there is no happy place

your lips are a machine gun and i am full of bullet holes.
—  but you keep shooting anyways. 

lemonade-literature  asked:

28 and 50 for the bookish reads!

28: How many books have you read so far this year?

50: Why do you love to read?

#28, I actually had to check my Goodreads to see this answer. I’ve read 172 this year. My best year ever. Last year, I barely made it to 50.

 #50, I actually only fairly recently rediscovered my love of reading (2 years ago). When I was younger, I loved reading because I enjoyed learning. I was a big encyclopedia reader. However, now that I’m older, I love reading for many reasons. But I can answer this in one simple sentence.

I love going on adventures.

Life is busy, and I get down a lot. School destroys me mentally, and my anxiety keeps me from experiencing and enjoying a lot of things. Reading keeps me going. It calms me. It motivates me. And, most importantly, it takes me on grand adventures. 

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happy kyunsterday ! ♡

thank you for blessing humankind with your presence & angelic vocals. your dorkiness, playfulness & delightfulness completes Monsta X. im very grateful for your hardwork & courage to share your dreams with them too. may all things are sweet & bright for you always!

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top ten underrated anime series | (as voted by my followers)

# 2 : no.6 (2011)

“If I hadn’t met you, I never would have realized what kind of person I am. I would have grown into an apathetic, clueless, obedient adult. However, after spending time with you, in tears, laughter, and anger, I now know that I have all these emotions inside me, too. And that makes me proud. I’m glad to have known you.

Episode 10 from Yuuri’s POV

We see episode 10 almost all through Viktor’s perspective, note how Yuuri is shown sleeping at both the beginning and the end,

because this is Victor’s episode and not Yuuri’s and Victor has a wildly different perspectives on things, emphasized by the banquet reveal.

But lets think about ep 10 if we assume that Yuuri was going to follow through on his thoughts in ep 9.

I’ve seen some complaint that ep 11 feels weak or lacks foreshadowing, and I think it may have too subtle, but it was built up if you stop and think about it.

In particular if we accept the idea that Yuuri is doing everything in episode 10 as his last day to spend with Victor:

1) explains why he asks for Victor to take him sight seeing and shopping because he knows Victor loves this sort of stuff even if as Victor notes that this isn’t something Yuuri is into, which once again suggests he was doing it for Victor.

This then doubles as a sort of character development moment for Yuuri because look at him be sensitive to the wants of another person. The fact that the blu-ray changed it to Yuuri winking at Victor, something associated with Victor not Yuuri, emphasizes the fact that this wasn’t about Yuuri’s personal desire to sight see. It was his personal desire to spend time with Victor and see Victor enjoy himself.

Also note how Yuuri is looking in the opposite direction from Victor as Victor is theorizing about why Yuuri decided on sightseeing and the answer he comes up with is that Yuuri is just so stressed that he’s reacting strangely. This isn’t the case, thus Yuuri looking in another direction.

2) Also this might partly explain why Yuuri freaks out about the nuts as much as he does, on one hand he is an anxious person, but his insistence on replacing the bag makes a lot of sense if you consider its really about Yuuri freaking out over there being an unpleasant flaw in what’s supposed to be his perfect last day with Victor.

In the scene right after Yuri and Otabek agree to be friends Victor narrates “Back to my story” which is funny, but also emphasizes the fact that this is really being told from Victor’s POV who because he was absent at the Rostelcom doesn’t really have a clue about what Yuuri has decided.

This is also why when they exchange rings Yuuri does it with all the significant and romantic subtext there is, but he doesn’t explicitly say anything because on one hand Yuuri speaks with his actions not his words sort of guy, but also he knows this is the end but gold with its symbolism of eternity (a whole other post tbh) it embodies his desire to be tied to Victor even though he knows they’re going to be separated soon.

Thus his complicated reaction to the engagement where he gets a weird determined face at Victor for calling it that, but he doesn’t vocally confirm because he can’t make that sort of promise at this point in time.

Tldr: if you read episode 10 from Yuuri’s POV it’s actually really sad.

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top ten underrated anime series | (as voted by my followers)

# 1 : death parade (2015)

“First: arbiters cannot give up passing judgment, for it is why they exist. Second: arbiters cannot experience death, for that would link them too closely to humans. Third: arbiters cannot feel emotion, for they are merely puppets. Fourth: arbiters may not work hand in hand with life…for it will ruin them.