the way he's smiling in the first

anonymous asked:

Do you ever think about the first time Alec slept over at magnus' like no sex just casual sleep

i absolutely do

i imagine it would be such a pretty thing really, a slow thing. it would be afternoon dripping into evening when alec showed up, asking magnus if he was done with work for the day as he shut the door behind him. and magnus, holding a book in his hand would smile really slow, shaking his head and saying that he only had a few potions brewing that he had to check on later. then before he could really say much of anything else, alec would be slipping his arms around magnus’s waist, pressing him close gently. a slow hug in the doorway that felt like something deep unfurling. i missed you so much and it wasn’t even that long.

it would be laughter echoing through the kitchen as magnus summoned them dinner with his eyebrows up and a huge grin on his face. alec would be halfway bent over the kitchen counter, grinning one of those huge grins and shaking his head. because as usual they couldn’t pick what to have so magnus summoned every kind of takeout imaginable and alec scoured it all before pursing his lips together. “buffet?” he said, raising one eyebrow.

“i like how you think alexander.” magnus responded with a low chuckle.

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First kiss with Daryl would include :

(Woooo more fluffy prompts! Awwww Daryl :3 Hope it is as requested and you all like it :3 Gif not mine/found it on google/credit to the original)

-Daryl going along with you on a run, as usual as he has grown to enjoy your company and actually has feelings for you

-Him walking so close to you, you can feel his arm brushing against you, making you both blush but still walking that way

-You nervously asking him if he has his eyes on someone and him just smiling as he feels he might have his chance with you before he talks about you without naming you

-You eventually catching on and stopping midway just to grab a hold of his hand and turning to look at him before pressing your lips to his and surprising him in the process

-Him not wanting to part away from you and bravely keeping you to him by cupping your cheek as he deepens the kiss

anonymous asked:

Imagine Steve going off on a rant during a PR event about his strong feelings about the current state of baseball.

In Steve’s opinion, it took the once Brooklyn Dodgers far too long to ask him to throw the first pitch out at one of their games.  Sure, they’d moved to Los Angeles (and Steve wasn’t about to let them forget it) but he still considered himself the biggest fan they’d ever had.  The morning of the game was sunny and warm, and Steve gave the ball a throw with all his might.  As he heard the satisfying smack of it hitting the catcher’s mitt, he smiled towards the camera, fully aware that his face was on the jumbo screen, and made his way off the field.

It only took a few minutes of being off the mound before the press swarmed him.  He didn’t even have a chance to find his seat before experiencing the too familiar feeling of ten reporters shouting questions at him.  This time, however, one really caught his attention.

“Captain Rogers, what do you say to the young people who claim that baseball isn’t a real sport?”

“What?” Steve asked incredulously.  “Baseball is not just a sport, it’s an American sport.  It’s in our blood.  Next they’ll be saying that New York isn’t a real city.”  He scoffed and shook his head.  “Baseball might not be as fast-paced as some other sports, but it takes skill and heart to play it.  You have to be versatile, you have to think on your feet, you have to smart and quick and ready for anything.  That’s the American way.  Those boys out there, playing our country’s game, they’re doing it for the love of it.  Really, the only way I could be happier with the current state of baseball is if my team came back to Brooklyn.”

I’ve been sick this past few days (it feels like weeks now) and so I have wanted little more than to cry about STAR WARS feelings by reading emotionally satisfying and/or heartbreaking fic and then maybe some porn to go along with it. Leaking faces and wanting to vomit are a lot more tolerable when they come with feelings and porn. \o/

STAR WARS FIC RECS:
To Argue is to Love by Zinga763, obi-wan & anakin, 1k
   Anakin is sick, Obi-Wan is confused.
In Want by updiddlyupup, obi-wan & anakin, 7k
   Desperate to avoid all the ways he isn’t settling in, Anakin goes on a quest.
Coda by lilyconrad, obi-wan/anakin & padme & cast, modern au, ballet au, 17.4k wip
   Anakin is an up-and-coming first soloist for the New York City Ballet Company, a brash, confident dancer with a smoldering sensuality to his technique and an electric smile that makes fangirl toes curl and quite possibly his choreographer’s.
Negotation by Glare, obi-wan/anakin & ahsoka & cast, NSFW, modern au, serial killer au, 64.8k wip
   Over a year ago, Coruscant Police Detective Anakin Skywalker vanished without a trace while hunting the prolific serial killer known within the media as “The Negotiator”.
destination: nowhere by kasuchans, obi-wan/anakin, NSFW, some (force) bondage, 4.6k
   The Outlander Club is known for two things: strong drinks and gambling. It’s really difficult to get home after indulging in either one of the two.
the kids aren’t all right by QueenWithABeeThrone, obi-wan/anakin & anakin/padme & ahsoka & cast, 33.1k
   “He dragged me up a hill so I wouldn’t burn to death,” says Anakin. “Obi-wan’s still in there, I know it. I’m going to save him.”
Broken by lilyconrad, obi-wan/anakin, NSFW, sith!obi-wan, amnesia, dark content, 3.6k
   The Twins are unstoppable enforcers of the Emperor’s will, the sun and moon that hang in the black void of his rule. It is said they are not the same age and that under their hoods they do not look alike, but they fight as one entity, silent and terrible as an eclipse in a spring sky.
untitled by writegowrite, obi-wan/anakin, sith!obi-wan, 1.1k
   Like the steel blade he wields, Obi-Wan Kenobi has come far from his simple beginnings. Anakin Skywalker is one of the brightest suns in the Order of the Dawn.
late night under the stars + angsty fight by writegowrite, obi-wan/anakin, ~1k
   Did the first two in little vignettes as my writing warm-up for tonight…
In Color by Glare, obi-wan/anakin/padme, soulmark au, modern au, 15.4k wip
   Anakin Skywalker is six years old the first time he marks on his skin with intent.
Five Times Anakin Was Uncivilized and One Time Obi-Wan Didn’t Mind by Nisa, obi-wan/anakin, 2k
   It’s all in the title. :)
untitled by Glare, obi-wan/anakin/padme, human au, 1.3k
   The thing is, Obi-Wan doesn’t hate his roommates.
untitled by themikeymonster + ialreadyreadthatfanfic + likealeafonthewind + phosphorescent-naidheachd, obi-wan/anakin/padme, 2.5k
   TPM AU where Padme has a (completely obvious) teenage crush on Padawan Obi-Wan. Little Anakin is slightly upset before promptly deciding he’ll just have to marry them both once he’s old enough.
The Dark Path Lit by Sun and Stars by A_Delicate_Fury, obi-wan & anakin & ahsoka & luke & leia & han & cast, time travel, 9.4k wip
   “I don’t know how this happened. I don’t yet know why. But this is definitely Anakin’s fault.”
untitled by stonefreeak, cody & yoda & cast, supreme chancellor!obi-wan au, ~1k
   Anonymous asked: I’d love to see the trooper’s views in all this. Exasperation at Kenobi not taken enough consideration of his safety. Worries that he’s not sleeping, forgetting to eat? What did they see that made them go to Yoda for help?

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What the fans think of you...#7

Niall:

Saying the fans were happy was an understatement. They could not be happier that their Niall has finally found his princess after so many heartbreaks. Many pictures of Y/N and Niall have surfaced and it has been nothing but positive feedback. You can see the way Niall’s eyes sparkled when he looked at her and the way her smile lit up her face just by looking at him. The fans caught her and Niall shopping one day and found out that she was super sweet even when the cameras weren’t around, which made them even more happy if possible knowing that she wasn’t there for the fame. The first picture together is what got the fans started and now they can’t get enough.

Harry:

Harry’s announcement of his relationship on social media nearly broke the internet for good. Anyone who is a fan of one direction is secretly in a relationship with one of the boys in their head or just super protective, but for some reason Harry’s fans were incredibly protective and aggressive when it comes to him dating. Some were balling their eyes out and some were hateful at first. Some had speculated he might’ve been taken though, due to him being photographed with a dozen roses or random gifts or just this smile that no one has ever seen. Harry had asked y/n- nearly begged her to join him on the red carpet event he was to attend. Y/n didn’t want the fans to think that she was in any way using him for fame or attention. Harry assured her that even if they did think like that, he and she know that that’s not true in the least bit. Eventually she agreed. As they made their first appearance as a couple, paparazzi were going crazy and so were fans and interviewers, they were dying to see who would get to interview them first. Everyone seen and even heard how supportive and how caring she was of him and the way he held her, and whispered in her ear making her blush and or giggle. The way she’d look at him and how they kissed. The sparkle in his eyes that haven’t been seen in a long time, and his smile was true and not the least bit forced, he was so protective over her all through the night people seen that as he showed the world his precious baby. Everyone knew how real and serious this was for him as he’s never done this with anyone ever before. He’s never been public with his relationship. He even said himself that night that she was the one that stole his heart and stopped his world. Ever since that night he and y/n were one of the most influential couples and role models for all. When Harry and y/n were spotted sometimes the fans just wanted to have pictures with y/n and that made Harry smile. Not only did he have his personal friends and family’s approval but his fans as well. Not that he needed it but it still felt great.

Liam:

At first, when Liam showed the world his sweetheart, the fandom was not too happy together. They wanted to protect their puppy dog eyed, toy story loving man. After everything he has been through, the fans just want what’s best for him. But the more pictures and videos of the two that got released, the more the fans started warming up to Y/N. what really sealed the deal was when Liam broke his wrist again, and Y/N was there with him, by his side every step of the way until he was fully recovered, showing that she truly does care about him.

Louis:

The fans love y/n and Louis together. Out of all the girlfriends Louis ever had, y/n was the one that had the fans most approval. Y/n nurtured Louis back to life and they saw that. She had helped him so much and got him through that horrible patch of life. He looked more lively, healthy and truly happy. He stopped the drugs, and drinking, he stopped partying so much. Every time they were spotted and how they’d look at each other they seen how much they truly cared about one another. When fans catch them some times, y/n would always offer to take pics for them with Louis by their side or sometimes even make friends with them which Louis found incredibly amazing.

 **Credit to @bbygprincessblog for harry and Louis’s parts

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Imagine the Winchesters fall in love with you at first sight

“We need to be prepared for the son of a bitch this night so…” Dean trailed off when he noticed that Sam wasn’t listening. “Sammy, are you listening?” He asked, watching his brother. 

But Sam didn’t answered, all he was able to do was looking right in front of him. He was like in another world, like mesmerized by something. Dean frowned and turned his head to watch what Sam was looking at. And then he saw you. You were just in the another side of the road, talking with a old lady. Your smile was magnificent, your hair was shining with the sun and your eyes was sparkling. You were breathtaking. 

“Wow.” Dean murmured

“I saw her first.” Sam said, looking at his brother. 

“No way. She’s mine.” Dean argue, knowing that he was better at flirt. 

“She’ll prefer man like me, kind and caring. Your won’t seduce her with your pick-up line”

“Watch me.”  

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Happy 26th birthday to my favorite hockey player, Curtis McKenzie! It has been a crazy ride supporting him and I wouldn’t change it for the world! He is the nicest professional athlete I have ever had the privilege of meeting and continues to surprise me on and off the ice! He’s had a long journey, won championships at Miami Ohio, won AHL Rookie of the Year and the Calder Cup with the Texas Stars. Now he’s fighting hard in the NHL. It has been so cool to watch him work through the season to improve and progress. I’m so proud every night he’s in the lineup. I have a multitude of stories about meeting him (which is so crazy) but my favorite was after I bought my first NHL jersey, his jersey. I had to have it custom (extra custom since NHL.com doesn’t have him as an option). After paying way too much, I got it, little C and all. I’ll never forget seeing him, showing him and the smile on his face and saying “Oh! You got it! No way!!” (even in his ridiculous accent)
Again, I know I haven’t had the typical experience with my favorite, being able to see and meet him so often, but he’s not typical.
Happy birthday to my favorite Canadian, muckbro, monkey, “small guy”, Curtis ❤️

Johnny Imagine: Introducing You To The Gang.

The first time Johnny saw you across the school campus he completely fell for you. The way you smiled and walked with your head high and confident. He had never seen you around before but after that first day he made a point of trying to find you in the halls all of the time.

What he didn’t know was that you were doing the same thing for him. You had always seen him walking around with town with his friends and you thought he was pretty cute and sweet. You felt like was hard to find people your age that were genuinely good at heart and nonjudgmental but from what you knew about Johnny Cade he was both of those things.

After a week of silently admiring each other you two began flirting. Whenever you saw each other in the halls you would share coy smiles as you passed. And he even introduced himself properly one day at your locker before walking you to class. He began walking you to all of your classes and eventually he asked you out on a proper date.

He apologized profusely that it wasn’t some big fancy evening but you enjoyed the evening you had with him. You two shared a milkshake and then walked around talking until your curfew. When he brought you home that night he kissed you softly and after two more dates he finally asked you to be his girlfriend which you of course accepted.

You were confused about one thing though, and that’s why you had never met his friends. You confronted him about it about a week after you had become his official girlfriend and he was taking you home after school.

“Is it.. Are you ashamed of me or something?” You asked him sadly. Maybe Johnny wasn’t the kind boy you thought he was. Maybe he was just like the rest of them. Your heart sunk at that thought.

“Jeez, Y/N. How could you think that?” Johnny frowned as he stopped walking so he could look at you.

“Well it’s just.. You talk about them so fondly but you’ve never introduced me to any of them. I just thought that maybe..”

“No,” Johnny said shaking his head. “Whatever you thought was wrong okay? I’m not ashamed of you. I really like you. I just don’t want them to scare you of, you know? They can be crazy sometimes. You know like they swear a lot and say inappropriate stuff. You’re a nice girl I didn’t want to put you in that situation.”

“Well don’t they have girlfriends too? And those girls haven’t been scared off yet.”

“Yea, I guess you’re right.” Johnny sighed and you smiled.

“I’m always right.”

Johnny just shook his head and took your hand. “Let’s go.”

The two of you walked slowly to the DX where you recognized his friends immediately standing around one of the gas bumps messing around with each other. As they saw you two approaching they immediately whistled at the two of you. And when Johnny was close enough the punched his arm.

“So this must be the girl our Johnny won’t stop talking about.” said a loud one in a Mickey Mouse t-shirt. One of the guys you recognized from school approached you and held out his hand.

“I’m Ponyboy Curtis.”

“Y/N…” you smile shyly and shake his hand.

Johnny introduced you to the rest of the guys and they all seemed to like you. You had to admit Johnny was right about them being loud and inappropriate but then again most guys your age were. And after a while some girls approached the group of you that you figured must be the girlfriends of some of the other guys. They welcomed you immediately and after Steve and Sodapop got off of work you all went down to the Curtis’s house to hang around.

You watched Johnny while you were there and saw how fondly he looked at all of his friends. And his friends saw how fondly you looked at Johnny. And even though they were protective of each other they knew right away that you were a good girlfriend for him to have.

fairytalesdonthaveendings  asked:

I needed to share this. You know those videos and pictures Chas took at the wedding. Ok, imagine Robert laying in bed, hugging Aaron’s pillow and crying while watching those videos because he just wants Aaron home in his arms again.

EM!!! Why are you attacking me like this?? I….this…I, you, we need to write this scene!! Oh god! Can you imagine him though, just laid there, at first smiling and laughing as he watches the two of them, remembering the feel of Aaron in his arms, the feel of his lips, the way he smelt and he just looks over at other side of the bed, empty, and a silent sob escapes his chest and he just breaks down, he was so happy that day, and now…now he’s alone, and he hugs Aarons pillow to his chest, his nose buried in the soft fabric but its not enough and he goes to the door and wraps one of Aarons hoodies around himself and sinks back into the bed that doesn’t quite feel right without his other half and watches the video on repeat until it becomes a blur, sheer exhaustion pulling him under……I mean WHAT?!?!?! I’m not crying, you’re crying!

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Shall we not talk about the face grab though?

Let’s talk about the face grab.

Because on so many occasions in anime, the face grab is used in a sensual/sexual context.

But not in this scene.

Hell, we’ve even seen it used in a sensual context in this particular anime

See the difference though? The thing is that in the scene with Yuuri, it’s gentle and careful and romantic.

With Yurio, it’s not.

And most importantly: it’s not meant to be.

Because, believe it or not, Victor is angry.

He doesn’t show it the way Yuuri or Yurio would, but he’s pretty pissed.

We know this through a few things, first of all, the fact that he replies to Yurio’s taunt, something which he, the mature adult, wouldn’t usually do.

You can even see it in his stance. He’s literally and metaphorically stooping to Yurio’s level. He’s lowering his back, leaning close with those half-lidded eyes and that sarcastic smile. In a way, he is mocking, belittling Yurio. And it’s something we’ve never seen him purposefully do with the intention of hurting someone.

And, well, he doesn’t intend to hurt Yurio. It’s his defense mechanism. More than anything, it’s a sign of how upset he is.

The face grab is the culmination of this

I think we all know how rarely Victor touches other people without their permission.

Which means he must be absolutely livid here.

Yurio may be just a kid but he’s tired of his shit.

It’s a way to remind him of his standing.

It’s a way of saying “Know your place, brat.”

“You don’t know the first thing about me. Who gave you the right to speak?”

And I’m not sure whether this is a thing in Russian, but in my language (Polish, which has Slavic origins, just like Russian), we have a phrase 'Nie pyskuj’ which translates as ‘don’t talk back’, but literally means something like ‘don’t muzzle off’. Essentially, ‘don’t run your mouth’.

So, in a way, you could interpret this as Victor literally closing and holding his mouth so that he stops yapping.

And if you think about it, this is the most violent behavior we’ve seen from Victor. He’s literally never acted like that. He’s never been that affected by anything to act like that.

But now, he’s pissed, and he can hardly control himself. And you could interpret the source of his anger as multiple things, but I’ll personally stick with the idea that he hates how Yurio is insulting Yuuri. I doubt that Victor cares how Yurio bad-mouths him personally, he can deal with being insulted himself. But the kid doesn’t get to talk that way about his fiance.

And the next we see of him is this smile

And I’m sure some people would like to consider it ‘flirty’ (especially when taken out of context), but more than anything, it’s a challenging smile. It’s sarcastic. He’s still mocking Yurio, and doing so just with his expression. He’s sneering at him. He’s showing that in every single way he’s above him and his petty insults (even though it’s clear that he’s also falling for them).

It’s interesting to see how Victor handles his anger because we’ve never seen him like that before. He’s never truly been angry.

This is a glimpse into the Victor we don’t know and it’s a curious one.

What’s even more curious is how quickly he gets over it and thinks this:

He quickly finds something positive about the situation. Because not even Yurio and his stupid insults can keep him down for long, not when he’s reminiscing about Hasetsu, feeling the ring on his finger and thinking of Yuuri.

Because ultimately Victor doesn’t hold grudges the way Yurio does. He lets things go easily.

But Yuuri is the one thing he doesn’t want to let go of anytime soon.

It’s on his behalf that he gets angry in the first place, but it’s Victor’s own nature to shrug and forget the conflict in the end.

And I think that says a lot.

CAN WE APPRECIATE THIS

Viktor Nikiforov is rich. He buys designer things. He owns an awesome apartment/penthouse. He’s rich enough to do whatever he want. He’s a celebrity. And look at how he travels. This is a first class/business class seat. It’s wide, comfy and we all expect Viktor to travel this way.

However, after meeting Yuuri, Viktor flies economy. We can tell from the narrower seats.

He could’ve easily upgraded to a first class seat if he just paid more money (which he as a lot of). But instead, Viktor FUCKINGDiva Nikiforov values being with Yuri above his own material comforts. He’s leaning against Yuuri and smiling. It’s one of those genuine smiles where you KNOW he’s enjoying himself. He’s much happier in this picture than he is int he one above because he genuinely looks at peace here. 

I just think it’s beautiful how Viktor sacrifices his upscale lifestyle (and EVERYTHING BASICALLY) to be with Yuri. That man loves Yuuri a hecka lot. 

“I know he loves her now,” she said, “and I’m only a memory that he tries not to visit too often.” She paused, looking so at peace, but in the saddest way possible. “I guess I just hope that he thinks of me from time to time. When he sees a sunset too beautiful for words, or when our favorite artist releases a new song, or when he passes my street. I just hope that sometimes he remembers what it felt like to be nineteen and so in love that it was almost like your heart might burst. I hope that he smells my old perfume and he can’t shake the picture of me running outside of my house, barefoot, to jump into his arms. I just want our love to still be important, you know? I just… I hope it lingers.”

“It sounds like a beautiful memory,” I told her. “How could he forget?”

She smiled. “Darling, everything fades with time. Even the most vivid of moments — realizing, for the first time, you’re in love, or your first kiss, or even the day it all came crashing down around you — fade as new moments pass. I just hope I was important enough to last a little while longer.”

—  excerpt from an unfinished book #136 // Thinking of you because Ed Sheeran released a new song
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Fitz’s confidence is improving bit by bit (3x20 vs 4x10)

I haven’t seen any post about it, and I really want to talk about it.

Viktor’s (finally !) mad.

It’s the very first time, in all 12 episodes, that we’ve seen him that way.
Though he had many reasons to get mad before (Yuuri making him wait all day for practice, Yurio being childish or even punching him in the back), he always responded with a (fake) smile to it. Chill. No big deal. He never seemed too worked out about it, he always seems to have the best self-control over himself.

And now, he’s mad. He’s even crying because he’s SO mad. I find it truly interesting.
And WHAT did finally upset him that much ?

The idea of not seeing Yuuri on the ice anymore. Not being able to coach him anymore. Having his s/o make that kind of decisions without even asking him about it ! Dismissing that part of their lives together without even talking to him about it.
And Yuuri, his beloved Yuuri, having the nerve to suggest that competing on the ice without him would be any good. Maybe that’s what upsets him the most. Especially if you consider the fact that they have been training together for their surprise duet on ice, and, most likely, Victor has been enjoying dancing on the ice with him, and sharing that part of their dreams together.

Oh, I wonder what really went on inside that beautiful head of his. That must’ve been quite the storm.

more important klance things to consider:

  • the way lance will come up behind keith and wrap his arms around his middle, rest his head on keiths shoulder and ask if he’s okay
  • keith scooping up a sleeping lance to carry him back to his bunk and tuck him into bed
  • the soft way lance will sometimes mumble keiths name in his sleep and keith glances over at him and smiles all fond
  • their casual cheek kisses before they’re about to run off and do something
  • shiro teasing keith about how deep his little brother feels for lance
  • “you don’t have to lie to me, keith. you loooove him.”
  • shut your facehole
  • klances first ‘i love you’ being after they near enough lose each other on a mission and are reunited again

The difference between Yuri’s crying since ep. 1 to 7, is something I wanted to mention, because just look at the boy…

And how different he looks, how he doesn’t hold back, not like he did when he first cried on the phone, he’s letting all out, he’s not trying to put on a tough act, he is not smiling while trying so hard not to break down. His emotions now feel a whole more congruent to the anxiety and pressure he is feeling. And even if Victor pushed the buttons for this to happened, and may have wanted to test the boy, Yuri later states he feels way better after crying, because he knows he finally said what was on his mind, he didn’t have to pretend, or swallow everything and just keep on going, not anymore.

and I know a boy so bright I think the sun has to be jealous of his smile. And I want to turn him into a metaphor but it wouldn’t do him justice. I want to fill up every available space with the way he makes me feel- like he’s the rain on my roof, like he brings peace and safety, like he’s warmth and I’ve been cold for so long, like the way we move together sounds like applause, like how when I feel our fingers intertwine our hands turn into forest and we’re growing fast, planting roots wherever we can.
—  laceerainspoetry, The first kiss was a love poem I didn’t know would become my favorite.
I HAVE SOME VERY IMPORTANT FEELINGS ABOUT VIKTOR NIKIFOROV AND YOI

Listen:

A major reason why Viktor is so captivated by Yuuri at the banquet is because, from his perspective, Yuuri is happier to have lost than Viktor is to have won. Viktor is at the top of his game but feels like there’s no savour to it, no real satisfaction - but Yuuri, who just came in last, is smiling and dancing and laughing and (seemingly) having a fabulous time in a way that Viktor never has, even when he was younger. He’s watching this guy talk Yurio into a dance-off and pole dance with Chris without the slightest bit of shame or hesitation, and he’s thinking, What the fuck does Yuuri (who’s incidentally super hot) know about skating - and about life - that I don’t? So he approaches him, nervously at first but with increasing confidence, and soon gets so caught up in the moment that he starts having fun like Yuuri is, too. Viktor won the Grand Pix and didn’t feel like he’d done anything new, but dancing with Yuuri? That made him smile, and he’s all lit up and wondering what else Yuuri can teach him that he didn’t know and trying to work up the courage to ask -

- and Yuuri goes and asks Viktor to teach him.

And in that moment, when Viktor gasps and the whole world rearranges itself, it matters to Viktor, not just because he’s attracted to Yuuri and at a professional loose end, but because he thinks that Yuuri sees something in him that he doesn’t see himself - and more, that Yuuri, as just evidenced by their dancing, has the unique ability to make him see it, too. Viktor has never had fun at a banquet before, but the man who just lost the Grand Prix has made him feel more alive than any of his medals ever did.

Which is also why, from the moment they meet again in Hasetsu,Viktor repeatedly fails to understand how Yuuri’s issues with anxiety and low self-esteem are intrinsically tied to his belief that he’s a poor skater: because the Yuuri Viktor met at the banquet didn’t care that he’d lost. Over and over again, Viktor tries to push Yuuri into not caring about the outcome because his formative impression of Yuuri is of someone who responds to losing by going out, having a wonderful time and seducing the fuck out of the person who did win, i.e. as someone who emotionally handles loss better than Viktor handles winning. So when he sees Yuuri get nervous before a skate, he’s not being callous in bluntly reminding Yuuri that he might lose or what could go wrong: he’s trying to parse the disconnect between the anxious Yuuri in front of him and the Yuuri he remembers who didn’t give a fuck when he actually did lose. He’s trying to say, albeit clumsily, “Once this is over, you won’t care if you lost; you’ll bounce back and do your own thing, so accept the worst case scenario now and move on from stressing about it.”

What Viktor doesn’t understand is that, not only his fundamental view of Yuuri based on a single night of deeply uncharacteristic behaviour, but that Yuuri doesn’t remember it. Even once Viktor realises that Yuuri’s extroversion and drinking at the banquet are anomalies, he still thinks he’s able to allude to its significance in a positive way: remember that time you lost the Grand Prix final, had an utterly wonderful evening with all our friends and seduced me into becoming your coach? That’s Yuuri’s worst case scenario, and from Viktor’s perspective, it turned out great! Why on Earth would Yuuri be afraid of something that spectacular happening again? It doesn’t help that Viktor has no personal experience with that sort of confidence/anxiety issue in the first place, which means he has a poor ability to gauge when he’s pushing too hard, but the whole time, Yuuri’s missing memory is the elephant in the room. Viktor never refers to the banquet directly because, when Yuuri fails to bring it up, he logically assumes that Yuuri is embarrassed, not that he’s forgotten it altogether, and without knowing this vital piece of information, all his attempts to remind Yuuri that you failed and something new and wonderful came from it are interpreted by Yuuri as you’ve failed before and could fail again.

And I just.

I HAVE A LOT OF FEELINGS ABOUT THIS, OKAY?

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You know what gets me the most, the fact Victor might have expected to meet that confident and outgoing boy from that one night, when he first decided to go to Japan, that boy who just threw him off with his way of dancing, with his confidence and that goofy kind of attitude, which might have had him laughing and smiling until everything hurt, filling the other with inexplicable joy.

He might have expected to meet that boy who one night took his hand for a dance and made it impossible to forget. But he didn’t, instade he got to meet this scared but sweet boy, which made him want to stay, even if things were not clear, he decided to stay and his love just grew, and kept on doing so with time. Because that timid boy, he came to found in Hasetsu, gave him back part of his life. Their first meeting started way before their “actual meeting”, with a dance and champagne, which they both had no idea would lead them to where they stand now. And I don’t know.. it just makes me unbelievably happy.