Woke up so overwhelmed with messages from all of you. I have over 40 messages that I promise I’ll reply to, just today I’m going to be with my family. I do appreciate all of the kind messages thank you so much for the support. Sorry for giving into the negative anons. I’m incredibly stressed, but seeing all the support and love has been incredibly beautiful. Thank you to every single one of you who has taken the time to care and send a message. This here is my mom, one of the strongest women ever. Today I’m with her and the rest of my family celebrating my sister. This is hard, the hardest thing I’ve ever had to deal with, and I know people want to criticize me for being active, but know I was alone yesterday, I needed the distraction, I needed to stay away from my thoughts. I love you all, and thank you for everything. Peace and love to everyone. 

anonymous asked:

I'm just happy I have a blessed amulet that all the women in my family get because we are spirit sensitive. I'm sure I'd have WAY more creepy stuff otherwjse



Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.