the ugly little boy

HTGAWM S3 Finale thoughts...

Okay so I have so many thoughts and feelings about the finale, I don’t know where to start. 

Poor Connor. He’s messed up and that scene at the start, I felt so sad for him. I just WISH we’d seen more of his torment throughout the back part of the season. If they’d genuinely built up the suicidal thoughts and the guilt over eps 10-13 it could have been even more impactful than it was. The scenes with him and Annalise were amazing and godddddd I wish we would get more of them. There’s such clear parallels between them. Everyone has Michaela pegged as the next Annalise but I wouldn’t be shocked if it turned out to be Connor. I want to know if the stuff Annalise said about him was truth or her goading him. “You haven’t trusted anyone since you were a little boy.” “You’re still acting like that little boy, making up ugly stories about people because you’re scared of anyone actually getting to know you.”  WHAT HAPPENED IN CONNOR’S PAST?

I was so proud of Oliver these two episodes, I genuinely felt like he really came into his own. He stood up for himself, He stood up for Connor and he wasn’t afraid to speak his mind. He’s not a doormat anymore, he’s taking control and it just felt like… development. I think he’s potentially going to slip into a bit of a Wes role? more of a mediator between everyone but fierce when he needs to be. Yes, I’m easily bought but him proposing was fkn adorable and I SWEAR to god if Pete dangles that carrot and yanks it away again, I’m gonna be pissed. They deserve some happiness, so ffs give them it already. This show needs a happy episode for once as well. 

Maybe I’m biased, but I found Laurel SUPER annoying in both the episodes, and the thought of S4 being so heavily “Laurel-centric” fills me with dread, and tbh the whole “mafia-esque” vibe to Laurel’s family just feels so…. cliche and done to death? She’s starting to act kinda… entitled. Her MAP side is definitely showing. Her marching around yelling at everyone was just so overdone, but then I don’t buy into the whole narrative of her and Wes’ relationship. They dated for all of 10 minutes, and were already arguing. She went all weird and clingy to get him in the first place… they weren’t exactly this century’s great love story, and no, she didn’t know him better than anyone. 

Wes being the fall guy felt obvious from the start, and the only real way they were ever gonna get out of the mess, but like Bonnie said, he WAS a murderer so… I don’t feel like it particularly ruins his character or his memory. The only thing I didn’t get was why the DA rolled over so easily. He fabricated ALL that evidence to frame Annalise, but rolled over, took a hit to his credibility AND gave Annalise everything she wanted? I don’t see what he gained out of it, but maybe I’m missing something.

Michaela and Asher felt kinda on the sides, the whole “I love you” thing was sweet, but I’m starting to feel like their relationship is descending a bit into Michaela just forgiving Asher for shit constantly or overlooking crappy things he does. She does deserve better in general, she’s starting to get walked over. I did like the little scene between her and Connor though, those two are still my #1 friendship on this show. 

I didn’t hate it like I thought I might, so that’s a positive I guess?!

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.
Move on, leave, run away, escape this place… but don’t forget about me, about us, about this town. Always remember where you come from so you can appreciate how far you’ve come.
—  c.j.n.