there is no light at the end of the tunnel

May have shed a tear- proof of the light at the end of the tunnel of mental health- dealt with the ‘elephant in the room’ with class, love and humour. Good to have you back on our screens, lads! ❤️ xxx

anonymous asked:

(1/2) Hello! I was thinking about a few things pertaining to the shinigami and I was hoping for your opinion. Towards the end of the Green Witch Arc we see Sascha and Rudgar surprised that Ciel can see them until it's noted that it may be because he's got "one foot in the grave" due to his contract with Sebastian, or because of his lineage. If that's the case and humans can only really see shinigami in limited circumstances, why do you think normal humans could see Grell or Undertaker?

(2/2) Of course, this makes sense in regards to people being able to see Ronald on the Campania, but perhaps shinigami have different forms that they can appear in, and their default is unable to be seen by the average human until just before death? If so, do you think there would be more talk about seeing a person right before you die, and not just the “white light at the end of the tunnel”? 


My personal thoughts was that the shinigami can usually control if they can be seen by people or not. Grell was playing a part while with Madam Red and had no issues without being seen. The same is true with Undertaker, or even Ronald on Campania. All of them could have remained invisible to most people if they had chosen to do so. (Although, Campania might have been a different case since so many of the people were about to die. Even if Ronald had tried to remain invisible, there still might have been those who could have seen him because their own deaths were close.)

Unlike demons, a shinigami’s true form does appear to be human except for their eyes. While Grell was shown to be able to disguise her true appearance, it seems their ‘default’ look is human. It is likely similar to how they looked in life, although that is simply conjecture at this point.

As for people talking about seeing a person just before death - that could be the case in the Kuro universe. A person is dying surrounded by family and loved ones when they mention someone in a suit is standing by the foot of their bed. Their loved ones can’t see this person, but it is a shinigami there to collect their soul.

Of course, it does bring up the question of who can and cannot see a shinigami if they aren’t purposely making themselves visible. If it’s all due to lineage, then could Frances, Edward, or Lizzie possibly see a ‘hidden’ shinigami? Is this common for those with contracts, or is it only those near death? It’s hard to say at this point. Perhaps there will be more answers later.

I like your suggestion though about other people seeing a person just before death. It would make for an interesting story.

Thanks so much for writing! Have a lovely day!

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//20 Mar 2017//

finals aesthetic:

coffee shops, extra shots of espresso, favorite pens, revised notes on nice paper, well-used nubby eraser, soothing color schemes, the brightest highlighter you’ve ever used

For all of y’all taking finals this week, godspeed!!

You are love.
You are also heartbreak.

You are love because you made me feel a feeling I’ve never experienced before. Something so new.
You made me feel so calm when i had so much chaos going on in my mind. Every time i talked to you my soul just grew into something stronger. At some point, you were the only one I cared about, at some point you was the one floating thru my mind from 1am till 12pm.
I did everything in my power to make you happy and exposed myself to you. That everytime I saw you I was stuttering in my words and so nervous. You made me feel like I could face everything that was In my way. You gave me that positive mindset I was looking for all my life, that last piece of the puzzle I was looking for all my life. And It did actually fit perfect, connected.
Connected like our souls.
I lost myself way too much in your eyes, i saw paradises when I looked in your eyes. A sight of heaven.
We used to talk about the moon and found ourselves up in the sky. You shine like the stars. You were my light at the end of the tunnel. You made me feel like cold water on a summer day.
You made me feel like I was alive.
Endless conversations where once in my lifetime I didn’t feel useless. Made me feel like I was actually worth something. I can’t even remember the time where I wasn’t in love with you. I guess I’ve always been In love with you, even when I didn’t know you. You were the reason I wanted to wake up early in the morning, or not sleep at all.
Because reality became better than my dreams.
You changed my life so much and I forever owe you for that.

—  yungogsyd 

When I was born, my Grampy gave me the nickname “Penny”. Penny is me in my purest, most authentic form. On July 19th 2012, I lost my brother Miyagi to an inoperable brain tumor. He was 26. My brother and I were very close. We were only 2 years apart. I never thought of him as a separate person, but an extension of myself. He was my reflection. In his presence I was confident and always so sure… I was Penny. Since that day I have been incomplete, losing all direction and sense of self. Since that day I have been lost trying to find him… trying to find my way back to my self… back to Penny. I turn to writing as my form of therapy, but it’s never quite enough. I released 2 projects since then, but I wasn’t quite myself. I try to find my brother’s love in other men, but they never can compare. I try to get closer to my brother by doing different drugs, hoping that if I get high enough I can reach him, but they only take me further away. I distract myself with work, which buys me things I wish I could share with him. I distract myself with work, which causes stress I wish he were here to help me with. The presence of my daughter, my siblings, my parents… only make his absence more apparent. And so, I find myself taking trips, trying to escape any person, place or thing that is too familiar. Physical trips by car, by plane… Mental trips with controlled substances… Trips in solitude in hopes that the quiet will bring me and my brother back together. Through out these travels I’ve been keeping a record of my dreams, feelings and experiences in notebooks. I turned these notebooks into a MAP. a Movie (TRIP short film), an Album (TRIP) and a Poetry book (2fish) This map has been helping me navigate through my suffering, uncovering the righteous path that has been carved out before and for me… Helping me identify my pain and my mistakes so that I can move forward and reach my full potential and find the light at the end of the tunnel… My personal “hero’s journey". and although I am not there yet… I know I’m getting closer. This map was made by me, for me… but I feel obligated to share because I know that I am not alone in my suffering. If there’s one thing I’m sure of it’s that every single person on this planet is suffering. Not a single soul in this world is immune to the pain of losing someone they love. The reality of this life is, at some point we will all lose someone we love. In sharing this MAP, I hope to inspire others to be more present in the lives of the people they love. I hope this MAP encourages honesty, empathy and compassion. In sharing this MAP, I hope to inspire others to share their own mistakes, imperfections and fears… because I believe in doing so we can understand each other better and realize we are more alike than different. In sharing this MAP, I hope to inspire others to share their grief and pain because I believe suffering can be alleviated when we understand we are not going through any of it alone. - Jhené Aiko Efuru “Penny” Chilombo

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And… the stunt has been pulled. 

Two weeks ago, the opposition organized a national inquiry to find out how many people disapproved of what the government was trying to do (rewriting the constitution). The result was that 7M people voted in it, including Venezuelans all over the world, and said they rejected this completely.

Today, the “elections of the writers of the new constitution” were held, without having done the mandator inquiry the government was LEGALLY BOUND to hold first, to make sure that people wanted the constitution to be rewritten. The result? 8M voters, they said.

It sounds bad, right?

Only, it’s worse than you think.

Those 8M votes they claim they obtained are fake. False. Forged through every possible cheating process you can think of. As examples:

Dead people were signed up as current voters, despite having been inactive voters for YEARS.

People who hadn’t voted yet found that they apparently had already voted and the system refused to let them do it (their choice was made for them, basically).

Some people were actually going to vote, but there was nobody in the electoral centers. Not a soul. They couldn’t do anything.

There is ACTUAL FOOTAGE of people who got bribed through food into voting.

There are a gazillion reports of threats from the government to all state workers to not only vote in these elections, but to bring 9 other people with them so that they could have all the votes they wanted.

Also, some people were protesting against the process: 17 people were killed in a single day for not wanting this dictatorship.

So, turns out that when you take all this into consideration, you realize those 8M votes are actually sketchy as hell. But if we want to see something even better, the contrast between a 7M inquiry and 8M election is as follows:

Here we have a picture from 2 weeks ago, 7M inquiry:

This was the line today, around the same area, 8M for elections:

And this didn’t just happen in a single, isolated location. No, it happened everywhere. The vast majority stood their ground, workers didn’t vote despite all the threats… and yet these guys miraculously found 8 million votes?

Simply put, it’s the proof nobody else needed anymore of how rigged the system is. But it’s tragic, and dangerous, because of what they’re likely to do with these fake results. There seriously is no telling what they’ll do if they keep pushing their tampered results as what really happened.

I keep saying pessimistic things about how I don’t know what will happen and if I’ll still be able to be as leisurely and happy online as I usually am. This though… it’s an actual dictatorship, in the flesh. It’s autocracy. They’re not holding back at all. And if they keep limiting our freedom… well, who knows what might happen eventually. I do hope things finally will blow over and this nightmare will end, but after 19 years of veiled tyranny it’s hard to actually believe this country can be fixed that easily.

Anyways… just letting you all know what the truth is, in case anyone hears about the 8 million voters and thinks it’s a real thing. It’s absolutely, utterly fake and there’s a ton of proof of it if you know who to ask. 

Thanks for reading and caring, to all those of you who have. I hope there really may be a light at the end of this unreasonably endless tunnel.

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I was legitimately in tears from this show. There was so much love in this venue. I may not have had the chance to meet you or hug you, but seeing my hero on stage in front of me was the most amazing experience I could ever ask for. I’m not going to spoil the show, but I’m so incredibly lucky to have been able to experience this. @therealjacksepticeye I love you man, I want to thank you for being the light at the end of the tunnel for me. Thank you for saving me. It means the world to me to have seen you tonight. It was so surreal. I will never forget this. I can’t wait to see you again.

The new Villainous short, an analysis

Because I have nothing better to do on a weekend! Yay!

I’m pretty sure that at this point everybody knows that a new Villainous short was released today (by “today” I mean November 4 of 2017, if for some reason you are reading this in another day); there’s a ton of references in the short, and since it was in Spanish and at the time I’m writing this there’s not English version of the short (fan made or CN made), I decided to write a “small” analysis of the short video. It’s more likely that by the time I end this, tons of people already posted something like this, but I want to do this anyway. Notice that this is NOT a resume of the video.

The video starts with this:

Warning!

We are not responsible for the physical, mental and emotional damage that the comments of the Lord and Master Black Hat may provoke in the audience. It is recommended use safety googles or a helmet when you visualize this video. The prolonged exposition to this show may cause sanity loss, soul loss, hair loss, nail loss, welts, itch, hard snot, stomach ache, headache, mononucleosis, tonsil inflammation, farts, desire to pee (it says “desire to go to the bathroom”; I don’t know other places but in Mexico that means you wanna pee), arthritis and swollen eyes, spasms, uncontrollable fits of laughter, urge to wear a hat, villainy, extreme evilness, sharp fangs or teeth, hyperactivity, among others. Discretion is advised. This section is mere filler and had nothing to do with the previous one, you should stop reading before you regret it. We don’t understand why are you still reading. Seriously, nobody reads the warnings and ended watching it (the video) anyway.


Then we cut to this:

Black Hat Organization

Villain Orientation Videos

Vol. 1 of 666.


Then the video starts with tons of TV’s showing video of several Cartoon Network’s villains as the intro of “Black Hat Organization Lost Cases: Ooo, with Black Hat”. A narrator’s voice greets the watchers because it means that we want to stop being an annoyance at became great villains thanks to the capacitation of the video. Something that called my attention was the narrator’s voice. There’s a Latin-American YouTube channel that dubs fan shorts and comics from Villainous, and the narrator’s voice sounds like the Black Hat’s voice of that channel when he dubs narrators; either CN contacted that guy to work with them (which I think is pretty impossible) or the narrator is Alan himself.

Black Hat then greets the watchers but is shortly cut because he starts to insulted them as he goes mad; later he presents himself, but he says we already know it because, apparently, the short is part of the “Black Hat Organization villain orientation video ahora en español” (now in Spanish) VHS, volume 1, which apparently we bought; according to Black Hat, the point of the video is that he “will mock of the pathetic forces of evil and we will give him our money”. Later we cut to several scenes of the Lich King only to later change to Count Lemongrab, much for Black Hat annoyance. For the rest of the video Black Hat complains about how Lemongrab is, in his opinion, a pathetic villain and points other stuff too.

Regarding Lemongrab as a villain we learn this:

  • Black Hat says than Lemongrab voice is annoying and that he’s an idiot for not having security as he sleeps.
  • He shows surprise when he realizes Lemongrab has ears (as he picks his own ear).
  • He complains about how Lemongrab’s “minions” are “as sweet as 5.0.5.”
  • Lemongrab’s villain speech is pathetic and that his sentences are too long.
  • He says that Lemongrab has no class (as Lemongrab strips) and is ashamed of him.
  • Lemongrab is pathetic because he allowed the Pup Gang to be disrespectful at him.
  • Lemongrab’s torture chamber lacks of torture devices.
  • He is “a crybaby, incompetent, poorly dressed guy that only shrieks” (he calls him that as Bubblegum tries to talk with him when he’s torturing Finn, Jake and the Pup Gang.)
  • His mistakes are: being a big piece of… lemon (he clearly wanted to insult him in this part), being a crybaby and not hiring Black Hat Organization.
  • However, Black Hat praised Lemongrab when he wanted to eat the apple because that was “fruit cannibalism” and becomes proud when he “tried to eat” Peppermint Butler. He was also pleased when he blasted the Pup Gang and when he tortured them and Finn and Jake.
  • He ended his analysis by calling Lemongrab “deplorable” in his file. 


However, in Black Hat’s opinion Princess Bubblegum (whom he calls “the bubblegum girl”) is THE REAL villain in Ooo because:

  • After she spikes the dirt Lemongrab was eating he says that she looks like the most intelligent person in the video and even ask Flug is she wasn’t really the villain instead of Lemongrab.
  • When she says that she knew a way of be her past self all the time Black Hat says with joy: “clearly this girl has a disturbed mind. I’d love to extirpate it from her…”
  • When Finn is putting the pieces of the candy people on Bubblegum Black Hat says that “is one of the most evil rituals he knows” because she’s using “parts of his minions” to boost herself and he says that that’s pretty effective. Then proceeds to say that he is going to remove an arm off Flug, presumably to boost himself like her.
  • Black Hat asks if he’s really the only one who sees that Bubblegum is more diabolic than Lemongrab, especially because she created him “and condemned him into a life of suffering”.
  • He says that Bubblegum is pretty intelligent by “pretending she agreed in her rival’s terms when in reality she’s sending the worst of her society” and that is a really great villain lesson to learn.
  • He, however shows great disappointment because she didn’t learn of her past mistakes (by cloning Lemongrab); he even says that the situation is going to became worst because “it will end in one of them eating the other”.
  • He praised her when she was cutting the legs of a candy with her scissors, but the scene apparently became too much for him later.


Black Hat also:

  • Wanted to see Lemongrab breaking Manfried because “wanted to see his sweets organs”.
  • Was disgusted of Cinnamon Bun.
  • Every time Finn and Bubblegum shows affection to each other he becomes really angry.
  • He says that Bubblegum and Finn should squeezed Lemongrab instead of putting a note. He proceeds to say that he will show an example and calls for 5.0.5. to come.
  • When Bubblegum rejects Finn Black Hat laughs and says “you can see the part when his heart breaks in half!”


By the way, the information of Lemongrab’s file says this:

Count Lemongrab

  • Subject: Lemongrab.
  • Age: ???
  • Gender: Male.
  • Species: Fruit.
  • Taste: Sour.
  • Status: Alive (unfortunaly).
  • Abilities: None.
  • Occupation: Count.

Creation of the ruler of…

…grab has become independet of…

becoming in the dictator of…

war against the Candy Kingdom…

eating his own clone to…

and satisfied his own hungry of po…

the regimen of the Count Lemong…

At the moment he doesn’t represent a…

for the powerful Candy Kingdom.

creator, the scientist and prin…

Bonnibel Bubblegum alias Prin…

he’s nothing more than one lemon o….

ridiculous and pathetic.


The video ends with a live action Black Hat “squeezing” Lemongrab and with a special thanks list, aka “Black Hat’s black list”. In italics I put the ones I recognized and I could translate; the names in normal letter where the ones I didn’t recognize, even if I traslated their names. The names in black are the ones who have diferent names in spanish, but for some reason were already in English.


Flug, Vilgax, Yellow Diamond, Marvin (the Martian?), Lex Luthor, Peppermint Butler, Cambot, Phil Ken Sebben, Top Cat.

The Red Guy, Mojo Jojo, Mandark, Excusator, Nergal, Katz
, Hammerhead, Aku, Grodd, Siniestro.


Snorkel, Sticky Stud, Secuencia, Diego, Diego Mejia, Gafael, Kimmy, Kim, Black Manta, Spuntaneous, Salmonella Fitzgerald, Him, The Beast, The Kanker Sisters, Father, King Ramses, Malek, Medusea.


Some of the names where recognizables others… not that much. Who are those people? Animators? Future characters?


Regardless of that, we did learn lots about Black Hat:

  • In Black Hat’s opinion, pineapples are evil, but lemons are useless.
  • According to him, once he puked on a past minion’s face and that’s the reason Flug works for him now; he says this when he plays with the red skull in his desk, maybe implying that that’s his past minion’ skull.
  • He says that minions should taste their master’s food first as a safety precaution.
  • Watching Lemongrab being punched by Finn and Bubblegum make him laugh so much that in one point he loosed control over his powers and the video cuts momentarily to this beautiful picture:
  • He also laughs maniacally when Peppermint Butler is crying over the spice serum in his eye and you can hear a little echo in his laugh, perhaps because he wasn’t in full control of his powers at that point.
  • He stays that “(a minion) only learn their lesson if they can see light at the end of the tunnel”, and that’s why he complains about Lemongrab’s excessive long sentences.
  • He IS the original Black Hat, the one who created the “black hat” type of villain in movies.
  • According to him, a real villain shouldn’t let a pubert to be disrespectful at him.
  • The sound of a hero screaming in pain is “always put a smile in his face”, but then the camera show Black Hat not being happy at all, causing that the person with him (Flug? The narrator? Alan!?) to laugh awkwardly.
  • “Rule #43 of the manual: Do not stop attacking until your enemy’s heart stops beating!”


But there are other things that fans may not notice:

  • The fact that Black Hat wants to rip off one of Flug’s arms and use it in a similar ritual than Bubblegum’s to boost his power may suggest that Flug is in fact, not human, but a supernatural creature.
  • He says that 5.0.5. is indeed a failed experiment. Alan already confirmed that in his Pixelart conference, but now we have an actual canon confirmation.
  • Black Hat’s manor may have a torture chamber.
  • There’s a manual of how to be evil, apparently.
  • Sometimes you can hear “Black Hat Organization”, other you can hear “Organización Black Hat”.
  • Black Hat’s Organization “please stand by” picture is Cambot fighting against one of Black duplicates (specifically, the short one) who is using a fish as a weapon.

Technical difficulties. Don’t go away! 


  • The short was clearly archive footage.
  •  Is more likely that Alan was the live action Black Hat at the end of the video.
  • BLACK HAT HAD A MOUSTACHE!

See!?

(By the way, why is thay woman smiling? Did she saw a hero coming to her rescue? Is she smiling because the photo? Is she happy because Black Hat is about to kill her? Is she insane as Demencia? Is she Demencia’s ancestor? Is that Demencia!?


  •  It was clearly that the video was shoot just after 5.0.5. creation, because you can see a picture of him glued at the VHS tape’s case.
  • By the way, in a bigger version of the image you can see clearly that Demencia’s feet are in her head and Flug is in shorts with Black Hat too close to him.

You can take that as you want.



Also, this picture.

Black Hat organization

Introduces

The New Security System!

Batteries not included.

If you call now we will include this key chain.

Pieces come separately; if you don’t buy anything we’ll keep your money!

geardirector  asked:

You know of any examples of wintry Solarpunk?

I’m not sure how all of the logistics would work (I’m more of a sociology guy than a STEM guy), but I don’t see why a colder climate wouldn’t be able to take advantage of renewable energy sources – geothermal and perfected solar technology and such.

Aesthetically, you’d probably end up with something very similar to the “Northern Lights glass igloos” in Finland:

Maybe connect all the igloos with a tunnel/tube system and have them all link up to a big hub at the center. Maybe the hub has advanced solar panels and sits on a geothermal hot spot, and the energy accumulated there could power the surrounding homes and buildings. 

People can and should add to this, because my winter solarpunk imagination is a tad limited. 

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Here’s the illustration I drew for the Bullseye Mchanzine called ‘Back then’.
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An illustration between the young brothers of the Shimada Clan, after their morning practice.
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[LONG POST AHEAD - Take slow steps]
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Couldn’t wait like the others, who put their heart and soul into this zine ever since the beginning of May or June.
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Yes, I am still filled between anger and complete confusion or disappointment, since this is my first zine I have ever got accepted into.
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Despite all this, I send my love to every single contributor whoever worked along and hope that light at the end of the tunnel will shine towards us. Plus, I have learnt very valuable lessons throughout this process and met amazing new people…
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Especially enjoyed till exhaustion with this amazing concept and this really proved that I can still come up with such scenarios like this.
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Overall, I won’t stop shipping Mchanzo or applying for zines in the future JUST because of this. Since I do this for the people who are in need in the first place - for charity.
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Seriously Kudos to you for understanding reading this, I just wanted to update you with the mchanzine thing I was part of.
Love you all and have a wonderful day~ 💕
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Check out all the amazing works at @mchanzinecontributors ! Thank you once again! C:

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“It all happened on the afternoon the 30th of August. It was a beautiful day and I was on my way home from a job in Färjestaden. When I got home, I found water on the kitchen floor. Somehow there was a leak. I got my tools and opened up the doors to the sink. And started to work. When I reached in to examine the pipes, they seemed to be further in than I remembered. I had to crawl inside the cabinet, and as I did so, I discovered that it just continued. So I kept on crawling further and further into the cabinet. In the end of the tunnel I saw a light, and when I got there, I realised I was in the future. I met myself as 72 years old, the year was 2042. I did a lot of tests on him to see if he was really me. And the strange thing is that he knew everything about me. Where I hid my secret stuff when I was in first grade, and what the score was in the soccer match against Växjö Norra in the summer of 88. He knew it all. We even had the same tattoo, although his was a little faded. He told me some of the stuff that will happen, but not so much. And I promised not to tell anyone. I made a film with my mobile phone. Unfortunately the quality is not the best. But it’s what I have got. Actually I don’t care if people think I am a liar. I know I’m not. I met myself in the future, and I was fine. That’s all I know.

But if it happened to me it probably must have happened to someone else.”

- This is Håkan Nordkvist. Back in 2006, the Swedish plumber claimed he time travelled. The story seems like a flamboyant hoax, with nothing more than a lookalike and the same tattoo involved, but a lot of people believe he is telling the truth. Nordkvist regularly gives speeches, has his own blog, and is adamant that he really did time-travel.