the world on it's back

anonymous asked:

Hi Pao. I miss you. Just want to remind you that when you feel like the whole world has already turned its back on you, don't forget that im still here, standing with you. I'll be your heart that will always keep on reminding you that no matter how flawful you can be, i still love and see you perfectly. I'll always gonna be your proud admirer, from afar. Take care. :)

Ugh u ppl are the sweetest, imagine hearing those words from someone you dont know when it should’ve spilled out from those people you thought were your friends. Thank you, I’m feeling better now.

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Chapter 13: Come As You Are (Part III)


Somewhere along the way Věra drifted off to sleep. The drive to Kras was not long but she was so tired the seat would have to be made of nails for her to keep conscious. She spent her night alternating between kicking bad guy’s asses and answering Teo’s biting questions, no wonder she felt like crawling under the rock and locking the world away.

Sadly, the world disliked being locked away. It pierced its way back into your consciousness like a ray of sunshine through thick layers of dirt and all of the sudden she was sitting up in a strange bed, blinking at a wooden wall full of polaroid pictures.

It took her a few moments to remember, but once she did she fell back into the covers, huffing out a frustrated breath. Oh, yes. She was in jail. Then she wasn’t. Then there was an Englishman saying something really, really sexy and then she just didn’t remember.

‘Story of my life,’ she grunted into her palms, struggling out of the bed. She stumbled over to the polaroid wall and almost burst out laughing when she realised it were all pictures of Riley and his friends partying. There was one, particularly amusing, of him and his sister wearing fake moustaches with the label ‘No one should ever have to justify a fake moustache.’ He smiled in the photo, the real Riley smile, not that fake wall of sarcasm, and all of the sudden he looked incredibly cute. Even his ice cold sister looked approachable in that picture.

Rolling her shoulders Věra walked along the wall. She opened the door and walked out, down a long, sun filled hallway. The hut was cosy and smelled of wood and rainstorms. Thick Aztec-print rugs lined the shiny floors. Her bare feet were sinking in as she walked down the hall toward the open double door at the end. She could see it lead out on the back porch.

She could also see Riley sitting at the edge.

‘Hey,’ she whispered, softly, approaching him.

‘You’re up.’


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anonymous asked:

one word prompt - stay

*blows you a kiss* 


Stay. The word tickled at the back of her throat, screaming down her oesophagus as she choked. She couldn’t say it, couldn’t force it out despite an urgency clenching at her fingers. Stay. Claire knew, if she didn’t spit it out he would finish packing his duffle and would waltz right out the door. 

She was stubborn and hot-headed. She brought this on herself, on the both of them. He was naive if he didn’t see it coming. But, then again, it had all been so good until now. Corporate Claire had returned, business world sucking her back into its claws once Jurassic World finally released them. Her attention deviated from their Costa Rican apartment baked in sun, the lazy days they spent in nothing but bedsheets wrapped around their naked skin. Her phone didn’t stop, her computer always open. Casual, badass, love of his life, Claire disappeared and she knew it. She saw herself pulling from him, staying at the office and soaking herself in work. She was tried – dead tired – of the heels on her feet, tired of missing him, of pulling herself away in an attempt to save herself. She didn’t want to fall in love, didn’t want to rely on someone other than herself. 

There she was, watching him angrily shove clothes into his bag with a flippant promising that he’d be out of her hair in five minutes. She didn’t want him to go. Didn’t mean to make him angry. Claire didn’t want it to end like this. 

‘Stay.’ She croaked, catching his attention as Owen’s head snapped towards her. ‘I don’t want you to go.’ 

‘You can’t be serious right now.’ Claire felt her bottom lip curl, tears burning at her eyes. She wouldn’t cry, refused to let the emotion get to her as a bad gut feeling gnawed at her insides. She couldn’t let him leave, not without trying to make him stay. 

She nodded, blinking back the tears. ‘I’m not good at this.’ Claire told him and Owen scoffed, nodding his head. ‘I just – work is all I know.’ 

Owen softened, anger in his eyes melting away as his frustration let go of his fingers. ‘You can’t phase me out, Claire.’ She nodded again. ‘I don’t ask for much.’ In fact, he didn’t ask for anything not even for her to be present until recently. ‘Its just a weekend.’ He told her. ‘I think we need the break.’ She couldn’t deny that he needed some time away. Even in her mental absence, she knew he needed it. 

‘You’ll come back though?’ He dropped the shirt he was holding, fabric falling onto his duffle as Owen stepped towards her. His kiss on her cheek was warm, consistent, loving. 

‘I promise. Then we’ll talk.’  

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#HAPPYCHENDAY | 2017
→ From collaborating with seniors in the industry, to having his hair bleached for the first time ever (and slaying us all). Kim Jongdae, you have never failed to surprise us and you didn’t disappoint when you said that you’ll show us better performances and an improved image of yourself. You deserve nothing but the best, because you gave us your best. Thank you and Happy 26th Birthday, you are so loved ♡

Reasons to Love AmazingPhil

#166: “I usually eat gummy bears two at a time because they need a friend when they’re dying.” 

Destiel, Bi!Dean and preparing the audience for a “shocker”.

I just did a re-watch of 12x10 and it really got me thinking again about Benjamin and Cas’s talk in the car with the boys about Benjamin and his female vessel.

At the time the episode aired, I think I was so excited about the prospect of Cas being in a female vessel, and how this could potentially shift a heteronormative audiences perception of Dean and Cas that I didn’t realise just what else they were trying to do.

This is about reassurance.

This is the conversation that was had in the car:

CAS: Benjamin is always very careful. Long ago, he found a powerfully devout vessel in Madrid, and her faith, it… she gave him everything – her trust and her body.

DEAN: Wait. So Benjamin’s a woman?

CAS: Benjamin is an angel. His vessel is a woman. But it – it’s – it’s more than that. She’s not just his vessel.

Just this small exchange is important as exposition for the audience. It is about preparing the audience for what is coming up. The idea that Cas was also once ‘a woman’. Which, okay, no he wasn’t a woman, he just had a female vessel, but imagine how that would have gone down had this exchange not taken place? Imagine how a general audience would have reacted to Cas and his female vessel had Benjamin just been another angel in a male vessel?

Probably a lot like the way Dean acted here, with confusion.

By giving us the Benjamin character and this particular scene as well, the writer has successfully prepared the audience for Cas in his female vessel. Preventing raised eyebrows and confusion because the audience will remember this conversation and apply it to Cas.

“Castiel is an angel, his vessel WAS a woman. His vessel is now a man, Cas is still a dude and it’s not weird. Cool beans.”

(when I think of a general audience watching SPN lets just say that I certainly don’t think of the fandom or tumblr. I think of my brother and that is something I won’t get into here. Heteronormative doesn’t even begin to cover it.)

The fact is, making one of your three main lead male characters a woman for an episode is a weird thing to do, the kind of thing that would probably make some audience members uncomfortable. So adding in this exposition, this reassurance, removes that level of discomfort, it gets them used to the idea first, like a buffer.

See for a show like SPN, whilst its always been a bit weird with its story lines, it’s never been all that progressive. As much as we would all like to wish that all SPN viewers were like us – liberal forward thinking people who are willing and eager for TV to break a few taboos – the chances are that is very much not the case. Its an old show, it has an established audience (apparently a bipartisan audience amazingly) and therefore breaking boundaries the way more modern shows have (such as American Gods, How to Get Away with Murder and Orange is the New Black) just isn’t really in the cards. Those shows established the taboo stories, the queer main characters, the representation, from the start. They built their audience on those foundations. SPN can’t do that without isolating part of its audience – unless it thinks very carefully as to how it may present such notions.

I hope I am explaining this in a way that makes sense. See this is of course about Bi!Dean and Destiel (as if anything on my blog WASN’T about those topics). Because here’s the thing. On any other, newer show, for Dean to come out as bisexual, for two male lead characters to enter into a homosexual relationship, it wouldn’t be a big deal. Those shows could build their audience around those concepts, because they would be ingrained into the show from the start.

For Supernatural, that sadly isn’t the case. SPN didn’t clearly establish Dean as Bisexual early on, and Destiel isn’t canon, it has always been the subject to interpretation with just enough ‘no homo’ so that anyone who chooses not to see it doesn’t have to (again, excluding 12x19 but we’ll get there)

One of the biggest hurdles to getting bi!dean and canon destiel, is for the SPN creators to overcome this fear that half their audience would reject them if they actually went there. It would be seen as coming ‘out of the blue’ and all those heteronormative people would raise their eyebrows and moan and be utterly confused by it.

That’s why Supernatural needs the buffers. It needs the gradual exposition, the subtle desensitisation of a general audience to anything even mildly “progressive”. If Supernatural wasn’t putting these buffers in place already, I would think we would have a problem. I would be much more apprehensive at even the idea that destiel could be a thing that is actually happening.

What is so fantastic, is that just like in 12x10 with the fem!Cas buffer that was Benjamin, we have already been getting buffers all throughout the last few seasons.

Here are some of my favourites:

  • Jesse x Cesar – 11x19 – These guys are my absolute favourite, they were created specifically to show the audience that you can be a gay man and also a macho man. That gay men aren’t stereotypes, that hunters can be gay and settle down and especially that gay romance doesn’t change the theme of the story. The big take away from this episode is that it shows the general audience that men like Dean Winchester can be gay/bisexual.
  • Hannah – 10x17 – This was a real eye opener for any Cas x Hannah shippers. Because Cas didn’t treat Hannah any different, and he had exactly the same warmth and affection for Hannah in her male vessel that he did in her female vessel. Basically this was a nice punch in the face for any homophobes watching. SPN doesn’t care about your heteronormative ships. You wanna ship Hannah x Cas? Fine! But Hannah’s in a dudes body now and guess what? Cas doesn’t care! How do you feel about THAT?
  • God is Bisexual – 11x20 – This was just a nice big fuck you to homophobes everywhere. Don’t like queer characters? This is NOT the show for you! Because in our world even GOD is queer! Yay for LGBT representation! It works as a buffer because once again it is sending a message to the general audience that this is the kind of thing you can expect on our show. We are changed now.
  • Dean rides Larry – 12x11 – Okay so maybe it’s not an obvious buffer, but it is kind of a subliminal message so I’m counting it. Dean riding that damn bull was the most sexual scene we have had on this show in seasons (and no that god awful thing that happened in 12x02 doesn’t count – nor does the same god awful thing from 12x08). The jokes alone, the sexual innuendos. This entire episode is loaded with subliminal messages basically screaming at the general audience to maybe just consider the fact that Dean likes guys.
  • 12x06/12x20 – Max Banes – like Jesse and Cesar Max works as a buffer because he is another way to get the general audience used to the idea that characters that are similar to Dean Winchester can be queer and it’s no big deal. Max is badass, funny, smart and charming and also 100% canonically queer (whether gay or bi we know textually that he is totally into dudes). Sam and Dean don’t bat an eyelid at his sexuality, so neither should the audience. It is just one part of his character and certainly not what his story is all about. Max is proof that you can have a queer character who is a badass and a hunter whose story is basically nothing to do with their sexuality. Their sexuality just happens to be a part of who they are.
  • And finally – Destiel – season 12 – I’m making this its own buffer because honestly? There is no way to view Dean and Cas’s relationship as non-romantic at this point. I think that the writers have slowly been turning up the dial on Destiel probably since 11x18. 12x19 really drummed it in for us though. The angel/human love themes of 12x10, the textual “I love you” in 12x12, the MIXTAPE and everything else about 12x19. This is all preparation. It is indeed a build up to a reveal. Destiel is it’s own buffer and even if people do still accuse it of ‘coming out of nowhere’ once it goes canon, all the writers have to do is gesture at season 12 and the fucking mixtape scene and say to those people “in what universe does the gifting of a mixtape between people who are not explicitly related NOT have romantic connotations?” Only a fool would argue with that if they had any knowledge of pop culture history. Sorry, but that’s the truth.

Anyway, that’s my thoughts on that. A show with a long established audience about to make a move that could potentially appear (but not really) out of left field would need to build up that move through a series of well thought out buffers, symbols, themes and subliminal messages before actually making it.

Like how Benjamin was the writers way of normalising Cas’s female vessel, the past two seasons have been a journey to normalise bi!dean and destiel in preparation for making both of these things explicitly canon. Yes we still have a way to go - it still needs to be stated explicitly in the text that Dean is into guys, in love with Cas bla bla bla, but we are getting there.

In summary. Destiel is endgame. Dean is bisexual. The general audience better learn to throw their heteronormative goggles in the bin because this is the state of this show right now, and it is good. 

Mycroft | Watercolour, white gel pen & coloured pencil on hot press watercolour paper

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I saw this lovely comic by Max, and I thought I should add a little something of my own.

They get gold rings, eventually.

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Daisy Johnson in Agents of SHIELD: ‘Farewell, Cruel World!’

anonymous asked:

How's the WINGS tour so far? Are you enjoying it?

JK: >:D

You will always have me. You can call me at midnight when the memories are hurting you, we will talk about the stars and appreciate the silence. I will stay up with you all night to talk about the things that bothers you. And if you want to escape at the moment, I will willingly give up my time to run away with you, even if it’s only a quick stroll across the town. I will be there when the world turns its back on you. I will hold you in my arms and stand up for you. I will always, always be right there for you, even if I’m not the one you needed.
—  d.r.n