So, I have very bad acne on my face. Since I don’t wear any makeup to cover it up- as that would make it worse- it’s always noticeable. Well, there were these kids- probably 5 at the oldest- at work the other day. One of them saw me as I was working, pointed at me and exclaimed: “Look mommy! She’s got polka dots!”
I immediately wanted to hide in shame. The mom didn’t say anything, and I walked away. Later I saw the kids again, and the same one pointed at me and said the same thing.
This time the mom responded, and, without looking at me or missing a beat, she said:
“Yes, she’s very beautiful, isn’t she?” And the kids replied:
“Yeah! Very beautiful!”
I went from wanting to cry of shame to almost crying of happiness. I hope that mom knows how much that means to me, that she would call me beautiful.
I see so many people talk about the scene in UC4 when Nate’s going on about Avery’s plan and Elena’s just LOOKING at him. And they use so many words to describe her expression there, all of which I think are accurate: love, sadness, affection, amusement and more.
But I’ve never seen the one thing that I personally see most of all mentioned: understanding. So I’m gonna talk about it for a bit, feel free to ignore me.
I think this is the scene where she realizes that this is where a good portion of Nate belongs- exploring places, discovering history, unearthing secrets. And that they were wrong to try to keep that out of their life.
That this very thing he was doing now was one of the first things she loved about him, and still one of the biggest. That this was what brought them together to begin with; it’s where they connected. And she missed the adventure, which was something she’d had in most of her careers before now, too. She understood how Nate was feelia ng and that they both needed something like this, for themselves and their relationship.
I think it’s that scene that leads to starting her show up again.
Since it's Chuuya's birthday could you please do a top 5 Chuuya's moments?
Of course my dear, what a perfect way to celebrate the birthday of my favorite character!
1. When he used corruption. Well, of course. This episode (and the chapter) despite the soukokuness was all about Chuuya and, as tainted as they may be, it showed his true colors. I’m emotionally attached to Corruption because it’s the testament of how selfless Chuuya is, how he’s willing to sacrifice himself and putting his life in the hands of another person (that partner he hates so much) in a blink of an eye if this means saving someone or fulfilling a mission. Thinking about how many times he did that in the past physically pains me. He didn’t know if he could have trusted Dazai on this, Dazai could have left him to die this time, it could have been all a plan to force him to use Corruption and then take him out…and yet. And yet he trusted him, once more. Despite the betrayal, he will always trust him. WHAT THE FUCK.
2. When he was ready to go against his orders to avenge his subordinates. Mori told him to bring Q back alive, but still Chuuya wasn’t going to stop Dazai. This shows how much Chuuya cares about his subordinates, how he doesn’t consider people as just pawns in his hands, how their deaths affected him more than he’s willing to show, how human and full of emotions he is. This moment speaks louder about what kind of person Chuuya is. He’s not an executive for nothing, he’s loyal and one of the most powerful members of the Mafia, but if you wrong someone under his direct protection, you’re dead to him.
3. When he went to visit the ADA’s secret base. A moment in which I’m Kenji tbh. I LOVED HIM during this scene, everything was quite frankly iconic. Mori telling him that he has “enough force to crush the ADA” alone (HONESTLY), the flirting with Ranpo (wink wink manga readers the next chapter is gonna be GOOD), his overconfident attitude, the fact that Dazai canonically talks about Chuuya, “WHO WANTS TO FIGHT AGAINST GRAVITY” (*Katniss voice*: I VOLUNTEER AS A TRIBUTE), the fact that he did defeat the ADA alone with nothing but his manipulative skills. He does have so much strength, a strength that doesn’t lie just in his physical abilities.
4. When the almost killed Dazai. As I already said in my top 5 soukoku moments, this is such a powerful moment, the cherry on top of a perfect introduction scene. You know I’m not the fondest person when it comes to Dazai, so for a split second I almost hoped for Chuuya to kill him regardless, but I already know he would have never done it for real. Still, I can’t help but think how liberating almost stabbing him in his throat must have been for Chuuya, he finally let out a little bit of a frustration that he had inside (that’s why he was there in the first place. After four years he’s still bugged by him, he still wants some sort of revenge, he still needs a closure Dazai is not willing to give him). But you can say you’ll kill him all you want, my little Chuuya, but will you really? I don’t think so because despite everything you still care and love him so much it’s almost painful to watch.
5. His every single appearance in the official art is my favorite moment, but this one surely takes the cake. This is such a relaxed version of Chuuya, without his signature clothes, his hat, his choker, his constantly worried and angry glare. He’s simply impossible to look away from. (WHERE IS THE MODELING CONTRACT THO)
- bonus: a special mention goes to bsd wan Chuuya, he’s simply the cutest (and the most relatable)
Customer highlights from working at the ice cream store today:
An incredibly, incredibly polite young southern man who began every sentence with “could I trouble you for…” and ended it with “thank you, ma’am” (ex. “could I trouble you for a taste of the telltale chocolate? thank you ma’am.”)
A tiny girl with pigtails who watched with rapt attention while I made waffle cones and then told me with complete sincerity that I was “the coolest.”
A woman with sick tattoos who told me to put “as much chocolate fudge as is legally allowed” on her brownie sundae.