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Confessions of a Fannibal

I came to the Hannibal game a little late (by about 3 years). But my god, am I in deep. I’ve never been a fan of anything specifically. I’ve always intensely loved shows, anime, manga and films for a day or two, but then my short-lived obsession begins to fade, it consumes me until I sleep, then I wake up a move on. But I can say with 100% certainty I am a Fannibal. This show is changing my life, I’ve spent every spare moment I’ve had in the last few weeks googling ‘Fannibal’ and 'Hannigram’, and haven’t been able to hold a conversation without mentioning its name. So rather than sitting and consuming silently, I need to be involved in this show, it’s all I can think about.

As I re-watch all 3 seasons I’ll blog about each episode. Kicking of with where it all started… episode 1.

Chicago Med  {Sentence Starters}

  • “What you’re doing may be legal, but it sure as hell isn’t right.”
  • “He’s given me so much. How do I ever pay that back?”
  • “You’re a good doctor. The world needs good doctors.”
  • “Sometimes we want to believe something so badly, we ignore the reality in front of us.”
  • “I promise, from now on, I’ll never argue with you. “
  • “I know the last few weeks have been challenging, and I’d be lying if I said the months to come will be any easier.”
  • “And that’s how we make our decisions? By how much it’s gonna cost us?”
  • “I’m – I’m not good with suffering. It’s just…too much up there.”
  • “You don’t have to show me how smart you are, and you don’t have to please me. Just learn.”
  • “It just always seemed like that was what I was gonna do.”
  • “Why do you always take things out on me?”
  • “There’s this new study out, says dating can lead to marriage.”
  • “Wonderful, the guy enforcing the rules is the one who’s always breaking them.”
  • “I know how to do it. I just couldn’t do it in there.”
  • “It takes practice, that’s all.”
  • “You might be surprised how things you once thought were soooo important become less so as you get older.”
  • “I guess we’re all given our measure of suffering.”
  • “Damned if you do and damned if you don’t. I admit, it’s a bit of a double standard. What can I say?”

I’m 24 today!

Honestly I feel like I’ve come out of a coma these last few weeks, maybe days. Years of repression, years of insisting to myself that I was content with working a minimum wage job, of saying I was always ‘waiting’ to go to school until I knew what I wanted. But whenever I thought about that nebulous future my mind would shy away, shut down and I would just be content again, because like Dwayne Johnson said about mopping floors: this is something I could control.

But then, there I was, days before my 24th birthday, having a bit of an existential crisis and then it hits me with this ringing clarity that has punched a hole through these emotional brick walls I’ve put up.


I remember my earliest experience going to the theatres to see Spy Kids. Well, I remember after it, anyways. I remember my mom asking me why I was so sad, because I remember feeling miserable. I also very clearly remember saying “because I want to do that, I want to be up there.”

I have wanted to act since I was six or seven years years old, I’ve been dressing myself up and putting on performances for my family, experimenting with makeup and filming myself, doing character based photography and short films.

Those last few things the most recent work of mine that you are probably all familiar with.

If you’re still with me reading this then I want to say thank you to you all. Your likes and reblogs mean so much to me.

People would say, do graphic design! Go into game work and I was like hey yeah maybe? Because The Dream, acting, seemed unattainable. I pursued acting a lot in my early teens, after a year and a halves worth of extreme illness. I took courses, multiple ones, and I ate it up. But then reality stepped in and said you need a job, you need to support yourself.

So I got a minimum wage job that slowly but surely reminded me, day after day, year after year as my anxiety and depression got nice and cozy in my subconscious, that this is all I would ever be good for.

But that desire to be a part of the film industry never went away and it started to leak through in different ways: cosplay makeup, prop work, trying to put myself into the role of the character I cosplayed, trying to SHOW that in my photos. The expressions, the posing.

And then I got a great camera and a light box and an editing program with the help of a very good friend. But I let it sit for half a year before I tentatively retrieved it from the basement, and started to use it for the photography and vids you’re seeing on my blog.

The realization that yes, i have always wanted to act, have always wanted to immerse myself in the work and the dedication it takes to move up in that business, my skill sets, my people watching, my voice training. It’s always been there, that intense longing to be a part of the industry that has shaped my entire life.

It was, as my great friend put it, my soul having an immune system response to finally understanding that this was always end game.

I’ve cried more over the past few days than I have in the past four years, even when my grandma passed. I feel like a floodgate has opened and I’m being consistently buffeted by these feelings and realization. Some of them don’t even have a form or a direct reason. I’m just FEELING so much it’s overwhelming me.

I am also conflicted on where to even start moving forward. But I know what I want now, I know what I’ve always truly wanted.

Commander of the Week

Queen Marchesa

Sorry I haven’t done one of these for a while, so this one’s a little bit late. University Preparations have taken up most of my last few weeks and I haven’t really had time to write anything or even build or play any new decks. This one is my favorite multiplayer deck at the moment and it utilizes one of my favorite archetypes; Pillowfort. Quick note: I think Leovold is cool, but I don’t think I will ever put him together, because I have only seen one unpleasant strategy for him, without much deviation in that strategy. It’s always, tutor for Teferi’s Puzzle Box or Jace’s Archivist and then, when Leovold’s in play you have no hand for the rest of the game and then he’s almost impossible to deal with. I find Queen Marchesa makes a much more enjoyable game.

Taking the Throne 

 Queen Marchesa, is among one of the cards that introduces a Monarch to the game. It’s an interesting mechanic, because after one has been introduced there is a monarch for the duration of the game. I have managed to maintain the crown for an entire game before. Other good cards that introduce a Monarch include Protector of the Crown, Custodi Lich, Marchesa’s Decree and Skyline Despot among others. These cards will immediately give you the crown without dirtying your hands. There are cards in other colors that make you the monarch, but they are not relevant here.

The Goal: Keeping the Crown 

Having the crown has one benefit on its own, you can draw an additional card in your end step. Other cards make having the crown better and then there are some that improve when an opponent has it. Protector of the Crown and its cousin from Ravnica; Palisade Giant are both ways of preventing the crown from being taken from you by absorbing all the damage dealt to you. Marchesa’s Decree along with similar cards like Blood Reckoning and Hissing Miasma, provide a small deterrent for attacking you, by causing your opponents to lose life whenever a creature they control attacks you. Of course then there are some of my favorite cards; Sphere of Safety, Ghostly Prison and Norn’s Annex that also prevent large numbers of creatures from attacking you. With all this defense you will never lose that crown. 

Extra Protection: Big Blockers and Fog  

I did think about putting Fog abilities in here and I may add a few of the better ones, but I currently don’t have any in my deck. I do have some creatures that get bigger when blocking creatures. Some good examples include Guardian of the Gateless, Hundred-Handed One and Fumiko, the Lowblood. Kazuul, Tyrant of the Cliffs is a good creature to stop creatures without trample, as it pumps out 3/3 ogre tokens for each attacking creature unless its controller pays 3 mana for each attacking creature to prevent it, which is really good for stopping whole barrages of creatures. 

Royal Colors

 Marchesa’s new colors allow for some really big support creatures such as Angel of Despair, Ashen Rider, Archangel Avacyn and Gisela, Blade of Goldnight. It also allows for some great removal such as Anguished Unmaking, Utter End, Merciless Eviction and Terminate. It’s for these reasons that I love Mardu so much. 

And Finally… 

The only land to note here is Mystifying Maze which deters your opponent from attacking with only one creature and it is, more often than not, overlooked. The lands I have used to fuel this deck are pretty standard, with fetches, shocks, checks, scry lands and even pain lands for all my fixing needs. I will post the list for this one shortly. I do hope you find this article both helpful and enjoyable. Until next time, Happy Deck Building.

SNAPCHAT CHIC: LADY GAGA SINGS WITH FANS IN HER                                  PERFECT ILLUSION JACKET

Lady Gaga updated her Snapchat last night. After a few weeks in New York City, she decided it was time to go back to California. She took time to say bye to some monsters and even sang “Perfect Illusion” with them!

For her outing, Gaga wore the same jacket she wore in her music video for “Perfect Illusion” (check out this post to read about all the fashion credits). The black satin teddy jacket was commissioned by the Haus Of Gaga and was made by three different embroidery spots all around L.A. It boasts a button close-up front, ribbed cuffs and neck and embroidery of the number 74 (the death year of her aunt Joanne), “Lady Gaga” on her right sleeve and the “Bad Romance” lyric “I want your love” on the left sleeve.

She also wore the Fly aviator-style sunglasses by Perverse. These boast a double silver metal bridge and thick black frames.

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anonymous asked:

Can you like, explain what is bloom? (Fob)

BLOOM was fob’s “theme/concept” for their last few festival shows a few weeks ago. They also made a short film and it’s all based around Pete’s quote of “sometimes you have to crack the pavement before you can bloom” (which is why i tagged that one post the way i did)

Upcoming Cosplay!!

Hey folks! I’m sorry I’ve been pretty much MIA from the role play game these last few weeks; I’ve been in a show at school and so most of my after school time is spent at rehearsal or memorizing stuff for forensics. This week is show week though so my nights will be freed up soon!

As a little nugget of something though, I’m hoping to cosplay this week at some point, if only for a brief time. I don’t want to rush either one of the cosplays but since I’m getting a fake tan for the show I’m in (if you want pictures I shall provide them as this week comes to a close xD) I want to at least try to get one of them completed because the tan is a fun additional aspect to their character that I can’t commonly do.

So, who would you like to see more? (If I’m my able to swing both like I hope to)
-Percy Jackson
OR
-Lance McClain from VLD

Send in asks to both and whoever gets the most will be the one I will for sure cosplay!

Thanks again, and get asking! Big love xx

anonymous asked:

182, 140 & 184 with Bucky ;)?

182. “I miss you”

184. “You, me, bed now”

140. “Fuck me”


You tried to compose yourself as you sat at the conference table, Steve was running through the latest mission task, Bucky was sat next to you. To say you and the Winter Soldier were only friends would have been an understatement, your relationship was more friends-with-benefits.

“I miss you”, Bucky muttered under his breath as his metal hand started to dance up your thigh. You suppressed the urge to whine at the cool metal stinging your skin. “Not now”, you growled back, crossing your legs and pushing Bucky’s hands away. It had been a few weeks since you two had last hooked up and Bucky wanted you, “(Y/N). I need you, please. Don’t you miss all the fun all the-”, he knew his pleading had worked when you slapped your hand down on his forearm. “You, me, bed. Now”, you hissed while standing up, “I’m sorry Steve but I feel dizzy, Bucky is going to walk me to my room”, you lied, the soldier stood up with you, the ghost of a smirk on his lips.

Once you were out of the conference room, Bucky had you pinned against the wall, “Fuck me”, you begged him. His lips slammed against yours as he picked you up, “Oh, I plan on doing so doll”.

junes-art-diary  asked:

Hello. My name is June and, if I may, I wish to ask an indiscreet question. At what age did you start HRT? I am about to follow that path as well, and I am looking at blogs like yours to see what I should expect and what not.

Hi there! I’m sorry I’m only getting to you now. I think your message might’ve gotten lost in the mix with everything that happened in the last few weeks. I started right on my 23rd birthday. Trust me, pre-HRT I kept telling myself I wouldn’t pass. I had an obsession over whether I was past boymode or not and such. These things happen. Best of luck with HRT and your transition! :)

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Gruvia Week Day2 Prompt: Quiet

He brushed back his hair, soaked in (her) rain, and clenched his jaws. Quiet and steady, Gray marched on.

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my 2nd year of uni is finally over for the summer!,  This is a small part of the project work that I’ve been doing in this last module, which gave us freedom to do whatever we wanted haha.  

So this was illust/v.development work. The girl character is based off ‘Little Red Riding Hood’ and the Tiger character is based off the ‘Wolf’. 

I got slightly attached to these two along the way, and I might do something more ‘complete’ with these two in future~(●´ω`●)