It’s close approaching the anniversary of Maria Stark’s death, post cacw,
and Tony dreams about one of the more comforting memories he has of her,
always brought to the surface in times when he feels most vulnerable.
So while researching about the disorder, I started seeing quite a few correlations between A Certain Fave™ of mine and the symptoms that were shown on some of the websites I visited. For Example:
Coffee/ caffeine works to actually help calm down and regulate the mood, helping focus and productivity
Two settings- hyperfixation or complete lack of focus. A person with ADHD can completely lose themselves to a task they are engaged in/ worried about, forgetting to eat, sleep or generally perform basic human functions until it is completed. And then, on the other end of the spectrum- they will also find it difficult to focus AT ALL on things they are not interested in, choosing instead to zone out and lose concentration very easily.
Constant fidgeting, with anything and everything.
Conversations moving faster than anyone else can keep up with, hopping from point A to Z in the space of 0.3 seconds
Forgetfulness and general memory imbalances. Either perfect or not there at all.
Reckless behaviour and lack of sense of danger.
Can also manifest itself in forms of anxiety
Difficulty with socialising- often talking very loudly and jumping in or interrupting because they lack impulse control
And listen. Listen, okay- we know canononically that these are all Very Much Tony Stark Things; hyperfocusing on some tasks and then completely losing interest in others, reckless and impulsive behaviours and using coffee as a tool to focus or help productivity are just some of the FEW common examples. So, y’know, I’m headcanoning this.
tony stark and james rhodes have been married for like 30 years where the fuck have y'all been?? they’re married. they fly together. they have morning coffee together. they work on tech together. they have stupid arguments about pop culture. they fuck. they married before they were superheroes and now they’re the hottest super couple ever and y'all are sleeping on it. tf.
Hey, a mostly fluffy fic, isn’t that exciting? I know that it is a little odd to share a New Year fic in April, but I was going to share it before, and then life just got in the way. But, I didn’t want to wait until the end of the year for this, as it kind of sets up for some of the really emotional stuff I have planned.
Anyway, I hope that you like it regardless, and if you have any feedback, please let me know!
On New Year’s Eve, Tony of course threw a party. It was quite a bash, even compared to the previous years. You didn’t ask why he had gone so overboard with it, but you had an idea.
You enjoyed as much of the party as you could before needing to take a break.
“Do you want me to come with you Doll?” Bucky asked softly. But, he was having such a good time chatting with Steve and Nat, you didn’t want to tear him away.
“No, that’s ok. I’ll be back soon,” you smiled. Bucky took your hand and kissed it. Then he nodded.
You decided against going to your apartment, opting instead to go outside and find a quiet space to look at the stars.
You felt a familiar feeling as you approached your destination.
“Tony, are you ok?” you asked.
“Oh, (Y/N). Yeah, I’m fine. Never better,” he replied noncommittally. You knew he was lying, but instead of saying so, you sat down silently on the bench he was sitting on.
“Are you enjoying the party?” he asked you.
“Yes, I am. I just needed to take a little break.”
After a few minutes of silence, you felt Tony rest his head on your shoulder. You were hit with a stronger wave of guilt and regret, emotions that had latched on to him months before, and didn’t seem to want to let go.
“What do you think 2016 is going to be like?” Tony asked, not lifting his head.
“Hmmm… I’m not sure really. This century is still pretty new to me, and it keeps throwing surprises at me. All I can say for sure is that it will be a year, and together, we can get through anything.”
“You know, you’re the only person who hasn’t blamed me for Ultron,” he stated matter-of-factly.
“How can I blame you? You were just doing what you thought was right. You had the best intentions. And it wasn’t your fault it went wrong…” you replied.
“Everyone else seems to have a different opinion.”
“Tony, the others have been able to move on. They don’t hold a grudge. They understand. You need to stop torturing yourself.”
“Haven’t you given me that advice before?”
“Probably. You are exceptionally stubborn.”
You heard a small chuckle.
“Tony, please try to forgive yourself. If you feel like you need to make up for your past mistakes, you can’t do it by punishing yourself.”
“I do need to… make amends. But every now and then, I need to be pushed in the right direction… will you help me?” he asked, now looking at you intently.
“You know I’d do anything for you Tony. You’re the closest thing I’ve ever had to a… father. I couldn’t let you wander too far…” you replied with some awkwardness.
You knew how he felt about you. You were like a daughter to him. You had known it for a long time, and implicitly, you returned his affection. Tonight was the first time you had said anything explicitly.
“I don’t deserve you (Y/N).”
“Trust me, it’s the other way around,” you replied sincerely, placing a hand on his knee.
“Is that a new ring?” Tony asked, taking your right hand and pulling it closer to his face to inspect it. You knew he was uncomfortable, and changing the subject.
“Yes,” you smiled, watching him. “I was going to bring it up with you in a more… private setting.”
Tony raised his eyebrow quizzically and glanced around. There were people outside, but they were a little ways off.
“Come on (Y/N), you can’t drop that on me with no explanation. What’s going on?”
You took a deep breath, becoming nervous. What if he said no? What if he thought you were being stupid?
“Well, James proposed to me on Christmas Eve,” you began explaining.
“Congratulations!” Tony exlaimed, pulling you into a hug.
“Thanks. I know we’re already married, but he wanted to marry again, since we’re both so different,” you smiled down at your new ring fondly. It really was beautiful.
“That makes sense. It’s a sweet gesture coming from Metal Man,” he replied, mixing an approving nod with his special brand of humor.
“I agree… anyway, the reason I was going to talk to you about it…” you hesitated. Why was this so hard? “I was wondering if you would… would you walk me down the aisle?”
Tony was very rarely speechless. It was a strange thing on him.
“You really want me to do that?” he asked disbelievingly after a few beats.
“Yes Tony. I really do. There’s no one else I want for this.”
“Of course I will (Y/N)!”
“Thank you!” you exclaimed, throwing your arms haphazardly around him. He hugged you back tightly, and you knew he was feeling some of the weight fall off of his shoulders.
When you heard someone call out “the countdown is starting soon”, you pulled away.
“Come on then!” Tony said happily, standing and grasping your hand. He then gently pulled you back into the party to find your husband.
By the time you came to a standstill in front of Bucky, and Tony had rushed off to find Pepper, you were giggling.
“Everything alright (Y/N)?” Bucky yelled over the numbers being shouted excitedly by the crowd, his hand on your face, thumb gently stroking your cheek.
“Definitely Love,” you replied as loudly as you could. “Everything is…” you glanced Tony dancing confidently with Pepper as he partook in the countdown, “perfect.”
Bucky smiled, and when everyone cheered “HAPPY NEW YEAR” he pulled you to himself, and kissed you. And you kissed back, feeling that 2016 might just be a good year for you.
Clint: [drugged up after surgery] Tony: [came to visit] Clint: Who are you? [attempts to strike sexy pose and fails. Loudly whispers] You’re hot! Tony: [trying not to laugh] I-I’m Tony. Clint:
Well, Tony… [drools a bit] You must have cleaned your pants with Windex, cause I can see myself in them latter tonight. [failed wink] Tony: [dying of laughter] Yo- you realize- we’re already dating?! Clint: Yes! Worked like a charm!