then and only then will my life be complete

In Living Color

Written for the third BTZ Challenge. This time around we picked a prompt, then an aesthetic was made to go with the prompt, but we don’t know what or who will be in it. My prompt is: You have been completely color blind your entire life and only see in shades of grey. You come across a stranger that appears in total color. Beta’d by my amazing partner-in-crime, @just-another-busy-fangirl. You’re the best LK!

Word Count: 1481

Warnings: hmmm nothing, I don’t think…Sam in a suit?


My name is Y/N Y/L/N. I see black, white and shades of gray. Those have always been the only colors I see. My parents told me the color of their eyes and hair when I was a child, so I assumed mine would be similar. I learned to distinguish the different shades of gray so that when I dressed myself as an adult, I didn’t look like a circus sideshow attraction if I ever came across the one person who could see me in color.  

I have seen a sunset, but can never appreciate it’s beauty. Flowers in a garden smell beautiful, but I will never see them in all their bloomed glory. I have never truly enjoyed a fireworks display or seen the colored brush strokes in a Picasso or Van Gogh. The only colors I have seen are in my dreams, like a kaleidoscope of wonder.

Can you see in color? Or maybe you cannot see red or blue? I long for the day when I can see true color with my eyes open. My parents tell me it will happen to me someday. I will meet my soulmate, my true love, the person I am meant to be with forever. He will be the only person I will ever see in color. But what if I never meet him? My worst fear is that I will never see anyone in color. Most of my friends can now see color, having found their ‘person’. What if I don’t have one?

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Game

“Hi James,

I know you don’t like when I call you James but this time it doesn’t matter. So just, sit down and read it completely, before judging my reasons.

I was born in boringly normal family with high hopes that the only child would be anything but average. And I tried. I tried very hard every goddamn second of my life. I used to be a cheerleader, went to the ballet school, got high grades at school and was perfect at everything. Perfect daughter, perfect friend, and perfect student.

‘Does it matter? Why did you write it?’ you will ask. However, I had to give explanation about myself, because if you think about it we had never told about me. It was you every time…Whatever.

I was one of the capable students so my professors highly recommended me to Tony when he was looking for assistant in lab. I was hired and the most exciting part of my life started. In couple of weeks, I was the full membership of the team but you didn’t like me. At least I thought so. Every time when you came to Stark for checkup, you had always had that scornful smirk on your face. And every time I heard same witty remarks. God, I used to hate it but secretly I was intrigued. Until the day HYDRA, agents came to the tower and I got almost shot.

Almost because you saved me, and the same day confessed your love. I was confused but agreed because since I had met you I fell for you. We spent so long time together and it was something incredibly perfect. You were the everything I looked for in man. We were perfect couple that everyone was envy.  

Then it started. Your nightmares. I was never afraid of them. I knew your past, I knew what you had been trough and it had never scared me. Even that time when you turned into Winter Soldier. When you turned into him and thought that I was your target. You tighten your grip until Steve came and pulled me out. When you realized that you almost killed me, you were very devastated. God, your perfect bay blue eyes were hurt and it sting my heart. That day I decided to do everything to help you.

On other hand, you made completely different. You tried to distance yourself from me.  And the worst thing is you did something that I didn’t expect from you. Your persistent adultery just made everything worse. The first time I saw you with that girl from tech lab it was like knife in my heart. But I still got you. I still tried not letting us disappear.”

Bucky stopped at this part. His heart skipped a beat and he was staring at paper for good five minutes but he still couldn’t collect his thoughts. He just tried to protect you. He has always been a danger for everyone he loved. You wasn’t an exception. Bucky hates himself for everything he did to you a half year.

Flashbacks were so fresh and it hurt. He remembered how you used to come to him and hug from behind until he threw you over his shoulder and you always landed on his lap with sonorous laugh. Or you cooked your first meal and burnt it. It made him to smile sadly. Bucky bit his lower lip to keep himself from distracting. Sharp pain made him turned to reality and he thought with sorrow “Maybe if I didn’t open up she would be still here. At least she would be happy”

“You know it is really hard to write to person who you love from the bottom of your heart. I believe you love me too. But sometimes it is just…just didn’t happen the way we want. Maybe it is the best. Whatever happens Buck, I will always get you.

                                                  With love, Y/N

Someone knocked the door. Steve stuck his head in the doorway “How are you doing, pal?” Bucky ran a hand through his hair in desperation “I don’t know. Everything I touch fall apart. And she, she was perfect. I have never deserved her”

Steve frowned his eyebrows. “I am sure she would be really sad if she heard you. You have to come and” Bucky mumbled without looking at him “I can’t. I am not ready to see her like this. I want to remember her alive”

Steve nodded understandingly and left. Bucky was sitting there until the last gloomy sound of the funeral march died away.

/Somewhere in Europe/

“Hail HYDRA” general greeted you and you saluted “Hail Hydra, sir”

“Agent Y/N made a huge work. She infiltrated into Avengers and did the second part of ‘Leviathan,’” your supervisor was telling it with proud. General smirked “Congratulations, agent. Now it is time to final accords”

You left the room and your heart filled with horror. You just signed death sentence for Bucky.

[TRANS] MXM - I Just Do Lyrics

Please open your pretty door today
Since I brought a bouquet of flowers
that look like your smile
Will I be able to see your truthful heart tomorrow
I’m so nervous that I’m unable to sleep today as well
While being unable to sleep, all my senses
continue to draw your backside that passed by in the day
It’s like the best scene of today,
it doesn’t leave my memory, it’s like a drama
I’ll direct this scenario
I’ll even find a place that looks like a painting
An OST that is complete once you become the female lead
Only then, does the story between me and you start

I just do, forever baby
Only you, forever
Small flowers have blossomed in my heart, baby
I want to be with you every night

I’ll look at only you all day long, one way one way
A life without you is boring, boring
When that sweet scent passes the tip of my nose,
I feel so good
On a sweet night, on this night, I just want to
hold you tightly in my embrace for a long, long time

I thought about what you said yesterday
Although you like me,
you don’t think you’ll be able to approach me easily
I do, I can keep promises now too
Open your door just a bit and come into my embrace
That’s right, you just need to come bit-by-bit like that to me
Don’t stop, when this song’s
melody slightly whispers at the tip of your ears,
you’ll nod your head as if it’s ticklish
I’ll become the sweetest accompaniment in the world
When you’re having a hard time, lean on me. I’ll be your rest symbol
I’ll match the tempo to your small footsteps
I’m in big trouble, my heart is already at a crescendo

I just do, forever baby
Only you, forever
I’ll use all of my time baby
I want to be with you every night

The evening sunset’s redness feels like
I’m somewhat looking into my mirror
With red cheeks as if I’m shy
I can’t think of the sun that’s disappearing
And then the windowsill that the moon is shining on
A beautiful rose called you that shimmers
One flower bloomed fully in my heart
Everyday maybe feels different because of you

I just do, forever baby
Only you, forever
Small flowers have blossomed in my heart, baby
I want to be with you every night

I’ll look at only you all day long, one way one way
A life without you is boring, boring
When that sweet scent passes the tip of my nose,
I feel so good
On a sweet night, on this night, I just want to
hold you tightly in my embrace for a long, long time

lyrics by: mxm and kiggen
translation credits: @woojinprk

recoveringyouth  asked:

Any theories on Hannah Diamant's whereabouts? she's not officially announced as dead.

Mods Purple and Heidi both feel that Hannah’s devotion to Franz likely cost her her life–and I suppose there’s something tragically romantic about that…but Mods Purple and Heidi aren’t here right now, are they 😈

I will also completely ignore that in the spin off novel “Wall Sina, Goodbye”, Annie includes Hannah among those killed at Trost. It’s not exactly canon, right?

My thought is no body + no announcement = no death. I hold to the happy head canon that Hannah overcame her shock, came to her senses, and is now serving in the Garrison. 

On a somewhat related note, I can’t be the only one who made embarrassing noises during episode two when Mikasa and Hannah appeared together.

I thought it was a nice touch that fit the canon well. Mikasa understands devotion, and with Historia during the uprising arc, and now with Hannah in the anime, she’s shown something of a kinship to them, albeit in a subtle way.

Thank you for the ask!
- mod momo

I made a promise to @assassin-faith-2001 that I would revisit my human!Ape designs. Granted, this was meant to happen before “War” came out, but life has kept me busy so I’m only completing them now. So yeah.

Three things: 1) holy crap, my art style has changed since 2014/15, 2) I’ll do a full-body design of Lake soon, and 3) you can’t tell due to crummy lighting, but I made Caesar, Cornelia, and Blue Eyes’ skin a wee bit darker.

Once you graduate high school, you see who your real friends are. People change. Someone who you thought was your best friend will cut you off completely. Some of us enter high school with plenty of friends and end with only a few close ones. Others of us enter high school with only a few close friends and end with no friends at all. It’s just how life is. It’s like that sometimes. It sucks but it happens to almost everyone.
—  real friends // excerpt from a book I’ll never write #14
Things my friends have said about Voltron

“STOP TRYING TO MAKE ME WATCH YOUR GAY SHOW. IT’S NOT GONNA HAPPEN. I DON’T CARE ABOUT WHOEVER THAT LANCE GUY IS.”

“Klance is real and the government knows it.”

“I think I’m gonna go full Keith Kogane and grow a mullet (me: if you grow a mullet I’m divorcing you) We aren’t married???”

“I can see how it’s kinda cute. (two episodes later) Oh my god I’m obsessed.”

“Lance Mclain is my actual child. I would die for him.”

“Hunk is honestly such a sweetie.”

(after finding out pidge is a girl) “My whole life is a lie.”

“Shiro is the only person with any goddamn sense.”

“Shit, that’s soo fucking gay though.”

“Lance’s hair got more character development in season two than he did.”

“yES ALLURA SLAY!”

“So anyways Pidge completely owns my entire heart and soul.”

“Lance, honey, that’s gay. You’re gay.”

“Keith is such a fucking edgelord but at the same time such a sweetheart and I’m not sure how to feel about it.”

Inexorable (2)

Plot: How does is feel to be arranged to be married to a cocky, arrogant Mafia leader? Once you look at his face, you think you’re lucky, but then he opens his mouth.

Pairing: Jeon Jungkook x Reader

Genre: Angst, (eventual) smut, Mafia au!

Notes: Welp, since so many of you asked for it, here is a part two!! There are two other stories which need a continuation as well, so I might keep requests closed for a while.. Sorry about that. I hope you don’t mind. Feel free to ask me questions, though! Ya’ll are so nice to me! 2,053 Words

Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3 (FINAL)

The ride to the vacation home wasn’t as bad as you thought it would be. Your husband actually gave you the space you needed. There were brief glares exchanged between the two of you, a whole lot of drinking, and forced slumber – it was a 3 hour ride, after all. 

When the both of you had finally reached, the luggage was taken out by the bodyguards who had come along, and brought to your huge master bedroom. It was twice the size of your father’s office – if not, bigger – the bed was king-sized, and adorned with silk sheets. The walk-in wardrobe was already stacked with clothes for both sexes, making you wonder why you had even brought luggage in the first place.

“Too small, honestly,” Jungkook commented, plopping down on the couch by the fireplace. “My room is bigger than this.”

There he was, ruining the moment again. It was a good thing you were too exhausted to fight with him; but that didn’t mask over the fact that you still wanted to knock him out.

“Brat..” 

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★*゚‘゚・The Mummy (1999)

❝ What are you doing here? ❞
❝ You must go. Save yourself. Only you can resurrect me. ❞
❝ By eating the sacred scarabs, I would be cursed to stay alive forever. And by eating me, they were cursed just the same. ❞
❝ I knew this was gonna be a lousy day. ❞
❝ Personally, I would like to surrender. Why can we not just surrender? ❞
❝ Then let’s run away. Right now. While we can still make it. ❞
❝ Now gimme your revolver, you’ll never use it anyway. ❞
❝ Let’s play dead, huh? Nobody ever does that anymore. ❞
❝ What are ya doing?! Wait up! ❞
❝ I’m gonna get you for this! ❞
❝ I’m sorry, it was an accident. ❞
❝ Have you no respect for the dead? ❞
❝ Where did you get this? ❞
❝ Two questions. Who the hell is Seti the First? And was he rich? ❞
❝ As the Americans would say: it’s all fairy tales and hokum. ❞
❝ I’m sure it was a fake, anyway. ❞
❝ You lied to me! ❞
❝ I lie to everybody, what makes you so special? ❞
❝ And what is he in prison for? ❞
❝ He said… he was just looking for a good time. ❞
❝ What did you find? What did you see? ❞
❝ Get me the hell outta here. ❞
❝ I will give you one hundred pounds to spare his life. ❞
❝ Yeah, I’d like ya to let me go. ❞
❝ Then we will kill her, we will kill her and all those with her. ❞
❝ For all the money we’re paying you, something better god-damned well be under that sand. ❞
❝ Do you really think he’ll show up? ❞
❝ Personally, I think he’s filthy, rude and a complete scoundrel. I don’t like him one bit. ❞
❝ I have come to protect my investment, thank you very much. ❞
❝ I only gamble with my life, never my money. ❞
❝ What makes you so confident, sir? ❞
❝ Sorry, didn’t mean to scare ya. ❞
❝ Still angry that I kissed ya, huh? ❞
❝ The last time I was at that place everybody I was with died.  ❞
❝ By the way,… why did you kiss me? ❞
❝ You always did have more balls than brains. ❞
❝ Can you swim? ❞
❝ Americans. ❞
❝ I can’t believe the price of these fleabags. ❞
❝ All night you snored!  ❞
❝ What in bloody hell is this? ❞
❝ Ah, begging your pardon, but shouldn’t we be going? ❞
❝ You boys owe me five hundred dollars. ❞
❝ Where’d all these camels come from? ❞
❝ That thing gives me the creeps. ❞
❝ What are those mirrors for? ❞
❝ Who cares? I don’t see no treasure. ❞
❝ You’re welcome to my share of the spider webs. ❞
❝ Mummies, my good son, this is where they made the mummies. ❞
❝ Ya scared the bejeezus out of us. ❞
❝ I’ve had worse. ❞
❝ Let’s be nice, children, if we’re going to play together, we must learn to share. ❞
❝And when those dirty Yanks go to sleep – No offence. ❞
❝ We’ll sneak up and steal that book right out from under them. ❞
❝ What do you suppose killed him? ❞
❝ I believe if I can see it and I  can touch it, then it’s real. That’s what I believe. ❞
❝ Why do you like to fight so much? ❞
❝ LEAVE THIS PLACE!… LEAVE THIS PLACE DIE! ❞
❝ For them to protect it like this, you just know there’s got to be treasure down there. ❞
❝ …I am a librarian! ❞
❝ I can’t believe I allowed the two of you to get me drunk. ❞
❝ You dream about dead guys? ❞
❝ Stupid superstitious bastard. ❞
❝ Oh my god, he was buried alive. ❞
❝ What are you going to do? Shoot him? ❞
❝ Did you see that!? Grasshoppers! Billions of grasshoppers! ❞
❝ That’s one of the plagues, right? The grasshopper plague! ❞
❝ Oh thank goodness, you’re one of the Americans, aren’t you? ❞
❝ RUN, YOU SONS-A-BITCHES! RUUUUN! ❞
❝ Help me,… please,… help me. ❞
❝ No mortal weapons can kill this creature. He is not of this world. ❞
❝ You left me! You left me in the desert to rot. ❞
❝ Sweet Jesus! That tasted just like,…like… ❞
❝ You saved me from the undead. For this, I shall make you immortal. ❞
❝ There’s only one person I know who can possibly give us some answers. ❞
❝ And you think this justifies killing innocent people!? ❞
❝ Okay, let’s cut to the chase. He’s afraid of cats, what’s that about? ❞
❝ The hell with that! I’m not goin’ nowhere! We’re safe here. ❞
❝ What friend? You’re my only friend. ❞
❝ What are you looking for? Lie, and I’ll slit your throat. ❞
❝ Something about bringing his dead girly-friend back to life. He needs the book… ❞
❝ Ya know, ever since I met you, my luck has been for crap. ❞
❝ The hell with this. I’m goin, downstairs to get me a drink. You want somethin’? ❞
❝ Yeah, get me a glass of bourbon, a shot of bourbon and a bourbon chaser. ❞
❝ Jealous? You kiddin’ me? Did you see that guy’s face? ❞
❝ Is it dangerous? ❞
❝ Save the damsel in distress, kill the bad guy and steal his treasure. ❞
❝ You know, nasty little fellows such as yourself, always get their comeuppance. ❞
❝ From now on, don’t touch anything. Not a damn thing. Keep your hands off the furniture, got it? ❞
❝ He wants your heart and your brain, your liver, your kidneys… ❞
❝ I never killed a priest before. ❞
❝ Kill them! Kill them all! And bring me the Book Of The Living! ❞
❝ This just keeps gettin, better and better. ❞
❝ Death is only the beginning. ❞
❝ Well,… I guess we go home empty handed. ❞

Positive Coping Thoughts

For those who have been emotionally neglected or abused, your head may be filled to the brim with negative thoughts about yourself and the world around you. As I’ve emphasized in my past posts, these negative thoughts come from how you were treated or raised growing up. While you are working toward recovery, it is essential to add some positive coping thoughts to your regular practice. Here are some good positive coping thoughts to tell yourself during times when you become triggered… many of them specialized for those who are healing from emotional abuse/neglect:

I am important and worthy. (Even if my family tried to brainwash me otherwise).

I am ALWAYS deserving of love and respect.

I am a survivor.

The fact I am standing here today is proof of my unquestionable strength.

I will continue to move forward in life with my strength.

I will not tolerate disrespect, violence, or disregard in any of my relationships.

I do not need to maintain relationships with people who do not prioritize me or who actively hurt me.

It is completely okay to cut people out of my life. 

I NEED to learn how to cut people out of my life, as it is a part of my healthy recovery.

I will not overwork myself in my relationships, and give more than I am receiving.

I deserve to receive.

I will strive to live my life with balance.

It is okay to say no.

I don’t need to answer or respond to anyone’s negative thoughts or opinions.

Someone’s negativity is not mine to hold; it is theirs.

It is okay to make mistakes. I am only human. We all make mistakes.

I may feel bad about myself now, but that is only because I have never gotten the chance to discover who I really am.

I deserved so much more than what my parents/family gave me.

I will commit to rising above my parents’/family’s negativity, in order to actualize my true self.

From this point on, I refuse to let anyone hold me back, including my parents/family/abuser.

You can also make up your own positive coping thoughts, but write them down in your journal or put it in your phone–whatever helps you. And pull them out when you need a reminder. It’ll take time to shift your thinking, so expect that, but if you make your positive coping thoughts into a habit, I guarantee you that your mind will eventually start to shift! ♥

2 am thoughts about you.

do you want me to me completely honest?
i have always been terrified of love
to slow dance with bliss and the
prevailing chance of complete misery
knowing that it will either
save me
or
cripple me
for if there is one beautiful thing
in this crumbling world: it is love
but god, if there is one thing horrific in it ,too,
then it is most surely loving something with your entirety, only to have it all vanish away
within the hint of a second….
i think that’s my biggest fear; commitment
but not of my abilities- of my partners,
after all, who would want to stay faithful
to me?
it wouldn’t really be a surprise if that happened though- just my luck.
i’m programmed to feel a certain way
no matter how much love you may show me
there will always be apart that thinks you dont

—  nickglendenning, anonymous 219

i like how people are looking at my joseph analysis and either thing its 100% canon or garbage and horrible and that im just trying to make joseph out to be a villain and that i think robert and mary have no flaws themselves

so have another analysis mostly focused on mary’s issues

this is just my theory guys i never stated anything in there to be canon mary could be an alcoholic for a completely different reason that doesnt relate to josephs cheating in the slightest but i find it hard to believe joseph would settle down with someone he’s fully away has a dependency on alcohol and for years outright do nothing about it to help her especially considering hes a christian youth minister.

it might have something to do with mary mentioning “this isnt my first rodeo, it’s my 5th” which hints that mary has given birth 5 times or shes calling joseph a manchild which would be absolutely savage of her to do right in front of his fucking face

so it leads me to believe she’s either

  • insulting joseph
  • has had a 5th child before that she either had to give up or it died at a young age
  • miscarried
  • or if the cult ending is real she gave birth to a literal demon at one point

“but travis, she says she gave birth to only four!!!”

c-sections are a thing you guys, she only really mentioned natural birth when she says “squeezed four little”

if she miscarried, lost the child when it was young, or had to give up one of her children, it would definitely hurt her quite a bit. she would most likely resort to self-destructive behavior as a result.

and ive got a lot of people wondering why mary would become friends with robert knowing that he’s slept with joseph. she must not know, right? otherwise she’d just hate robert, right?

nah man

mary’s smart, she pay attention to her surroundings. but she’s not a snitch. she most like did confront robert about it after she put the pieces together but robert was most likely still distraught after being thrown aside by joseph and she couldn’t help but feel bad for him. mary’s an extremely compassionate woman, i dont feel like after getting a full explanation from robert that she’d hate him.

she knows because she figured out on her own, assumed robert was the one who seduced joseph only to find out that joseph did the same thing to robert he did to the main dad; got close, told you that his marriage was over, slept with you, and turned around after not talking to you for a long time and saying that he and mary were gonna work things out.

mary resents joseph for not telling her what he did with robert, even after being aware that she knows what he’s doing and being aware of his lies, pretending that he’s only being nice and happy around mc dad just to get them into bed with him.

the way he acts really does take a toll on her and her coping mechanism is to drink and flirt with other men. it’s 100% not healthy and not something she should be doing to herself but its the only way she knows how to keep her marriage and really theyre only staying together for the sake of their kids. they’re all still extremely young, one being autistic as well. it’d be way too much on all four of them to divorce just out of the blue, especially when the children clearly love their parents very much even if we dont see mary interacting with he children in the story.

while joseph is off doing all his dates and organizing church stuff she’s most likely with the children. she doesn’t seem like the type to just avoid her parental duties when she knows her husband isnt going to be around. if she knows joseph is going to be home she’ll go and volunteer at the animal shelter, go hang out with robert, or just drink alone. she wants to detach herself from the world and try to keep her mind off of josephs infidelity.

keep in mind in the cult ending dialogue she does say “you ruined my life” we could piece that together with joseph just being a demon and forcing mary into the cult, but it can only tie to where her drinking problem comes in with joseph being the cause for her addiction. she’s fully aware that she shouldn’t be drinking as much as she is, but she’s become dependent on it since she cant leave joseph.

mary has her faults absolutely but to demonize her completely just from your first impressions of her isn’t fair. we get the first impression that joseph is a kind man who will bake with you and bring you cookies, but if we pull back a few layers, we can start to see something sinister in that pink polo shirt just like we can find a kindhearted but hurt woman when we look into mary’s wine glass.

mary definitely loves joseph, she most likely met him when he was still a sailor and they got together at a young age, she probably got pregnant which forced them to get married, lost the child in some way which started her drinking problem and then her husband started being unfaithful before they even had their first child. val is at least in her mid to late twenties, robert lost his wife around when she was getting ready to go to college, so if robert was josephs first offense (which i really dont feel like it is), joseph has been doing this for a very long time when you think about their childrens ages.

all in all please dont hate mary, she has been through a lot you dont have to agree with her coping mechanism but you also shouldn’t throw her under the bus for her self-destructive behavior.

To the Check Please fandom: I love you, but you guys are missing out on something that I think you’ll love. 

It’s called You Could Make a Life 

The latest Check Please update currently has over 12,000 notes on tumblr and the ycmal chapter with the most likes and comments has less than 1000. Based on how great ycmal is, I can only assume that you guys are unaware of its existence or these numbers would be more similar. 

It’s superficially similar to Check Please in that every story is about a gay, male, hockey player and his life on and off the rink. 

Keep reading for my pitch or just go straight here and treat yourself to some fantastic writing 


Ycmal is a series of stories that exist in the same universe but can each be read independently. There are nine (NINE!) complete stories ranging from less than 4000 words to 158,966 words (trust me, when you read this long one, you’ll be grateful for the length). 

In addition, there are so so many short snippets about the characters. Think Ngozi’s extras but this is where the author’s incredible generosity comes in. Most of these stories are based on direct requests from readers and they range from “everybody’s cats!” to bodyguard AUs. If you’re still not convinced then read on. 

To borrow some quotes from that amazing Check Please primer that went around for a long time:

What’s that you like zany casts? 

Dan Riley: The gateway drug and a true romantic 

Marc Lapointe: Shitty’s social justice in an almost Bitty-sized body but with more pretentiousness, and he’s French! (Canadian)

Ulf Larsson: Swedish sex god who makes bad decisions 

“Vinny” Vincent: His teammates call him Bambi and he’s a goalie

Anton Petrov: Angry bub defence man

David Chapman: Seriously his character development is the most amazing thing. You will LOVE him

Jake Lourdes: We voted on what we thought of him and half of the suggestions were some variant of “golden retriever”

This isn’t anywhere nearly all of the characters. I haven’t even touched on the supporting characters and they’re all delightful

Are main character guy and pupil guy going to kiss? (No, nobody stylistically differs by having pupils but they all have pupils so it still fits)

There is pretty much always kissing ;)

How do I read every [ycmal story] ever? 

Good question, we’ve got you covered. 

This is the author’s Archive of Our Own page, which has all the official plotted stories

This is the author’s tumblr, which has all of the extras and also where you should go when you need to yell at someone once you’re crying

OKAY YOU GOT ME (hopefully). Here are a few hours of my life. What do I need to do to get into this rad universe?

Good question, we’ve got you covered. Again, we voted. 

The number one recommendation as long as you’re up for paying for a novel right now is purchasing You Could Make a Life here. This is the namesake of the whole universe, the epic love story of Dan and Marc and a book that I have read approximately six separate times not including the times I’ve read sections. 

The number two recommendation depends on what you’re feeling right now. 

- between the teeth is my personal favourite. It is absolutely incredible in terms of plot and character development, and it has a lot of my favourite characters. (Hold your breath for Kiro people, then you can use the breath you saved to laugh your ass off) This is the long one though so maybe the next suggestion?

- Vinny gets a life would be an amazing first entrance to this universe. Vinny is a super fun narrator and the story and central relationship are both compelling

- In taking it apart has the tagline “He made his bed and then he fucked a teenager in it.” This one earns an Explicit rating on ao3 more than any of the others

- No expectation of returns is the ultimate friends to lovers so if that’s your jam, start here first

Just please don’t start with throw up your fists, throw out your wits because that one can be emotionally tough to get through. 


You guys, Check Please is an incredible and unique work of art but everyone I know that loves ycmal loves Check Please so I think they cater to similar tastes. Give these stories some love and improve your lives. 

Remember how it all started? How we had an inside joke before anyone had even said hello. How it felt like I’d already known you my whole life when we only just started talking. Remember how I got butterflies whenever I spoke to you?

Remember how I gave it all up for you? How I willingly gave you my innocence and you even more willingly took it. How we laid for hours afterwards talking about God and how we’re both going to hell. How I told you things I’ve never told anyone before. Remember how you told me to never catch feelings?

Remember how I caught feelings? How you watched it happen and chose to ignore it. How you pretended not to notice I was completely intoxicated with you. Remember how you ignored the time I drank too much vodka and let everything spill out?

Remember how you told me it was all nothing? How you tore apart my whole life with the words “we had sex, move on” . How you told me to find someone who loved me because you couldn’t. Remember how I swore that was the end?

Remember how three days later I found myself drunk at night in your town? How I left my friends so you could sneak me into your house. How i found your lips on my neck all over again and how we had to be quiet so we didn’t wake up your family upstairs. Remember how when we were finished you screamed at me “never fucking fall in love”

Remember how I fell in love?
Remember how I fell in love?

—  Remember how I fell in love?
Older brother Namjoon+ rest of BTS scolds you PT.9

BTS x Reader

Genre: Angst

Namjoon’s Sister AU

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Originally posted by sweaterpawsjimin

I heard a thump and my first reaction was to, of course, look up. I saw Y/N lying there on the floor, only a foot away from where I was sat. I don’t think I’ve ever got up so quickly in my life. I rushed straight to her side and picked her up in an instant. I felt how damp her clothes were, and also how warm her body was in my arms. She had a fever, she must have caught a cold from being out in the rain.

I opened the door to her apartment and carried her in, through the doors of her room and placed her on top of her bed. She was completely soaked from head to toe, and I couldn’t have her sleep in that. But I couldn’t possibly change her clothes for her. I knew Y/N’s neighbour was a middle aged lady, so I decided to knock on her door and ask if she could change Y/N, and she was more than happy to help.

After she had left I walked into Y/N’s room and saw that she was sleeping peacefully, but her lips were pale and her face was completely drained of colour. I walked out of the room and got a wet towel, wringing it out I walked back into her room and placed it on her forehead. Somewhat hoping for a miracle that it helps. I felt horrid, I did this to her. All of this is my fault, she’s sick because of me. If only I did better, then non of this would have happened, right? I should have protected her like I knew she would have wanted me to. I know she wants us all to, but we didn’t. At first, we were all so close, we took care of her and she took care of us, she always smiled. But as time went by and the fame got bigger, the more distant to her we all became. We didn’t even know that she was suffering, and we did nothing to help but instead we made it worse for her. Much worse. I felt guilty as I took one last look at her and left her room, leaving the door ajar.

I walked into her kitchen, it’s been a while since I’ve stopped by and actually visited her. Everything was placed neatly, so tidy and clean as usual. Until I started to rummage through her refrigerator and cupboards, looking for ingredients to make her something to eat for when she wakes up. I’m a horrible cook, I already knew that but I was always told to take medication with food and Y/N has to take medication so for her sake, I will attempt at cooking at try not to burn the whole apartment complex down.

Y/N’s p.o.v

I was woken up by the sounds of crashing and banging in my kitchen. I opened my eyes and saw that the room was still spinning. I realised that there was a wet towel on my forehead, I was no longer in my wet clothes and I was tucked into bed. Who in the world changed me out of my clothes? My head was still hurting, to the point I had no strength. There could be a pervert or a thief in my house right now and I wouldn’t be able to do anything about it, and it scared me to know that someone was in my house right now and I was completely weak. 

When I gathered up enough strength, I slowly got up. Holding a pair of sharp tweezers I made my way towards the kitchen. I saw the back of someone wearing a black hoodie, some blue ripped jeans and white socks. He was holding a knife and was hammering it against my countertop. 

“Who are you and what are you doing in my apartment?” I shouted, holding my tweezers out in front of me, as if they could do any damage. By the time I could get close enough to jab the person with my tweezers, they could have thrown the knife at me. 

The man turned around still holding the knife in his hand. I was shocked to see the person standing in front of me. “Joonie?”


Who thought it was someone else? lolol ~ PT.10 anyone?