“I am a grenade,“ I said again. "I just want to stay away from people and read books and think and be with you guys because there’s nothing I can do about hurting you: You’re too invested, so just please let me do that, okay?

― John Green, The Fault in Our Stars

“Maybe reading was just a way to make her feel less alone, to keep her company. When you read something you are stopped, the moment is stayed, you can sometimes be there more fully than you can in your real life.” 

― Helen Humphreys, Coventry

“Maybe this is why we read, and why in moments of darkness we return to books: to find words for what we already know.” 

― Alberto Manguel, A Reading Diary: A Passionate Reader’s Reflections on a Year of Books

Saving because (a.) I would like my summer 2014 to be more unforgettable, never said that my summer 2013 was boring - it was really fun too - but I guess there would just be a greater word to define that summer if I had more money to spend. (b.) It’s not a good feel being broke every single time (c.) Future purposes (a car, perhaps?) (d.) It’s a good thing to have savings plus I’m not a really big fan of bank accounts with I-do-not-know reasons. Discipline & patience… yes. (e.) Lastly, it’s just that I love the jar and I think my savings would be good in it. Yep, I’m lame.

Being inactive for a week already because school presentations and school work are all eating me up at once and migraine has been a big problem since Monday. Also, I never blogged about it, but yep.. I had my USTET last Sunday! It was okay, but I’m still praying for the best results. Please do too.. Thanks in advance! Back on being an inactive blogger for a week, I’ve made a promise to myself that I should really learn to time manage because blogging’s a really big part of my life. It makes me more of who I really am. To that, I’ll post the first part of Dear Emmette tomorrow… Friday night! 

For the past few weeks, I’ve been buying different mags from Booksale & National. I’m on power saving mode on reading books due to a lot of school works and it’s super hard to juggle everything only with 2 hands. So by this time, I’m into something very light. Magazines. I just bought old issues like Chalk & Yummy from Booksale and monthly issues of Reader’s Digest because I really want to continue reading random stuff even tho I’m busy, so mags are really a good cover up for books. Learning a lot through these stuff plus the different entries/sections, especially Chalk, made me more inspired to continue blogging. Yeeeeh

10:16 PM - Gilas won by 30 points over Kazakhstan!! Watching Gilas’ game every night with my brother and grandpa became a routine already. By the way, today was very tiring because we went to Alabang Town to Festival Mall to The District. We watched Percy Jackson at Festi Mall tho I really didn’t appreciate the movie. Don’t judge! I’m a fan of the book series, but I think the books were just written so good so it was really hard for me to appreciate the movie. Had bad vibes the entire time because of some family reasons. I was crying the whole time we’re driving back home because I felt so bad and stressed with what’s happening blah blah. I have to admit that this is the saddest birthday ever.  I don’t want to talk about it. :-) Yay

10:29 PM - 1 and a half hour left before I turn 16. Sixteen sounds like a scary age to me. 8 months left and I’ll be entering a new season of my life… Hola, college! Every part of me is not yet ready for this. I just don’t think I am. Yes, college sounds crazy but High School gave me so much to remember. Life, why? Watching the last game for tonight, Quatar VS Korea. Whoever wins tonight will be meeting Gilas for the semi-finals tomorrow night! 

10:51 PM - Didn’t know that it was really boring to watch a basketball game if I have no bias. So I am now focusing on this blog post + Listening to chill music. You are the strength of my life, Lord / It doesn’t matter what may come my way. Thinking of all the problems that “we’re” facing today and believing that God’s doing something bigger. This might be hard but I know that we can face this one. We may lose everything, but as long as we have Jesus… we will take heart. By the way, I passed by the new FullyBooked in Alabang a while ago… who wants to come with me, please?

11:09 PM - Realized how awesome/heartbreaking my Aug 2012 - 2013 was. It was actually bitter-sweet year, I guess. I had my first & last prom. This was when I last saw my grandfather. I gave up my dream as a CAT officer so I can run as the president of SBO. Lost the elections. Elected as the president of Seniors’ Org. Ignite 2013. Received a gift of healing. AJPM. Hannimals. The hardest month for SFX. Tough times came but Jesus helped me to go through it/is still helping me to go through it.

11:50 PM - Last 10 minutes of being a 15 year old. Am I ready? Yeah, I should be. Can’t do anything about it. Have no plans for tomorrow.. most probably, I’ll go to a coffee shop and chill. Have to release these bad vibes through silence and pastries. 

12:05 AM - Starting to receive Happy Birthday tweets from people yay. Hola, I’m 16 na!! Can’t believe it. *drama drama* 

12:30 AM - sige lang sige walang imposible. My eyes are feeling tired na. Reminder to self: Physics, Math, VG Material and LG material tomorrow! Should I say goodnight or watch another episode of FRIENDS?

7:20 AM - woke up and I’m still 16 years old. Yep, I watched another episode of FRIENDS last night before going to dreamland, tho I didn’t finish an episode because I was really really sleepy. Dad’s prolly in the plane right now and my mom attended to work. I have nothing to do, horaaa! Will celebrate my birthday with…. hahaha, I have no plans. :-) I have to finish my schoolworks before getting out of the house. Yayyy okay, that’s all… my 16th in seconds/minutes/hours.