then cried because ow my face

Sometimes, All I Can Do Is Be

I woke up this morning at 5 am,

tears started rolling down my face

and I cried for an hour.

Silent sobs wracking my body in the dark,

I wept for no conscious reason,

I just woke up and burst into tears.

Why am I so sad all of a sudden?

Is it from the constant financial pressure?

This on going economic hell

where I just keep owing more and more money?

Is it my fear of the VA manifesting?

Or maybe the continued silence from my family

has worn a crack through my mind?

Is it because nothing feels right,

regardless of which direction I look?

I don’t have any of these answers,

only this great sadness in the pit of my belly.

Sometimes, it seems all I can do is be.

Anything more than that is too much to bear.