then there was this and i'll stay

And the thing about having false hopes is you don’t stay mad at them when they don’t feel the same way.
But when you feel like they’ve led you on, burrowing false hopes in your stomach,
You feel more hurt than angry. Then humiliation in your cheeks.
And you think you weren’t good enough for them. But you can’t stay mad at them for too long
because you realise that you misread the signals
and you aren’t entitled to be liked back by everyone. 
Then you realise how they have made you feel less than enough.  You thought you had something special with them. You are not any less than enough just because they failed to realise your shine. You are not any less than enough just because they realise how much love you have to offer.
—  reminsces

anonymous asked:

♥ matou sakura because i love seeing her in your style! <3

ahh thank you!!

IMPORTANT PSA: I LOVE MY FOLLOWERS UR ALL REALLY COOL

anonymous asked:

Now that Piper follows PM's daughter on Instagram, does this prove that Gillian and he are actually dating? Because if there is only a professional relationship it is strange that their daughters follow one another. I do not know, I still want to have hopes, but every day it seems like David is not the boyfriend. I'm afraid of what we'll see tomorrow. I just hope that whatever happens, we can all stay together on this boat.

Dear Anon. As Orlando Jones said: “All I know is, the power of fandom compels me to never ever jump ship. Real of fake we live in our dreams where reality is safe from haters.” 

And I’ve been on this ship for such a long time, that I ain’t leaving it, no matter what happens. I’ll always adore and worship this relationship, ‘cause it is unique. 

I know there are many small things happening that can be interpreted in one way or another but I’m not interested. I won’t be boarding the PM ship ever! but I will acknowledge it’s existence when the proof comes from Gillian! Otherwise, David is the boyfriend and will always be 😊😊  

In the meantime, just make sure you spread kindness, stay nice to everyone, stay safe from haters and make your own assumptions. We will learn the truth sooner or later! Just hang in there. ❤️  And in case you need some cheering up, you can always find me in my nice little trashcan, along with my friends.

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When my alarm went off this morning (at 4:30am 😑) I was in such a deep sleep. I wanted to stay in bed, not want to get up and run. But that’s not how we get shit done 🙌🏼

5 miles 🏃🏻‍♀️👍🏼
And a green smoothie 🌱🍌

Let’s do Tuesday 👊🏼

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D-0 until #HAPPYRAVIDAY ravi’s ranking of VIXX’s cute member [#6 RAVI]

My friend texted me late one night and was wondering 10 reasons to keep living. This is what I told her.
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  • sometimes nights will feel cold and empty when there’s no reason for it. live for these nights. embrace them. dance in them. do what you need to feel complete again, make tea, watch movies, write poetry and wear your prettiest pajamas. and when they are over, rejoice because you made yourself feel whole again. you did that. live for the nights in which you heal yourself.
  • words have more power than you think. they can save you. you need to live to see these beautiful words that will come, and sometimes they’ll come to you in the form of songs or poetry or texts or even the words that come out of your own mouth. live for these words.
  • there’s no such thing as a stupid reason to stay alive. think of these reasons and hold onto them. you want to see the finale of your favorite show? you want to wait for that clothes order to arrive? you want to play your entire volleyball season? and when those little things to look forward to run out, find more. live for the tiny things that make you happy.
  • being “something” is easier than you think. passions come across when you’re not even expecting them. you love morning tea? live for those morning cups of tea. buy a teapot, get yourself a ton of flavors of tea. try every flavor of tea known to humankind. make your own tea. open a tea shop. make a tea kettle. live for your passions.
  • boredom is a dangerous thing. I know sometimes you want to lay in bed and do nothing, and sometimes that helps but more often it doesn’t. a lot of the time staying busy will be the only thing that will help. find those little distractions and live for them. they may seem like chores or busywork but you’ll grow to love them, I promise. paint your nails, try a ton of hairstyles, go through all your drawers and throw out old stuff, do 100 sit ups, spend an hour looking through all your music and create a master playlist of your favorite stuff, research things you’ve always wondered like ‘why do cats have whiskers’, look up motivational videos, watch interviews of your favorite band. you’ll feel productive. do anything to keep your hands and mind busy. live for being busy.
  • self-love is hard to achieve and it’s a lot of work but it’s so wonderful. learn to love yourself. stop rejecting compliments, accept them and maybe you’ll finally come to see them as true. self-love isn’t thinking that you’re perfect, it’s knowing that you’re human and beautiful and you have more prettiness in you than flaws. it’s also knowing that yes, you are beautiful on the outside in your own unique way, but you are more beautiful on the inside than anything. make it your mission to finally recognize that you are a good soccer player, that you have really pretty colored hair, that you are your own worst critic and you are full of stardust and fairy kisses and you can conquer the entire world. live for loving yourself.
  • people are not as fragile as you think. you keep watering yourself down and you’re receiving watered down love. it won’t hurt them if you show your entire self in all it’s glory. it won’t hurt them to tell them what you really think. you are full of comets, stars, galaxies that they should be dying to see. show who you truly are. and if people are too fragile to handle it? leave them. if they can’t handle the complete version of you, the you that makes you happiest, the you you’re not ashamed of, then they don’t deserve you. live for being yourself.
  • we are a flawed, broken people. life doesn’t have a meaning. the universe will end someday. people get sad and hurt every day. these are all things that are true, sad, but true. sometimes we just need to acknowledge that things are true, let ourselves feel what we feel, and move on. live for acknowledgement. but also…
  • we are a flawed, broken people but that makes us all the more beautiful. life doesn’t have a meaning but you can make one for yourself. the universe will end someday so we should make it as beautiful as we can before it leaves. people get sad and hurt every day but they get better. live for positivity, live for knowing that you’ll be okay.
  • once in a while it will seem like nothing is going right. it may seem that way right now. but remember that you always, always have someone, in good times and in bad. even if everyone else abandons you, I’ll be here. I will stand by you in your brightest days and your darkest days, in my stormy skies and in my sunshiny afternoons. I will be a shoulder for you to lean on, I will do my best to make you happy when I can and help you when you’re sad. live for the people that love you and make you happy. live for me, and the countless other people that want you to keep walking this beautiful earth. live because there is so much left to see, live because there is too much left to do. live because one day, you’ll be sitting at your kitchen table with sunlight streaming through the window at just the right angle with a cup of coffee and a gentle smile on your face, and you’ll have a wonderful job and a beautiful family and friends that love you with their entire hearts, and you’ll be so, so glad that you stayed alive to witness that very moment.

Been wanting to say this for a long time so here we go:

Can we please collectively stop making fun of the “meth fandom” or w/e the fuck nomenclature we’re using to describe real people who finally have a space and community to talk about their substance use? Like I’ve seen posts lump this part of tumblr in with literal fucking neo-nazis and if that doesn’t strike you as fucked up i don’t know what else i can fucking say to you.

I’ve even seen this shit from leftists. Like how can we recognize that capitalism is built on the exploitation of labor and mass disenfranchisement of working class people - and then turn around and mock people who use stimulants to cope with the godawful hardships of that life? If you can’t recognize meth users humanity, then what the fuck are you even fighting for?

I have adhd, but I still abuse my stimulants because my body literally cannot produce the amount of labor necessary for my survival. Thousands of others do the same. We’re not that different from the people on here using meth. Everywhere ~drug users~ turn, we’re denied the chance to talk about our own experiences in our own fucking language. We’re denied the chance to find our own community and engage with it on our own terms. Especially us women who use. Why propagate that shit here? What do you gain by mocking us and people like those in the ~meth fandom~? Who are you helping?

And i know this probably describes only a sliver of my followers, but I hope it’ll reach further. Because honestly? Some people on here need to step the fuck off. 

I’ve never seen a post on my dash condemning this phenomenon (which is often treated like a joke, like it’s not about you know, real fucking people), and that’s fucking bullshit. I’m not saying no one’s said this before, but I sure as fuck haven’t seen it. We can do better. We must do better.

J, The Amethyst with the single rose curl

Daww look at all of these cute Quartz sisters together reunited :)

Wait a sec…that Ame on the right. I think she’s called 8XJ, but lets call her J for short.

DAT CURL

DAT BEAUTIFUL LONELY ROSE CURL

DID THE SHOW JUST REPRESENT MY HAIR? A SINGLE ROSE CURL?
(In rare occasions I have two on each side)
ALL FOLKS WITH A SINGLE ROSE CURL UNITE WITH ME AND CELEBRATE THIS WONDERFUL EVENT WE JUST WITNESSED!