then again it was 3am and everything's funny then

I wish he would text me first, i wish he would call me first, I wish I was number one in his book, I wish I was with him right now because I feel like total shit and it isn’t even funny how much I wish he could look at me with those loving eyes again, it makes me sad in to just think of what we had together and knowing it might not be like that in the future. He was the only one I could really rely on and tell everything to but some where along the path I lost myself and I lost him, now I am laying down awake at 3am writing in tumblr about what I wish I still had with him.