And I’ve lost who I am, (I’m waiting)
and I can’t understand (and fading)
Why my heart is so broken, (and holding)
rejecting your love, (love) without, (onto these tears)
love gone wrong; lifeless words carry on (I am crying)
But I know, all I know’s that the end’s beginning (I’m dying tonight)
who I am from the start, (I’m waiting)
take me home to my heart (and fading)
Let me go and I will run, (and holding)
I will not be silent, (silent) all this time (onto these tears)
spent in vain; wasted years wasted gain (I am crying)
All is lost but hope remains and this war’s not over (I’m dying tonight)
There’s a light, there’s a sun (I’m waiting…)
taking all these shattered ones
To the place we belong (I am waiting…)
and his love will conquer all

(This song is the inspiration behind my blog title) 


Mastiff (Beka Cooper) by Tamora Pierce.

I lasted through middle school on the Tamora Pierce books. They introduced me to the fantasy genre and the idea of worldbuilding as an art.


Mastiff is kind of disappointing me.

The worldbuilding, of course, is just as good as ever.

However, the characterization is kind of lacking.

(For example, I thought Beka wasn’t a fan of magic – but she made no complaint about traveling on a ship propelled entirely by magic and being put into a magic-induced sleep?)

I don’t know if the quality of the writing is going down or… if I’ve outgrown Tortall.

Also, if Farmer and Beka get together I don’t know if I’ll be happy (for predicting it) or disappointed (for it being predictable).

I need new book feeds!



My very first papercraft was a bumblebee that consisted of two colors and simply circled paper glued to a common support. It looked cool but quickly fell out of its original shape into something useless. After reveling in how cool the bumblebee originally looked, I progressed to harder characters. I made a giraffe, an elephant, the Harry Potter characters… yet still my crafts were missing something. They were not strong and they were not lifelike – and it was hard to distinguish what I had made in many instances. 

My first dragon was the blue one. It was extraordinarily difficult compared to everything I had made previously, and when I finished I vowed I would never make one again. Yet I was bored with the simple, unidentifiable animals that I had been making, and in a period of boredom, I made a second dragon - the red one.

I moved on to make (now) a total of 14 dragons.

The dragons were a gateway to making more complex creatures. Suddenly I was able to do birds and mammals that actually looked like what they were intended. I no longer worry about something not being sturdy enough – instead, I can focus on how realistic my creations are. I can make Tinkerbell actually look like Tinkerbell, a fox look like a fox and not a dog, television characters that are recognizable immediately.

My papercrafting is not normal papercrafting. I don’t fold printed-out patterns into predetermined designs. I create my own characters and don’t rely on templates someone else has provided. I used to call my method the “half inch strip method” because I use primarily strips of paper to create my characters. I see other people’s papercrafts and have to wonder whether they designed them themselves or used someone else’s pattern; I don’t have to worry about that because I look at paper and glue it as I see it into something real.


He Is Not One of Us - The Lion King 2: Simba’s Pride (1998)

I love this song… so haunting.