This is quite different of what I usually post here (and of what I usually do!). I’m bringing some new challenges to myself based on new inspirations I’m finding these days. Just exploring a different kind of digital art to run away from the comfort, which I think it’s really important at some point :)
i’m just going to throw this out here for people who might be unfamiliar with vampire: the masquerade but if you have some common triggers like self-harm and gore etc. etc. you may want to avoid watching this weeks one shot just to be safe.
Tony is smelling Ziva’s scarf and inhaling her scent which flashes back to the last time he smelled her in PPF and then he stares at Tali because THAT’S HOW SHE HAPPENED I can’t with my feelings right now
Okay, now that that word-vomit is out of the way…
Seriously, how hauntingly beautiful is this?
You can see how utterly devastated Tony is – just completely, overwhelmingly broken inside and out. Now that Tali is asleep he can drop his act, and you can see the life just drain out of him.
What I can’t get over is just how intimate the act of sniffing Ziva’s scarf is – we’ve established this already, but that’s not the act of a co-worker, or even friend. That’s something far more personal and loaded with subtext.
And obviously, it’s meant to kick us right in The Feels, because he’s trying to hang onto one last piece of her – and again, it’s an astonishingly intimate act, and it connotes a far more intense connection than with the other agents, not that, you know, the presence of their child didn’t already do that.
Yet that isn’t enough. Because inhaling that scent brings him (and us) right back to the last time he saw her, and their last conversation. When she told him he was loved because she loved him, and he did the hardest thing he’s ever had to do and has regretted and replayed it every day since. It broke his heart back then, and it sure as hell wrecks him even more now that he knows how it all played out.
But of course the show has to make that connection for us. Bring us back to the last time it decided to break all of our hearts, and giving us one of the most beautiful scenes ever tinged with complete heartbreak. Especially now that we see the added layers – because neither of them knew at that moment when they kissed for the last time that this was the end but also this was not the end because lo and behold, they had their own little sequel in the works.
And Tony is remembering that moment and what led to that moment and how that moment happened and sees the direct consequence of that lying on his couch fast asleep.
And that has to throw him for a loop.
Also lol that child is older than 20 months old, I’m just saying
Speaking of Jason Isbell, I want y’all to know that every time Harry and Louis are MIA at the same time, I’m constantly singing “Cover Me Up” from Jason’s Southeastern album and dying inside.
And the old lover’s sing “I thought it’d be me who helped him get home” But home was a dream One I’d never seen till you came along
So [boy], leave your boots by the bed We ain’t leaving this room Till someone needs medical help Or the magnolias bloom It’s cold in this house and I ain’t going out to [get Starbucks] So cover me up and know you’re enough To use me for good
I am rarely ever by myself. If there is ever anything sad or frustrating or something that makes me angry somebody is always with me and I never have time to process it by myself.
There are so many times I want to turn the music up so high that I can barely stand it. Or I want complete silence in the car and can’t have it. I’m 45 years old and I try very carefully to choose the people I allow into my life so that I don’t get hurt anymore and yet it still happens. I just want a reassurance that you won’t hurt me. I want a reassurance that you will do what you say you will.
Today is parent teacher conference day. I’m here from 11am-7pm. We have 10min slots scheduled. I have parents scheduled in every slot from 11:10-1:50 and 3:20-6:40. I had a parent here at 10:55. So I started then. I’m exhausted. I’m so tired y'all. I just want a break.
Bitty character study. Zimbits. Mostly canon-compliant.
TW: Eating disorder, panic attacks, body issues, body disconnect?, (depersonalization?), canon typical alcohol abuse, vomiting, past bullying, homophobia, rocky parent-child relationships, descriptions of blood and minor injury
So im slowly getting my step bro to read CLAMP stuff and he is enjoying X a lot right now. He kinda wants to read CCS next but was asking if it has any emotional depth or if it is just as sunshine and rainbows as all promo material looks like XD I of course reassured him that there is a lot of emotion and deeper themes in CCS.
But like of course there is a world of difference between “my mother died when I was little and im a bit sad but life is good anyway. My brother sees her gentle ghost sometimes” and “My mother was blown into bits by a magic sword when I was litte. I saw her gay mermaid form being sad in my dreams”
And also “Im sad because the guy I love is moving far away” and “Im sad because the guy I love killed my sister and then I killed him. Im using his eye as my own tho”
But hey, everything is very gay and tokyo tower is important
‘Let me go instead.’ I staggered to my feet. I’d just had the longest day in the history of days. I was ready to fall over. But there was no way I was going to stand by while my two oldest friends got sent into mortal danger. ‘Or at least let me go with them.’
‘Kid,’ Blitz said, his voice cracking. ‘It’s okay.’
My burden, Hearth signed, both hands pushing down on one of his shoulders.
I also kinda want to do something for Halloween, and since I can’t make cc and other simblreen stuff like that, I was thinking I could make a new post template for Halloween day and have posts going all day and also do something like more sim requests or what not if that sounds like a good idea?