the song that i lost my virginity to

2015

The year I lost my virginity to a stranger,
The year I met you,
The year we both had the same music taste and I miss you became my favorite song,
The year I made major mistakes,
The year you told me you loved me and I laughed,
The year I almost flunked out of school because I was so completely in love with you and I failed to notice,
The year I learned you were the only person I could actually fall asleep with,
The year I learned how to love someone completely, flaws and everything,
The year I learned forgiveness is something you would never give,
The year I learned people don’t always mean what they say,
The year I realized you never gave enough,
The year I learned compromise is a key component to having an effective relationship,
The year I realized that I shouldn’t give second chances so easily and I most definitely, should not give third chances,
The year I realized prescription drugs would take the pain of missing you away for a little bit,
The year I realized it was all the little things you remember, it’s the last memories you think of, and your last memory of me, was not one to miss,
The year I learned I couldn’t read you, but you hurt me just for the fun of it,
The year I tried to be okay with the fact that you were probably at your new girlfriends family’s house over the holidays, and that you were falling asleep with your arm around her waist instead of mine,
The year I fell desperately and terribly in love with you,
And lastly, the year I thought you fell for me, but it seems the only thing I didn’t learn, was how to make you love me too.

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This thing has been circulating…

Twelve Albums that Helped Shape Me

I could list a whole lot more!

Pink Floyd, Dark Side of the Moon
Led Zeppelin, IV (Studio Album)
The Alan Parsons Project, The Best of Alan Parsons Project
Bob Seger, Night Moves
Fleetwood Mac, Rumours
Jethro Tull, Aqualung
Queen, Classic Queen
Supertramp, Breakfast in America
Eurythmics, Greatest Hits
Tracy Chapman, Tracy Chapman
Indigo Girls, Indigo Girls
Enigma, MCMXC a.D.

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Update, I have to add a thirteen.

AEROSMITH, Toys in the Attic

“Lost” my virginity to an Aerosmith song, so yeah, I have to add this.

Also, I saw them in concert in the 80’s.

Rumor was, it was gonna be loud.

Well, the rumor was right!

I couldn’t hear for a week.

Wishing you all a great day.

XO

FILMS THE SIGNS SHOULD SEE

I know everyone has different tastes so this is based on my personal opinion/the messages I got when I asked you guys to tell me your sign/favourite film/what your personality is like. 

 Aries: kill bill, dazed and confused, romeo+juliet, school of rock 

Taurus: the great gatsby, clueless, scott pilgrim vs. the world, night on earth 

Gemini: lost in translation, the last song, heathers, palo alto 

Cancer: titanic, crybaby, grease, the princess diaries, interstellar

Leo: fight club, mean girls, breakfast at tiffany’s, pulp fiction, the spectacular now 

Virgo: the virgin suicides, bridesmaids, lolita, her, electrick children

Libra: closer, moonrise kingdom, LOL, almost famous 

Scorpio: donnie darko, girl, interrupted, 10 things I hate about you, hick

Sagittarius: sixteen candles, stuck in love, the perks of being a wallflower, begin again 

Capricorn: lèon: the professional, spirited away, inception, bring it on 

Aquarius: the eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, the goonies, the theory of everything 

Pisces: submarine, the breakfast club, ferris buller’s day off, like crazy

Omaha Squad Preference: Your Sex Song

Sammy: Birthday Sex- Jeremih

“It’s yo birthday, so I know you want to ride out
Even if we only go to my house
Sip mo-eezy as we sit upon my couch
Feels good, but I know you want to cry out
You say u want passion, I think you found it”

You lost your virginity on your birthday while this song was playing and every time you listen to it, it reminds you of that amazing night you and Sammy had together so you guys use it a lot when you are having sex

Nate: Touchin, Lovin- Trey Songz ft. Nicki Minjai


“I’m touchin’ you tonight,
I’m lovin’ you tonight (Wait nope)
I’m fuckin’ you, girl
You must be used to spendin’, putting in that time
Touchin’, lovin’, fuckin’ can’t make up my mind (Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh)
I’m lovin’ you”

The song describes all the things you and Nate do together which is why you guys choose to use it in the bedroom. You and Nate could be watching a movie or eating out but once you guys hear the song, you know its gonna down as soon as you guys are alone.

Swazz: Drunk in Love- Beyonce

“Baby, I want you, na na
Can’t keep your eyes off my fatty
Daddy, I want you, na na
Drunk in love, I want you”

Similar to Nate the song basically describes your guy’s relationship which is why you guys love listening to it especially when you are having sex. John loves how the song really puts you guys in a romantic tension with each other and you love it because of how intense Swazz gets whenever you guys listen to it. 

Jack G: Bed- J. Holiday 

“Wanna put my fingers through your hair
Wrap me up in your legs
And love you till your eyes roll back
I’m tryin’ to put you to bed, bed, bed”

You were dancing to it in your room one day when Jack caught you and he was instantly turned on, ever since then you loved to use the song when you guys are having sex. You even do your little dance in the bedroom for him just to help heat things up.

Jack J: Pillowtalk- Zayn 

“So we’ll piss off the neighbours
In the place that feels the tears
The place to lose your fears
Yeah, reckless behavior
A place that is so pure, so dirty and raw
Be in the bed all day, bed all day, bed all day
Fucking in, fighting on
It’s our paradise and it’s our war zone
It’s our paradise and it’s our war”

It’s your guy’s favorite song and ever since you guys first heard it, it definitely turn you guys on. Jack loves to play it while you guys are having sex because it helps bring out your sexual and feisty side that he loves.

Derek: Ride- Somo

“I’m gon’ ride, I’m gon’ ride
I’m gon’ ride, I’m, I’m gon’ ride on you baby
On you lady, all night, all night!
I’m gonna take care of your body,
I’ll be gentle, don’t you scream
Getting hotter, make it softer,
Feel your chest on top of me”

Derek gets extremely turned on when this song comes on and it was only necessary to listen to it while having sex. The song really gets you guys in the mood. It helps you guys really feel into the movement when you are both giving it your all. 

A long time ago, just as i was becoming a teenager or so, there was this commercial that i loved, about a girl singing a song while going to the dentist. It was the most beautiful song i had ever heard. I actually got to meet this girl and she was so sweet. She wore a golden suit of armor and lived under the sea. Because of this, we couldn’t see each other too often, but we became the best of friends, and more. I lost my virginity to her in the operating chair of the dentist’s office while no one else was there. I had never loved anything like her.

This was all recalling from memory as an adult. I got to meet her again after almost 10 years. She hadn’t lost any of her looks. Of course i told her that i had a girlfriend, and she was taken as well. Even so we both had a wonderful time embracing and reminiscing on the past, especially her music. She had many songs other than the one, some i had heard, some not. I promised her i would listen to them as she left for her ocean home.

It’s not real, none of it. There was no girl, no song, no commercial, no virginity loss, nothing. All a dream. Of course the scene sounds ridiculous now that i’m awake, but i’ve never had something feel so real. I was sure i could look up that commercial on youtube and listen to it again. No such song exists.

Now i truly understand what it could be like living in the matrix. Part of me wants to go back, if only for five minutes. So i could look up that song and hear it one more time, see her one more time.

But it’s almost 5 pm and i’m still in bed, so i’m going to get up and feed my head