considering the facts that: my ex has a) hung himself & died for five minutes bc his family is homophobic & he wanted to be with me b) got discharged after a few weeks & ran to me to try & work things out but ended up forcing himself on me despite me saying no nonstop w a witness present c) threatened to kill himself bc i wouldn’t take him back d) threatened to hit me bc i wouldn’t take him back e) threatened to runaway bc i wouldn’t take him back f) begged me to run away with him & then proceed to tell me how i feel regardless of me telling him i don’t want to be with him g) continue to tell me we are together when we broke up the day after he hung himself + i told him to leave me alone bc he snorts coke, his family harasses me, is completely reckless & impulsive + calls me in the middle of the night nonstop to go “save” him when he’s drunk in some random bar in flushing h) manipulated me into doing things for him on the basis of the fact that he loves me i) disregarded me telling him to stay away & then showing up at my apt at 4am drunk, i’ve been keeping myself together pretty well.
although now i’m at a loss of what to do bc he won’t leave me alone & keeps threatening me + threatening to kill himself or do some reckless things like snort coke again but idk how to get him to leave me alone. his family made him move back in w them & idk the address so i can’t even call the cops on him when he pulls this crap.
i’m exhausted. these past few months have been so tiring. edit; johnathan actually brought up smth really important to me. russell also continues to misgender me, & in the middle of our relationship he actually asked me to detransition for him. tip to my followers: if someone asks you to give up who you are they aren’t in love w you. they’re in love w the idea of you. he doesn’t love me. he’s obsessed with a fabricated version of me he created.