12-2
Type of Phone: iPhone 6
Love or Lust: I am very into platonic love
Lemonade or Iced Tea: iced tea!
Cats or doggos: booooooth!
Coke or Pepsi: I’m not a big soda drinker, but I prefer coke
Day or Night: I like things about both of them
Text or Call: Text
Make up or Natural: Natual. I used to wear makeup almost every day, but now I only wear it very occasionally
Met a celebrity: I probably have, i just can’t remember any instances
Smile or Eyes: I do have both
Light or Dark hair: dark hair
Shorter or taller: Taller!
Intelligence or attraction: both.
Chapstick or lipstick: chapstick
City or Country: I like to live in the city and visit the country
Last Song I listened to: uhhh whatever was playing on the radio
Fruits or Veggies: fruit! I do like veggies too
Anime or Cartoons: probably cartoons. I still like anime, but lately it’s been harder to find ones that capture my interest
Phone case: Otterbox. I definitely need a heavy duty case because I tend to accidentally throw my phone every
Showers or Baths: Showers
Dream Job: I’ve always wanted to work on video games! I don’t know anything about coding though.
Milk and Cookies or Donuts and Coffee: milk and cookies! Man, now I really want some ;w;

15 people I want to get to know better: @sinnamonroll @spoonmorty @relmril-fr @lillies-giveaways @gerudothief @sexodia-starbone @leafeon @fireflarepix @meme-team-risk-analyst @bloodwritesflight @phantumpoftheopera @boo2dalu @thekeepersfirst @tinytheursaring @witchyginger @bluemoonlightgiveaways @wurmplewonders @duckgiveaways @orasgiveaways (sorry if you didn’t get tagged, I just picked the first mutuals that came to mind!)

ok not to start anything but as a big bang stan since the beginning, i’m not that offended by bts using the no signal screen. no, big bang did not create it, obviously BUT i am offended that they used the same sequence as seunghyun and?? i actually hold that very dear to me since he is now enlisted. i honestly am also very mad at army’s because, we all know if someone “copied” bts more then half of y'all would loose your shit so why are you telling vip’s to calm down? let us be upset, let us ask for an apology. as long as no one is sending bts death threats (which i haven’t seen but i haven’t really been looking), then please leave us be. also, i am very disappointed that the people who planned the stage used the screen, i’m not that disappointed with bts (even though i kinda am, i mean.. as a big bang fan jungkook should’ve been like ‘yo, that’s seunghyun’s iconic thing, we should maybe try smth else’ but! it is the kmusic industry and he would have probably got into trouble for that), the stage people should have known better then to give that to bts.

One of the new professors at my school started a knitting club and will teach anyone who wants to learn but right now I’m the only other person in this entire school who knows how to knit. 

So now I have all these baby knitters wandering up to me in the hallways and between class and in the lab, wanting me to check their stitches and tension and wanting reassurance. 

Which is adorable but maybe not when I am literally holding a human heart in my hand? 

Lettering tips

I did a thing! :D It’s been ages since I made some sort of a lettering tips/tutorial (it was just an answered ask and it was pretty bad tbh), so I thought I‘d make a new one. Nothing too complicated, just filling more pages in my bullet journal :).

Now, these are tips that I sort of discovered myself and am using now, which doesn’t mean that you have to! I did not include the “double the downstroke” which we all sort of know, rather I concentrated more on the letter heights, which was a big problem for me when I started with lettering. Well, hope you find it at  least a bit helpful :D

“When the world falls down around you and hope is lost, when you find yourself alone amid a lightless place, look to the distance - know that I am there, and that I watch over you, always”

That scene in FFXV reminded me of these two. RWBY Volume 4 ended and now can’t wait for Volume 5. The flowers are Forget-Me-Nots which seemed appropriate.

One more day before Valentines!


I’m selling my Yuri!!! On Ice paintings!

They are watercolor and ink paintings, each about 9″ x 12″ n sturdy watercolor paper. I am selling them right now because perhaps they would make a fun gift for a friend this holiday season! Or TREAT YO’ SELF!

Each painting is $25, except the paintings of Yuuri only and Viktor only (These are $20). Shipping is an additional $3-$5, depending on your location (I will do international shipping!) Paypal money ONLY**

If you are interested, first off–THANK YOU! Yuri!!! on Ice is the little show that could, and has inspired me beyond belief in its run. Send me a message to my inbox, letting me know which one(s) you would like to have! Here is a list:

-Eros Yuuri 

-Viktor and Yuuri busts

-Takoyaki Date

-Skating Viktor

-Ramen Date

-“Be My Coach”

-Silver Medal

-Viktor/Yuri Banquet Dancing

-Viktor/Yuri with Flower Bouquet

-Coffee & Tea Date

Thank you very much, you guys!! You set my heart on fire! Hehe :)


it occurred to me tonight that…none of you know what I look like. which weirds me out a bit? I rant a lot on this blog and talk to quite a few of you and none of you have seen my face (except becca and jayne cause they’re stuck on this island with me) soooo here are two pictures of me awkwardly smiling after my cousins wedding. goodnight friends 🐢
(please do not re/bl0g)

That was anticlimactic

For context: We were playing lost mines, finally coming around to our last session. Earlier in the campaign, we made a bargain for an NPC’s (Gundren) life, in which he loses his tounge. We are now in the middle of a combat we don’t know is actually the final one.

DM: “Your crossbow bolt lands in blackspider’s eye with a splat, killing him. The spiders in the room curl up and die, and you see a door behind his chair.”

Me: :Let’s check it out"

In the room we found a bound up dwarf and some treasures. When we speak to him, our situation becomes readily apparent

Dm as Nundro: “Thank you travelers, I am Nundro rockseeker”

Me: “Didn’t we know a rockseeker?”

Nundro: “That would be my brother, he sent you here to save me, no?”

I proceed to blow up in laughter as the DM explains what happened. Because of our little deal, and then just sending Gundren away, we never should’ve found out about wave echo cave, but stumbled upon it through a series of luck rolls

DM (ooc): “So you basically stopped the bad guy, saved the town, and reunited the brothers all by chance, without actually knowing that any of these things existed.”

Nundro: “I will be glad to speak with my brother again.”

Druid: “I think you might find you’ll have trouble doing that anytime soon.”



I thought this was going to take way longer than it did, whups. May as well just have rolled this into my last post, but, oh well! 

I am 99% sure that I replaced all the necessary textures for these skins, but if any of you guys notice anything don’t hesitate to let me know. 

Summer Skeletons V2

Comes in the original options of shiny or matte, pick only one. Bodies are entirely EA except for the butts, which use Lumia’s smooth butts texture.


Nature Boy

Comes in the same body options as the original set, pick only one. The SSv2 body is EA except for the butt, and the Noodle body has Noodle’s collarbones and belly button, as well as Lumia’s smooth butts texture.




The joys of playing support

This was the most marvelous game I ever played. Dorado Defense, one kid on my team had been going on about his “Noob team” (which was great btw) for a while now, spewing insults, you know acting like he came right from a call of duty session.

I suggested he chill. He suggested I drink bleach.

I could have muted him. I could have blocked him. I could have sent a report. But as the lone Mercy, there was only one thing that I would do.

Take him off heals of course.

I healed everyone else. Sometimes I’d stand next to him when he was at critical health and healed the person at full health by his side.

Halfway through the game he started begging.

I’ve gained twenty years to my life from the frantic “MERRCY PLZZZ” that I got.

I had half a mind to make him beg for my forgiveness, but I was busy keeping the rest of the team alive.

He forgot the one lesson of any multiplayer game.

Do not annoy the healer.

This has been hanging out on my computer for who knows how long so I thought I’d post it. I’ve been thinking about streaming while I paint. I wonder if anyone would be interested in watching?

1/11/17 Good news, everyone! 

You remember how I’m always talking about how I want to get a time machine so I can go back to the 1800s and join that one fencing society where everyone wears a fencing mask with holes over the cheeks so you can get a dashing scar with which to impress romantic prospects?

And also remember how there was a feral cat inside the roof and we didn’t know how to get him down?

Well, there is no longer a cat in the roof and I no longer need a time machine to acquire a dashing facial scar! I am so dashing right now, you would not believe it. So very, very dashing. Dashing smells like bactine!

Since he was forcibly removed from the premises, The Small Grey Lump That Goes Meow has been staaaaaring sadly in the window at us, hoping fortune will smile upon him and he will someday return to the Safe Warm Place With Hot And Cold Running Rodent Supply. (Except they stop running when you bite them.)

Cassian Andor’s heartbreaking playlist THANKS SPOTIFY

So pretty much everyone knows by now that Star Wars made playlists for the Rogue One characters and they’re incredible and the WORST bc they give some really emotional insights to the rebels okay, and anyway I made some excerpts of songs from Cassian’s playlist, which you can listen to on Spotify. These quotes were the ones that made me look through a rainy window for half an hour anyway

(Here’s my Jyn post :P)

Just a sidenote, whoever put THIS song on the playlist is going directly to hell:

Anyway Cassian has so much more depth now, and bruh he loved Jyn sm I am ….. distraught 


Alright sit your butts down, ladies, gentlemen, and all other configurations of being. I’m about to tell you why this latest episode of Steven Universe turned Pearl from probably my least favorite character in the show to one of my favorite characters of anything.

So now that we know that Pearls are mass produced on Homeworld, we know that Pearls are also seen as nothing more than servants. And this fact has made me go from hating Pearl to loving her,

We don’t know how long Pearl was on homeworld, I assume a few thousand years. And she was in this demographic that was seen as inferior. And you know how that happens in the real world. She was looked down on. She wasn’t allowed to excel at anything. She was nothing more than a tool and if she DARES to be anything more than that, she’s a defective threat. This was her LIFE. 

And then she comes to earth, and serves under Rose Quartz. A woman who lets her be more than “just a pearl”. She learns sword fighting. She learns spear fighting. She learns all these things and does all these things that she previously wasn’t allowed to back on homeworld. And for once, she actually feels like she’s worth something. Like she’s proving to all those people who called her “just a pearl” that she’s MORE than a pearl.

And then it all goes to her head. 

She wins the war. She’s proven herself. And now she’s so high on self esteem, something she usually doesn’t have, that she becomes the very person who looked down on her.

She becomes the person who look down on others. 

“You’re a human. You’re a novelty. At best.”

“Humans just lead insignificant lives until their ultimate demise.” 

She’s so used to being looked down on that she absolutely MUST be on top. And thats why she learns so many things and does everything she can to better herself. So she can continue being “more than a pearl.”

And whenever she’s proven wrong, whenever she’s beaten, or threatened, thats when her defenses kick in. That feeling of being “just a pearl” starts flowing, and she’s so desperate to be “more than a pearl” that she gets mean. Rude. Condescending. 

Thats why she hated Greg so much at first. He was taking the one person who believed in her and hogging her all to himself. He was being more to Rose than Pearl was. And she was feeling like “just a pearl” again. So she does whatever she can to fix that. 

She instead comes off as an egotistical bitch.

Then Steven happens. He’s sure of something. He just KNOWS he saw something in the warps. But Pearl knows better. He was seeing things. And than he suddenly says those magic words.

“You’re wrong.”

Whats this?! Pearl thinks. This LITTLE BOY think he knows more than ME?! This is UNNACCEPTABLE.

And she does it again. She refuses to be looked down upon so much that she starts looking down on others herself, and she ABSOLUTELY needs to be right. She desperately tries to prove to Steven that she is “more than a pearl”.

Again. She come off as an egotistical bitch.

Then. Sardonyx. She finally fuses Sardonyx. And thats the breaking point for Pearl. Pearl may have done everything she can to prove she’s “more than a pearl”, but while fusing Sardonyx, she feels something else.

She feel POWERFUL.

She has POWER.

She has a thing that NO OTHER PEARL HAS.

And she gets SO addicted to that power that made her feel superior to ANYTHING, that she wants more. She wants to feel that again. She doesn’t want to feel like “just a pearl” ever again. And she thinks Sardonyx can do that.

And then. She’s caught. Garnet is mad. The one person she doesn’t look down to is outright pissed. And Pearl KNOWS it’s because she FUCKED UP. And now she feel like “just a pearl” more than she has in thousands of years. And when she finally admits it, that she’s “just a pearl”, Garnet shuts her down. Shows her that she’s more than that. She’s her own person.

And now.

Now we have the best part.


Peridot comes in and outright says it.

You’re “just a pearl”

And this sets her off. She’s on the defensive again, and now she’s determined to prove herself again.

But this time it’s different. 

I’m not “More than a pearl”

I’m not “just a pearl”



…but she lost the fight. Peridot gets her way, proved to the others that she’s “just a pearl”

And best of all, it doesn’t matter. Steven and the other still came to HER, thinking no less of her. 

And now I think she’s realized that it just doesn’t matter. 

She’s not “just a pearl”

She’s not “more than a pearl”

She’s not “a pearl.”

She’s Pearl

And thats all that matters.


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art, art, art, arrrrrrt.  okay, i’m done.  except.  also.  y’know.  ART!

Lydia’s a study in disinterest.  Gaze stretching out across campus, lips pursed in judgment of the impromptu Frisbee match forming on the quad, position oriented to scarcely acknowledge that she’s standing with Stiles.

Stiles is tempted to tell her to drop the act because once obsession with someone has been coded into his DNA, there’s not so much as a micro-expression that he’s likely to miss.  He’s definitely already caught on to and catalogued the shrewdness that has been attacking her face all day.  She knows something but she doesn’t know what she knows and she’s been hawk-eyed and predatory ever since she figured out that much.

Stiles is not going to encourage any of that, thanks much.  Side note: why is everyone around him comparable to some type of bird?  Not that he’s thinking about hummingbirds, because he isn’t.  He could be, but he’s not, because he’s in control of his brain and he’s decided: no.  Crap.  Firstly, he’s totally thinking about hummingbirds.  Second-of-ly, what kind of bird would that make him?  Oh man, probably some kind of friggin’ goose.

He hates geese.

Now he knows it’s likely because he’s subconsciously recognized a kinship to them.

“If you had to pick a feathered representation for me, it wouldn’t be a goose, right?”

Years of following his bullet-speed trains of thought has led to Lydia taking that completely in stride.  She doesn’t even bother to look up at him, hand fishing in her purse for her phone to check the time.  “A seabird probably,” she offers, lighting up the screen, “they’re clumsy on land.”

“Well that’s a self-esteem boost I didn’t know I needed,” Stiles says dryly.  “You’re a true humanitarian, Lyds.  Also, the correct answer was secret option C) some kind of dinosaur.  I would’ve preferred stegosaurus, for the record.”

She brushes the hair out of her face, glances at him.  “I could have said a hoatzin.”

Stiles has legitimately no idea what that is.  “Th… anks?”  He thinks. Probably.

“More commonly known as stinkbirds.  You’re welcome,” she confirms.  Her gaze is less glancing, more stripping and Stiles pretends not to notice.  “Expert deflection, Stiles, truly.”  She golf claps mockingly and Stiles glares back at her.  “Now what are you deflecting?”

“If I tell you, they’ll revoke my ‘expert’ status,” Stiles points out smartly, “And rip up my ribbon.  I can’t have that, I’ve already put it in the family newsletter.”

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A fancomic of a fanfic based on an abridged series based on an anime based on a manga focused on a children’s cardgame…

If you like Abridged and/or thiefshipping, pleaseee read this fic! The writing is spot on and the humor is so amazing AAAAAAAHHH!

I remember people reblogging each chapter around on tumblr and I didn’t know what exactly it was, and it was getting closer to ending. So I decided to take a look, which was a mistake because now I had to wait for the last chapters to arrive (I binge-read it in one day) XD

And it was a really big surprise that this amazing author actually started chatting with me, and I couldn’t believe she likes my drawings! And I was and still am new to the fandom, and to find friends that are new as well is amazing.  So Nanners, I just want to say you’re an amazing person both as a writer and as a friend. I hope to see more of your amazing stories and keep bringing the feefs. Hope you like this comic! :D