thepatternsareeverywhere

this is my best friend Andrew and me. he passed away a few months ago, but his 21st birthday is coming up on October 10th, and I started a fundraiser for The Trevor Project to mark the date.

the goal is to reach $1010 by 10/10. any way you can help, by donating money or simply by reblogging this post, would mean so much. thank you!

http://www.crowdrise.com/happybirthdayandrew/

pic from possibly the best day of my life. thank you, Andrew <3 <3 <3

$1010 doesn’t come close to what you gave to me, but it’s just the beginning of what I’ll be giving back to you. I will love you till the end of time.

three months.

the only tolerable parts of these past three months have been the moment before i remember that he’s gone. the instant i have the thought that he might be out there texting me to hang out, or curled up in bed watching golden girls, maybe burning holes on the back of his t-shirt in the shape of a skull, or plonking away on his terribly out of tune piano; it’s over in a flash.

but just at the spark of that thought, it’s gone. i’m pummeled by a pillowcase of bricks to the chest and it hits me at full force. he’s gone. i can’t even really wrap my head around it, that i’ll never see him again.

he’s gone. three months.

best friend, soulmate. i will love you till the end of time.