thebandsthatsavedme

They saved me

A few summers ago I had a really horrible break up. I had been going out with the guy for about a year. Then one day he decided he was going to tell me how he really felt about me. He told me he hated the way my body looked and that he wasn’t attracted to me at all. Sadly I gave everything to this kid and when he told me that it just ripped my heart out. I couldn’t handle anything. I hated myself so much for looking the way I do, all I wanted to do was die. I wanted love so bad I made myself an object for people to use (sexually) when they didn’t love me I never thought I could know what love was again. So I started smoking weed and drinking and cutting . Nothing helped how bad I felt about myself. I was scrolling through my Facebook newsfeed one night because I wanted to get my mind off things so I wouldn’t think about cutting or drinking or getting high. My friend mitchie shared a link to a song called “when you can’t sleep at night” by Of Mice and Men. So I figured I’d listen to it. I listened to it over and over again, I sobbed my eyes out for such a long time. That song showed my that even though you are broken, someone will push through with you and love you, that someone who has made the same mistakes as you can empathize and help you through, instead of just sympathize and tell you to get over it. That was the first time that a band ever saved me from myself. And it was not the last time. I love Of Mice and Men, not just because it’s good to fit in somewhere but because I owe them my life. I love you guys <3 and I couldn’t be more thankful. 2 years after the first time you saved me, I’m successful, I’m getting straight b’s in my classes, I’m on the college level winter guard team( I’m a junior in high school) and I’m a co-captain of my schools cheerleading team. I couldn’t have done it without them and they push me to never stand down, and always strive towards the person I want to be! I love you so so so much <3 I hope some day I can meet them and show them how much of and impact they made on my life.