the university of reading

I feel like everyone missed the point of my post… Sure, Yuu has issues, but that doesn’t take the responsibility of his actions away from him.

The biggest threat towards his safety isn’t Guren, or Ferid, or the JIDA, or vampires, or even God.

It’s himself. His recklessness. His trauma that renders him incapable of listening to the voice of reason in favor of obeying Guren over all else. His obsession with his unhealthy definition of family, as if it meant ignoring your own well being and how your beloved family feels about your actions.

That’s not cute. It’s annoying.

The Power Of Love

I’m not sure where to start, my heart is so full of emotions all the damn time, if it’s not too much, it’s too much to handle. But i am thankful that I’m able to feel and make others feel something, my existence is not to damage anyone, I’m glad I’m able to be here still & be able to write this, i was so scared for my life this year. I had one of the worst heartbreaking situations happen to me, but i had my family, & 3 friends that pulled me out from this darkness that consumed my days, nights and dreams. I wouldn’t eat, sleep, nor wanna talk to anyone. I would hide from everyone, Including social media. Anxiety crept up at my at work and i would leave and just hide in the car or the bathroom, I had one girl that worried about me and i just had met her, she showed me what a friendship was, a person who loved me dearly who i just had met who would bring me food, keep me company, try to take me out & show me i was worth more than what i thought i was, i had another friend who had my back when i completely lost my family again, he fed me when i had nothing, listened to me when i had myself confused where to go in life, who lifted my spirit when he knew my worth from the first times we hung out, my best friend since i was 15 years old who lifted me up from the ground who also worried about my health, who fed me when i sold everything i had. I don’t care if I’m sharing this because i was so fucken scared for my life, i felt like i was going to end my life any second. I’m SO thankful that god has put these people in my life . I’m so grateful to think as i gotten older I’ve been able to pick better people in my life, there’s nothing better to write this and say “i made it” thanks to the love of people i can say those are my friends / family. They say that love doesn’t solve things, but it does. It fucken does. Be careful who you hurt and what words you say, words stick. They stuck to me during the worst when people have disappeared and left me without any warning. I’m so grateful that has ended, god warned me and i took the benefit of the doubt to listen to my heart but not everyone understands me and if they do, it’s never been in a relationship why? Who knows, but that’s my bad for picking people who didn’t care for me from the start & just wanted something from me from the start. I understand that these 3 people who saved me in so many ways i can say they deserve all the love in the world, But i will say this, now that the year is ending, it has finally flipped on me. Last week i felt like the universe has seen the shit I’ve been through for a year and a half & that it’s finally on my side I really can’t explain it but i feel it in my bones, my skin & In my heart. The power of god is amazing, he’s always watching & the universe is watching your every move, ask me how? I feel it, i see it, I’ve watched every sign, or I’ve been really lucky, Gifted. Relationships are important with people, especially when people think it’s the whack thing to do, those are the ones that end up alone, don’t follow the trend. What I’m trying to say is that I’m so blessed and I’m really happy to be here. Breathing, healthy and happy. And this thanksgiving i just wanted to say thank you for not judging me and for caring about me unconditionally. For every mssg, every comment, Nothing but love from me to you, whoever took the time to read this. & to the ones that went out of their way to break me down, happy thanksgiving to you too. Stay up

Favorite LGBTQ+ books

Okay so I said I was gonna make a list of my favs, so here ya go. Some of them are hidden gems, and not very well known but trust me they are good!!! Also sadly only 2 are f/f bc my book store obviously hates me and doesn’t sell many :( 

A Boy Worth Knowing by Jennifer Cosgrove   (m/m ft bisexual rep)

Queen of Geeks by Jen Wilde   (f/f + m/f ft bisexual and autistic rep, poc main) 

Peter Darling by Austin Chant  (Trans main character, m/m) 

Everything Leads to You by Nina LaCour   (f/f)

Wonders of the Invisible World by Christopher Barzak  (m/m)

We Are the Ants by Shaun David Hutchinson  (m/m) 

When the Moon Was Ours by Anna-Marie McLemore  (trans main character, poc mains)

The Gentleman’s Guide to Vice and Virtue by Mackenzi Lee (m/m plus bisexual rep and possible ace rep, also poc main character)

Carry On by Rainbow Rowell  (m/m)

Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe by Benjamin Alire Saenz   (poc mains, m/m) 

Simon vs the Homo Sapiens Agenda by Becky Albertalli   (m/m)

Leo Loves Aries by Anyta Sunday  (m/m)

The Love Interest by Cale Dietrich  (m/m)

Annd now my fav Lgbt+ themed series

The Raven Cycle by Maggie Stiefvater (ft bisexual rep, m/m)

All for the Game by Nora Sakavic  (m/m) 

Iron Breakers by Zaya Feli ( I literally finished all 3 books in a day ITS SO GOOD, m/m) 

i’ll add on to this list in the future!! 


Honour the paladins of old.