When I look into your eyes I can see a love restrained But darlin’ when I hold you Don’t you know I feel the same
‘Cause nothin’ lasts forever And we both know hearts can change And it’s hard to hold a candle In the cold November rain
We’ve been through this such a long long time Just tryin’ to kill the pain
But lovers always come and lovers always go And no one’s really sure who’s lettin’ go today Walking away
If we could take the time To lay it on the line I could rest my head Just knowin’ that you were mine All mine So if you want to love me Then darlin’ don’t refrain Or I’ll just end up walkin’ In the cold November rain
Do you need some time…on your own Do you need some time…all alone Everybody needs some time… on their own Don’t you know you need some time…all alone
I know it’s hard to keep an open heart When even friends seem out to harm you But if you could heal a broken heart Wouldn’t time be out to charm you
Sometimes I need some time…on my own Sometimes I need some time…all alone Everybody needs some time… on their own Don’t you know you need some time…all alone
And when your fears subside And shadows still remain I know that you can love me When there’s no one left to blame So never mind the darkness We still can find a way 'Cause nothin’ lasts forever Even cold November rain
Don’t ya think that you need somebody Don’t ya think that you need someone Everybody needs somebody You’re not the only one You’re not the only one
Probably the song which has made me shed more tears than any other. During the midst of a heartbreak, this is the melody which offers me the most comfort. As much pain as my past brings me, I know that one day I will be able to remember him in peace. Perhaps he will remain in my past, perhaps one day life will bring us back together. Any way, whatever happened was meant to happen. Life awaits me with more blessings. I just need to make sure I don’t let any slide past me.
Bella’s song choices: Shoutout to my Ex by Little Mix, Hair by Little Mix
I wasn’t sure what was getting more attention: my tutorial with Jack, or his Antisepticeye Halloween finale. I mean, Jack always got millions of views on his videos. Why did I even have to think about it?
The most I was getting was more tweets from other YouTubers and people from Jack’s community. I received a lot of compliments on the Dollhouse tutorial, which made me happy and even more proud of it. For the last bit of October, it brought me out of my depressive mood. I didn’t expect it to last, given that I wasn’t entirely content. I wasn’t exactly sad, either. It was an empty but chill feeling. I felt good about my success, and how my YouTube channel was taking off. But I still felt down about certain things, like the breakup, my crippling loneliness, and just life in general. Naturally, that wore off and was replaced with crippling anxiety because homecoming was just around the corner.