i wrote this the night before thanksgiving ‘17

the youngest of my two brothers
to alert my parents
that he has
in fact
been dating a girl for three weeks.
i sat next to him
unsure of myself
suddenly forgetting
how to move my hands
swallow my breath
where to look.
my parents
towards the end of our family meal
recounted the story of their engagement
giggles and hoots
we laugh at their absurd and endearing stories
and yet
i still find myself
fumbling the ball.
there is a high pitch bellow
ringing in my ears
i look around me
each face lined with laughter
excitement sitting in their bellies
and i realize
i am alone in my discomfort.
i am alone.
i read an article this morning
my mind swirling amongst the words of the author
poetry is language of weakness
not of self
of weakness.

i am alone
and i am writing this in weakness.
yesterday a boy at my school held a door open for me.
my jaw returning to its home
thank you
i dare not look into his eyes
or else he will see
what i keep hidden from the world
i am lonely.
i cannot
will not
let the imagery of a male servicing me in a time of need
be a depiction of something other than myself
saving me.
i am alone.
i will be alone.
tears burn behind my eyes as i write this.
i quickly fix my hat
turn my stare
avoid my parents
my brothers
their girlfriends
i cannot let them know
allow them to detect my hunger for more.


it’s… LONELY.  to be more powerful than any man you know, and have to live like a shadow.  to be SPECIAL, and have to pretend you’re a fool.  i know how it feels, i… understand.   /   IND. MERLIN FROM BBC MERLIN,  WRITTEN BY MARTA   /   WARLOCK

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numerous other issues aside, something that /really/ bothers me about Heinlein is his tendency to have his protags refer to anyone not in line with his specific idea of ideal personhood as ‘subhuman’, 'monsters,’ 'defectives’, etc, basically anything that dehumanizes someone he uses it

and we’re not talking about like…dictators here, we’re talking about, as a sample, trans people (yes, really, literally, not subtext), people with congenital disabilities, people who don’t want to go to war, people who don’t like sex, and people getting government assistance

so you can see why this bothers me


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Me, remembering I was 15 when I started this blog-

Reasons why the Harry Potter movies really messed up the Marauders

- Let’s start with the most obvious point : their age.

All actors who play characters from the Marauders’ era are way too old. Lily and James died at the age of 21 but in Harry Potter and the Philosopher’s Stone, Geraldine Somerville and Adrian Rawlins were respectively 34 and 41 years old.

Having older actors play Harry’s parents totally negates the fact that they were just kids when they died (and also that they were just kids when they had Harry, and considering that they were in the middle of a war, Harry was most certainly an accident, but let’s not get into that right now). It makes their death less tragic, plus it’s just not accurate ok.

These guys are also way too old

Anyone who attended Hogwarts at the same time as James and Lily would have been in their 30s during Harry’s years. That’s just not the case of Alan Rickman, Gary Oldman, David Thewlis and Timothy Spall. Again, the whole tragedy of their lives revolves around the fact that they never got to grow old (or even to grow up in Sirius’ case, but again, that’s another issue/theory). Snape was only 38 when he died, but Alan Rickman was 65 in Deathly Hallows part 2. Now, I love Alan Rickman’s portrayal of Snape as much as the next person, but this age thing still bothers me a lot.

- Another very obvious point : Lily’s eyes

I mean, how do you even screw up so badly? How many times is it mentioned that Lily had green eyes, just like Harry’s? First of all, neither Harry nor the various actresses who played Lily had green eyes, but they hired an actress to play young Lily whose eyes didn’t even match Daniel Radcliffe’s?

I know the fandom has been talking about this for ages, and we should all have moved on by now, but it’s such an important part of the story, I don’t think I can ever get over it.

- On to point number 3 : THIS

James Potter was indeed on the Gryffindor Quidditch team, but certainly not in 1970, as he attended Hogwarts from 1971 to 1979, and as a Chaser, NOT a Seeker.

- Should we even talk about this?

First of all, those two actors look nothing alike, and second of all, there is no way in hell that this is what James Potter looked like. Everything, from his hair (James is supposed to have dark, messy hair) to his face is off. I don’t know who that is but it’s not James Potter.

- Now, onto a less obvious point : the Marauder’s Map.

I’m sure we all have wondered, at some point or another, why the hell Fred and George never noticed Peter Pettigrew on the map. After all, the name would have been following Percy, and then Ron around all the time.

Well, I do have a theory as to why Peter’s name would not have appeared on the map, but the movies ruined that.

Let me explain. In the movie, Harry sees Peter Pettigrew’s name on the map, but in the book, the only person who sees Peter’s name is Remus.

My theory is that the Marauders, when they made the map, made it so that no one could see their names on it, other than the Marauders themselves. That way, if it fell into the wrong hands (say, a professor’s, or Snape’s), that person couldn’t use it to know their whereabouts. But the other Marauders could see their friends’ names so they always knew where to find each other.

That would explain why Remus was able to see Peter on the map, but Fred and George never noticed the man who literally slept in the same bed as their brother.

Again, since Harry sees Peter on the map in the movie, that theory can no longer be applied, and the plot hole remains.

- Finally, my last, and most important point :

The Marauders’ story is literally NEVER talked about in the movies?? Nowhere does it say that Moony, Wormtail, Padfoot and Prongs were in fact Remus, Peter, Sirius and James. Nowhere does it say that THEY were the Marauders. Nowhere does it say how or why they became animagi. They don’t talk about the Prank, or why the Whomping Willow was planted, or where the Shrieking Shack got its reputation as a haunted house. Why is Harry’s Patronus a stag? Who tf knows. Someone who never read the books would probably be very confused about the whole Marauders thing, because there. is. literally. nothing. about. them. in. the. movies.

(I’m mad.)

Inktober #18: Cooking

Harry done with Dudley’s shit, year 1. Book purists will point out that the number of presents in the book is different but I can only think of the perfection that is the delivery of that line in the movie.



“I did it for you.”

worship, an epiphany, and hair