the withdrawal symptoms are getting worse

Taking In Strays - Chapter 9

A/N: Sorry its taken a while to update. 
Fic Summary: Emily Embers is at rock bottom, doing what she can to care for her son after the death of her husband. A fall on an icy street finds her in the arms of Steve Rogers, who offers her some assistance that she gratefully accepts, but little does Steve know just how deep he will have to get himself into someone else’s world in order to save them.
Chapter Summary: Emily starts to adjust to life in 1941 whilst Steve has to suddenly adjust to being a parent in the present day.
Triggers/Warnings: None

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Taking In Strays – Chapter 9

New York 1941

Bucky looked at Emily with a confused look on his face;

“Do I know you?”

“No…” Emily stuttered on her words; “Steve… Steve told me about you…”

“I did?” he asked quietly, cut off from saying anything else as Emily slid her hand around his thigh to keep him quiet.

“You wanna wait outside and we’ll be right out”

Emily told rather than asked Bucky who slunk away, pulling the door closed behind him. Turning quickly to Steve she kept her voice low;

“Shit… Okay… So Bucky is our next door neighbour in the future. But just tell him that we work together”

“At the hospital?”

“That’s where you work?”

“Yeah. A guy who used to know my Mom gives me work as a porter when he’s short staffed”

“Ok… great” Emily quickly got out of bed, rummaging through the box of his Mom’s things that he’d let her use and found a robe, pulling it over her nightgown before peering out of the doorway;

“Panic over, he’s passed out on the couch”

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META: On the pathophysiology of lyrium addiction and withdrawal

Mostly just used Wikipedia and my own very rusty knowledge on neurology from vet school to come up with this.  Basically I saw some fics where Cullen dies from lyrium withdrawal and I thought BUT WHAT’S THE PATHOPHYSIOLOGY?  HOW DOES IT WORK?  and my veterinarian brain started writing random meta down.

We know from Confessions of a Lyrium Addict that memory issues, cold hands, and claustrophobia can result from lyrium withdrawal.  We know from Cullen that lyrium suppresses nightmares and PTSD symptoms and without them, those things can be inescapable.  We know from Alistair that the symptoms include confusion and weepiness.  Cullen also admits to headaches, we see him stumble from weakness or dizziness, and he says there is pain that comes and goes, though he does not elaborate on the nature of it.  Going off of benzodiazepine and alcohol withdrawal, pain may include headaches, chest pain, stomach upset, electric shock sensations, or nerve pain/tingling.

How and why?

Magic and lyrium are inextricably linked in Thedas but neither are well-studied.  Let’s start with some ideas on magical physiology first to understand lyrium’s role.

If we look to the animal kingdom, we have very few animals that are able to exert a measurable elemental effect on their environment.  One example?  The electric eel.  It possesses a main organ, a Hunter’s organ, and a Sach’s organ that are capable of creating a massive electrical discharge.  It’s feasible that mages possess a similar organ that is more flexible, capable of manipulating mana into various elemental forms of magic.  As with any organ, neurochemical signals dictate its use.  The body has a natural store of such transmitters, but lyrium solutions augment them; the lyrium itself may also act as a neurotransmitter in mages.

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Not sure what's worse

Going into withdrawal from Gabapentin accidentally and feeling like I’m on an amphetamine and E comedown crossed with a hangover and a punchup.

(Pharmacy mix up.)

Or the moment where said symptoms just…vanish, some 45 mins after getting my proper dose?

(Yeah, when I come off it properly, I will reduce dose as per the doc’s orders.)

Symptoms of Schizophrenia

Schizophrenia is a long-term mental health disorder that causes a range of different psychological symptoms. A person with schizophrenia may not have any outward appearance of being ill. Or in other cases, the illness may be more apparent, causing bizarre behavior.

Symptoms and signs of schizophrenia will vary, depending on the individual. Schizophrenia is characterized by withdrawal from reality, delusions, hallucinations, and emotional disturbances, among many other things. Delusions are the most common symptoms of schizophrenia and hearing voices is the most common hallucination among people with schizophrenia. People with schizophrenia often have problems functioning in society, at work, at school and in relationships.

Signs and symptoms of schizophrenia are generally divided into three categories — positive, negative and cognitive. Positive symptoms, also known as psychotic symptoms, are symptoms that appear, which people without schizophrenia do not have. The “positive” symptoms doesn’t mean they are good, it means they are things “added” to your personality because of schizophrenia. Negative symptoms refer to elements that are taken away from the individual; loss or absence of normal traits or abilities that people without schizophrenia normally have. Cognitive symptoms involve problems with the person’s thought processes.

POSITIVE SYMPTOMS INCLUDE:

- Delusions
- Hallucinations
- Disordered thinking or speech
- Disordered behavior
- Suspiciousness
- Making up words without a meaning (neologisms)

NEGATIVE SYMPTOMS INCLUDE:

- Social withdrawal
- Loss of motivation and interest in everyday activities
- Appearing to lack emotion or difficulty in expressing emotions
- Inability to feel pleasure
- Reduced ability to plan or carry out activities
- Neglect of personal hygiene and difficulty in taking care of themselves
- Loss of appetite

COGNITIVE SYMPTOMS INCLUDE:

- Memory problems
- Difficulty paying attention
- Problems with making sense of information

People with schizophrenia commonly also have affective (or mood) symptoms, like anxiety and depression which could lead to thoughts of suicide or suicidal behaviors.

THE ONSET OF SCHIZOPHRENIA:


In most people, the onset of schizophrenia occurs in early adulthood. Loved ones and friends may spot early warning signs long before the primary symptoms of schizophrenia occur.

Warning signs include:

- Social isolation and withdrawal
- Irrational, bizarre or odd statements or beliefs
- Increased paranoia or questioning others’ motivations
- Becoming more emotionless
- Hostility or suspiciousness
- Increasing reliance on drugs or alcohol (in an attempt to self-medicate)
- Lack of motivation
- Speaking in a strange manner unlike themselves
- Inappropriate laughter
- Insomnia or oversleeping
- Deterioration in their personal appearance and hygiene

While there is no guarantee that one or more of these symptoms will lead to schizophrenia, a number of them occurring together should be cause for concern, especially if it appears that the individual is getting worse over time. This is the ideal time to act to help the person (even if it turns out not to be schizophrenia).

~ Schizophrenia Confessions

What Happens When You Choose to Stop a Medicine on Your Own? 2/19/2016

This is a really, really, important post. I’m writing it not just so I have something to refer back to, but also in hopes that this will encourage more people to take their medicine on time and every day in order to stay in top health.

So what could happen if you don’t take your meds? A lot of people may assume you can get by just fine by going cold turkey off a medicine (by “cold turkey” I mean completely stopping taking the medicine very suddenly). I admit, I’m guilty of thinking this way, too (as recently as yesterday morning!). But I’m telling you the honest truth when I say choosing to go cold turkey off medicine is a very, seriously dangerous thing. Let me tell you some stories about when I’ve gone off certain meds:

1) Xanax. Xanax is in a class of medicine called benzodiazepines, commonly referred to as “benzos”. In March of 2015, towards the end of the month, I was admitted to a psych ward. The doctor there took me off all my meds and put me on solely Xanax, 0.5mg four times daily. The Xanax kept me calm, but it did nothing to quell my psychotic symptoms. So the doctor put me on an antipsychotic called Loxapine and continued the Xanax four times a day. I got out of the hospital April 2 after 10 days in the psych ward. I had only received two doses of my Xanax that day. I got all my prescriptions filled and went home. This doctor, we’ll call him Dr. M, and I never, ever got along. I assumed I knew better about what I needed than he did. So, I assumed “Hey, I’m on antipsychotics again. I don’t need Xanax!” So I stopped it cold turkey right then and there. Three days later, on April 5th, at my boyfriend’s parents’ house, I had a seizure at the breakfast table. I remember finishing my waffles and fruit for breakfast, then the next moment paramedics were examining me and I had no idea what the hell was going on. I asked my boyfriend why there were paramedics looking at me, and he said “Brigette, you had a seizure.” I didn’t remember anything that had happened in the last 20 minutes. My mom came and took me to the hospital where I stayed the next two nights and got out April 8th. Needless to say, that was shitty time spent. But the worst part? In Michigan, the law says a person cannot drive for 6 months after losing consciousness. So, in my decision that I was smarter than my doctor, I had a seizure on Easter morning, spent three days in a hospital, and lost my independence for 6 months.

2) Latuda and Geodon. February of 2015, I was taking both Latuda and Geodon (I actually am on the same combination again, but at different times during the day). One day late that month, I got pretty suicidal. Not enough to attempt, but enough to seriously consider ending my life. So I was admitted to a psych ward. That night, I was not given either Latuda or Geodon. It was easily the most bizarre night of my life. I had no clue what was going on. My reality was very, very distorted. I was talking to inanimate objects and shadows, going so far as to name them and give them personalities (the only one I clearly remember was Jamison, the shadow caused by a box of tissues on the nightstand). I went to pull my blankets over my body so I could sleep, but I was severely hallucinating and the blanket looked like it was alive. In a fit of rage, I threw my blanket to the ground and kicked it, trying to make it stop moving. I eventually gave up and went to lie down on my bed. I slept for a little while, and woke up feeling different. I thought the hospital staff had injected some kind of serum into my brain while I slept to make me feel different. Now I was really, really enraged. I almost went out into the hallway, yelling, “What are you doing, giving me living blankets and putting stuff in my head while I sleep?! WHAT?!” But I knew the rules of psych wards even at my most psychotic moments, so I kept my mouth shut and laid on my bed, very cold and shivering because I refused to use the “living” blanket (It would take three nights for me to be convinced that the blanket was not alive and was not trying to kill me). The next day, I was hardly able to function. I could not eat, I could not keep my head up, I was not very responsive when people talked to me. Keep in mind this was all withdrawal from not having the meds for one night. Eventually I was put on Trilafon and discharged. But that night without my meds has stuck with me very clearly about a year later.

3) Various other meds, such as Loxapine, Geodon, Latuda, and other antispychotics. Going off these meds has lead me to do dangerous things like cut my arm in a severe delusion, eat very little, drink very little, sleep very little, and make my symptoms get worse for days even after I get back on the med.

I could post a little more, but I don’t want this post to be too long. My point in telling these stories is that very serious and dangerous physical, emotional and mental side effects can occur if you do not take your medicine as prescribed by your doctor. I am telling you this as someone who has suffered those different types of side effects. I’m not trying to scare you into take your meds, but I want you to be well aware of what could happen if you choose to risk your health by not listening to your doctor.

My best advice to you is:

1) Find a psychiatrist you get along with, trust, and who knows you and your reaction to certain meds.

2) Take your meds as prescribed by that psychiatrist.

3) If a med seems to not be working or causing undesirable side effects, talk to your doctor before stopping it. It may be a med where the best way to get off it is to slowly taper your intake of it until it reaches zero.

These three steps will keep you safe, healthy, and on the road to a quicker recovery from your illness.

anonymous asked:

NYPost has a pretty nice MITAM article! (Titled "The New One Direction Album Doesn't Suck" haha)

Well that title is special. Here’s the full article. Thanks, anon!


The New One Direction Album Doesn’t Suck

It might be time to cut the jabs — or at least ease off a little — because One Direction’s new album, “Made in the A.M.,” is not the bland, boy-band fodder we’ve come to expect.

During 2015, the Anglo-Irish group lost its fifth member, Zayn Malik, and announced it plans to go on hiatus next year, but this upheaval sounds like it’s been good for the band. There are a number of songs that break the whitewashed pop mold and appear to have some surprisingly hip inspirations. Here are five tracks you should seek out.

‘Hey Angel’

Fans of Britpop will have their ears pricked with the opening track, which has a beat and an overall grandiosity that seems to be descended from the Verve’s 1997 hit single “Bittersweet Symphony.”

“Infinity”

Coldplay has a new album out in a few weeks, but anyone desperate for a fix of that band’s soaring indie-rock to keep the withdrawal symptoms under control could do worse than diving into this stadium-sized number (which was released as a promo single back in September).

“Never Enough”

Imagine a rowdy revamp of Billy Ocean’s “When the Going Gets Tough, the Tough Get Going,” and you’ve essentially got this absurd album cut that seemingly captures the members of 1D having more fun than they have in a while.

“Olivia”

In the eyes and ears of music snobs, daring to compare One Direction songs to The Beatles’ back-catalogue is sacrilegious, but it’s hard to deny that the bubble-gum souls of John Lennon and Paul McCartney inhabit the melody of “Olivia,” and the strings could have been cribbed straight from “Sgt. Pepper’s Lonely Hearts Club Band.”

“What a Feeling”

The foursome have obviously been diving into their parents’ music collection again, because “What a Feeling” blends Fleetwood Mac-style harmonies with a silky smooth, ‘80s pop sheen.

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Ugh I’ve seen a lot of Kaidan hate and I’m just sick of the so called reasoning behind it. I think the worst reason I’ve seen for people killing Kaidan is because they want to romance Garrus, but they also don’t want to reject Kaidan…like you’d rather kill the guy, than politely turn him down? Then you get the people who complain that Kaidan is a “dudebro” who is constantly jealous and feels entitled to Shepard. THAT gets me confused…are we talking about the same Kaidan here? The guy that refused to join the person he loved/deeply respected because of his morals? The guy that cares about literally everyone, INCLUDING the Cerberus scientists and douchebag Udina in Mass effect 3? I’ve just seen so much shit on here whether it be pitting him against Ashley and Garrus, or just straight up vilifying him. And to make it worse, I’m pretty sure other Bioware LIs get away with the same stuff he gets “called out” on. Like Cullen’s PTSD/withdrawal symptoms is never dismissed as “whining” and yet Kaidan’s migraines are, or him being a “cishet dudebro” (he’s not straight but anyway)…like..so is Garrus, Thane, Alistair, Cullen, Solas??? What is your point? Garrus and Kaidan are buddies. It’s canon. So they would be very disappointed to see this, as would Shepard.

xparapluiex  asked:

Sad headcanons? Sad headcanons. Cullen's hands shaking, and the withdrawal symptoms worse when he learns that the Inquisitor is pregnant with his kid. She is the only one able to bring him any amount of peace, and as the due date gets closer he is more assured but also more worried than he has ever been. And then its happening and he is there, holding her hand, as she screams and does her best. She is nearly breaking his fingers, and then her grip goes lax. It never squeezes again.

oh my god

OH MY GOD???