thelostgeek

urban-passione asked:

What would the name of your autobiography be? Also, I love you blog! Haha

FINALLY A QUESTION!

Hmm, I have no clue. Maybe The Lost Geek (like my URL) . Just because I’m lost in the teenage age and well, my blog explains my personality :P

And thanks!

I’m sorry I’m not the one you’re looking for.
I’m sorry for not trusting so easily,
Past experiences can break a person.
I’m sorry I’m clingy,
I’m afraid of people hurting me.
I’m sorry I talk too much,
Nobody usually listens to me.

I added this page to my blog, just in case any of my followers needed help :)

Are you thinking of self harming, or even worse, suicide? You think nobody around you cares about you? You think your family, your friends, your school, or your job would be completely fine if you were gone? Think again!

Your Parents - Your parents will find you in the room where you did it. If it was pills or alcohol, they’ll just think you’re sleeping. They’ll go to you and call your name, but you won’t budge. They’ll say it louder and start shaking you. They’ll realize that something is wrong and start to panic. They’ll call 911, but it’s too late. They’ll think it’s their fault or what they could have done. They’ll have sleepless nights. There will never be another good holiday without you. Your birthday will be a grim day at the cemetery with tears and crys. Instead of presents and cake, there’ll be stones and flowers. Your parents lives will have changed forever.

Your Friends/School - Your friends will get the call or see online that their friend has passed due to suicide. Some will send out a post saying their condolences to your family. But others will be in a ball, weeping at the fact that they won’t see you the next day or they will deny it until they hear it from your parents. They’ll remember all of the good memories you created and cry at them. Your friends will be at your funeral laughing at these memories and cry that you won’t be there to make anymore. You may not think that you have “friends", but in reality there must be people who like you. Their lives will change forever.

The point of all this is to say no matter what, don’t commit to an action that you can’t take back. If you ever need someone to talk to, please send me a message in my ask box and I’ll try to help you the best I can. If you don’t think I can help, then here are some hotlines you can call to talk to someone -

Suicide Hotline - 1-800-784-2433

Trevor Lifeline - 1-866-488-7386

Self-Injury Hotline - 1-800-366-8288

Sexual Assault Hotline - 1-800-656-4673

Alcohol and Drug Helpline - 1-800-572-5344 

This post is for the people that have fucked me over for about a month or two now. You know exactly who you are, and at this point you can’t fucking deny it.

Thanks for hurting me like this. It’s taught me not to trust easily

To the ones who leaked a secret, thanks for that too. Again, trust issues I guess. I guess I’ll just be a bottle with all of my emotions and wait till I explode. That will be pretty, wont it?

Thanks for inviting me to things even though you don’t like me. Sounds like a good idea to hurt someone.

Thanks for helping me waste $200 in food that you chose to come and eat and the next day you invite me to somewhere because others were spending the night at my house. 

And last but not least, thanks for lying and leading me on and not having balls to tell me things.

What I have to say to it? Fuck you….. Thats it. Fuck yourselves. And you know exactly who the hell you are. 

Someone asked me the numbers in a fan mail, so I’ll just answer them out here so others can see how I answer if they are curious: 

1: What would you name your future daughter?

I never thought of girl names for a future daughter of mine. Maybe Ellie or Anna or maybe even Lalia. 

16: Think back five months ago, were you single?

I’ve been single my whole life :(

23: Have you ever been to Paris?

No, but ironic because my school had a trip to Paris and my best friend went.

42: Where did you get the shirt/sweatshirt you’re wearing?

The one in my default I got from Jack Threads

It’s weird to see my mom saying that she has a straight son when I post things on Facebook and when her friends ask. Now I wonder if she has any idea or if she’s completely oblivious.