I Love My Captain
Prompt - Totally feel free to ignore this but would you mind if you wrote one where you’ve given up on love and are ready to defend your friends (and crush jim kirk) even with your life and so you end up nearly dying on an away mission with him and then in medbay you tell him how you’d gladly die for him since you love him? and then you’re like “i know you don’t like me back” and jim argues he does love ya? i’m sorry if it was confusing
Life on the Enterprise is difficult. Especially because you’re completely and utterly in love with your Captain. You know that he doesn’t love you back, how could he? He could have anyone; so why would he chose you?
“Y/N!!” Jim shouts, running after you, “Are you going to the Rec rooms? Alpha shift is all going there to have dinner”
You let out a soft smile, “Sure, Jim. I’ll head there in a few”
Jim gives you a bright smile and bounds away. You wish that you hadn’t given up on love, that you were willing to put yourself out there, but you couldn’t. Your ex-boyfriend had hurt you, in every way possible. He abused you, both physically and emotionally. Bones had been the one to finally get you out of that relationship. You had come into class one day with a black eye, and a broken rib, so your best friend had had enough. He had beaten the shit out of your ex, and gotten you help. After that you had refused to open your heart up to anyone, but somehow Jim had wiggled his way in.
Of course, because you work on the Enterprise, you’re selected to go down to an M-Class planet with Jim, Spock, Bones, and the security team. Scanners say that there are no lifeforms on the planet, so you can only hope that the mission is peaceful.
“Bones! Hurry up!!” You shout
“Hold your horses, Y/N!! We’re going on a mission with Jim, he attracts trouble, you know that!”
“I’m aware, but the Captain just commed me and told me that the two of us need to get to the transporter room.”
You can hear Bones start grumbling as he shoves another hypo into his bag, “Let’s go, can’t keep his majesty waiting”
So far the away mission is a success, there really don’t seem to be any lifeforms on the planet.
“Captain, it would be unwise to touch any of the flora without a proper analysis” Spock said, carefully collecting samples.
“It’s fine, Mr. Spock! The plants aren’t going to hurt me, they’re just plants!”
You glance behind the Captain, catching sight of the large flower that seems to be slowly swelling up. “Jim!”
“Oh, not you too, Y/N!! Come on! It’s …” Jim let out a shout as you made impact with him.
As soon as Jim is out of the way the plant explodes, shooting poisoned needles into your chest. Almost immediately it takes effect. Your legs buckle under you, but instead of hitting the ground someone catches you.
“Y/N!” Jim, that’s Jim’s voice, “Bones! Get over here! Spock call for beam up! NOW!!”
The tricoder beeps as it runs over you, trying to identify the type of poison that is killing you. You feel it as the away team is beamed up. Jim scoops you up and starts running to Medbay. “Jim …” you wheeze.
“Shh, it’s alright. You don’t need to say anything.” Jim quickly deposits you on the biobed, Bones and several nurses running up to try and figure out what’s wrong.
“I need you to move Jim” Jim steps back, letting the medical staff do their job.
“Bones! What happened? Is Y/N okay?” Bones sighs and collapses into the chair behind his desk.
“She’s stable for now. Spock went back down to the planet to retrieve the plant and hopefully synthesize a cure before it’s too late”
“How much longer does she have?”
Bones runs a hand through his hair, “Without a cure, she could only have hours left. I sedated her, but you can go sit with her, if you want”
“I-I have reports to write …”
“And you can’t do those here, kid?”
Jim nodded, “Thanks, Bones. I’m sorry I didn’t listen. It’s my fault Y/N got hurt, if only I’d …”
Bones holds up one hand, “Stop, kid. You can’t beat yourself up over this. She chose to protect her Captain, a choice that all of us would have made”
Less than an hour later you peel open your eyes. It feels like you have an entire Starship resting on your chest. “Shit …”
“Y/N? You’re supposed to be asleep!”
You can feel your body already starting to give out on you, “Jim, listen …”
“I’ll call Bones; he can give you something for the pain …”
“Jim!” You take a deep wheezing breath, “I need to tell you something, just in case I don’t …”
“Don’t talk like that! You’ll be fine! Bones and Spock are working on a cure! You’ll be fine”
“Just let me …” Your vision is starting to tunnel, your body is giving out, “I love you. I’m sorry, I didn’t mean for this to happen. I know you don’t feel the same way, I just …” Your body is starting to go limp, everything fading away, “… needed you t’ know”
Jim stands in shock as the biobed screeches to life. Several nurses jump into action trying to resuscitate Y/N. Bones sprints in, holding a hypo, and all Jim can do is stand there in shock. He doesn’t even notice when the biobed stops flashing, and everyone steps away.
“Jim? Jim! Snap out of it!” Bones shakes his shoulder, “We found the cure, she’s going to be fine!”
Jim’s eyes slowly focus on Bones’, “She said she loves me. She said that right before she coded. I didn’t … I didn’t get to tell her that I love her too”
Of course Jim knows about Y/N’s past. He was the one to make sure that her ex got kicked out of Starfleet.
“Calm down, kid. She’s going to wake up. You can tell her then. For now, you need to sleep, you’re no use to her dead on your feet”
Jim glances around Medbay, “Can I sleep here?”
Bones’ eyes widen, “Damn I wish I had that on camera. James Kirk actually wanting to sleep in my Medbay”
Jim shrugged, “I want to be here when she wakes up. I need to tell her, alright? She could have just died without knowing that I love her back.”
“Calm down, Jim. You can stay”
Waking up is a bit of a shock to you, honestly you were pretty convinced that you had died, but here you are, awake and alive.
You glance up, “Jim?”
“It’s about time you woke up. You’ve been asleep for almost 3 days”
You groan and try to prop yourself up, Jim quickly reaches over to help you, “Here, let me …” Jim reaches over and uses the remote to prop you up.
“Y/N listen … about what you said …”
You hold up a hand, “I’m sorry for saying that. I understand if you just want to just forget about everything. I can switch shifts, and …”
“Stop! Stop! I need you to listen to me” Jim takes a deep breath. “I love you, too. I know that I never told you, but I really do.” Jim sighs, “I know about your ex, about how he hurt you. I wanted you when you were still with him, but when you broke it off I knew that you would need time, so I gave it to you. When you never showed any interest towards me, I kinda accepted the fact that you didn’t want me the same way I wanted you.”
“Damnit, Jim! Why didn’t you say anything!?” You reach out, taking one of his hands into yours, “I can’t believe that we wasted all of this time because of our own insecurities!”
“So, you really meant it? You really …”
“I love you, Jim. I really do” You whisper. Tugging Jim closer you whisper, “Can I have a kiss, Captain?”
Jim grinned, “I suppose you can, sweetheart, since you asked so nicely”
Bones lets out a shout when he walking into Y/N’s room, “Are you kidding me, Jim?!? She’s barely awake for 10 minute and you’re already trying to maul her”
“Calm down, Bones! It was her idea!”
“Get out, Kid. I need to make sure Y/N is well enough to leave, I don’t want her to have any side effects from the cure.”
Jim sulks as he’s ushered out of the room. You blow him one last kiss as the door shuts and his entire face lights up.
Bones turns back to you, “Are you really alright with starting a relationship with him?”
“I think I am. I can’t let my past ruin my future, I have to get over my fears someday, and I think Jim is the right person to take that risk with”
“He’s going to follow you around like a lovesick puppy, now”
You grin, “I can’t wait. I really love my Captain”