I keep thinking about this: how much better would the Marvel cartoons now would be if Genndy Tartakovsky was in charge of Marvel Animation (or whatever position he could make a difference in). See, because while there are some issues with the movies and comics, the WORST side of Marvel during the last couple of years has been their animation. Out of five Marvel cartoons made during the last few years, only ONE of them was good….
….Aaanndd it was fucking cancelled for not sucking off the MCU hard enough.
Everything else: Ultimate Spider-Man, Avengers Assemble, Hulk: Agents of SMASH, and Guardians of the Galaxy have been fucking dreadful. Bland to outright shitty character design, terrible writing, asinine editing, just fucking awful.
Basically, all of this is laid at the feet of Man of Action. Now, if only we had someone who was a fan of Marvel, who grew up on the comics, who homage them several times.
Someone who actually knows how to direct action that is interesting and not hot fucking garbage.
A guy who’s actually WORKED with Marvel before.
^Yeah, Genndy’s team worked on that ending fight scene.
Basically, what I’m saying is that Gendy has more right to be the driving force behind Marvel animation than Man of Action does.
No one ever seems to consider the logistics of certain changes in how people’s bodies would respond to certain changes that should really be addressed.
For example, certain characters tend to have something permanently grafted to their bodies or certain anatomical features are removed in favor of allowing a monstrous character to be able to burst of their clothes and have nothing show.
But these leads to all sorts of problems, So Baron Zemo, who had his mask permanently grafted to his face and, in some versions such as Avengers: Earth’s Mightiest heroes it seems like his entire outfit is grafted to him. So how does he eat?
And follow up question, how does he produce waste if it is the versions with the fullbody version?
I bring this up because I’m watching The Batman (Okay cartoon series, mostly fun action show, does not have as much villain pathos as B:TAS but does alright when it does it.) And there’s this character, Black Mask, a crime boss, big organizer. My experience with him in the Batman Arkham games is that the mask is exactly what it says on the tin, a mask he puts on and off, seeming to only be there as a sort of mark of authority or fear tactic, we see Roman Sionis without the mask plenty.
But in The Batman the mask may not be permanently grafted, but it’s so well on there no one seems to be able to take it off except for him who probably knows the secret to it.
Black Mask has been in jail. He wasn’t just allowed to sit and starve. And it seems as though he’s never taken off the mask, so how on earth are they feeding him?
I don’t have specific examples I can think of for characters who have now lost the ability to dispense with waste matter due to transformation or sudden onset of grafted body parts, but it’s gotta be something people think about, right? I mean it’s sort of why I go out of my way to avoid it, because it just doesn’t make sense and I gotta think of characters as living breathing people that gotta get along in the world that eat, sleep, love, and poop like everyone else regardless of whether they’re good or bad.
I mean, does anyone else think about this and how messed up it is?
A/N: I’m so sorry this literally took me over half a year to write! Hopefully the length makes up for how much time I took to write it, haha. Social anxiety and low self esteem are both topics that hit pretty close to home, so I was really grateful for the opportunity to write this. This was also my first ever request, so I’m very excited about it! Thank you so much for your patience! I hope this is what you had in mind :)
Beep! Beep! Beep!
You awoke immediately from your deep sleep and rolled over
on your side. It was 6:00 on another school morning, and you were definitely
not ready to peel yourself away from your bed. You stared menacingly at the
alarm clock, hoping you could scare it into silence. When it persisted, you
rolled your eyes and slammed the snooze button down, then threw your sheets
off. It was time once again to start another crappy school day.
You stretched your arms out and let out a huge yawn, then
suddenly remembered that you were in the middle of a pleasant dream before your
alarm rudely interrupted. You couldn’t quite put your finger on what the dream
was about, but you knew it was a good one, and you were mad that it had to end.
You started the painful walk to your bathroom and flinched when you switched on
the unforgiving florescent lights. Waking up was the worst. But hey, at least
it was Friday.
You opened your medicine cabinet to retrieve your
toothpaste. When you shut it and saw your reflection, you froze. You studied
every bump and red spot on your face, wishing that you could just peel it away.
You looked away from the mirror in disgust and went back to brushing your
teeth. You had only been awake for five minutes and you were already dreading
having to show your face today.
When you finished in the bathroom, you went back to your
bedroom and checked your phone. You saw a message from Peter and couldn’t help
allowing a tiny smile to make a brief appearance on your face.
“Good morning! Get
ready to crush that speech today. Meet at your building at 7? Love you!”
The smile disappeared and you felt your stomach flip.
Somehow, you had forgotten that today was the day you had to give your twenty-minute
speech on literary devices in Lord of the Flies. You had spent weeks dreading it, and now it was here. You felt sick.
Peter knew that you were nervous, but he didn’t really
understand. You didn’t want to explain to him in painful detail how bad your social
anxiety really was. He had enough to worry about as it was. You didn’t want to
be another bullet point on his long list of responsibilities. Besides, how
could you compete with the entire city of New York that constantly needed
“Thanks, Pete. 7 is
good. Love you right back,” You typed with shaky fingers.
You closed your eyes and took a deep breath, remembering
tips your therapist gave you to help calm yourself down. This was starting to
work, but then your mind started to wander and you saw the faces of your
classmates staring back at you, judging you. You opened your eyes quickly and
began busying yourself, trying to focus on getting ready for your day instead
of dreading your speech.
You were packing your backpack in your kitchen when you
heard a buzz. Thank god. Peter was finally there. You took another deep breath
and pushed the button to let him up. You stared at the door until you heard a
knock, then opened it way too quickly. Peter was surprised by how fast the door
swung open, but he still beamed down at you. He had a box in his hands and held
it out to you.
“Good morning! I brought donuts. Thought it might cheer you
up,” He said, smiling shyly. You loved his shy smile. “You look great.”
You were so grateful that he woke up early just to buy
donuts in the hopes that they would cheer you up, but you knew you were too
nervous to eat them. You took the box from him anyways and wrapped your arms
“Thank you, Peter,” You whispered.
“It’s no big deal. And if you’re not feeling up to eating
right now, it’s ok. We can save them for lunch.”
“Thank god,” You said, exhaling loudly. “There’s no way I
could eat without gagging right now.”
Peter flashed a sympathetic smile and grabbed your hand.
“You’re going to be great, Y/N. I know it. Come on, let’s
get out of here so you can get this stupid speech over with.”
Although your hand was sweating profusely, he held it the
entire way to school without letting go once.
When you walked through the doors of your high school, your
chest tightened up immediately. You were still holding on to Peter when you
made it to your locker to grab your notecards and put away the donuts, and you
still managed to hold on as you sat down in your first class, ready to give
your speech. You felt like if you let go of him, you might fall apart
All your life you had gone through severe panic attacks and
difficult social interactions alone, but now you didn’t have to. Even if Peter
didn’t know about how hard you had it sometimes, he helped you through it all
just by holding your hand. Maybe it was better he didn’t know, anyways.
Sometimes people treated you differently when they found out. Your own father
used to yell at you when you had panic attacks in public. You had gotten so
used to hiding your anxiety that it was second nature to you. You could easily
write it off as awkwardness or shyness every time. Besides, the fact that you
had to keep it from him all the time gave you more motivation to try to keep
your shit together. This was probably the only reason you were able to stand up
and give your speech without any more drama than shaky hands and short breaths.
When you sat down, you were dizzy and sweaty. But it was over.
“See, I told you you could do it,” Peter whispered. “You did
great! And doesn’t it feel good to have it done?”
You nodded, but you didn’t believe your own lie. Sure, it
was done. But there would always be more speeches, or job interviews, or even more
pressure. There was always another obstacle you had to overcome. They never
seemed to end, and they certainly never seemed to get any easier. You knew this
was untrue. Ten years ago when the panic attacks started, you couldn’t even
show up to class, let alone talk in front of a group of people for twenty
minutes. But everything was still so damn hard.
Sometimes even breathing was hard.
When the bell rang after third period for lunch, you stalled
packing up your stuff so Peter would make it to your classroom before you had
to walk through the halls. It always helped having somebody to walk with. When
you were alone, you felt everyone’s judgment and stares drilling holes in your back. You could feel
your muscles tighten up and your brain starting to overthink every tiny step so
you wouldn’t trip and embarrass yourself. Usually this overthinking caused you
trip anyways. It was all so ridiculous. You knew no one actually cared, but you
just couldn’t help it.
You just finished zipping your backpack when you saw Peter’s
head peeking through the doorway. When he saw you, he grinned and waved
goofily. Seeing his face gave you a bolt of energy. It was like you had been sleepwalking the whole day and he had just woken you up with one little smile.
You walked over to him and grabbed his hand without even
“How was class? Learn anything valuable today?” He asked.
“Well, I learned that I should probably get more sleep. I
fell asleep again.”
“You do look pretty tired,” Peter said with a tone of
concern in his voice. “Are you feeling okay?”
Panic attacks always made you tired. Even feeling one pang
of anxiety drained you completely. So naturally, you were almost always
exhausted. But you didn’t want to explain this to him.
“Yeah, I just stayed up late last night working on my
speech. I’ll be fine.”
This was enough to drain the look of worry from Peter’s
face, and you were relieved. The last thing you wanted was for him to worry
“Do you feel well enough to eat some donuts now? Because I’m
You were always anxious at school, but at least now that your speech was over, you were at a comfortable enough
anxiety level that you could eat without gagging. And now that you thought
about it, you were pretty hungry. You hadn’t eaten all day.
“That sounds heavenly. I’ll go grab them.”
After you both retrieved the donuts and started to make your
way for the cafeteria, you tried to scarf yours down before you had to sit down
at your usual table in the corner. Eating in a huge room in front of a bunch of
strangers was always a challenge. You looked over at Peter, who didn’t seem to
care what anybody thought at all. He had powdered sugar all over his mouth and
nose and jelly on his chin. You laughed and grabbed a napkin from the table as
you sat down.
“You might want this.”
Peter blushed a little and took it.
“For the record, I knew I had food on my face. I was just
saving it for later.”
“Sure,” You scoffed.
“Well, hey, at least I didn’t scarf mine down in thirty
seconds. I’m a food connoisseur. I try to savor it. Now your donut is gone and
I still have mine. So, ha,” He said as he took another huge bite and got more
powder on his face.
“Yeah, well, I think I’ll survive. There’s like six left.”
Peter popped his last piece of donut into his mouth and
pushed the box towards you.
“Speaking of which, you want another one?”
You stared longingly at the donuts for a moment. You were
still hungry, but you just couldn’t bring yourself to eat anymore.
“No, I’m okay. I was so hungry that I ate my lunch last
period, so I’m pretty full,” You lied. “You go ahead and keep eating.”
“Are you sure? I bought these for you. I want you to eat
them.” He said tentatively.
You nodded. “Just save me a few. It’s okay.”
You watched him as he continued to eat without so much as a
care. He didn’t even seem to notice that there was anyone else in the room but
you. You wished you could be more like him. You didn’t want to care, but you
“So, hey, I have a proposition for you,” He said between
“Oh? And what is that?” You asked with a raised eyebrow.
“I know that you’re tired after your speech and everything,
but it’s Friday and I think we should celebrate.”
“Flash is having a party tonight. And I want you to go with
“Flash? Flash Thompson?”
Peter nodded and swallowed the last bite of his donut.
“Are you high? What makes you think you can show up to
his house? No, better yet, where is this desire to go to his house coming
“Come on. Flash knows not to mess with me anymore…”
Your mind flashed back to a few months ago when Peter accidentally used his Spidey powers to throw Flash against a wall of lockers. You raised an eyebrow skeptically.
fun, Y/N, please. I’ve never been to an actual high school party before.”
You studied Peter’s face. You could tell he really wanted to
go, and that he really needed you to be there with him. You sighed.
“Okay, okay. Fine. I’ll go with you. Somebody needs to make
sure Flash and his friends don’t kick your ass.”
Peter grinned the widest grin you had ever seen, revealing a
little bit of jelly stuck between his teeth. Who could say no to that face? Just then, Peter’s best friend Ned Leeds ran up to your table.
“Oooh, donuts!” He exclaimed and grabbed a powdered donut without asking if he could have one. He saw you raise an eyebrow at him and stopped chewing for a brief moment. You shook your head with a chuckle.
“Why are teenage boys such animals?” You asked with a smirk.
“What?” He asked with a full mouth, a little bit of powder escaping his lips and dusting the table. “Did I interrupt something?”
“I just asked Y/N to go to Flash’s party with me tonight.”
Ned’s eyes widened and his mouth hung open a little bit.
“Are you crazy?!”
“Ned, please, swallow before you choke,” Peter said.
Ned swallowed loudly and gestured wildly with his hands.
“I said, are you crazy?! After what happened between you two, he’s going to want to kill you if you show up at his house.”
“Thank you, Ned. My sentiments exactly,” You said.
“Well…I was going to invite you, too. But if you don’t think it’s a good idea…” Peter teased.
Ned thought about this for a moment, then shrugged.
“Well, in that case…” He trailed off, grabbing another donut from the box in the center of the table.
You rolled your eyes and crossed your arms. It looked like you were going to a party, after all.
The rest of the day, Peter was in a fantastic mood. He
couldn’t contain his excitement for the party. You tried your best to feign
excitement, but inside you were cringing. You had never been to a party, but
you knew it probably wouldn’t be very enjoyable for you. If you couldn’t even
sit quietly in a room full of people, then how could you socialize with a room
full of people?
After he walked you home, Peter told you he would pick you
up at eight, kissed you on the cheek, then went on his merry way. You watched
him walk away with a look of fear you had been hiding ever since you agreed to
go. Then you went inside and paced around your room for hours, overthinking
everything that might happen. What if he left you alone? What if somehow
everyone found out that Peter was Spider-Man? What if the world suddenly ended
while you were at the last place on earth that you wanted to be? You closed
your eyes and took a deep breath.
You were doing this for Peter. He wanted you there with him.
A year ago, you never would have thought someone would want you the way Peter
did. In fact, you were pretty sure you would never love anyone that way,
either. But you and Peter were the real deal, and you wanted to show him how
much you really cared about him. He always did so much for you, so you could do
this one thing for him, right? You realized that you might not survive the
night, but you had to at least try. Besides, how many bad things could happen
in one night? You were still unconvinced, but you went to your closet and
started to rifle through it for a decent outfit anyways. If you had to go to
this thing, you wanted to at least look your best.
You put on your favorite sweater and jeans. Although nothing
about the outfit was too crazy, you felt uncomfortable staring at your
reflection in the mirror. Was it too casual? Was the sweater ugly? You finally
silenced your brain and decided that if this is what made you comfortable, it
was the right choice. You smiled at yourself in the mirror, then watched it
fade as you noticed all of the pockmarks on your face. Your self confidence
dropped to an all-time low. You couldn’t look at yourself in the mirror any
longer. You flopped face-down onto your bed, trying and failing to hold back
your tears, when you heard your phone buzz. You rolled over on your back and
squinted at the screen. It was Peter.
“I’m on my way!” The
You jumped up from your bed. Was it really eight already?
You were so invested in making yourself look decent that you didn’t even realize
how much time had passed. The worst part was that you didn’t really accomplish
anything. You rushed forward to your mirror and messed with your hair and
clothes, doing the best you could with what time you had left. Then you heard
the dreaded knock on your door. It was time to go.
You walked as slowly as possible through your living room. When you reached the door, you paused with your hand on the doorknob so that you could take a much-needed
deep breath. Then you threw open the door before you could lose your nerve.
Peter greeted you with a huge smile, as always. You still couldn’t believe how
excited he was for this dumb party.
“Wow,” he said, rushing forward to plant a kiss on your
cheek. “You look great.”
You looked down and pulled at your sweater uncomfortably.
You looked the same as you always did. Was he insane? You wanted to ask him,
but decided it was best not to start anything. He was so excited. You didn’t
want to ruin his fun.
“Thanks,” You muttered. “Ready to go?”
You tried to seem excited the whole way to Flash’s, playing
the part of a normal teenager. But inside your brain was battling itself. You
mostly just let Peter do the talking (which wasn’t out of the ordinary), so you
hoped that he wouldn’t notice you were feeling anxious. The journey to the
party was a complete blur. You were too trapped inside of your head to
interpret anything going on in your surroundings. You snapped back to reality
when you were in Flash’s doorway. You were fighting the urge to run when you
felt Peter’s hand on your back. You looked up at him and he smiled down at you
nervously. You hadn’t even considered that Peter was probably a nervous wreck,
too. He always had trouble socializing at school, and you knew how much he
wished Flash and his friends would like him. You smiled back at him for the
first time that night, and you could feel him loosen up immediately. Sometimes
you felt so isolated in your anxiety that you often forgot you weren’t the only
person on the planet with problems. You felt so selfish. Peter needed you. You
couldn’t fail him now.
“Don’t worry, this will be fun,” You whispered in his ear,
and gave his arm a little squeeze.
He nodded and kissed you on the forehead.
“So… How does this work? Do we knock or just go inside?”
“My only knowledge
about house parties is from 80s movies, so you’re definitely asking the wrong person,”
You giggled nervously.
“I say… We knock?” Peter said unconvincingly. You both
shrugged at each other and he reached out to pound his fist against the door.
“Door’s open!” You heard from the inside of the house.
Peter walked in first. You immediately noticed the immense number
of your classmates inside, huddled in various groups, holding drinks and trying
to talk over the loud music. You grabbed Peter’s hand quickly. Then you heard a
voice calling to the both of you.
“Peter! Y/N! You guys finally made it.”
It was Ned. Peter loosened his grip
on your hand, relaxing further after seeing another familiar face.
“Ned, thank god,” You said and wrapped your arms around him
“Oh, good to see you, too, Y/N,” He said and patted your
back awkwardly. “Are you okay?”
You peeled yourself off of him quickly and cleared your
“Yeah, sorry… Just good to see a familiar face. That’s all.”
You looked up at Peter and smiled, trying to convince him
that you were fine. But he could tell something was wrong.
“Yeah, Ned. It’s good to see you here,” He said and embraced
Ned tightly, just as you had. He was clearly just trying to make you feel
“Okay,” Ned said as Peter pulled away from him and patted
him on the shoulder. “You guys are being weird. If I pretend I don’t know you
tonight, please don’t get offended,” He joked. You and Peter laughed and he
wrapped his arm around you, pulling you closer to him. Being this close to him
always made you feel safe.
Ned rolled his eyes and crossed his arms, obviously annoyed
by your PDA.
“Okay, okay. We get it, you guys are in love. Gross.”
“Oh, come on, Ned. Haven’t you met any potential significant
others here yet?” Peter teased.
“I’ve been here for five minutes. Considering the way things
have been going, I think it will take a little bit longer than that to find the
love of my life. Besides, you’re my wingman. I can’t talk to anybody without
“Oh, please,” you rolled your eyes jokingly. “You have way more
game than Peter.”
Peter pulled away from you and covered his heart like you
had just shot a bullet through it. His mouth was agape in feigned shock.
“Y/N, I’m hurt. I can’t believe you don’t think I have any
“I hate to play this card again, but can I please just be
the one to point out that you both have each other while I am the most single
person at Midtown? I’m pretty sure Peter has more game than me,” Ned said.
“He has a point.”
“Ned,” You said, putting both of your hands on his
shoulders. “You are smart as hell, you have a wicked sense of humor, and you’re
adorable. You’re going to find someone in no time. You just need to put
yourself out there.”
“That’s the thing…” Ned said, looking at his shoes. “I have
found someone. I just don’t know what to say to her.”
You and Peter both leaned in closer.
“Who?” You both said at the same time, a little too
Ned didn’t say anything. He just nodded in the direction of
Betty Brant, who was in the corner of the room, standing next to Liz Allan and sipping
Both you and Peter leaned back again, your mouths forming a
giant ‘O’ shape.
“You should go talk to her!” You encouraged Ned, though you
knew if the tables were turned you would never be able to do that. Luckily,
Peter was the one who made the first move on you.
Ned just looked panicked, and shook his head furiously.
“I can’t. Not by myself. Peter, you have homeroom with her,
right? Maybe you could start a conversation with her and I could jump in.
Please, dude. I need you.”
Peter looked at you with a worried expression, knowing that
you didn’t want him to leave you alone.
“It’s fine! You guys go. I’ll be fine.”
Peter smiled and kissed you on the cheek. Ned rolled his
eyes at this, but you pretended not to notice.
“I’ll just go embarrass myself and be right back here in two
minutes, tops. I promise,” Peter said earnestly.
“Seriously, I’m fine! Go!” You said with a huge fake smile
on your face, pushing the two of them towards Betty. Your face dropped as soon
as their backs were turned. Over the years you had become an expert faker of emotions.
You looked at your surroundings, watching your fellow
students laugh and drink and dance together. You couldn’t help feeling
alienated. A long time ago you had come to the conclusion that while you loved
being alone when there was no one else around, you hated being alone when you
were surrounded by a sea of strangers. Sure, you had grown up with most of
these people, but you had never really taken the time to get to know any of
them. Your social anxiety had made sure of that. You were too busy avoiding
embarrassment to care about anyone else, and it was clear to you now that no one
here cared that you were there.
You walked away suddenly, just because you felt the need to
move. Standing still was driving you crazy, and in your mind Peter and Ned were
taking way too long. You made your way to a table covered in bottles of various
types of alcohol, and picked the first one you saw. You weren’t a drinker, but
at that moment you didn’t know what else to do. So you drank. And soon the
bottle was empty.
You set it down and turned around to see if Peter and Ned
were back, but you spun around so quickly that you knocked into someone.
“Oh my god, I’m so sorry…” You began to say, but trailed off
when you noticed you had bumped into Liz Allen, who was now brushing her
spilled drink off of the front of her top.
“It’s ok, I was beginning to hate this shirt anyways,” Liz
said with a smile, but you were so embarrassed that you didn’t even smile back.
You just blushed and stared at her.
“Hey, you’re Peter’s girlfriend, right? He’s a really sweet
guy. I was just talking to him, actually.”
“Yeah, did you see where he went by the way?”
“Last I saw he was talking to Flash. Seems like they’re finally starting to become friends, thank god. But I’m not
sure where he went after that. Are you okay?”
You were looking behind her, trying to find his familiar
face, but all you saw were strangers. You could feel your panic level beginning
to rise in the pit of your stomach.
“Yeah, I’m just… I just… I’ll be back,” You stammered and
You didn’t walk too far before you got caught in a huge
group of people. You turned around to see if Liz was still behind you, and you
saw her whispering something to Betty. You felt a brief moment of optimism when
you saw Betty, hoping that Peter and Ned would be near her, but you didn’t see
them anywhere. Then you could have sworn you saw both Liz and Betty look over
at you. Was Liz talking about you, making fun of how awkward you were? Liz was
nice. She would never do that to you. But what if she did?
You quickly looked away and began to walk away again, the
panic swirling within you even more intensely. People were dancing and laughing
around you and the room began to swirl. Everyone that laughed was laughing at
you. Liz’s whispers were all about you. And Peter was nowhere to be seen. You didn’t
know where you were going, but you took off upstairs, searching for any place
to hide. You tried various doors before you finally found an unoccupied
You shut the door and locked it behind you, curling up on
the floor. You tried to get yourself to take deep breaths, but you could feel
your throat closing up and your brain was racing uncontrollably. It’s like you
were thinking of everything and nothing all at once. You could see your face in
the bathroom mirror that morning red and splotchy. You relived your speech this
morning and every word you tripped over. You imagined everyone at the party
staring at you, and Liz and Betty laughing and pointing at you. You wondered
why you couldn’t be as good-looking as Liz, and worse yet, you imagined Peter
choosing her and Flash and the popular crowd over you – mocking you and telling you that he never loved you.
You closed your eyes tightly to stop the tears but it was
too late. Then, just as you buried your face in your crossed arms, you heard a
knocking on the door.
“Y/N, are you in there? It’s Peter.”
You whipped your head up. You didn’t want Peter to see you
like this, but you also didn’t want him to worry about you. You pressed your
ear up against the door and spoke through it.
“Yes, Peter. I’m here. I’m okay.”
Although you couldn’t see his face, you could tell Peter
wasn’t having it.
“Liz saw you run up here. She seemed really concerned. You’re
not okay, are you?”
You searched your brain for the right thing to say.
“I will be,” You said so quietly it was almost a whisper.
You weren’t sure if you even actually believed it.
“Y/N, just open the door, okay? I need to see you.”
You sighed heavily and reached up to unlock the door. As
soon as you did, Peter was already inside the room, closing the door softly
behind him and joining you on the tiled bathroom floor.
He looked at your tear-stained face for a moment, assessing
how you were feeling, then wrapped his arms around you so tightly that it took
your breath away.
“I’m sorry, I knew I shouldn’t have left you…” He whispered.
You peeled yourself away from him and peered at him with furrowed eyebrows.
“This isn’t your fault, Peter. I shouldn’t have to have
someone babysit me at a party because I can’t handle being alone. It’s not your
fault that I’m so screwed up.”
“You are not screwed up, Y/N.”
“Yes, I am!” You yelled and stood up, facing away from him. “I
can’t do anything by myself. I can’t go to parties, I can’t order my own food,
sometimes I can’t even get myself to leave my house without having anxiety about it. And having to give that
speech today made me feel like the world was ending. It’s a miracle that I was
able to talk to you at all let alone feel comfortable enough around you to date
you. I can’t talk to anyone or be a normal person because it just feels like everyone
is judging me and my stupid face and sizing me up all the time or waiting for
me to mess up. And I always mess up. I always mess everything up, Peter…”
Peter stood up and put both of his hands on your cheeks,
swiping your tears away with his thumbs.
“Don’t say that. Don’t ever say that. You’re not doing
anything wrong. You’re beautiful and perfect the way you are.”
“Why is everything so hard?” You sniffled.
Peter wrapped you up in another hug.
“I didn’t know you felt this way. I’m so sorry.”
“I didn’t want you to know. I didn’t want to scare
you away. Besides, you already carry the weight of the entire city on your shoulders.
I didn’t want you to have to carry me, too.”
“I want to take care of you, Y/N. We’re supposed to take
care of each other. That’s what being in a relationship is all about. I’m all
in, okay? I’m never going anywhere.”
You closed your eyes as he pressed a kiss to your forehead. He
sighed loudly, trying to find the right thing to say.
“Look, I don’t know if this will help, but do you remember
how shy and nervous I was before I became Spider-Man?”
You nodded, and he started to pull something out of his back
pocket. He unfolded it, and you immediately recognized the piece of cloth in his hand. It was his Spider-Man mask.
“After I got these powers…after I became Spider-Man, and I
got to hide behind this mask, I started gaining all this confidence. I don’t
know, when people can’t see who you really are, somehow it gives you more
strength to be who you really are. Does that make any sense?”
You nodded again.
“Good. So anyways, maybe the next time you have to do
something that scares you, just imagine you’re wearing this.”
He paused and slipped the mask over your face.
“There. Nobody can see through you when you’re wearing a
You sniffled underneath it.
“How do I look?”
Peter couldn’t hold back his grin.
“Badass. I think I might actually like it on you better.”
You took the mask off and threw your arms around Peter’s
“I love you,” You whispered, and you could feel him sigh
“I love you, too.”
You pulled away, wiping your eyes and showing off your first
genuine smile of the night.
“So…does Ned have a new girlfriend now or what?”
Peter laughed and shook his head.
“Uh…let’s just say we’re working on it. Come on, let’s get
out of here. I’ve got a comfy couch and a kickass DVD collection with your name on it.”